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letter p.3
produced by irby

lyrics;
i wanna write this letter
but i dont know where to start
well im sad all the time
and i blame it on the shitty weather
im losing my grip on reality
its almost December
a year without you
i wanna write this letter
but these words are hard to get out
i wanna do better
but i pretend now
i try to be happy
but im back in hell now
its the end of October
and im writing this letter again
but ill put it in the folder
never open it again
its starting to get colder
i wanna write this letter
i wanna get it over with now
but i cant figure it out
i wanna write this letter
im falling apart now
my worlds falling apart
its getting hard to pretend now
if you ever cared
why aren't we even friends now
i barely feel okay now
i wanna write this letter
i wanna write this fucking letter
its been so long
im not holding together
do you even remember
i wanna write this letter
i wanna write this letter
i wanna get better
i cant hold it together
i wrote you this letter
i just want send it ever

this letter - interlude

MUSIC VIDEO: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=JzpiXlplkxE

This is a premotion for my album that will be coming out on Spotify/Bandcamp in January :) !!! It will be a compilation of all of my songs from here remastered. Once it releases, I'll compile everything into a playlist here and link it over.

*** Other announement I wanted to make is I purchased an artist pro subscription and replaced all of my older tracks before I published all my friends are dead (ex: kerch, goat rock etc.) and recompressed them all because they all sounded way too quiet and muffled. The spotify album will be formally mastered and will sound way better but I didn't want to leave everyone here hanging so everything should sound so much better now!

Long desc sorry, thank you so much to everyone who listened to my shit I only started posting as a personal archive, I'm so happy people are able to enjoy my music, it means so much to me. Please consider buying the album or merch on Bandcamp when it's up if you enjoy.

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Written in September 2025
D#G#C#F#A#D#

Woahhh
How the tables turn so quick 
and life goes on
Without you 
Without me 

I’m at Gavin’s House
with my old friends
Still at the Goat Rock, 
hearing from you soon
I don’t know what to do
once summer ends
I won’t leave my house
or see my friends 

I’m unloading my bags
At my new place
It’s not in fuckin’ Utah
It’s far away from here 

It’s all fading away

we found 7 dead bats in a closet at my old highschool (mv)

atlascursed (sorrowbringer)

midshoe

He caminado por cuerpos hacinados
Cuerpos cuya importancia no importa y no importarán
Porque son un número, no existen personas; solo cantidad
¿Y qué diferencia a un cementerio de los vivos más allá de su estado?
No somos más que un número
Números que restan poco a poco
La muerte nos alcanza paso a paso
Y aquí seguimos, esquivos del destino
Si la muerte nos llegará tarde o temprano, ¿por qué he de salvarme?
No hay muerte mas digna que quien, con la frente en alto, decide por ella
Debemos desprendernos de ser un número
Y no hay tarea más difícil que esa
La masa, enajenada, ataca los ideales suicidas que llevo conmigo
Porque no hay mayor ataque a su moralidad que la del suicida cayendo por el Costanera center
O a las vías del metro
Quebrando la normalidad y consigo a la muerte cuantitativa
Y consigo a la muerte cuantitativa
Reflejen en las señales de televisión
La aproximación de la muerte del ego
El individuo cayendo al nirvana a través de drogas y la manipulación del ser
Los cerebros pensantes agonizan al son de las rocas moliéndose 
De rocas atravesando las fosas nasales
Y de pastillas explotando en el estómago
Sálvese quien pueda, y quien quiera
Que el libre albedrio tocó nuestras mejillas
Y dejó al último anhelo adentrarse en la maleza
Viviendo entre cucarachas,
Viviendo entre cucarachas,
Viviendo entre peste y cucarachas
Dejando al último anhelo adentrarse
A las mentes trastornadas,
A las mentes trastornadas,
A los ideales y a las mentes trastornadas...
Presentando así los dilemas existenciales que acabaron con la fascinación del ser
Del hombre y su representación

y ves
como las migajas quedaron sobre la mesa
las notas y recados se quedaron estáticas
y el café sin acabar se entibió con el pasar de los días
no he entrado a su habitación por días y no quiero
dejaré las cosas tal cual quedaron
como el café sin acabar de la cocina
y las migajas en la cama
y los cigarros en el cenicero
y la nota escrita sobre su almohada
sobre su almohada
donde decías tu ultimo te quiero

16 09

Gustav12saft är vem som inspirerade låten!!

SKOLAN SUGER (midwest emo version) (prod.@23arms)

BÄTTRE SKOLAN SUGER (midwest emo version) (prod eve06)

Scary voices and beautiful thoughts ive had last week

had time to remaster once again, added another 3 new songs

tuning: DAEAC#E

dibs

life on a train

spellbound

eu já cansei de avisar
que eu não quero essas pessoas em volta de nos
você não vê o agora você só vê o após
eu daria tudo so pra escutar sua voz

dnv eu me sinto tão mal 
desde quando foi embora
eu não me sinto normal
eu nao me sinto bem
mas tem q ser assim

desde o começo eu sabia que isso ia ter um fim

mas pq só eu tento mudar

por que só eu tento mudar?

pq so eu tento mudar?

…and Every House in Brandon

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the account i use just for hyperpop and stuff

personal music from myself.

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