Oh wow this is actually so perfect 😭🥺

This is so beautiful, thank you for your service

Fr think you could blow up one day if you keep doing your thing.

prod. @irby314
making it by
love u all always n forever
hope u enjoy

lyrics:
have a hard time picturing
making it another year
its the fault of few
but nothing’s truer 
than the lack of people here

and i’m fucking miserable
in the moments i hold dear
but i set example
i dismantle
from a brutal fucking year

if i could fly
i’d torch the sky
you’d see it over head
tonight
if i could right my
wrongs, i’d try
im losing sleep
over you tonight 

i can’t take back whats written
the stone will never turn
i’d drive that many minutes
just to prove my fucking worth
i know its for the better
i know i’ll carry on
but in the moments few and far
i lose it when you’re gone

i lose it when you’re gone

i’ve seen my friends go through it
the shit they don’t deserve
the ones i love are hurt more
than they possibly deserve
i look across the sky sometimes
and see a star so fucking bright
i wonder if from miles away
you’d share that single light

i can’t take back whats written
the stone will never turn
i’d drive that many minutes
just to prove my fucking worth
i know its for the better
i know i’ll carry on
but in the moments few and far
i lose it when you’re gone

have a hard time picturing making it another year its the fault of few but nothing’s truer  than the lack of people here  and i’m fucking miserable in the moments i hold dear but i set example i dismantle from a brutal fucking year  if i could fly i’d tor

spotify n apple

fourty more [irby]

love is war (feat. sideview drive)[prod. 5head x King Theta]

NEW SINGLE w/ the fantastic @absolventmusic

enjoy yet another December 31st song  :)

Lyrics:
feel the cracks beneath your feet 
is the fear that’s in your mind
the one that helps you get to sleep 
i need to be 
on the other side of whatever is underneath 

cuz i think there’s something hidden underneath 
a rip that’s hidden in the seam 

i don’t know if it’s all or nothing 
(can we) skip the line bring me to the ending 
so i can see just what it takes 
if i’ll be waiting until this breaks 

looking through the glass, I see reflections of my past 
all the good times gone, it’s been too long, time runs away too fast 

i’ve been waiting patiently for life to let me live again 
that year long void, a path destroyed, asking will it ever end 

when life gets grim, and the pain seeps in, I like to play pretend, cause in my mind it’ll all be fine, the question is just when 

cause I know, just what’s at stake, so i’ll wait until this breaks

until this breaks (feat. absolvent)[prod. LIVING PUFF]

conclusion; the end of an era
produced by @idlyblare
<3

lyrics:
sing me a song and tell me everything is normal
its been months since i had felt at all, im tryna keep it formal with the
things that i say to those who don’t quite get the most of me
its harder to find out when
they’re leaving

find me a stone & write my name in tiny letters
if u throw it far enough then you and i are stuck together for the
rest of our years or just as long as you put up with me
i know that it has to end
you’re leaving

so if i go
no complaints
we’ll take it slow
until we break

i shop the windows of this breezy inner city
hoping for some inspiration, maybe i’ll find something pretty in the
regurgitation of my life in front of you
i put myself for sale, just wondering
if you still want me too

i break the habits of my past, im nothin better than a
old pair of shoes that no one wears until they gotta
but its
nothing personal
something terminal

i saw the rain
reflecting off your windowsill
i took the pain i gathered
turned it into chlorophyll
who knows the way
we’ll fall back into open arms
i tried to find it comforting
here i am with battle scars

learning to lose

chlorophyll [idly blare]

spotify & apple music!

somewhere you’ve abandoned

new acoustic single featuring the talented sophia milone!  

my new album 'for better or worse' releases THIS MONTH! March 24th!! Can't wait to share :)

Lyrics:
I've been searching through these blank pages 
story written in hidden language
follow the signs, to a different life 
I've been looking for
open up the door
I've been waiting for this to break 
all this hurting to turn into gain
darling tell me am I really falling 
cuz looking at you is like looking at scarlet 

(hook)
savior of my youth 
come here show me why I've been missing you 
searching for truth 
but then you opened up the door 
and I'm just staring through the framing into you

(soph)
deep impressions 
where I've been laying for what feels like months 
got up cold and tired 
routine habits push and shove 
tie up my grievance with a grimace 
and a cup of tea 
it seems romantic in your eyes 
but I wasn't being me 
I was looking but not for you 
a fountain hidden away just out of view 
a voice calls my name
did I hear that right 
follow it anyway
and walk right through the open door

(bridge)
for where this heading 
I thought there was nothing 
I looked at the timing 
that I put my trust in 
am I even ready 
is this even right 
but it all doesn't matter with how I feel tonight 
can we go on? 
if we don't where to start 
take me as I am 
if you can 
and ill keep you as the

open the door (feat. soph)[prod. King Theta]

Final Single!! New album 'for better or worse' releases NEXT WEEK 3/24!!

produced by @gaxillic_beats & @livingpuffy

Lyrics:

(verse)
here it is 
the final look at all your master plans 
is this what you were picturing 
are you wondering 
what took so long 
or why it all feels so wrong 

(hook)
cmon cmon won’t you pull me out 
i’m screaming out but i don’t know
 how to ask for help 
the situation 
dire need of something different 
waiting on a reason to find 
cuz i don’t have a reason to try again 

(verse)
(so) is this what you wanted 
a picture perfect little way to cope 
is haunting your brain now 
and you can’t find a way out 
(or) is this how you solve this 
cuz i’ve been waiting on a reason while you’re waiting the pain out 
this may never end now 

(hook)
cmon cmon won’t you pull me out 
i’m screaming out but i don’t know 
how to ask for help 
the situation 
dire need of something different 
hello hello can you hear me now 
cuz i think i’m spinning out 
cant tell what it’s about 
I just hope I feel you now 
waiting on a reason to find 
cuz i don’t have a reason to try 

(bridge)
can i wait this out 
can i wait this out 
there’s no time to waste 
cuz i don’t think i’ll make it til 
you pull me out 

(ending)
cmon cmon wont you pull me out 
i’m screaming out but i don’t know how to 
ask for help in this situation 
i’m screaming out but i see no difference 
waiting on a reason to find 
that i’m the only one who can try again

pull me out [prod. LIVING PUFF & GAXILLIC]

produced by triple gemini (soundcloud.com/trplgmni)

something else left to say here
i don't know what
everyday left to change pace in the dark
holding out for the first time that we go back straight through
the streetlights from the backseat of the car
and i'm deeper again
i pour it straight and its days gone
you couldn't notice and then (couldn't notice again)
i think i'm losing myself (think i'm losing myself)
and i don't know how to tell you when its over
could you hide it from the start?

you don't even speak like you know me
straight laying down what you taking out of me slowly
first time on the first night, you're my only
but its so dark, but its so cold
but its lonely

do you think its the same thing
or you think that its gone?
cause its only worth saving
if its you that i've got
and i know that the waiting
gets inside of your thoughts
and the time that its taking
makes it feel like its wrong

thought that we'd do it again on the same street
making nightmares out of daydreams
june as cold as my face feels
but its easier when you hate me
i just always thought it was safe here

and i don't know how to tell you when its over
could you hide it from the start?

tell me again how it gets in your head
i'm just leaving its better this way
i'm just a second away
i'm just a second away
what would you call that?

read through the texts, do you wonder instead
why i'm making it easy again?
i'm just a second away
saw how it ends when you stay
and i wish we could fall back

you don't even speak like you know me
straight laying down what you taking out of me slowly
first time on the first night, you're my only
but its so dark, but its so cold
but its lonely

Somewhere Else (prod. triple gemini)

prod. beats by hills

run him for the gram
run him for the price
run him for the day
that he said he wasnt nice
i got redeyes
you a bad type
you should know like
we could roll up
we could spark up
we dont care for ya
i hope yall know
im just a god
im made of diamonds
and resin
and larde
run him for the gram
run him for the price
run him for the day
that he said he wasnt nice

u said i switched up
nah now i just smoke swishas
im blacked out by my sister
now now i do not i miss her
you said ur fine
u can say ur not fine
can i say im not fine
im fucking fine
fuckin a okay
im just tryn find my way thru dis
copped a brand new knife 
wit a brand new ruger
yeh i might cut ur bitch
theres a sharp pain shooting thru my chest
i dont wanna try to get rest
no switchups
no bad times yeah
i cant stand to see myself
no good luck
but no bad vibes either
my tempers kinda short 
but im tryna be nicer
the vibes lately 
are teen titans go
the vibe lately 
is i just dont know
i wanna explore my mind so bad..

run him for the gram
run him for the price
run him for the day
that he said he wasnt nice
i got redeyes
you a bad type
you should know like
we could roll up
we could spark up
we dont care for ya
i hope yall know
im just a god
im made of diamonds
and resin
and larde
run him for the gram
run him for the price
that boy say he tuff
but i think he just a mice

i got everything i ever wanted
but im still looking for a different pointment 
u know everything inside ur minds a okay until it isnt
if u got money then go spend it dont be lacking like kai cenat
u think u tough like a brick wall but ive seen more than u
sorry for the time i took i was tryn find a way to mortar u
im just tryna help you get away
im just tryna help myself c-
but i fucking cant!
aye!
dont talk shit if you dont fucking mean it 
dont call me if i dont care
obviously you know when i dont care

3 4 5 6 7 8 9
bitch wanna fight but i truly dont mind
u got me an i got u 
why are we doomed if its i love you? >:(
3 4 5 6 7 8 9 
BITCH WANNA FIGHT BUT I TRULY DONT MIND
U GOT ME AND I GOT U
WHY ARE WE DOOMED IF ITS I LOVE YOU?
run him for the gram
run him for the price
run him for the day
that he said he wasnt nice
i got redeyes
you a bad type
you should know like
we could roll up
we could spark up
we dont care for ya
i hope yall know
im just a god
im made of diamonds
and resin
and larde
run him for the gram
run him for the price
run him for the day
that he said he wasnt nice

lepidoptera

soooo this actually dropped like a week ago everywhere else and i space uploading it here LMFAO so enjoy<3

prod me

lyrics:

take my hand
i'll only catch you if you let me
holding on to hope as we both drown
in rivers of doubt as we grow worlds apart
hold tight to my arm
as i try to mend this
hold me back
from a choice that i might regret
keep another secret we both better
stop and restart
get a grip on our hearts
look up to the stars
when our world is ending

there must be something in the water
that seeks to push us ever farther
and i can only stay so damn strong
you look at me like i'm a monster
there must be something in the air, love
that has me acting fucking careless
and you can only stick around so long
you wipe a tear and put your hair up

help me open up to you
i swear it never feels right
sick of staying over
wanna see you in the sunlight
help me see the part of you
you love to push away and hide
i just wanna be the only place that you reside
gave it all i had and some
have you had enough yet, or have we finally run our course?
breathing in through ravaged lungs
she's a contaminant 
i swear that we've been through this all before...

There must be Something In The Water
That seeks to push us ever farther
And I can only stay so damn strong
You look at me like I'm a monster
There must be Something In The Air, Love
That has me acting fucking careless
And you can only stick around so long
You wipe a tear and put your hair up

Something In The Water

produced by sorrow bringer

mixed by me

mastered by teddyboi

art by my lovely girlfriend <3

lyrics:

(go away from me now, i don’t wanna see your face)

go away from me 
i don’t wanna see your face again 
don’t you think that you can erase and or amend
cause the damage is already done

you took advantage and had your fun
don’t you think the time has come
for you to let go
the soul owes no bonds so lose control

but the memory won’t fold 
i’ve been losing sleep and growing old
it’s been fuckin weeks and it’s been cold
my rooms been stinkin’ foul from the mold

everybody ask me how
how i even do this
frankly i just push along and don’t think i’m an artist
faintly i’ll just make a song and don’t think i’m a above this

go away from me 
i don’t wanna see your face again 
don’t you think that you can erase and or amend
enemies always start out as friends

once dear to me 
it should’ve been clear to see
but in this fog i couldn’t recognize your face
the feeling of the shock it put me in my place 
i hate the taste 

go away from me 
i don’t wanna see your face again 
go away from me 
i don’t wanna see your face again 
i know you think that you can erase and or amend
but you can’t so just accept

go away from me 
i don’t wanna see your face again 
don’t you think that you can erase and or amend
it’s time this ends

(random mumbled gibberish lol)

open the door (feat. soph)[prod. King Theta]

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