LYRICS¬

I don't really wanna explain
got a lot on my chest that im struggling to relay
so i keep it hush for your sake
nobody ever listened in the first place
i could cry my heart out on a track and you’d forget it in like 4 days 
If you listened to my lyrics then you’d never be surprised that im not okay
no you’d never be surprised that im not okay
Woah,
lemme it slow down for a minute
i been fighting, im abouta reach my limit
Need pills with the potent stuff in it
cross out my own name off the hitlist
Uh 
and its non of your business
Who called it
But its obvious…
…oh its obvious

i could fight the demons, exorcise the monsters
but i could never save me from myself
tell me it gets better when I’m older
but you could never feel the pain i felt
I cant tell you how to make it better,
but i can understand you, if it helps
at least you know now, that were here together
trapped for, an eternity in hell

and oftentimes the thought of something’s
way more daunting than the fucking process
Panic causes me to digress and i push shit to the side when i should progress
and its holding me back
And i cant accept the facts
but it
Its fine
I
Ill make it 
this time

(I could never 
I could
I could never save me from myself
My hearts broken, 
i fall apart
all, the words i left
Unspoken)

helpless case
dont give me hope baby i know that you’re not here to stay
I know you’ll leave one day
Like everything ive ever loved you’ll slowly fade away
fade away

i could fight the demons, exorcise the monsters
but i could never save me from myself
tell me it gets better when I’m older
but you could never feel the pain i felt
I cant, tell you, how to, make it better,
but i can,understand you, if it helps
at least you know now, that were here together
trapped for, an eternity in hell

save me from myself (idealism)

All of the time that i just wasted
Spending all of my days intoxicated
So isolated i need sedation 
Tryna get her out of my head is so brainless

Tear drops on her face 
And She Tellin me she made a mistake
I don’t really know what I’m gonna say 
I guess It was going so good till it just fuckin didn’t 

I’m lyin when I say im ok 
Cuz You keep Poppin up inside of my brain
And All the shit you said don’t hold any weight
Yeah She tell me that she me love me till she just fuckin didn’t 

With the eyes like diamonds 
Mesemerizin
Youre the one I think of when I close my eyelids
Can I kill the silence I’ve been feelin lifeless
Messin with my head and my heart she a white bitch
All you do is type but the words not vibrant 
She keep pullin me in she hot like a siren
Belive me when I tell you that you help me ease my mind its 
Kinda fuckin crazy that i had you by my side bitch

But now it’s all over 
And I can’t stay sober 
I’m poppin the pain away
And thinkin of better days 

This that drive me to the grave
And our love was just a phase
You treat me like shit most days 
It’s just gonna break me

But now you’re gone 
Every thought feels wrong 
Idk what’s going on 
lately I been so jaded 

She look me in the eyes she could tell that I’m faded
Spreadin nothin but lies you petty and faceless 
I guess Her laugh was a disguise she was plotting my demise 
I can’t tell what’s wrong could you please get me right 
Good sex forgot all the shit that went wrong
I could never speak my thoughts so I put em in a song 

Next thing that I know everyone singin along
And I swear I try my best but I can’t keep holding on 
She knows she was the first that i brought up to my mom 
Try to tell you how I’m feeling but the words are all wrong 

And i miss you even more with the time spent apart 
Said that you need healing coz your thoughts been dark
But she really scared of feeling so she told me let’s part
I hope that you get better cuz youll always have my heart 

Gotta stop scrollin on the feed
Just so I can write on a beat 
But you know he gonna spit some heat
I made 4 racks just last week what you call for
Always on my phone in case it beeps
And your face so pretty in my head repeatin 
I wish i didn’t love her for all the wrong reasons 
She say she gotta go our love was just a season 

Tear drops on her face 
And She Tellin me she made a mistake
I don’t really know what I’m gonna say 
I guess It was going so good till it just fuckin didn’t 

verse again)

this was a love story (prod. gage oakes)

I Don't Wanna Be That Guy (prod. kiranaito)

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i only wanna luv, but im know i'm fucking dying 
shawty wanna talk but im really getting tired
i should get sum sleep, but im awake rhyming 
taking all the pain from my soul away with my writting
im so fucking sick of the backseat riding                                                                                   
let me live my life the way i want to in the silence
i'm okay with my thinking cause all these drugs hide it
all these drugs hide it, all these drugs hide it

both parents sick and daddy's doing badly 
so im getting fucked in the crib, in the attic
miss our talks, miss our fights miss our rides in the whip 
miss your voice, miss your touch, can u remember it?
both parents sick and moms going thru it barely
can't breathe on her own, but am here to help it
life's fucked up, never fair and am not dramatic 
life's fucked up even tho-

i only wanna luv, but im know i'm fucking dying 
shawty wanna talk but im really getting tired
i should get sum sleep, but im awak rhyming 
taking all the pain from my soul away with my writting
im so fucking sick of the backseat riding
let me live my life the way i want to in the silence
i'm okay with my thinking cause all these drugs hide it
all these drugs hide it, all these drugs hide it

hide it (santana.)

new acoustic single featuring the talented sophia milone!  

my new album 'for better or worse' releases THIS MONTH! March 24th!! Can't wait to share :)

Lyrics:
I've been searching through these blank pages 
story written in hidden language
follow the signs, to a different life 
I've been looking for
open up the door
I've been waiting for this to break 
all this hurting to turn into gain
darling tell me am I really falling 
cuz looking at you is like looking at scarlet 

(hook)
savior of my youth 
come here show me why I've been missing you 
searching for truth 
but then you opened up the door 
and I'm just staring through the framing into you

(soph)
deep impressions 
where I've been laying for what feels like months 
got up cold and tired 
routine habits push and shove 
tie up my grievance with a grimace 
and a cup of tea 
it seems romantic in your eyes 
but I wasn't being me 
I was looking but not for you 
a fountain hidden away just out of view 
a voice calls my name
did I hear that right 
follow it anyway
and walk right through the open door

(bridge)
for where this heading 
I thought there was nothing 
I looked at the timing 
that I put my trust in 
am I even ready 
is this even right 
but it all doesn't matter with how I feel tonight 
can we go on? 
if we don't where to start 
take me as I am 
if you can 
and ill keep you as the

open the door (feat. soph)[prod. King Theta]

lyrics-

cold as fuck in the middle of the morning
waking up to ur pretty face snoring
gotta lot to do, wake up 5 in the morning
im so boring, sorry that im sorry

cold as fuck in the middle of the morning
waking up to ur pretty face snoring
gotta lot to do, wake up 5 in the morning
im so boring, sorry that im sorry

i dont wanna wait too long
*too long*
ill just watch you smoke out ur bong
*out ur bong*
im getting sick of all talk
i needa take a walk


cold as fuck in the middle of the morning
waking up to ur pretty face snoring
gotta lot to do, wake up 5 in the morning
im so boring, sorry that im sorry

i wont be around too long if i stay here
say hi to the neighbor while im fried
i know shes pretty, i dont like my life
taking out the trash, while i look into her eyes

cold as fuck in the middle of the morning
waking up to ur pretty face snoring
gotta lot to do, wake up 5 in the morning
im so boring, sorry that im sorry

i dont wanna wait too long
*too long*
ill just watch you smoke out ur bong
*out ur bong*

sorry that im sorry (prod. secre swallowtail)

I hate the fear of losing everyone 
Going down a valley of a broken heart
Things will shine when I cross our stars

Give my head a rest
I don’t know where you are 

Going down a valley of a broken heart
Things won’t shine tell I cross our stars

Hello hello hello!
You can’t stay outta my fuckin mind

Bury my soul tonight and find more ways just to end my life 
(to end my life, to end my life)

Waste my life writing stupid love songs 
Gotta gather my head until I choose to drop dead 

Combatting true life stories and write them in pen 

I hate the fear of losing everyone 
Going down a valley of a broken heart
Things will shine when I cross our stars

Give my head a rest
I don’t know where you are 

Going down a valley of a broken heart
Things won’t shine tell I cross our stars

Hello hello hello!
You can’t stay outta my fuckin mind

Bury my soul tonight and find more ways just to end my life 
(to end my life, to end my life)

I hate the fear of losing everyone 
Going down a valley of a broken heart
Things will shine when I cross our stars

Give my head a rest
I don’t know where you are 

Going down a valley of a broken heart
Things won’t shine tell I cross our stars

Valley Of A Broken Heart

prod. beats by hills

run him for the gram
run him for the price
run him for the day
that he said he wasnt nice
i got redeyes
you a bad type
you should know like
we could roll up
we could spark up
we dont care for ya
i hope yall know
im just a god
im made of diamonds
and resin
and larde
run him for the gram
run him for the price
run him for the day
that he said he wasnt nice

u said i switched up
nah now i just smoke swishas
im blacked out by my sister
now now i do not i miss her
you said ur fine
u can say ur not fine
can i say im not fine
im fucking fine
fuckin a okay
im just tryn find my way thru dis
copped a brand new knife 
wit a brand new ruger
yeh i might cut ur bitch
theres a sharp pain shooting thru my chest
i dont wanna try to get rest
no switchups
no bad times yeah
i cant stand to see myself
no good luck
but no bad vibes either
my tempers kinda short 
but im tryna be nicer
the vibes lately 
are teen titans go
the vibe lately 
is i just dont know
i wanna explore my mind so bad..

run him for the gram
run him for the price
run him for the day
that he said he wasnt nice
i got redeyes
you a bad type
you should know like
we could roll up
we could spark up
we dont care for ya
i hope yall know
im just a god
im made of diamonds
and resin
and larde
run him for the gram
run him for the price
that boy say he tuff
but i think he just a mice

i got everything i ever wanted
but im still looking for a different pointment 
u know everything inside ur minds a okay until it isnt
if u got money then go spend it dont be lacking like kai cenat
u think u tough like a brick wall but ive seen more than u
sorry for the time i took i was tryn find a way to mortar u
im just tryna help you get away
im just tryna help myself c-
but i fucking cant!
aye!
dont talk shit if you dont fucking mean it 
dont call me if i dont care
obviously you know when i dont care

3 4 5 6 7 8 9
bitch wanna fight but i truly dont mind
u got me an i got u 
why are we doomed if its i love you? >:(
3 4 5 6 7 8 9 
BITCH WANNA FIGHT BUT I TRULY DONT MIND
U GOT ME AND I GOT U
WHY ARE WE DOOMED IF ITS I LOVE YOU?
run him for the gram
run him for the price
run him for the day
that he said he wasnt nice
i got redeyes
you a bad type
you should know like
we could roll up
we could spark up
we dont care for ya
i hope yall know
im just a god
im made of diamonds
and resin
and larde
run him for the gram
run him for the price
run him for the day
that he said he wasnt nice

lepidoptera

prod. wisssery

i think im dying
i dont want violence
i wont sleep, wont close my eyelids
smiling thru pain and dont like it
i did what i could to bite it

u saw the same thing i did
cant lie, i still miss ur lips
my blood seeped thru ur dress
and i think this aint depression
and i think i learned my lesson
oo-
cram it in first,
dont grab ur purse
yeah..
oo!

if i cant lie
then i cant try,
yeah
if i cant smile
then i can lie </3
o - o 
i couldnt care much more than i do,
breaking down my boundaries to make it up to u


( who said im not depressed? )
( im fucked up by thursday next )

who said im not the best?
i know ive been depressed
im in over my head
talking always kills me..

this ain't depression

prod me :)

lyrics:

well the rain started falling bout an hour ago
i know that clouds are in the sky
but i promise you'll be dry right
here
i swear that every day away lasts a hundred years
but every moment we're together 
seems to buckle under
pressure
and disappear

oooo

and i could tell you it'll be okay
but i would rather u just see for yourself
don't wait any longer
no don't wait for any help
cuz the rain will stop soon
and i'll greet u
with a smile on my face
please don't turn away
please don't turn away

well the rain started falling bout an hour ago
i know that clouds are in the sky
but i promise you'll be dry right
here
i swear that every day away lasts a hundred years
but every moment we're together 
seems to buckle under
pressure
and disappear

hide it (santana.)

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