The Upload

know better w/ eric godlow (prod m.e)

I actually posted this on tik tok awhile ago but here it is if you haven’t listened yet

Lyrics

Now days a struggle to even wake up
I just wanna lye maybe die on the inside I can’t help being strangled by thoughts
What I do doesn’t matter my hope just gets shattered but when stagger I still pick myself up
And I wish I was cool and wasn’t so lame 
And I wish I could shine even when there’s some rain
And I’m counting my days they all feel like the same
 
going insane And I can’t be myself
Wasting my time and ignoring my health
It’s harder to talk I can barley inhale
I’ve tried everything and I just seem to fail
I’m giving up life and it’s not hard to tell
I wanna be free not and live in a shell 
too tired to try 
I just wanna live life 
but not as me 
as somebody else

i dont wanna be me anymore (Rxseboy open challenge)

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written by kobayami, Vertigo, & Lxst Boy
produced by jxsie beats
mixed by Lxst Boy & kobayami
mastered by Lxst Boy
cover art by kobayami

-lyrics-
(Verse 1: kobayami)
been about a year since I felt your grace
and I wont lie
I been missing that pretty face
with bangs on the side
thinking bout what i could've done better for you
should've adored you
should've gone for it and kissed you
well you know it wasn't always that bad
got to finally meet when you drove me mad 
with your beautiful looks
and the rope that you took from me
I know what I ain't took
but you put the life back in me
2 weeks into meeting you and we're talking in the dms
blowing up my phone, stating up until the a.m.
talking bout cute days but we'll never see them
cause I dont talk to you no more
I'm sorry babe I should've done more
without me though you're much better off
I'm not the same as i was before
mostly cause I'm such a bore

(Verse 2: Vertigo)
never been that into bangs but they look good on you
I never meant to change my ways, sorry if I failed you
now i just need you to know that I made every shot count
and I counted up my sorrows while I'm still on this couch
got ice cream and movies, yeah thats where I'm at
I'm feeling empty in my chest, dont know where  my head's at
I got a grovel to my voice, she said lets smoke till 2
i like that you think that, so lets go smoke on the roof
wish that I could've brought some weed and ride the high like noble steeds
but instead I grow like weeds
and affect your love too
she said I always seemed like the man with the plan
those people annoy be though, they're the type i can't stand
and so I'm sorry that i bored you with my lackluster ways
i hope that you'll forgive me
maybe
maybe someday

(Verse 3: Lxst Boy)
yeah
brush your bangs up off your face
looking so cute
I tried to be a better person
but that's far from the truth
and baby i cant fall asleep
cause I'm thinking bout you
constantly i find myself
walking straight up the moon
i miss your pale white face
in the glow of the evening light
talk about our past decisions
one day maybe get it right
yeah
or maybe get our act together
I sit and ponder petty things like the rainy weather
you picked me like a rose and told me I was something special
and now i wither and I die, never elemental
I grow as old as the trees as they surround the middle
I'm sorry that I'm boring
oh baby just a little

you're boring (kobayami, jxsie beats, Vertigo, & Lxst Boy)

@sorrow - sunshine (prod. 8ROKEBOY)

boredddddddd but heres one with umu :)

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fallen skies (w/umu)

i wish i could fix myself 4 u (demo lol)

Prod @Sinxi 
Thx for the guitar sample @izwithonez

LYRICS 

Fuck it up take the problem and the pills again
Im honest but, I can lie when I need a friend
So dont face me with all the regret you have
Cuz I know damn well you believed in what we did

Got me stuck again
Other side of this train
She been looking in
I been honest with me
To her only friends
You dont know what you see
Never love a psycho
She been looping round for me
A different typo every time that she screams at me
A different light bulb switching up in behind the scenes
DONT FALL AGAIN I KNOW
DONT TRUST AGAIN I HOPE

Breathing lines
Head to toe im feeling shivers
From her demon eyes
Sell my soul just for a feeling
That u caught at mine
I swear she choking on my shit
She say she wanna die
Who dont wanna die
God my times been plastered
Holy water from a pastor
Mixed up all up with the vodka
Guess im only half a bastard
I know
She gon tell me Im broke
Its the same as before
Taking shots at the door

Got me stuck again
Other side of this train
She been looking in
I been honest with me
To her only friends
You dont know what you see
Never love a psycho
She been looping round for me
A different typo every time that she screams at me
A different light bulb switching up in behind the scenes
DONT FALL AGAIN I KNOW

Dont pull the strings away together from me
Blocked out facetious things
she wants to say toward me
Collect the only things
You wanna say you own
YOU DONT
And thats just how I fight back
Five bottles counted up right on ya nightstand
Fucked up, never trust me and I write that
Every god damn time I go

Got me stuck again
Other side of this train
She been looking in
I been honest with me
To her only friends
You dont know what you see
Never love a psycho
She been looping round for me
A different typo every time that she screams at me
A different light bulb switching up in behind the scenes
DONT FALL AGAIN I KNOW

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know better w/ eric godlow (prod m.e)

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