produced by grayskies

@xona
@grasior

-lyrics-
the world turned black and white
hold control be ready to fight
paranoia taking over your brain
are you scared to die this way
life wont be the same
lost all hope to die in vain
wrong or right i cant go back
its life or death in this no mans land

but im scared
of who ive become
im scared
that I might be like you

who decides where we go down in this road
pile up, the rest of what we’ve honed
nobody could save me
it’s awfully, all on me 
but the gas on your hands
a creation of a man 
to atomize the land
build it from the sand
on your hands
on my hands…

but I’m scared
of what I’ve become
I’m scared
that I’m like you

you got me on the low 
and I can’t find a way
to leave a broken plane
you caused in disarray 

they’ll all fall
for the ones near
me, to bring calm...

dollar flu w/ grasior ✩ (grayskies)

produced by xona 

-lyrics-

𝘴𝘵𝘢𝘺

you should expect less 
i don't even wanna talk about it
where i don't even dress up
its getting worse and im feeling empty
can you save me one last time?
i thought love was the issue
but it's worse than that
im just stuck within the past

how am i not happy no more?
i'm so tired i can't walk out the door
i tell her why i'm feeling these things
but therapy was never part of me
i could end it all
but i hate thinking only of that
now the days feel long again
i write songs to forget all of this

so you should expect less 
i don't even wanna talk about it
where i don't even dress up
its getting worse and im feeling empty
can you save me one last time?
i thought love was the issue
but it's worse than that
im just stuck within the past

fragile

spotify

produced by chalyre <3 

lyrics:
you make me
incomplete
no escaping
your cold reach

now my throat is sore
from saying your name
i'm not going to go
until you repay
the debt that you owe
its always the same 
for love

let go
of your hold

you say you love me
i would just die
i'll never be worthy
of your divine

you're killing me slowly
but i'll be fine

it's not like i'm better
from seeing the light

careworn

produced by me

lyrics -

its three o clock at night
now everything's alive
wasting all my time
writing songs that no one likes

im a waste of space
in my room all day
wasting life away
lifes so cliche


but i dont want to go
take it all out before i know
the easy way out feels so close
would you miss me if i was a ghost

its getting oh so loud
dambin every sound
bleeding standing ground
i cant with you around

oh my life is not mysteries
yet nobody gets it
never feel the same 
since you brought me  all this hate
pulling all the strings
to make it seem okay
the drawings on my wall 
make me seem so insane

am i just a lie to you
make me feel so high to you
this building pressure i consumed 
make it seem so hard for you
-----------------------------------------

flower petals ✾

strings

produced by @prodgrayskies
cover art by @xona <33

- lyrics  -
why do you think its all on me
oh a fantasy you cant unsee
what a world in your head
wonder if you want me dead tonight
yet I just cant let you go

but I, lost it all falling for you
oh I, cant go no where with you

in till this pain that you threw me through
a walking nightmare with no one new
is this hell is it death
is it all inside my head
oh what has life become
oh what has life become

I hear a whisper walk away
couldn't grasp another fadeaway
oh am I talking to the dead
I hear them knocking through the grave

I don't wanna hear no more
oh, another part time undead

in till this pain that you threw me through
a walking nightmare with no one new
is this hell is it death
is it all inside my head
oh what has life become
oh what has life become
-----------------------------------------

flower petals ✾

rancor

prod. by me

lyrics:

yeah you don't phase me
you don't amaze me
keep spreading all your lies
it don't bother me
i wanna be on my own
so get off me 
just get off me

call me on my phone I don't see shit
when the world turns against you I don't see shit
and i know that im lying cause i care too much
and i wouldn't even care if you're fuxking up


but
doesn't the moon look just right?
she loves the way that it shines
he wants to stay and stop time
you, you never looked at me like that
is there something on my face?
or is there something you wanna say?


never wanted love but you wrapped my head around
smoking, drinking, drugs you know how bad that sounds?
everybody hurts but you did a little less
everybody talks but you did a little more

i don't wanna talk no
you just want to judge me
this is how it was yeah
they don't want to love me
I don't want applause 
you
I don't want applause
you used to be so... haha


but
doesn't the moon look just right?
she loves the way that it shines
he wants to stay and stop time
you, you never looked at me like that
is there something on my face?
or is there something you wanna say? 

never

do you love that? when im out on the floor...

@kryst3n u went crazy twin ily 

lyrics:
countin' down on all the days i dream
prayin' on the times that i will stay 18 again
but here i am
im rotting away, im buried in my head
(im buried in my head)

do i hold back? do you want any more?
do you love that? when im out on the floor?
making contact? got a life to restore?
i dont want that, i dont really want that
do i hold back? do you want any more?
do you love that? when im out on the floor?
making contact? got a life to restore?
i dont want that, i dont really want that

do you want that? 'cause I don't feel right
looking at the stars and our fates intertwined
I want you all the time you pay no piece of mind
you sit back seat reclined you leave me with crossed eyes
I'm losing you'd be better off without me
you were 2 faced and our waters still cloudy
you make it seem like its easier without me
why am I holding onto somebody who never cared

i dont want that, nothing feels right
i feel the time is ticking down, i wanna rewind
you cut me off and make it hard for me to be fine
you got me questioning if I've been in the real life

do i hold back? do you want any more?
do you love that? when im out on the floor?
making contact? got a life to restore?
i dont want that, i dont really want that
do i hold back? do you want any more?
do you love that? when im out on the floor?
making contact? got a life to restore?
i dont want that, i dont really want that

all plats

contact w/ kryst3n [prod. jolst]

you can go and lie love 
tell me you mean it 
im going round in circles glued to the ceiling 
cus every time you talk to me i feel so diminished 
my heart starts beating i cant breathe for a minute 
i cant speak for a minute 

feel so close to you I
can feel the warmth to your side
im breaking down all the time 
my worlds been frozen in ice 
ur sending chills down my spine 
im finding somewhere to hide
 
say you been so lost 
well baby open it up 
can't relate what you've done 
oh baby i've had enough
im always afraid 
you've taken all that i was
baby please let me run 
im dissolving to dust 

i've been down sleep bet you didn’t notice 
bitch i’ve gone deaf i can barely hear ur shit 
u need to shower, the smell is potent 
balls so big bitch they're floating 
oh god its a shame i
had to see u fumble two guys in the same night 
oh god its a shame i 
went and curved your message at the same time 

don’t you feel stupid cus you look dumb 
whoring  for attention, no one wanted to cum
theres no self worth now the feelings gone 
done it to yourself at least you having some fun 

is this all im worth
i thought i made you mine 
i want mind, 
i wont lie

you could do so much better than me 
oh i 
spend so much time by myself inside
maybe you’ll find me hibernating 
deep in the forest unusual cadence

me

deaf

prod by stezzyxl
enjoy^\^

lyrics:
pieces that i cannot mend
her words are empty, i pretend
pretty face that u disguise
i see right through ur mask and lies
no one really cares at all
i just want it all to stop
shattered glass against the wall
just like my dad with alcohol

oh no
oh no
oh no
oh no

u can keep on talking all u fucking want
i be making music while u out there making fucking flops
i be steady grinding, making progress and it doesn’t stop
begging for a feature, on ur knees, and i just laugh it off

and ur kinda irrelevant 
i’ll fold u cuz ur delicate
i got a A cuz i’m excellent 
and i’m a whole different person when i am in my element 
i’m from a another descendant 
and u can never be me, i’m unique and so different 

and no one gives a flying fuck bitch u still just a kid
and ur ego so high, yet u still throw ur fits
and get the fuck off of my dick, and mind ur own buis
talking down on me, bitch u don’t want this

feat. @chiefjuno
prod Oh well. & @thrmls

lyrics: 

I just get mad at me
10 thousand hours of regret
I do it masterfully
I'm overloaded but I'm drained 
Just like a battery
And all my problems
They get worse at night like after three

Man I hate this feeling
It's hard to describe
Living in a box
No one can see me like a mime
Nothing I do is good enough 
I'm never satisfied
And the more I think about it
Then the less I wanna try
Man I hate wading
Lost in the ocean with no one to save me
Try to paint a picture but 
I'm too nice so no shading
All give and no take so
My magic is fading
Tried to build a bridge 
But my legs were shaking

I'm so scared of 
Shit that isn't there
It's getting hard to handle
But I can't pretend
We're just friends
It doesn't make sense 
For me to be your man though
Like can we just be honest
Do you really expect me to solve this
I've been up all night
I'm nauseous
It's never gonna work out 
I called it
She feels so unseen
Dropped out of school
Low self esteem
Taking different kinda pills all for the dopamine
She's been waiting all her life to take it out on me

Man I hate this feeling
It's hard to describe
Living in a box
No one can see me like a mime
Nothing I do is good enough 
I'm never satisfied
And the more I think about it
Then the less I wanna try
Man I hate wading
Lost in the ocean with no one to save me
Try to paint a picture but 
I'm too nice so no shading
All give and no take so
My magic is fading
Tried to build a bridge 
But my legs were shaking

I guess this is all that's left of me
Hate to admit it I got jealousy
Cause I don't really have a legacy
I probably need therapy

This feeling is too hard to describe
Living in a box
No one sees you like a mime
That's why I'm always late when I arrive
The more I think about it then the less I wanna
Try

contact w/ kryst3n [prod. jolst]

dylan lotus

Recent comments

epitomeoffailure (hiatus)

LUVDIOR

User 50370194

kuvenx

Related tracks