Heartwrenchingly beautiful Melon, thank you. 💔🌲❤️ Xxx

Hauntingly beautiful Melon 💔😔❤️🌲 xxx

prod by me :)

lyrics:

smokin brick in my free time, 
if he wanna test me we gon show him how the lights shine
i think you should ask him if it's brighter on the other side
don't be talkin shit if you can't back it boy it'll save your life

don't be takin shit from people I don't even understand
that's why you'll stay in my dm's actin like some fucking fan
you should really grow a pair and say it with your chest man
actin so pussy but you never even seen that

I know if I keep on talking shit things will get bad
but you hurt me and I won't forget that
If I go to hell you're gonna have to come with me


[[retaliation & hesitance]]

clone

(casperrr)
so high bitch i feel like im flying
u say u love me but i really know u lying
posted at ur crib, bae why u crying
u can't understand shit i say i cut the high end 

feeling low baby can't even get outta bed 
u said u hated me and now all im seeing is red 
never leaving home, im crying to myself
i can't understand your point, why can't u give me help 

posted, outside with extendos 
big bag, full of greens not no lettuce
in the stu with the homies good fellas
still sad but at least im feelin better

why u screamin whatchu fuckin mean 
i need real love not no rom of teens
i know im young but i was never a kid
nowadays im finding it hard 2 live

so high bitch i feel like im flying
u say u love me but i really know u lying
posted at ur crib, bae why u crying
u can't understand shit i say i cut the high end 

feeling low baby can't even get outta bed 
u said u hated me and now all im seeing is red 
never leaving home, im crying to myself
i can't understand your point, why can't u give me help 

(1fern)
talk shit & youre headed out the window
don't talk to me, you are not my kin-folk
2 9s yeah, we always hold akimbo
got your girl & she acting like a nympho

when i speak you respond on demand
empty ashtrays, fill em up again
so fucked up, i can't even stand
but she still askin me what's the plan

when i wake up, i'm feeling so lifeless
swear to God, i been feeling like a flight risk
can't speak cuz I feel like my brain broke
spending money on some green and a bespoke

seeing stars, even when i close my eyelids
all alone when the party subsided
i been lost & i know i been misguided
i don't really know where my fucking mind is

(casperrr + 1fern)
so high bitch i feel like im flying
u say u love me but i really know u lying
posted at ur crib, bae why u crying
u can't understand shit i say i cut the high end 

feeling low baby can't even get outta bed 
u said u hated me and now all im seeing is red 
never leaving home, im crying to myself
i can't understand your point, why can't u give me help

duality w/1fern (reijiro)

produced by chalyre <3 

lyrics:
you make me
incomplete
no escaping
your cold reach

now my throat is sore
from saying your name
i'm not going to go
until you repay
the debt that you owe
its always the same 
for love

let go
of your hold

you say you love me
i would just die
i'll never be worthy
of your divine

you're killing me slowly
but i'll be fine

it's not like i'm better
from seeing the light

careworn

prod by stezzyxl 
guitar by michael harrison 
enjoy ^\^

lyrics:
she’s like a mystery, a puzzle i can’t solve
i try reach out but she ghostes, and withdraws
she loves to keep it to herself, silent resolve
the more that we don’t talk, the length of it evolves

she invites a side of her, a stranger i don’t know
her words and action are like poison she can’t control 
as her dark side emerges, fear begins to grow
the more I fight, the more she tightens up her hold

maybe someone else needs come and take my place
to whom i once loved to the point i’m losing faith
10 months have passed yet, you remain the same
you turned into the being, that u know i hate

oh
where have u been
no one likes me anymore (x2)

(leave me)

she makes me turn into the person that i don’t wanna be
she ripped my heart out of my chest and layed it so we can feast
her actions says it all she will not change even if she tried
but i’ll still hold on to her even if it makes me die

why would i
go ahead and ruin my life
for someone like yourself
if i didn’t even care for ur health
so tell me 
why would i
try so hard to make this work
if i didn’t even care for ur worth
but u treated me like i’m dirt 
so tell me (x2)

ive done some things that i dont like to say
i’ve been all of the the things that i say that i hate
a cheat, a lie, the smoke in the sky
i don’t want u to see, can u please close ur eyes?
but i have learned from all my mistakes
i will never go back to reside in that place
i have changed for the better and that i can say
i put that on my grave (x2)

back in time ll

do you love that? when im out on the floor...

@kryst3n u went crazy twin ily 

lyrics:
countin' down on all the days i dream
prayin' on the times that i will stay 18 again
but here i am
im rotting away, im buried in my head
(im buried in my head)

do i hold back? do you want any more?
do you love that? when im out on the floor?
making contact? got a life to restore?
i dont want that, i dont really want that
do i hold back? do you want any more?
do you love that? when im out on the floor?
making contact? got a life to restore?
i dont want that, i dont really want that

do you want that? 'cause I don't feel right
looking at the stars and our fates intertwined
I want you all the time you pay no piece of mind
you sit back seat reclined you leave me with crossed eyes
I'm losing you'd be better off without me
you were 2 faced and our waters still cloudy
you make it seem like its easier without me
why am I holding onto somebody who never cared

i dont want that, nothing feels right
i feel the time is ticking down, i wanna rewind
you cut me off and make it hard for me to be fine
you got me questioning if I've been in the real life

do i hold back? do you want any more?
do you love that? when im out on the floor?
making contact? got a life to restore?
i dont want that, i dont really want that
do i hold back? do you want any more?
do you love that? when im out on the floor?
making contact? got a life to restore?
i dont want that, i dont really want that

all plats

contact w/ kryst3n [prod. jolst]

you can go and lie love 
tell me you mean it 
im going round in circles glued to the ceiling 
cus every time you talk to me i feel so diminished 
my heart starts beating i cant breathe for a minute 
i cant speak for a minute 

feel so close to you I
can feel the warmth to your side
im breaking down all the time 
my worlds been frozen in ice 
ur sending chills down my spine 
im finding somewhere to hide
 
say you been so lost 
well baby open it up 
can't relate what you've done 
oh baby i've had enough
im always afraid 
you've taken all that i was
baby please let me run 
im dissolving to dust 

i've been down sleep bet you didn’t notice 
bitch i’ve gone deaf i can barely hear ur shit 
u need to shower, the smell is potent 
balls so big bitch they're floating 
oh god its a shame i
had to see u fumble two guys in the same night 
oh god its a shame i 
went and curved your message at the same time 

don’t you feel stupid cus you look dumb 
whoring  for attention, no one wanted to cum
theres no self worth now the feelings gone 
done it to yourself at least you having some fun 

is this all im worth
i thought i made you mine 
i want mind, 
i wont lie

you could do so much better than me 
oh i 
spend so much time by myself inside
maybe you’ll find me hibernating 
deep in the forest unusual cadence

me

deaf

lina - heylog (transparent)

prod by stezzyxl 
enjoy^\^

lyrics:
cover all my face with hair all over my eyes
i’m not confident, i bet u cannot recognize 
i’m invisible to everybody’s naked eyes
i don’t know what i’m doing here and i don’t know why
and tears fall like the rain in the night sky
her voice lingers in head like a lullaby
i’ll try to get over u when the time is right
but i’m not ready, so i’ll hold onto that goodbye 

i don’t know what i should say
i don’t know what i should do
i gotta reroute 
i gotta avoid that avenue
(x4)

ur a liar from ur heart
should’ve known from the start
(x2)

avenue

forever
i'll love you
forever
you'll be on my mind (my mind)
forever
you'll stay by my side (my side)
and i won't let you die

keeping your legacy alive, forever. i will never forget your voice & laugh. missing your advice. missing you. will cherrish every moment forever. you were truly special and will forever stick in my heart. i love you. rest easy my dear friend. i really need you here so please don't ever leave my head fully.

(instrumental by smokerose)

forever (for Jude)

i seen your eyes turn to water
you must be so ahead idk what u wanna hear
from me, now im older
glass feels colder
inside looking out
what if this how they view me from the outside
ur looking down on me
ur looking down now
this blasphemy 
it all comes round 
you were bad for me
im so fucked now

i could take a knife out
put it through my wrist
let you grab it with your hand just so you can twist
i wont tell nobody
youd never hurt a soul
dont try to complicate it
ur doing it wrong
you can try and stop me however you want
ill put a hole through ur head
and then ill spin it off
im sick of being vulnerable
no one listens now
youll never get ahead of me 
ill just rip you down

ur splitting personalities 
i swear nobody gives a shit
walk right over me, ur never nice oh no one bit
i must be such a disgrace, im holding you back
covering my ears oh i love when you laugh
but its bad
i see ur faces walking round like you have
other family you throw me on my ass
never mine and its honestly sad

wrist

prod by me :>

(skylin)
all the hatred that you're giving me is only poisoning
at least with my enemies i know what it is they seek
I rather judas instead of someone backstabbing me
oh you're pathetic askin me if I would forgive you

I never go out or talk to people like I know I should
it's easier not engaging and hiding inside my hood
sometimes I tend to fail myself and everyone around me
I guess it kinda scared me from socially interacting

on the darkest days I don't know who it is that I will call
but I am hoping you answer because im bout to fall
and I don't know where I am going but ik you know it all
so I am calling out to you please do not let me fall


(heylog)
catch me on the other end
what i said i really meant
what are all the thoughts your brain holds
what's inside that head
i think i finally figured you out
i think it's time to step out your life now
i don't know what i did for you to become untied to me
if you're gonna act like this then break it off entirely
and if i would've known your emotions would all start piling
then i would've kept it hush instead of you crying to me
i was there for you when no one else was
now i'm seeing the truth and exposing your bluffs
i was there for you at your lowest point
don't go and blame it on me, this wasn't my choice

[[anger - disconnect]]

forever (for Jude)

melon

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