written by Lxst Boy, Cavasoul, and soku
produced by Riddiman and oldboyy
mixed and mastered by Lxst Boy
cover art by futoh
out on all platforms

-lyrics-
(Hook: Lxst Boy)
finish up my homework then I write another song
why does everybody hate me I swear that I did nothing wrong
got like 20 messages everytime I check my phone
but i will never answer them, I hate this feeling its getting old

(Verse 1: Lxst Boy)
try to tell me that im not ok
but cant you see the smile thats plastered on my face
like come over sometime and find me dead at my place
im sipping on this coffee praying that this pain would go away
the solitude is nice but I'm sick of being alone
walked a million miles on a path they call the lonely road
pondering my consciences, the deepest part of my soul
but hey im just a kid so what do i really know

(Hook)

(Verse 2: Cavasoul)
i hate this feeling, feeling horrible
is getting old
im losing meaning, meaning everything is seeming horrible
I'm conceited, seated at a table undesirable
I know that she could ruin me because shes so adorable
I fall asleep and I see images of violence
I see a side of me incite a riot
swear my head is never quiet
I'm craving death, it tries to overtake my fear of dying
I'll just go to bed so hopefully I can stop fucking crying
i hate this feeling that I feel whenever I open up my eyes
and now my lungs have started hurting as result from getting high
it gets tiring when you always just feel like you could die
now I'm breaking down again, just for today is the third time

(Hook)

(Verse 3: soku)
it's getting old, I'm growing old and I don't know if i could stay
every time you look my way I just turn and look away
I don't know if I could stay in this place
with this feeling that I hate and it won't go away yeah
yeah my voice is sounding stupid and my grades are going down
everybody else around hating me I feel the frown
on my face yeah I'm a waste yeah
telling everyone I might just take a break yeah
I finish up my homework then I go and cry alone
everybody hating me  and so I walk the lonely road
got like 20 messages every time i check my phone 
but that's not quite reality I hate this feeling it's getting old

(Hook)

@cavasoul
@soku_music
@prodriddiman

S T R E A M

i hate this feeling w/ cavasoul & soku (riddiman x oldboyy)

Rxseboy - Not Alright

instagram: @cavasoul
artwork instagram: @organict3a

lyrics:

i don’t wanna go to sleep and waste my time to be awake/ only time i feel of use is when i’m with you in the day/ cherish every single moment before you ever go away/ i know you gotta go but i just wish that you could stay/ yeah you’re all i ever think about even when you’re with me/ you have made my dreams come true like the place called disney/ we could get away i don’t think anyone would miss me/ live in isolation on an island tell me you’ll come with me/ from blue moods to blue skies you change up the weather/ i’ve never ever heard someone tell me to do better/ you just look so good when you’re drowning in my sweater/ all the fun we have is lighthearted like a feather/ every single day i look back on it smiling/ you could call us hoarders all these memories we piling/ watch romantic comedies both of us are bawling/ it’s like i can’t stay on my feet cause i just keep on falling/



last night i had a nightmare/ where i woke up and you weren’t there/ feel like i’m going crazy/ i just need to see you baby/



yeah last night i had a nightmare/ you said you had to go/ you left me in the dust/ except i’m laying on my floor/ i asked myself what i did to make you wanna leave/ i got a text from you saying that you didn’t love me/ anymore/ heartbroken and i don’t know what to do/ all the time and effort that i put into you/ is all wasted and the skies are no longer blue/ i feel anxious i can’t be here i think i need to move/ so i pack up all my things and i put them in the trunk/ trying to forget that i recently got dumped/ now i’m speeding on the highway and the rain is pouring down/ i was feeling scared cause i had to leave my town/ it just felt so real and i just hoped it wouldn’t last/ i’m bracing for impact and the car was coming fast/ life flashed before my eyes you were the last thing i’d see/ but then i woke up and you were there right beside me/

last night i had a nightmare (prod. slowet)

Lyrics:

[Chorus]
I don't wanna talk to you can you leave me alone
I blocked you on everything your numbers out my phone
Used to be my will to live and now you're just a ghost
Drag that blade right down my wrist I think it's time to go
I don't wanna talk to you can you leave me alone
I blocked you on everything your numbers out my phone
Used to be my will to live and now you're just a ghost
Drag that blade right down my wrist I think it's time to go

[Verse]
Demons so close I could taste them
Tryna cut em down like Jason
They used to say my flow was basic
Had to come through elevate it
I'm just the kid in the back of the class
Only ok when I'm off of the gas
Smokin' till my vision turnin' black
That's the only time that I relax
Homie I know I got problems
But at least I'm honest
With my homie's sippin' tonic
Yeah I've been off that chronic
Lately my stats been poppin'
'Boutta blast off like a rocket
I feel way to awkward
Never been one for talkin'
Society ain't met for me
This can't be my destiny
Most days I wanna rest in peace
Think God fucked up my recipe
Baby imma psycho I know I'm insane
Just talked to my doctor and he said he can't explain
All the fuckin' problems that he found inside my brain
Yeah you're the reason I wanna die everyday, yeah

[Chorus]
I don't wanna talk to you can you leave me alone
I blocked you on everything your numbers out my phone
Used to be my will to live and now you're just a ghost
Drag that blade right down my wrist I think it's time to go
I don't wanna talk to you can you leave me alone
I blocked you on everything your numbers out my phone
Used to be my will to live and now you're just a ghost
Drag that blade right down my wrist I think it's time to go

SadBoyProlific  - Time To Go (Remix)

out now on all platforms. 
art by: https://www.instagram.com/organict3a/

i wrote this at 2am while u slept beside me (prod. tundra beats)

Produced by M.E
Artwork by David Kiernan

Kam Michael
instagram.com/imkammichael
youtube.com/c/KamMichael
twitter.com/kammichael_
spoti.fi/2RxYGFj

Jerome
http://www.soundcloud.com/kingjerome01
http://www.facebook.com/KingJerome01
http://www.twitter.com/JeromeThePrince
http://www.instagram.com/JeromeThePrince

What's Wrong With Me? (ft. Jerome) [Prod. M.E]

@sadboyprolific
@le_play

lyrics:

SadBoyProlific:

i hate when im left on my own again
im just a broken kid hoping for someone to hold em quick
lost in emotions and potions this 
is me reaching and you cant even notice it 
you took my heart and then froze it quick
locked up the door and my chest and regret that i opened it 
vision is slow and cant focus i feel like my head is exploding 
shits getting old and my time is approaching 
this is a mindset i think that my minds fuckin broken 
just look at the way that im coping 
ounce nothing less what im smoking
this is the life that ive chosen 
and ive had regrets every step of the way 
puffed up my chest as i left through the flame 
left you for dead and in my head im insane
dead for a red as i bled out in pain

Le Play:
what do you want from me 
this is just honesty cuz honestly ill fall asleep
before it gets hard to breathe 
ill constantly just fall to piece 
you know its hard for me but still you pry so modernly
this is a tragedy or more just like a comedy
keep playing the victim i know all of the lies your tryna sell
im stuck in this room thats full of these mirros all i got is myself
you know i live for the pain 
you know im stuck in the rain 
i do it again and again and again 
and everythings broken and always in vein