featuring @nothomex

i let that shit get the best of me 
now i be rockin on therapy 
i do this shit all so carefully
the weight on my neck is just killin me 
pour down sleeve 
i can't fucking sleep
watch my eyes close
yeah 
this shit like 3d
i like her nose ring 
lil bitch got tagteam
her love like bad dream
i pour my once all alone now
i whip it like green and i lay out
all of my boys trynna hang out 
but i'm just trying to smoke till i black out

It’s weird when I have future in my head 
Because before 21 I see myself dead 
I can’t see any color , how can I not be mad 
I don’t have an expectation for the start of my life only for the end
I can’t see anything I cannot blend 
In between the society , I’m on a deep end 
Will I be able to stand ? 
Find myself in this shitstorm 
Did they already know my end before I was born

Last summer I was more lost than found 
Was left picking up the pieces scattered on the ground
Couldn’t talk couldn’t sleep 
Couldn’t walk couldn’t eat
Lost some pounds I lost some weight 
Now all pants fall from my waiste 
Scars on my wrist tears on my face 
The deepest wounds are the ones you can’t see
I’m the only one who can feel
All the pain they reveal 
I hope I’ll get better this year 
Sometimes I stand still 
I tried i tried i tried i tried 
i cried i cried I cried i cried
I tried i tried i tried i tried 
i cried i cried I cried i cried

dead b4 21 (ft.not home.) prod.nadiak & marlas dreams

@nevrfall
i love @heylog so much, he's an amazing person c:
lyrics:
(casperrr)
moving away as my body collapse
half a day and i already smoked half a pack
i smell the chemicals burning in my hand
i need to change this i need to take a stand
all of the promises u made they didn't worth nothing
while u ran ur mouth ur actions didn't prove anything
u still wanna tell me that i am lying
do u really wanna tell me that i am lying

AND THIS IS FUNNY CAUSE THE PROMISES ARE STUCK IN THE WALLS
U TREAT ME WRONG AND I STILL PICK U UP EVERYTIME U FALL
I GET DEPRESSED AND I SHUT MYSELF FROM WINTER TO FALL
I REALLY NEED HELP I CANT SEE WHATS REAL I JUST SEE fog
FOGGY MEMORIES IN MY BRAIN HELP ME REMEMBER
WHAT WAS THE THING THAT TRAUMATIZED ME LAST DECEMBER
CUZ I TOOK IT OUT OF MY HEAD
I KNOW I WISHED EVERYDAY FOR DEATH
I WAS GETTING SO MAD
I WAS GETTING SO FED UP

(heylog)
u made me mad, i called but u won't answer
don't speak to me like that where are your manners
it's hard when life just sucks, is it supposed to?
deteriorate non stop what am i s'posed to do
u hate on me now when i didn't do a thing
u love causing ruckus and it's concerning
but i kill the vibe is that why u hate me
i won't give u shit or anything

is it safe to say that i miss u
forgot what it's like to kiss u
i'm sorry u had to tell me what u been through
if u need me i'll be here for u
forgot what ur face looks like, it's been a day
leaving ur house but i can't drive away
arriving home and it don't feel the same
without u here, it feels so plain

promises w/heylog (nevrfall)

feel the breeze
on my knees
some1 kill me please
don't wanna live
if u leave
will u stay with me
sick of this
i want peace
please leave me be(2x)

waking to the same shit
every single fucking day
im getting tired of all of it
im sick of the waiting game

this shit hit me outta nowhere
i wasn't expecting
anything that would make me feel so bad
why is life so unfair

my life has been nothing but fucked up
some say i deserve it
others that i have bad luck
can't depend on any1 and yeah that shit sucks
im only 16 and i can't get the fuck up
can't sit back and relax while i roll 1
cause im always stressed and depressed
i can't feel love
now im on my knees
in the middle of my room
wishing to be dead, soon

feel the breeze
on my knees
some1 kill me please
don't wanna live
if u leave
will u stay with me
sick of this
i want peace
please leave me be(2x)

ha~a~oh//woah~o
(please leave me be)

stuck in my head
never talk; i be nauseous
i feel the wind on my skin
never wanted you more
like am i important?
cause i feel ignored
i swear that i’m worthless

i try to be by you
but everything’s breaking
so now i should die soon
for not fucking waiting
it hit like a typhoon
oh how degrading
my eyes they would dilute
would you come to save me

leave me be w/autumndropsdead (afterlife x jolst)

(casperrr)
blacking out, passing out in my bedroom~
felt so cold everytime that i saw you
addicted to this pain what can i do~
i know i should but i don't want to leave u
blacking out, passing out in my bedroom~
felt so cold everytime that i saw you
addicted to this pain what can i do~
i know i should but i don't want to leave u

drinking a lot so i don't think bout shit
i ran out of blunts lemme get back at it
my life is a problem and i failed mathematics
fuck the world outside my life is in the attic
17 depression's all around me
mom and dad both are pretty sick
never had any1 to take care of me
i already know everybody is gonna leave

blacking out, passing out in my bedroom~
felt so cold everytime that i saw you
addicted to this pain what can i do~
i know i should but i don't want to leave u
blacking out, passing out in my bedroom~
felt so cold everytime that i saw you
addicted to this pain what can i do~
i know i should but i don't want to leave u

(kanashi)
fucked up, spun out in my bedroom
time moves so slow in this cell without you
can i just rewind? i didnt realize
that we were running out of time
i dont know why im like this
i push everyone away
always give in to the darkness
there is no other way...

bad dreams keep me awake at night
you're so bad for me...
but i still try...

ohhhh...i still try
i still try...

(casperrr)
blacking out, passing out in my bedroom~
felt so cold everytime that i saw you
addicted to this pain what can i do~
i know i should but i don't want to leave u

blacking out, passing out in my bedroom w/kanashi (irby)

imma crack my skull on the floor
imma hit my head on the wall 
i don't wanna live this life anymore
i won't change i'll simply ignore
how depressed my life got 
yeah my life's fucked so what 
no1 cares about me no1 calls  
i won't pick you up, if u fall 

go to school and come back everyday
n i haven't spoke to u in days 
shit idrk what to say
but i promise you that everything is still the same 

imma crack my skull on the floor
imma hit my head on the wall 
i don't wanna live this life anymore
i won't change i'll simply ignore
how depressed my life got 
yeah my life's fucked so what 
no1 cares about me no1 calls  
i won't pick you up, if u fall

imma crack my skull on the floor (ten50)

prod me (:

i beg u to take me, wherever you go 
i hope where u going, they receive ur soul 
and shit still the same, i pray for better days 
nothing seems to change, but good things happen to every1 who waits

it was cold in december
but it's way colder now 
so please take me back to september
when i was able to see u around
living with nothing but a little ember 
that u left in this house 
and it still hurts to remember you 
but the thoughts oh they are way 2 loud

take me, take me back to the days
when we, when we used to be okay 
im so, im so sick of this pain
i really want to go sleep but there's no way to stop my brain (2x)

wait-
please pick ur faith up
feel it then please put ur face up
ur strong ik ur such a bleeder 
bled ur whole life without takin a breather 
laced
drugs in my system 
mixed so much shit n i can feel them 
can my life get any weirder?
nothing makes sense i feel like it's just a filler 

take me, take me back to the days
when we, when we used to be okay 
im so, im so sick of this pain
i really want to go sleep but there's no way to stop my brain

i beg u :/

https://open.spotify.com/album/2erLjZg3vJPYobdmKrexhW?si=Iu-yZ4N-Qc-Ec5v5DKoxrg

(casperrr)
stop with the lies
n tell me the truth 
when ur body lies
next to mine at noon
is it because u love me 
or am i a solution to u 
for what somebody else did
stop with the lies
n tell me the truth 
when ur body lies
next to mine at noon
is it because u love me 
or am i a replacement to u 
tell me who did u lose

(heylog)
she just burn right thru the past
like we were never a thing
baby how could u do that
and throw me against the wave
i just need someone to talk to
and have a soul to stay
i wonder if ppl are leaving me
and parting their own ways
morning always passes by
when i see u it's never right
right right right
when i see you it's always night
our insides exchange heat
when ur body lies w me
i don't want u to leave now
how bout we both just shut down

(casperrr + heylog)
stop with the lies
n tell me the truth 
when ur body lies
next to mine at noon
is it because u love me 
or am i a solution to u 
for what somebody else did
stop with the lies
n tell me the truth 
when ur body lies
next to mine at noon
is it because u love me 
or am i a replacement to u 
tell me who did u lose

casperrr x heylog - when ur body lies next to mine (nevrfrvr)

https://open.spotify.com/album/2erLjZg3vJPYobdmKrexhW?si=Iu-yZ4N-Qc-Ec5v5DKoxrg

prod. @deademane

(heylog)
between the glass
is filled with poison
i feel like trash
apply the ointment
just stay back
he needs some time alone
cus through the cracks
is the widows home
don't come inside here
i would bounce
we're not alive here
don't stick around
when ur minds clear
come in the house
cus i'm not safe here
so get me out

don't come inside here
you might fear
people always die here
bloods along the cabinets
he sacrificed a lot here
everything was gone he loved
and now there's nothing left here
he said he wants to make a change
so he cuts every piece of hair
don't come inside here
you might fear
everybody dies here
walls are colored red
and i see bodies lying everywhere
roam around the room
can you tell there's nothing left here
you're quick to quit imagining
that you brought me inside of here

(casperrr)
oh she
she is lying thru her teeth
i swear that she wants to kill me
lay with my lifeless body
while staring at the ceiling
her actions are deceiving
she cuts herself she's bleeding
the blood is running and she really
fucking loves to see it

welcome to the widows home
there's cracks and holes in every wall
the emptyness fills all those holes
this place really tourments my soul
but you can't leave neither can i
i'll go into a room and cry
i'll try to just make up my mind
cut my hair lock myself inside

there's nowhere to go to now
there's no1 to save you now

(heylog + casperrr)
don't come inside here
you might fear
people always die here
bloods along the cabinets
he sacrificed a lot here
everything was gone he loved
and now there's nothing left here
he said he wants to make a change
so he cuts every piece of hair
don't come inside here
you might fear
everybody dies here
walls are colored red
and i see bodies lying everywhere
roam around the room
can you tell there's nothing left here
you're quick to quit imagining
that you brought me inside of here

casperrr x heylog - there's nothing left here (deademane)

i can't tell lies
with this cup in my hand 
i can't love life
being who i am 
the place my body lies
is where u left me
the place my body lies
is where u killed me  

i can't tell lies
with this cup in my hand 
i can't love life
being who i am 
the place my body lies
is where u left me
the place my body lies
is where u killed me 

u hurt me again
fuck all of ur reasons
ur fucked in the head 
alone in the end 
fuck ur fucking treason
ur fucked in the head 
i gave you all my love
when i had nothing left
u never gave it back
so aknowledge u fucked my path 

look, the seasons changing
sunny days but it's still raining 
the look u gave me
i always knew that u fucking hate me 
stop, with all the blaming 
if u shut up i'll simply take it
ur attitude is still the same and
i know that u won't change it	


i can't tell lies
with this cup in my hand 
i can't love life
being who i am 
the place my body lies
is where u left me
the place my body lies
is where u killed me  

i can't tell lies
with this cup in my hand 
i can't love life
being who i am 
the place my body lies
is where u left me
the place my body lies
is where u killed me

i can't tell lies with this cup (vyle & rxhff)

prod. me

rest easy pops<33

dad, can you remember me?
cause i see those eyes are empty
i can't even eve talk with you cause u can't think
pls tell me when you look at me who do you see 
am i still your best buddy?
can u recognize somebody
i feel like ur soul has left
without ur body 
i hate to see u suffering

ever since u've been gone
shit's been different 
i hate myself
and can't take this distance 
been fucking my health 
i can feel the symptoms 
i need fucking help 
but can't face my feelings   

(i been hiding emotions
behind all the drinks
i been hiding emotions
behind all the weed 
people know about this
and still don't talk to me 
i might be fated to 
live the rest of my life all lonely)

dad, can you remember me?
cause i see those eyes are empty
i can't even eve talk with you cause u can't think
pls tell me when you look at me who do you see 
am i still your best buddy?
can u recognize somebody
i feel like ur soul has left
without ur body 
i hate to see u suffering

dad can u remember me?

(casperrr)
look at the place im in 
notice the pain i feel 
sometimes i wish u were here
so i could have u close 2 me 

look at the way i live
notice the way i bleed
i hide my scars under   sleeves
but i always have blades close 2 me

(self harming i'm addicted to pain
blood flowing down the drain 
u fucked up my whole brain 
cause i still want u to have my last name)~

(skele)
what does it feel like to wake up with closure
drinking alone i've been drunk since october
hoping for change told my mom i'd get sober
blood from my veins ill bleed till it's over
and im so scared that i cant fix the breaks u made
and it's not fair cause i'd be fine if u just stayed
sometimes i wish u were just so i could get sum fucking sleep
sometimes i wish u were baby you are everything i need

(casperrr)
look at the place im in 
notice the pain i feel 
sometimes i wish u were here
so i could have u close 2 me 

look at the way i live
notice the way i bleed
i hide my scars under   sleeves
but i always have blades close 2 me (2x)

look at the place i'm in w/skele (pekarot)

prod. me

[casperrr]
the marks on my body
make me remember
what everybody made me go thru
back in december

[autumn]
this all is my fault
it aint no surprise
i lean into the wall
and back intol ife

[casperrr]
my body is rotting
could u save me now
i can't stop myself from falling
but can u pick me up from the ground

[autumn]
im stuck in the rubble and ash 
to fly in a line is a definite crash 
stumbled across who i was in the past
hope i don't re-la-pse

[casperrr]
they all think im different
really whats the difference
i do have feelings
how can't yall see that

[casperrr & autumndropsdead]
ooh~

casperrr x autumndropsdead - back_in2_life (casperrr)

prod. me

wanna lock myself inside
cuz ull kill me w ur eyes
duck, run and ill hide
cuz im addicted to ur smile

dead romance, lit candle lights 
not bruised but went thru fights
u say u love me but thats a lie
cuz u grin everytime i cry 

roll some blunts and give me a hit 
getting sober i'll never do it
i'm so scared i can't deall with shit
more anxious everyday i know i'm getting sick

dead romance, lit candle lights 
so fucking tired, i can't sleep at night
u say u care for me that's a lie
cause u smile everytime i say i wanna die
dead romance, lit candle lights 
not bruised but went thru fights
u say u love me but thats a lie
cuz u grin everytime i cry

dead romance, lit candle lights

dead romance, lit candle lights.

i must live in a snowstorm
cuz all my problems snowball
u said u don’t love me at all
i guess ill just lay down on the cold floor
closed blinds locked door
don’t call me ill just ignore 
dont meed ur help dont need ur love
dont need ur hand dont meed a whore

i c ur face shining baby its moonlit
wearing the same clothes i did last week
momma keeps telling me that i look sick
if only she knew whats goin on w me
cant sleep cant eat im so weak 
almost died last night goin highspeeds
paradox that shit makes me wanna live
outta box thinking people always called me weird (2x)

i must live in a snowstorm
cuz all my problems snowball
u said u don’t love me at all
i guess ill just lay down on the cold floor
closed blinds locked door
don’t call me ill just ignore 
dont meed ur help dont need ur love
dont need ur hand dont meed a whore

snowball (santana)

(casperrr)
so high bitch i feel like im flying
u say u love me but i really know u lying
posted at ur crib, bae why u crying
u can't understand shit i say i cut the high end 

feeling low baby can't even get outta bed 
u said u hated me and now all im seeing is red 
never leaving home, im crying to myself
i can't understand your point, why can't u give me help 

posted, outside with extendos 
big bag, full of greens not no lettuce
in the stu with the homies good fellas
still sad but at least im feelin better

why u screamin whatchu fuckin mean 
i need real love not no rom of teens
i know im young but i was never a kid
nowadays im finding it hard 2 live

so high bitch i feel like im flying
u say u love me but i really know u lying
posted at ur crib, bae why u crying
u can't understand shit i say i cut the high end 

feeling low baby can't even get outta bed 
u said u hated me and now all im seeing is red 
never leaving home, im crying to myself
i can't understand your point, why can't u give me help 

(1fern)
talk shit & youre headed out the window
don't talk to me, you are not my kin-folk
2 9s yeah, we always hold akimbo
got your girl & she acting like a nympho

when i speak you respond on demand
empty ashtrays, fill em up again
so fucked up, i can't even stand
but she still askin me what's the plan

when i wake up, i'm feeling so lifeless
swear to God, i been feeling like a flight risk
can't speak cuz I feel like my brain broke
spending money on some green and a bespoke

seeing stars, even when i close my eyelids
all alone when the party subsided
i been lost & i know i been misguided
i don't really know where my fucking mind is

(casperrr + 1fern)
so high bitch i feel like im flying
u say u love me but i really know u lying
posted at ur crib, bae why u crying
u can't understand shit i say i cut the high end 

feeling low baby can't even get outta bed 
u said u hated me and now all im seeing is red 
never leaving home, im crying to myself
i can't understand your point, why can't u give me help

duality w/1fern (reijiro)

im a fuckin misfit
tied myself to this bitch
knot around both my wrists
all my friend r toxic

ur ashes i can't find em
am livin in denial 
lifes comically vile 
been cryin for a while

stare at my body as i bleed
what did u even find in me 
a bucnh of dreams ill never reach
a lot of ideas ill never be 

stare at my yeah (4x)

im fucked up and shits not over
i want to but i can't get sober 
ur death made my whole body colder
everynight i dream about when i used to hold ya(2x)

love life but death seems charming
can't stop myself from falling 
eyes glued to the back of my eyelids
when i die fill my coffin with violets 

im a fuckin misfit
tied myself to this bitch
knot around both my wrists
all my friend r toxic

ur ashes i can't find em
am livin in denial 
lifes comically vile 
been cryin for a while

misfit (santana)

watch the leaves fall on my legs 
as i wait and let the time pass
seasons go my life's still a mess
why did i put my life in both ur hands?

fading away disappearing fast
all of ur love for me like a crash
why did this happen is this a test?
i hate u for making me hate myself

im cutting my wrists breaking my bones
stuck in my head, stuck in my home
laying awake all night long
lookin at u thru my phone
lonely everyday i do the same
sit on my chair and i rot away
while i keep dreamin bout u 
and the way u were dressed that day
im cutting my wrists breaking my bones
stuck in my head, stuck in my home
laying awake all night long
lookin at u thru my phone
lonely everyday i do the same
sit on my chair and i rot away
while i keep dreamin bout u 
and the way u were dressed that day

don't even bother callin my phone
i changed my number and im goin ghost
i hate the life and the way it goes
im well today but tomorrow nobody knows
different drinks, cigs and a bloody nose
that's the way the sad ones roll
losing track, of how many tracks, 
i pulled of doing song after song
song after song
tens in a row 
and im losing control
losing compusure 
destroying my soul
im just hopin that in peace i will go 
cuz~

im cutting my wrists breaking my bones
stuck in my head, stuck in my home
laying awake all night long
lookin at u thru my phone
lonely everyday i do the same
sit on my chair and i rot away
while i keep dreamin bout u 
and the way u were dressed that day

cutting my wrists, breaking my bones (young taylor)

watch me, get tore apart more everyday
baby, wish you'd really love me like u say
lately, i been feelin you fade away
slowly, but i know i'll lose you anyway
watch me, get tore apart more everyday
baby, wish you'd really love me like u say
lately, i been feelin you fade away
slowly, but i know i'll lose you anyway    

(all that u do 4 me, is it pitty or love?
the things you say 2 me, do they come from the heart?
have i been a waste of life right from the start
cause im feeling lost, i needa sit down n talk)

i only have u left i don't know what to do 
don't know how to act, defense or attack
i just can't lose you
don't know what to say are things okay 
are you also confused?~
need something to see, something to touch 
or ill lose myself soon

down a spiral of hate, back to the blades
touching my skin,
im losing my faith, in need of a change 
the bloods runnin thin
nothings feelin great, and when you say 
u love me idk whatchu mean 
ill go back to my room and the drugs i consume
and keep doing my thing 

watch me, get tore apart more everyday
baby, wish you'd really love me like u say
lately, i been feelin you fade away
slowly, but i know i'll lose you anyway  
watch me, get tore apart more everyday
baby, wish you'd really love me like u say
lately, i been feelin you fade away
slowly, but i know i'll lose you anyway

watch me. (michael harrison)

君の好きな歌を聞いて
一緒に撮った写真を見て
私はつい思っちゃう
君は元気にしているのか？
体はちゃんと大事にしているのか？
夜はまだちゃんと眠れないのか？
それと、一番大事なのは
自分の心を託される人は見つけたのか？
私は-

don't say u hate me, i know u do
nothing can change me neither can u
been hurt b4 still don't have a clue
how to get better n change my mood

won't ever change, i thinks it's genetic
engraved in my brain
used to the problems not used to pain
praying something makes it all go away
all go away
u left me alone dealing with MYself
u said u were gonna watch over my health
taking all the pills lined up on the shelf
like a buncha soldiers killin in stealth

chip me away, slowly
make me do it ur way, like it's holy
take our ring, break it
show me u never cared, bout me

don't say u hate me, i know u do
nothing can change me neither can u
been hurt b4 still don't have a clue
how to get better n change my mood
don't say u hate me, i know u do
nothing can change me neither can u
been hurt b4 still don't have a clue
how to get better n change my mood

don't say u hate me, i know u do (king theta)

at least i tried
but our love died
right in my arms, fell right thru
like it was a lie 
at least i tried
but our love died
right in my arms, fell right thru
like it was a lie 


grabbin a drink feeling hopeless again
on my face's fallin tears, bottle gripped in my hand
outside i look fine 
but inside im fighting a war all alone on the losing end 
losing end but i can't see the end
losing all i have, losing my head 
i fight them off but they keep coming back
like cancer cells, avoinding treatment

NUN TO DO BUT GET FADED
NOWADAYS IM WALKIN JADED
NO SOLUTION OCCURS IN MY MIND
TO MY PROBLEMS, ILL JUST DIG UP MY GRAVE THEN 
IM BECOMING WHAT I HATED
NO PROCCEDURES, STILL SEDATED
TAKING EVERYTHING I CAN TO EASE UP THE PAIN
AND I DON'T KNO IF ILL MAKE IT   

NUN TO DO BUT GET FADED
NOWADAYS IM WALKIN JADED
NO SOLUTION OCCURS IN MY MIND
TO MY PROBLEMS, ILL JUST DIG UP MY GRAVE THEN 
IM BECOMING WHAT I HATED
NO PROCCEDURES, STILL SEDATED
TAKING EVERYTHING I CAN TO EASE UP THE PAIN
AND I DON'T KNO IF ILL MAKE IT   

at least i tried
but our love died
right in my arms, fell right thru
like it was a lie

at least i tried (sorrow bringer)

so much pain in my heart
idk where to start 
i keep rollin up blunts
and smokin em all in the dark 
closed in the stu makin art 
about everything thatS a part
of my life and marked me 
to the point where i can't even talk

to anybody i know
bout anything that i go
thru everyday is a struggle
wakin up  wishin i don't
shit got me feeling so low 
going thru this all alone
i got nobody to relate to 
but a pillbox n a bong

everyday is the same/ but just a little bit different
today i was the guilty one again, cuz i didn't listen
yesterday it was still my fault, but surely 4 anotha reason
i think/ shit never changes, despite us changing the szn
i suddenly went cold, like we're in a blizzard
sick of bastards who fold, n runaway like they lizzards
acting like u r dr connors, imma beat u like peter
ain't no way u betraying me, im sick of being beaten

not my choice to be born
not my decision
if it really was up to me
i'd be in a grave not breathing
all the bones that u broke 
r the reason 
why ur so bad for me 
but keep me from kneeling

so much pain in my heart
idk where to start 
i keep rollin up blunts
and smokin em all in the dark 
closed in the stu makin art 
about everything thatS a part
of my life and marked me 
to the point where i can't even talk

to anybody i know
bout anything that i go
thru everyday is a struggle
wakin up  wishin i don't
shit got me feeling so low 
going thru this all alone
i got nobody to relate to 
but a pillbox n a bong

sm pain in mh (tiedforsilver)

msitreated, misplaced
scars on my face
smoking so much lately
my teeth got yellow stains

no feelings, erased
hate how people change
bloody knuckles hit the wall
but life's still the same 

over you in my head
in my heart u still there
my body's a mess
feel u eating at my flesh 


feeding off of me
ur drinking what i bleed
acting like you love me 
then use me like a leach

how ain't u ashamed of ur-self~
keep on acting like ur the-best
i think u should just let me-rest
stop trynna find where my body-at

deep down, covered in dirt
x marks the spot i got hurt
under a tree, where the sun won't burn
is where i wrote this song

mistreated, misplaced
scars on my face
smoking so much lately
my teeth got yellow stains

no feelings, erased
hate how people change
bloody knuckles hit the wall
but life's still the same (2x)

mistreated, misplaced (caves)

crumbling everywhere i go to, lately 
breaking down nowadays is something, daily 
i swear i tried but i can't seem to escape this trapped in a maze where every corner's an abyss

it seems like no1's trynna save me 
no helping hands, no calls nor texts
they just leave me to face it
got no support, full of remorse i need you to embrace me 
in ur arms, they sooth the scars and make me just forget this

u didn't care u din't ask
all our love's fading fast 
hit me sudden like a crash 
watch us both turn into ash 

make of my heart a cast
pour hot iron on my chest
watch me fail to catcha breath
as my body slowly melts r 

and i’ll sit alone
my phones on dnd 
but it wouldn’t matter 
no one checks on me 
and they’ll say they care
but don’t listen closely 
they’ll say they care 
when i finally can’t breathe 

friends hit me for a feature 
but they’ve never shared my songs 
and i’ll pretend it’s cool 
cause it’s not worth i’ll play along  
so i may be a narcissist 
please say that it’s okay 
cause if i do not love myself 
then that leaves no one loving me 

i walk alone 
drag broken bones 
they throw their stones 
and go for my throat 
i’ll turn off my phone 
and i’ll keep it closed 
cause i don’t need anyone to know where i’ll go

u didn't care u din't ask
all our love's fading fast 
hit me sudden like a crash 
watch us both turn into ash 

make of my heart a cast
pour hot iron on my chest
watch me fail to catcha breath
as my body slowly melts r

casperrr & geist - cast (pekarot)

take my breath, my blood out
run away fast doublej like a scout
bonk on my head cuz of this loud
blow out os, take ws all year around
take my breath, my blood out
run away fast doublej like a scout
bonk on my head cuz of this loud
blow out os, take ws all year around

red dot, scope 
i don't really miss a shot 
bread brings, hope 
and i gotta get my shot 
all day low 
so at night's time to get high
roll the smoke
open fl and feel the vibe 

lil bitch on her knees
my contact 4 her is dentist
the way i whiten all her teeth
a pro not an aprentice

double J im faded 
anotha j im jaded 
dont care bout a thing no more 
and this high i feel amazing

double j go crazy 
im prime u a fugazi 
the way u try to be me
just shows how ur fuckin lazy

doubleJ (branwen)

numb the pain til i 
feel whole again or i
crumble down and hide
famine waiting 2 die 
numb the pain cuz i 
want more to find 
even mortified 
ill try to fight 

i wish i could ask for help
but these are the cards i was delt
count on me and nobody else 
cause im sick of hurting myself 
people come when they need something too
nobody 	   cares about you 
or whatever u are going thru
it's just matter of who uses who

numb the pain til i 
feel whole again or i
crumble down and hide
famine waiting 2 die 
numb the pain cuz i 
want more to find 
even mortified 
ill try to fight

numb the pain(THERSX)

don't feel my heart my heart no more yeah
too much wakin up passin out yeah 
too much i been thinking bout in my head

too much
no one
to tell me when to stop
aint got self love 

waiting for a change 
and i mean us
wipping of the dirt
and i mean dust   

another day getting geeked up
sip so much got a lean gut 
how do you say you love me when u give lust 
need u to say sum before i give up 
seasons may change but i feel stuck
might die over love like i mean drugs

got my heart
full of sorrow
and my blood
full of drugs i cant see nothing

can't change her mind
not even if i try
while she said
it was nothing
  
stay away from my home
i don't care no more
cause i feel like 
im burning 

???

smoke anotha cig 
and i roll another 
blunt while i roll
thru the function 

i used to get the shakes
when i looked at ur face
dream about us 
in london

stick a needle in my veins
and i slice thru my arm
just to see blood running 

don't feel my heart my heart no more yeah
too much wakin up passin out yeah 
too much i been thinking bout in my head

too much
no one
to tell me when to stop
aint got self love 

waiting for a change 
and i mean us
wipping of the dirt
and i mean dust   

another day getting geeked up
sip so much got a lean gut 
how do you say you love me when u give lust 
need u to say sum before i give up 
seasons may change but i feel stuck
might die over love like i mean drugs

𝚒 𝚖𝚎𝚊𝚗 𝚞𝚜 (YÜG x casperrr) [santana]

u said i was ur fire 
but those words were just a lullaby

but they don't help me to sleep at night
cuz everytime you talk i cry  
and i'm so hollow deep inside 
but in pain all the time

sorry mom
im on the drugs again
sorry bro
i understand ur pain
sorry friends
i hung up on u, im a mess
sorry dad
i take the pills

but they don't help me to sleep at night
cuz everytime you talk i cry  
and i'm so hollow deep inside 
but in pain all the time

but they don't help me to sleep at night
cuz everytime you talk i cry  
and i'm so hollow deep inside 
but in pain all the time

lullaby (pekarot)

all my friends say i've changed
i'm not me now 
cause i drink and i smoke 
til i pass out 
all my friends say i've changed
and i'm mean now 
cause i say what i think
no matter how (2x)

and i'm trynna get my money up
travel where the dreams come true 
when people make it it's never luck
except when it comes to you 

lately i been asking for help
sadly with no1 to come thru 
they say i just think bout myself
i'm trynna keep myself away from the box made out of wood

all my friends say i've changed
i'm not me now 
cause i drink and i smoke 
til i pass out 
all my friends say i've changed
and i'm mean now 
cause i say what i think
no matter how 

drugs keep me afloat
wavs keep me from ending it all
sometimes i wish u crushed my throat
so i woulnd't have to feel at all
so i wouldn't've to deal with all
the bullshit i get involved 
with everysingle day 
cause it just means a new headache 

all my friends say i've changed
i'm not me now 
cause i drink and i smoke 
til i pass out 
all my friends say i've changed
and i'm mean now 
cause i say what i think
no matter how (2x)

she said sum ain't right (cxrter)

all my days are getting darker
and i can't breathe 
i don't amount to nothing 
it's easy to see
all i feel is numbing pain
and anxiety
my heart is just like a drain 
engulfs my fucking feels

dreaming of the top 10 
living in bottom 1 
don't kno if i'll make it
but i gotta trust myself first 
trynna realign with my mind so i convert
what goes on inside all the time into a verse

trynna speak my mind out im
trynna scream my heart out loud 
i could never talk about it
that's why it's such a big problem now 
dealing with it all like i ain't don't have any issues
sipping alc everyday but i say imma stop soon 
can't help myself to stop always feeling so blue 
i wish i felt like all the other colors of the rainbow

all my days are getting darker
and i can't breathe 
i don't amount to nothing 
it's easy to see
all i feel is numbing pain
and anxiety
my heart is just like a drain 
engulfs my fucking feels (2x)

engulfs (smokerose)

and you never know
if the sun goes cold
when the truth unfolds
i'll be there to hold 
you even if ur wrong
i'm staying strong 
but you never know
you never know 
what's coming
next for you

always itching
waiting for 
ur text to come thru

i cannot believe
that there's no pain
in this world

set back 
relax
i can't 

too much
inside
again

gotta
leave
my skin

cuts
relieve
the achin

i thought 
i had a future
but

and you never know
if the sun goes cold
when the truth unfolds
i'll be there to hold 
you even if ur wrong
i'm staying strong 
but you never know
you never know 
what's coming
next for you

and you never know
if the sun goes cold
when the truth unfolds
i'll be there to hold 
you even if ur wrong
i'm staying strong 
but you never know
you never know 
what's coming
next for you

casperrr

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