(chorus)
and i keep running away from my problems
i don’t know how to solve them
you care a little less when you hit rock bottom
cloudy eyes with a tortured mind
i can see the lies as the light grows darker
it fades from white as the blade sinks deeper
i thought blood ran thicker than water
my soul has died fuckin leave me behind

(verse) 
i thought you cared about my feelings
every night i’ve been screaming
questioning what’s life’s meaning 
what i’ve been believing 
holding on to every little thing that ever mattered
you know that my hearts been shattered
sayin that the medicine will always make me better
but every single day i always get sadder
when will i be okay
when every day feels like the fucking same
i’m holding on to all these memories 
but still i question why things won’t change

(bridge)
everyday feels like the same thing 
and i’m fucking don’t with it (i’ve had enough)
when will i 
be set free
from this life

(chorus)
and i keep running away from my problems
i don’t know how to solve them
you care a little less when you hit rock bottom
cloudy eyes with a tortured mind
i can see the lies as the light grows darker
it fades from white as the blade sinks deeper
i thought blood ran thicker than water
my soul has died fuckin leave me behind

(chorus)
and i keep running away from my problems
i don’t know how to solve them
you care a little less when you hit rock bottom
cloudy eyes with a tortured mind
i can see the lies as the light grows darker
it fades from white as the blade sinks deeper
i thought blood ran thicker than water
my soul has died fuckin leave me behind

blood doesn't run thicker than water (discent)

empty_l1fe w/ fridvy (kubsy)

INTRO:
promise you won’t forget me
i’ve been feeling so empty
is this the end of tonight
am i saying goodbye 
for the very last time
i don’t want to rewind
i can’t go on living this lie

CHORUS:
oh where did the time go?
you said you’d be back tomorrow
i took your lead i followed (followed)
straight back to my sorrows (sorrows)
so i’ll ask you again where did the time go (where did it go)

POST CHORUS:
you left me here defenseless
i’ve never 
been so fuckin helpless
whatever
you gotta be so desperate 
to even turn to me for pleasure

SENDFLOWRS VERSE:
for pleasure i can’t lie i’m fucked 
droolin from my mouth like everytime we talk
you always told me i can look but i can’t touch
wait that’s the weed man i think i’m finally done
erase my name from your phone
you better
tell him straight and never come home
i’m gonna
tear his flesh from the bone
and i might 
catch a case you made me so cold (so cold)
you fake bitches
i’m a sinner
i stay sinning 
i dream of you but i’m not the one you’re kissing
like baby come over here lemme show you what you missing

OUTRO:
see my head spin
round and round
i just wanna get out of this town
look at my face and you’ll see a frown
but don’t be surprised 
when you see my wounds are open wide
don’t cry tonight
with your ocean blue eyes

spotify!

where did the time go ft. sendflowrs (wisssery x jolst)

features: looney tune & paperthinwalls 
production: metlast
cover art design: Killing Art

INTRO (epitome)

love lay me down
hate lift me up
just turn around
there’s nothing left

EPITOME VERSE

you weren’t alone oh my god
how could you lie to me such a fraud 
but what was there to gain
this has me going insane
my minds been trapped inside a maze
ever days the fucking same
i wake up just to relive the pain
but was it worth the fucking cause
all to see my blood splattered all over the walls

LOONEY VERSE

your choice left me dead
i feel nothing but the pain left in my head 
i never know when the triggers pulled
am i dead? (i’ve been dead)
i got a lot of bullets flyin in and out of my head
skeletons coming in and out of my closet (closet)
i don’t know if i’m done am i over yet? (over yet)
all of my thoughts going into my chest 
(my chest)
and my heart beat stops when i drop dead
put away the feelings away the tendencies away the tragedies that i keep inside my head (dead, oh dead, ceiling oh)
lyin’ on my bed
when i’m staring’ at the ceiling fan
i don’t give a damn if im gonna pull the trigger man 
lay me down to rest
bury me with the dead
i don’t feel like im a zombie
but my eyes are glowing red
i can see the water
i feel like im drowning but i tread
on the surface… i can see you on the surface… 

PAPERTHINWALLS VERSE

too many things in my head that i can’t solve
i know that i know that i just want to dissolve
anything’s better than living this life
i’ll patiently wait as im holding this knife
patiently waiting for you to come back
im writing these letters that i’ll never send 
(i’ll never send)
and i’ll rot inside my head
never to be seen again
this isn’t real (woah)
my life’s lost all meaning (woah)
don’t know how to feel (woah) 
don’t know how to heal (woah)
my body’s decaying (decaying)
6 feet unground where i’ll stay 
you can leave me (underground, underground)

INTRO IN REVERSE

epitomeoffailure x imslendr x paperthinwalls - remain unknown (metlast)

(chorus 1)
well
it seems i might die
i don’t know why
i’ve been questioning my worth
screaming at the sky
just put me in the dirt
where i belong
i have no one

(post-chorus 1)

you cant hear my heart breaking in silence
why do you offer me nothing but violence
and you’re a liar i see through your defiance
in this disaster you still face me with deniance

(verse 1)

n-n-now i look into your eyes and it breaks me down
knowing that my life’s turned upside down
y-y-y-your gravity
is pulling me
i’m overthinking 
this reality

(bridge)

has pulled me to my knees
it’s making my heart bleed
oh why cant they see
what it’s doing to me
there’s a hole in my heart

(verse 2)

i should’ve seen this coming from the start
when i saw your hand reach to tear the soul apart
l-l-looking back i was hiding in the dark
b-b-b-b-broken shards from the mirror that reflect the past
why do i keep crawling back to you
something that i shouldn’t get use to
those deceitful eyes
they terrorized they terrorize 

(chorus 2)

it seems i might die
i don’t know why
i’ve been questioning my worth
should i leave it all behind 
just put me in the dirt
where i belong
i have no one

(post-chorus 2)

i’ve said this before now deaths offering me silence 
the peace of mind i’ve never found in life’s guidance

spotify <3

i have no one (metlast x 5head)

VERSE 1

(epitome)

i solidify the thoughts inside my head
the thoughts that are telling me i’m better off dead
no matter what you say to me
6 feet deep is where i’ll be
as the light from the tunnel grows darker and darker
my mind grows farther and farther away
please stay
stay with me
don’t leave my body alone to decay

VERSE 2

(paperthinwalls)

this is the last time i hope you see me 
(hope you see me)
6 feet underneath i’m not breathing 
it’s too late to go back
i cant run to the past
you left me shattered like glass
knew this would never last
it doesn’t matter i’ll be dead in the morning
body lined with chalk yeah i’m never returning 
i’m writing all these songs yeah this is my warning 
never had a place yeah this doesn’t concern me
oh oh oh
i’m burning it’s ok
i’m learning (i’m learning)
i’m so alone
got nobody i feel like a ghost

BRIDGE

(epitome)

i’m so alone 
i’m so close
to letting go
of the life i use to know

VERSE 3 (shared)

(epitome)

p-p-p-pain is never ending 
i cant find the beginning
my minds at war
don’t know what i’m searching for
a sense of hope maybe?
but i can’t find that lately (lately)

(paperthinwalls)

and lately i’ve been lost in this dream
and no hope of ever escaping
and oh god yeah look what you made me
i’m sorry it’s these feelings that change me

OUTRO

(epitome)

i’m so sorry
please for give me
i cant change
i know i’ll stay the same

longing for death w/ paperthinwalls (metlast x luffy)

shoutout @juzo for the cover art :) give him a follow pls

lyrics:

AUTUMN

(rest my arms)
(where they cannot ever be harmed)
(cold to the touch)

there's certain days where i haven't been better!
but when the sun goes down
i know tomorrow will be bitter
i've lost my head; when the clock struck ten
the blade came crashing down & now i'm back where i had started
could give a fuck if i'm dramatic,
the reward could be prestine
if i take the pills they offer me
my dreams could be serene
but i never wanted that; figmentated lies
to put on a public act, for their brainwashed minds

EPITOME

every day i wake up just to do the same shit over and over again
it gets hard to even stand up when i don’t know who i am
i thought you were a friend
but where were you in the end
i see it’s all just pretend
now my wounds they won’t even mend
th-th-th-they won’t mend
nothing feels real 
am i fucking ghost
cant take time to heal
so i’ll put the knife up to my throat
just to see if i’m alive
and if i’m not than what am i?

spotify :)

my wounds won’t mend w/ autumndropsdead (itamii)

(chorus)

you said you needed time away from
but i don’t wanna leave your side 
abandoned and hopeless
is all that i am 
when i don’t have you in my life
you can use me up however you see fit
just know that the damage you’ve cause was permanent 
you poisoned my soul
i’ve never felt so bitter and broken and alone

(verse)

and now my brains in conflict with itself
and you don’t know that you’re putting me through this hell
and every little thing you did was for yourself
but that’s okay 
i wouldn’t have it any other way
anything to just get you to stay
because don’t know if i can live life without you
and if i could i would but i don’t think i know how to

(bridge)

i don’t know how to live
i feel rigor Mortis setting in
in my cold dead lifeless limbs
 
(chorus)

you said you needed time away from
but i don’t wanna leave your side 
abandoned and hopeless
is all that i am 
when i don’t have you in my life
you can use me up however you see fit
just know that the damage you’ve cause was permanent 
you poisoned my soul
i’ve never felt so bitter and broken and alone

i’ve never felt so bitter, broken, and alone (discent x R3DQX)

(EPITOME)

(nothing but to left to rot away for a long time cause you broke me down now i’m on the ground do you feel me now i don’t want to feel anything anymore)

what is this plain of existence?
i don’t really feel like i’m living
everyday seems like the same
and i’m left with nothing but the pain 
that you left me with 
do you know i’m on my knees
begging for you
just to come back to me

livin this life has left me feelin hollow
and i don’t really know if i’ll be here by tomorrow
you’ll probably need to dig in the dirt, in the burrows
just to find my body be prepared to feel the sorrow
when there’s nothing left of me
just lay my corpse underneath the trees

(SLENDR)

li-li-living in a forrest 
i can never forget 
your lies
i know that i’m cold
frozen and alone
could you come and save me please
i’m bleeding my skin is ripping
burning sensation
i love you but your hearts temptation
is getting to me

(HERO)

i’d rather not see your funeral given it’s easier that way
ok i liked dying once but the second time just wasn’t the same

piss off
i know that we’ll never be the same thing that you were
never that’s the only word that really scares me
but don’t worry i’m at peace with it now
i get over it quick cause i have to or i breakdown 

(and i can sense your intentions i don’t need to read your mind yet i’m fine with it and still i’ve never been that sure why)

(EPITOME)

(it’s getting to me as i watch you leave 
for the very last time and i’m saying goodbye)

say goodbye to the life
that we used to know
you did this you broke our home
sitting here frozen in snow (frozen in snow)
i don’t have a home

words from the broken w/ im_slendr & hero (sorrow bringer)

i’ve been going insane
worrying about you everyday
and i’m not sure if i can continue 
the struggle in my brain has become an issue
and how do i know that you’re telling the truth this time
the-the-the consequences of your untold lies
will lead me to my direct demise 
will you still feel for me when i die?
cause i won’t be the one that you forget 
yeah you’ll regret
leaving me alone 
broken down on the ground
alone and forgotten 
dead and rotting 

(AUTUMN)

dead and rotting, my blood is clotting i'll
lay in a bed with a similar scent 
to the ones that are pinching my tongue
weight on my lungs
fat in my veins
begging the sun, to go away
what does he want? keep me awake 

i gotta answer questions time's creating
cold cause i'm dissociating fast

(2x)
the smoke and ash is all i need
life is fast, so leave me be

untold lies w/ autumndropsdead (itamii)

shoutout to everyone in this song ily all :) <3
prod. sorrow bringer (goat)
mix: epitome, kanashi, autumn, casperrr
master: epitome

EPITOME:

if you look into my blackened soul 
you’ll see i’ve begun to decompose 
and with nothing but a rope around my neck
i’ll hang in the gallows dead
hold back the tears you’ll shed
leave all the words unsaid
i was hanging on by a thread
it’s better off instead 
that i’m 6 feet deep beneath the surface
i’ve said this once i know i’m worthless
i fall short of being perfect 
can you show me that i’m worth it
am i worth saving?
my body’s decaying
my flesh is rotting 
i feel like a zombie
i think the ends approaching
i feel it upon me
now i know i’m not worth saving 
i’m trying but it doesn’t seem to be enough
no one gives a fuck
i don’t even know what i’ve become
(can you tell me what i’ve become i give in too easy oh the end has just begun)

KANASHI:

Ion even know what I’ve become 
shits got me so fucked up…
And pls don’t wake me 
I’m busy taking a break from life
Ion wanna be a part of this anymore 
One foot in and the other out the door 
Cuz nothing lasts forever 
So just toss me like a wrapper on the floor…

AUTUMN:

i can't tell tonight apart from all them in the past
i can speak, i can breathe, but my brain is gonna gache
if you feed off of me, hope you like consuming trash
waking up inside this bed 
is something i'd rather not have
i'm tearing at my skin
could it get much worse than this
that's the only thing i'd ask
besides when you'll text me back

CASPERRR:

don't you text me back 
please i don't wanna relapse
feel this agonizing pressure on my chest
i can't breathe,i can't eat i can't get no rest  

fucked up, over what u told me
u left and now i'm lonely 
got 5gs and smoked that whole shit, holy-moly
u really said i was ur only
that guy was just a homie 
and now im dyin slowly, lonely

epitomeoffailure x kanashi x autumndropsdead x casperrr - blackened soul (sorrow bringer)

prod. 2001

shoutout the homie skrwd <3

woah
in the silence i will drown
tonight 

i wish i knew it all before
how much it would’ve hurt when i hit the floor
but knowing me i would’ve just ignored 
everything the signs were pointing towards
i search around but i’m abandoned
everyone is gone and i don’t understand it 
i wasn’t needed around 
guess i’ll shut myself out
in the silence i’ll drown

in the silence i’ll drown tonight 
no one can save my life (save my life)
all i needed was a friend 
to come and pull me out of the quicksand 

SKRWD:

its been a while and i still feel abandoned
it comes to mind all the time, i cant stand it
every night i lie awake to reminders of the sound
maybe i wont feel a thing on the way down 
i dont get it
you never meant it
so whyd you wanna be the one who said it?
i dont get it
i dont get it
why say it if you never meant it?


i wish i knew it all before
how much it would’ve hurt when i hit the floor
but knowing me i would’ve just ignored 
everything the signs were pointing towards
i search around but i’m abandoned
everyone is gone and i don’t understand it 
i wasn’t needed around 
guess i’ll shut myself out
in the silence i’ll drown

(in the silence i’ll drown tonight no one can save my life)

in the silence i’ll drown w/ skrwd (2001)

the instrumental for this track was done by Brandon Hammond please give him a follow :) <3
YouTube channel Link: https://www.youtube.com/@TheDjentistXIII/featured
Instagram Link:
https://www.instagram.com/thedjentist/

cover art done by my lovely gf :)

LYRICS

a runaway lost in a memory
with no escape trapped inside a maze
nothing short of a reflection of what is me

so the glass it shatters all around me 
i cant find a way out
surrounded by the shards disguised as winter 
breathe in the dust as it overtakes me 
i haven’t a single doubt 
this path i’ve followed has led to my end

now i’ll see my fate unravel before my eyes
i threw away my disguise 
not knowing the lies would swallow me up
god knows that i should’ve gave up 
long before i had the chance to feel again

a memory stuck in the back of my head soon to be dead

I WILL FORGET YOU
FORGET YOU
BLEGH

now i’ll see my fate unravel before my eyes
i threw away my disguise 
not knowing the lies swallow me up
god knows i should’ve gave up
long before i had the chance to feel again

My Disguise

prod. metlast x sor
mix: me
master: teddyboi (@yoimn3ver)
art: my girlfriend <3

lyrics:

close, but i can’t finish it
just know, that i don’t wanna be close tonight
when im at home, i feel the pain sink in
bottle after bottle after bottle down my throat 

know, that i can’t let go, this simply
of something that took time to put together
but clearly these bonds have been severed

don’t get too close, you’ll let the pain in
frost lands on my nose, it’s come im shaking
she knows, that she shouldn’t get close
but it’s freezing 

3 in the morning
i should be sleeping but im not
this anxiety has got its grip on me
this is something you won’t see
cause you’re caught up in a dream
so far away from the disease
im begging im down im on my knees
for someone to save me
but no one’s here lately 

close, but i can’t finish it
just know, that i don’t wanna be close tonight
when im at home, i feel the pain sink in
bottle after bottle after bottle down my throat

know, that i can’t let go, this simply
of something that took time to put together
but clearly these bonds have been severed

don’t get too close, you’ll let the pain in
frost lands on my nose, it’s come im shaking
she knows, that she shouldn’t get close
but it’s freezing

now you see me
now you don’t
now i’m gone and missing
you shouldn’t have gotten close

close (metlast x sor)

prod. metlast x 5head
w/ teddyboi 
master: teddyboi  (@yoimn3ver)

lyrics:

i forgot on these lonley nights
that i won’t see you by my side
not anymore 
but you’ll still find me holding onto your
memory
but i won’t let this be the end of me

so cold, she knows 
i’m out here growing mold 
ashes floating in the air burned up from a story that went untold
but where did this fire come from?
it’s not in my soul
my desires are coming undone
i’ve lost control

teddyboi:

everybody telling me i’ve lost control
frankly i don’t wanna believe that no, no
girlfriend yelling at me over the phone
god damn, here we go again
arguments, wanna fight like that?
i don’t text back no, not like that
and even though i wanna kill you, girl i still say it back
yeah you push me away but forget i’m attached 
and maybe 
maybe that shit is the problem 
keep a bottle and a 9mm finna solve ‘em
too lonely babe it’s suicide when you’re calling
you know i don’t like to talk at all
or even think
so why’d you leave me here alone 
coping with this drink
woke up, you left, i died in a dream
percocet got me worried bout the way that i breathe
you tell me that you’re scared you don’t want me to go to sleep
you put me in this position where i can’t even breathe


i forgot on these lonley nights
that i won’t see you by my side
not anymore 
but you’ll still find me holding onto your
memory
but i won’t let this be the end of me

so cold, she knows 
i’m out here growing mold 
ashes floating in the air burned up from a story that went untold
but where did this fire come from?
it’s not in my soul
my desires are coming undone
i’ve lost control

epitomeoffailure & teddyboi - these lonley nights (metlast x 5head)

produced by sorrow bringer

mixed by me

mastered by teddyboi

art by my lovely girlfriend <3

lyrics:

(go away from me now, i don’t wanna see your face)

go away from me 
i don’t wanna see your face again 
don’t you think that you can erase and or amend
cause the damage is already done

you took advantage and had your fun
don’t you think the time has come
for you to let go
the soul owes no bonds so lose control

but the memory won’t fold 
i’ve been losing sleep and growing old
it’s been fuckin weeks and it’s been cold
my rooms been stinkin’ foul from the mold

everybody ask me how
how i even do this
frankly i just push along and don’t think i’m an artist
faintly i’ll just make a song and don’t think i’m a above this

go away from me 
i don’t wanna see your face again 
don’t you think that you can erase and or amend
enemies always start out as friends

once dear to me 
it should’ve been clear to see
but in this fog i couldn’t recognize your face
the feeling of the shock it put me in my place 
i hate the taste 

go away from me 
i don’t wanna see your face again 
go away from me 
i don’t wanna see your face again 
i know you think that you can erase and or amend
but you can’t so just accept

go away from me 
i don’t wanna see your face again 
don’t you think that you can erase and or amend
it’s time this ends

(random mumbled gibberish lol)

go away (sorrow bringer)

produced: tiedforsilver
feat: greenwood 
artwork: my amazing gf <3

lyrics:

( i would give anything to walk by your side again, alone my hands are trembling and i would make the sun drown)

i would give anything
to walk by your side again
the loneliness is dragging me 
further in the dark and now i cannot pretend 
that i can take the suffering
when your not around i’d rather be dust in the wind
alone my hands are trembling
i would make the sun drown to bring you back my friend

(greenwood)

keep you safe, i don't know if i can manage
i whip it fast, sip it slow, its fucking static
guess you were right, never more than just an addict
i compensate, i overdo it fucking manic

all of that in my life though
i just really wanna go home
call you drunk from your friends phone
straight passing out at the dial tone
i don't what this life's worth
guess i don't see what you see (don't know what you mean)
nothing ever came easy when i'm face down in the deep

compensate i never get it right
run it different in my head like just the other night
see the mist and all the people on the other side
i know you're there and i don't even have to wonder

(epitome)

i do not have the time, nor a good alibi 
to explain why, how nothings been going right
i could roll the dice, but that would waste the time
of you and i, no need to try to chance it now

this loneliness as left a frown
on my face, it’s dragging me down
to the ground, now underneath where i can’t even hear a sound

i would give anything
to walk by your side again
the loneliness is dragging me 
further in the dark and now i cannot pretend 
that i can take the suffering
when your not around i’d rather be dust in the wind
alone my hands are trembling
i would make the sun drown to bring you back my friend

i would make the sun drown w/ greenwood (tiedforsilver)

prod. secre swallowtail x heyrick
feat. casperrr & shizukesa.
art. my friends cat LOL

lyrics:

(please just tell me now, that you would hear the sound, of my voice calling out, so that i can be found)

and i can feel my heart sink in the rain now
so cold thinkin that i might breakdown
feelin lost, feelin lonley, and nobody’s around
and in this storm the waters rising and i think i might drown
please just tell me now, that you would hear the sound
of my voice calling out, so that i can be found

please just tell me now, that you would hear the sound
of my voice calling out, so that i can be found
but no matter how many times i might scream
it doesn’t mean ur any closer to finding me
so now ur looking for a ghost
just give up you’ll never be close

(please just tell me now, u r looking for a ghost)

(caspy)

nana~
can you help me now
pick me up from the ground
i hate loving in doubt
cuz that's when shit goes south

used to look for some1 like u
now i don't have a clue 
of what the fuck i should
to try and forget u

(shizu)

thoughts fadin like the blood on my palm
she saying shit the same well bitch im already gone
guess all the friends change
cuz they dk what im on
suicidal lil prick im jus a dick of a cunt
just a pussy n**** i quit talkin
steady smoking until hittin coughin
ion need help 2 know im the problem
bullet to the dome woulda solved em
only fuck around inside of FL but by next album im offing me
and honestly, been so sick of the calling me
like fuck out of my head

my heart sinks in the rain w/ casperrr & shizukesa. (secre swallowtail x hey rick)

produced: metlast x itamii
featuring: @breckenford & @user-642636378 (halfhearted)

no help, no sympathy w/ brecken & halfhearted (metlast x itamii)

produced by ushanka boy
featuring NAVYXOWER (@navyxower)
mixed by navy & epitome
mastered by teddyboi (@yoimn3ver)
intro is from the movie “Goodwill Hunting”
lyrics

well…
i don’t know why but it feels like
i’ve been here forever 
been seeing star signs layered through the sky
that lead me back to december

those cold lonely nights
drove me to insanity 
i didn’t put up a fight
for you and that drives me crazy 

what the hell was every supposed to do
i didn’t have a clue
this shit left us confused
but that’s okay we’ll work it out
there’s no need to cry now
wipe your tears, i love the sound
of your voice there’s nothing that

could replace you
you’ve always been the one i choose
there’s nothing left for me to lose
so you have to know these feelings are true

NAVY

baby i could do it better yeah i swear to beup at night i see you walking past my house theres plentyplenty times where i need you in my bed with mewhy is life never really even fair to mebring me back to another timeanother era another life  where i can say i feel alirghttime goes by really fast in the nightand when your with the ones you love the most, time just really flysfly carefullyi pray to god ill see you eventaullyi miss everything you said to mei hate goodbyes theyre not meant for me



well, i don’t know why but it feels like
i’ve been here forever 
been seeing star signs layered through the sky
that lead me back to december

i have someone now w/ NAVYXOWER (ushanka boy)

produced & mastered by tiedforsilver
preformed & mixed by epitomeoffailure
intro from Steins;Gate

lyrics:

ash grey clouds above me
snow falls on your face
foreign lands surrounding 
put me in my place

she stands there horrified 
of what she’s discovered
the snow blankets and covers
a face born like no other 

he wishes they’d normalize 
but their looks sting like torture
he cry’s at home under the covers
with no one there but his mother

and she won’t help cause she’s no good at all 
she cared when only he could crawl
since then theres not much to call, love
broken down and cursed from up above 
is what he thinks now because 
his wants and needs go untouched

ash grey clouds above me
snow falls on your face
foreign lands surrounding 
put me in my place

wait hold on still
your breath draws me in
here in my landfill
you saved me from within 

she to blind to see what’s in front of her
no mouth to eat but my stomach hurts
this leech draining me of all that i’m worth
and i just watch it work 
though the pain gets worse

cause i know she’ll look if im close to death
her only baby boy his soul soon to rest 
underneath the snow that lies on his chest
lays a broken soul cast out like the rest

epitomeoffailure x tiedforsilver - sleep in the snow

produced by R3DQX and discent 
mixed my epitomeoffailure and teddyboi
mastered by teddyboi

lyrics

why couldn’t you tell me you went ghost
when i ask around no one ever knows
where you went you didn’t even leave a note
hard to breathe when my throat remains closed 

i been choking on my words and i suppose 
that if your gone imma double up my dose
so if you’re lookin at my face im in repose
imma raise my glass high and give a toast

a toast to the ones who never made it far 
a toast to the ones who couldn’t find their start
i still feel i’m there and im going nowhere

these cobblestone roads will guide you in the dark 
know you’re not alone with this light from a spark 
someone will care again just hold on till the end

(teddyboi)

really tryna make sense of this
dead bodies turn to slitting wrists
and i ain’t got no time for that
i ain’t got no time for that
‘cause i got a lot inside my mind
and i don’t want to waste all your time
baby i think that im curse
‘cause im crawling at the end of my life
lately there’s a lot going on inside my mind
and baby i don’t want to lie to you
i think i need some time away from everything
to try and heal myself
work on my head
worry about my health ‘cause
all i ever do is drink the memories away
until im covered in my vomit
emptying my brain 
the liquor’s healing me but my body’s giving up
‘cause i don’t know what i can take
and im close to seeing god
lift my facade
im scared oh my god
she touches on my scars
they make us who we are
but i can’t lift your fingerprints
(off my skin)

why couldn’t you tell me you went ghost
when i ask around no one ever knows
where you went you didn’t even leave a note
hard to breathe when my throat remains closed 

i been choking on my words and i suppose 
that if your gone imma double up my dose
so if you’re lookin at my face im in repose
imma raise my glass high and give a toast

a toast to the ones who never made it far 
a toast to the ones who couldn’t find their start
i still feel i’m there and im going nowhere

these cobblestone roads will guide you in the dark 
know you’re not alone with this light from a spark 
someone will care again just hold on till the end

a toast w/ teddyboi (R3DQX x discent)

produced by tiedforsilver and ryan kelly
mastered by nate2timez
written and mixed by epitomeoffailure
artwork by melmige

lyrics:

looking back at my life, in black and white, all i see is the past
since hindsight’s is perfect and clear i knew i’d never last 
staring in a bathroom mirror, while life just keeps on going by fast 
i bury my face in my hands all night and scream this 
world is trash 

i just lack the confidence to get over myself today
the demon on my shoulder telling me that he gon have to stay
beggin me to fuck up and to give into my selfish ways
but i could never do it even with a mind to mold like clay

terrified, to the core i think i might be paralyzed
petrified although i can’t help but fucking wish for more
problems keep coming in from right outside the open door
if i looked outside this balcony would i see you by the shore 

pages i cant seem to read because im in the dark
tell me can we shine the light before i fall apart
please patch up these bloody wounds around my blackened heart
as you can see when left to me they start to form up scars

i just need comfort
in this moment
i still suffer 
in the slowest 
ways
i’ve lost the number when counting up my days
now this regret is what i’m smokin to the face 

terrified, to the core i think i might be paralyzed
petrified although i can’t help but fucking wish for more
problems keep coming in from right outside the open door
if i looked outside this balcony would i see you by the shore 

t-t-t-t-terrified, to the core i think i might be paralyzed
petrified although i can’t help but fucking wish for more
p-p-p-problems keep coming in from right outside the open door
if i looked outside this balcony would i see you by the shore 

looking back at my life, in black and white, all i see is the past
since hindsight’s is perfect and clear i knew i’d never last 
staring in a bathroom mirror, while life just keeps on going by fast 
i bury my face in my hands all night and scream this 
world is trash

paralyzed (tiedforsilver x ryan kelly)

produced by jolst and metlast
mastered by nate2timez
mixed and written by me




you tip-toed
your shadow

you tip-toed past the bedroom
your shadow cast from the lit moon
shows through the window every night you stabbed my back
now when i comes november i isolate just to relax
i’ll hold on to what i once knew
regardless whether any of its true
memories scattered across my brain just like its glass
if i combine the pieces in my head i might relapse

go back to a time when i was defenseless 
oh god i must resist this
i’m playing with the damaged
parts of my mind, that might never recover
it’s hard to define, what’s black and white and color

fall leaves reminding me that it’s over
dissociated 3 months to find closure
just to figure out that life sober
isn’t what i want it sounds torture

isn’t what i want that shit sounds like fuckin torture 
thought i saw her in the background just found out it’s not her
now my heart is broken the way she ditched me at the concert
baby girl it’s all for you don’t you leave me with my heart hurt

you tip-toed past the bedroom
your shadow cast from the lit moon
shows through the window every night you stabbed my back
now when i comes november i isolate just to relax
i’ll hold on to what i once knew
regardless whether any of its true
memories scattered across my brain just like its glass
if i combine the pieces in my head i might relapse

shows through the window every night you stabbed my back
now when i comes november i isolate just to relax 
memories scattered across my brain just like its glass
if i combine the pieces in my head i might relapse

u tip-toed past the bedroom (metlast x jolst)

produced by sor
mixed by me
mastered by nate2timez
featuring popularreject

lyrics


on my own
yeah i can’t believe i did it on my own
yeah i remember when they’d never hit my phone
yeah now it seems im always leaving them at the tone
leave me alone
let me be alone
i just wanna do it on my own
they don’t know the blood and broken bones
that’s i’ve laid in front of my own home
leave me alone

there’s nothing that i want from you
there’s nothing that you want from me
so please just please just go away 
and save some room for better days
now all that shit is history
so save it in your memories 
and just know that, that one mistake
will be the one you can’t erase

all these word were hidden underneath the floor
on the wood it’s written you can’t ignore
mistakes are unforgiven unlike before
i’ll be the one your missin right too the very core

(popularreject)
i don’t know
if im ever gonna make it out this hole
i don’t think ill make it out this rut
what the fuck
think it’s best that i shut up
i got smoke inside my lungs 
i think ive really had it
i hear your voice inside my head 
it says im so dramatic
none of these people have my back
i turn around they stab it
now i’m all off track im crashing
i don’t even really know what happened 
i’d puff puff pass but shit i am…

on my own
yeah i can’t believe i did it on my own
yeah i remember when they’d never hit my phone
yeah now it seems im always leaving them at the tone
leave me alone
let me be alone
i just wanna do it on my own
they don’t know the blood and broken bones
that’s i’ve laid in front of my own home
leave me alone

on my own w/ popularreject (sor)

produced by ryan kelly & tiedforsilver
mixed by me
mastered by nate2timez 

lyrics

when you were by my side you made me have to stand tall
now that you’re not here anymore i’m thinking of ending it all
i can’t calm down these thoughts they weigh heavy on my soul
i’ve been pacing, going back and forth my body has taken a toll

you use to have my back when i had to stay strong
now i can even relax with myself im too gone
ive been breaking my back just to try and hold on
and frankly its a fact that im not meant to last long 

i can hardly think from the pressure in my brain 
and lately i can’t i breathe with all the shit you didn’t say
the silence made me leave in a rushed and panicked state 
and you know i made poor decisions when leaving that place 

and i just lack the will to get you out of my brain
thinking bout you every day got me going insane
and if i could i would but i don’t seem to have a say
please just walk away just get out of my face

hollowed
it’s your strength i barrowed 
to get me out of here
in a sudden flash everything was gone in sight
all i’ve ever loved before vanished from my eyes 
now i’m starting over and im cutting all the ties 
in a world that is cold that i might just fucking die

i left that night and nobody seem to give a fuck
i’ve been inside of my mind all night i think i  need to sober up
cant even numb the pain with all these drugs i couldn’t smoke enough 
might as well just give into these thoughts and roll up, spark another one

bitch you think i’m having fun 
then you must be fuckin dumb
no, you must be on one
if you thinkin i wasn’t numb 

the smile seems real but it’s fake alright 
just wait till im your poltergeist 
cause one of these days im gonna die 
you’ll feel bad for me when the light leaves my eyes

i can hardly think from the pressure in my brain 
and lately i can’t i breathe with all the shit you didn’t say
the silence made me leave in a rushed and panicked state 
and you know i made poor decisions when leaving that place

i can hardly think from the pressure in my brain 
and lately i can’t i breathe with all the shit you didn’t say
the silence made me leave in a rushed and panicked state 
and you know i made poor decisions when leaving that place

when i left (ryan kelly x tiedforsilver)

produced by wetmall & luffy
mixed by me
mastered by nate2timez
featuring flesh

lyrics

been too busy smackin my face off the concrete 
i’ve had plenty but i won’t let it get the best of me
i pour this liquor in my cup knowing it won’t make me feel complete 
i feel disgusted with myself that’s why i always need company 

do you know how
you broke me down
when you turned around
and left without a sound

no fixing it now
you said it out loud
my minds like a crowd 
makin me wish i was in the ground 

flashbacks to my hometown 
in the memories i begin to drown
thought i had them blocked by the clouds
still im suffering with no one else around 

do you know what im supposed to do
when all i ever see is pics of you
in my heart and in my mind i know it’s true
what is it i’ve got to lose 

(flesh)

i dont wanna hurt no more
i wish i could be proud
idk how
whats the right way?
ive been feeling deep down
that there never was one in the first place 
mess it up again
mess it up again
i dont rly know myself one bit but
i could play pretend
i could play pretend
i dont even want to
thats just what im used to

and i know its not all
as bad as i make it out to be
but i hope that past that
it doesnt change what you think of me
but i get why they leave
dont know why i feel like i gotta push all my friends away
i keep on walking towards the light i swear im getting closer 
i looked inside of me and all i saw was darkness and pain

get back on my feet
i guess its okay
safest place i know
stay out of my way

flashbacks to my hometown 
in the memories i begin to drown
thought i had them blocked by the clouds
still im suffering with no one else around

do you know what im supposed to do
when all i ever see is pics of you
in my heart and in my mind i know it’s true
what is it i’ve got to lose

disgusted with myself w/ flesh (wetmall x luffy)

produced by secre swallowtail & heyrick
mixed by me
mastered by nate2timez 
featuring AVXiD

lyrics

and there’s so much that i wish i could’ve told you
i wish i could’ve told you, i wish i could’ve told you
but you’re out of touch and you were my only crutch 
and i just wish that i could hold you
but it’s your ghost i would go thru

those cloudy eyes couldn’t hide the truth
between me and you there was something new
and now the colors fade from their vibrant hues
look back on better days like oh what a view
i look back on the past
cause i wish it would last
oh the future is sad
these thoughts are driving me mad

and there’s so much that i wish i could’ve told you
i wish i could’ve told you, i wish i could’ve told you
but you’re out of touch and you were my only crutch 
and i just wish that i could hold you
but it’s your ghost i would go thru

it’s your ghost i would go thru
it’s your ghost i would go thru
it’s your ghost i would go thru
it’s your ghost i would go thru

(AVXiD)

monday mornings 
turns to tuesday evenings
im laid out on the pavement
do u even wanna see me
shawty do u even love me
its like u never wanna hold me
all these things that u had told me
idk why u dont duck me

im a dead body rotting
u can hear it when im calling
when i die hide my body
in your walls

when im gone
hold on
im the ghost u pass thru 
in the halls

it's ur ghost i'd go thru w/ AVXiD (secre x heyrick)

produced by dianasty 
mixed by me
mastered by nate2timez 

lyrics

pour another cup i’ll ignore my problems
writing songs is pointless if no one wants em
like leaves in the fall i am left here decaying
“he will never make it” is what i hear them saying

i’ll say goodbye
i’ll leave here for good tonight 
“why won’t you hold on tight
i feel you letting me go for life”
is what you whispered in my ear
if you look deep you’ll see i’m near 
but for reasons you can’t hear
i must fall behind, yes i will disappear

there’s no way that i can think of words lately
and it’s been driving me crazy
minds been blank and the fog has made it
hazy 
why’ve i been crying out daily

that i needed help when no one ever hears me
i been by myself but still i want some company
even in bad health i don’t need your sympathy 
dying never felt so right but im lonely (so)

i’ll say goodbye
i’ll leave here for good tonight 
“why won’t you hold on tight
i feel you letting me go for life”
is what you whispered in my ear
if you look deep you’ll see i’m near 
but for reasons you can’t hear
i must fall behind, yes i will disappear

yes i will disappear 
you won’t see my face for years
don’t you shed anymore tears
just let go of all of your fears

i’ll say goodbye
i’ll leave here for good tonight 
“why won’t you hold on tight
i feel you letting me go for life”
is what you whispered in my ear
if you look deep you’ll see i’m near 
but for reasons you can’t hear
i must fall behind, yes i will disappear

why won't u hold on tight (dianasty)

produced by Vito
mixed by me
mastered by nate2timez

lyrics

another day where i wake up at 12pm
i hate myself, im a waste now and i was then
im still around but im careful where my time is spent 
hush, not a sound, let the silence slowly take you in

i was war with myself but i think that i’ve lost
a piece of my soul fell to hell and i can’t pay the cost
blood on my coat from the wounds that i cant cover up
im sinkin the boat cuz id rather drown then live corrupt 

i run, away from most my problems im like a loaded gun
it just take one whole shot to ruin all the fun
you’ve had at my expense don’t waste your breath i’m done… done, you fuckin won

another day where i wake up at 12pm
i hate myself, im a waste now and i was then
im still around but im careful where my time is spent 
hush, not a sound, let the silence slowly take you 

i feel the warmth of your hands wrap around me now
i feel my body start to levitate above the ground 
i close my eyes and numb my brain and shut my jaw-dropped mouth
cause i listened when i hear the void speak “not a sound”

now we might as well go back to the beginning 
see if anyone else was ever listening 
and if they weren’t i’m sure the sight is very sickening 
a life in solace is probably never happening 

another day where i wake up at 12pm
i hate myself, im a waste now and i was then
im still around but im careful where my time is spent 
hush, not a sound, let the silence slowly take you in

12pm (vito)

produced by metlast & nihil
mixed by me
mastered by nate2timez 

lyrics

god i hate it when your not here
why did you have to disappear 
loneliness hurts and i might fear
for the worst since the pic’s obscure 

ive been lying on my death bed don’t you know
so if you’re calling im not pickin up the phone 
it’s been hard to see the days pass my from home
here without you lost, confused, and all alone 

no one can help me (no)
no one can save me
i just have accepted
that im beyond saving
you should’ve expected 
or seem this all coming

my minds been infected 
since birth we’ve been fighting 
for nothing but violence 
has been what was taught 
we’re looking for silence 
in a self-boiling pot

mistakes became reasons
for why you had left
and as time changes is seasons
still my life’s a mess

god i hate it when your not here
why did you have to disappear 
loneliness hurts and i might fear
for the worst since the pic’s obscure 

ive been lying on my death bed don’t you know
so if you’re calling im not pickin up the phone 
it’s been hard to see the days pass my from home
here without you lost, confused, and all alone

epitomeoffailure

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