love, joshua w/ vedh

i’m looking for a reason to say good night
communication hasn’t happened for a long time
countless times i replay when you said goodbye
moment that it happened burned into my eyes and mind
i’m fine
i’ll say i’ll try
if you look into my eyes you know i’m lying
you’re the one that really knows the reasons i cry
you’re the one that had to see it with your own eyes
i swear this life is a joke
fill up my time with my music and hope
that it will work out it’s the only way i cope
in the journey of life it’s the one and only road for me
i don’t know what you done to me
every time i think about you i can’t fucking breathe
then my thoughts are overtaken by my ocd
and i rot away my mental as i fall asleep

when it’s just me myself and i
i don’t feel alive
i don’t wanna die
but i can feel the vibe
x4

when it’s just me myself and i
i don’t feel alive
i don’t wanna die
but i can feel the vibe
losing track of time
my eyes are on fire
i been up all night
you are on my mind
x2

i’m restless and reckless
a mess 
why is death in life always endless
always in the midst my emotions are deafened
i dissociate until i’m lacking all my essence
if i leave again then i won’t come back
i feel like i’m under attack
where the sun don’t reach
and my eyes don’t see
and my lungs don’t breathe but you won’t understand
there’s a face underneath each mask that i see
i can be what i need in my dreams
i don’t sleep
i just worry 
never eat
but the beast won’t rest til it’s free
and then feast on my heart til doesn’t have a beat
i swear
it's a sad sad world that we inhabit
keeping goodbyes so dramatic
stay away from people it’s a habit
isolate myself go live on another planet

sweet dreams, my little insomniac ft. ivri (prod. capsctrl)

Into The Void (Prod. Chronyc)

written by Lxst Boy, Cavasoul, and soku
produced by Riddiman and oldboyy
mixed and mastered by Lxst Boy
cover art by futoh
out on all platforms

-lyrics-
(Hook: Lxst Boy)
finish up my homework then I write another song
why does everybody hate me I swear that I did nothing wrong
got like 20 messages everytime I check my phone
but i will never answer them, I hate this feeling its getting old

(Verse 1: Lxst Boy)
try to tell me that im not ok
but cant you see the smile thats plastered on my face
like come over sometime and find me dead at my place
im sipping on this coffee praying that this pain would go away
the solitude is nice but I'm sick of being alone
walked a million miles on a path they call the lonely road
pondering my consciences, the deepest part of my soul
but hey im just a kid so what do i really know

(Hook)

(Verse 2: Cavasoul)
i hate this feeling, feeling horrible
is getting old
im losing meaning, meaning everything is seeming horrible
I'm conceited, seated at a table undesirable
I know that she could ruin me because shes so adorable
I fall asleep and I see images of violence
I see a side of me incite a riot
swear my head is never quiet
I'm craving death, it tries to overtake my fear of dying
I'll just go to bed so hopefully I can stop fucking crying
i hate this feeling that I feel whenever I open up my eyes
and now my lungs have started hurting as result from getting high
it gets tiring when you always just feel like you could die
now I'm breaking down again, just for today is the third time

(Hook)

(Verse 3: soku)
it's getting old, I'm growing old and I don't know if i could stay
every time you look my way I just turn and look away
I don't know if I could stay in this place
with this feeling that I hate and it won't go away yeah
yeah my voice is sounding stupid and my grades are going down
everybody else around hating me I feel the frown
on my face yeah I'm a waste yeah
telling everyone I might just take a break yeah
I finish up my homework then I go and cry alone
everybody hating me  and so I walk the lonely road
got like 20 messages every time i check my phone 
but that's not quite reality I hate this feeling it's getting old

(Hook)

@cavasoul
@soku_music
@prodriddiman

S T R E A M

i hate this feeling w/ cavasoul & soku (riddiman x oldboyy)

Im Losing It w/Matego (prod. moon)

new song with Lxst Boy
check him out - https://soundcloud.com/lxstboymusic

@TheMarkerFlipper x @Lxst Boy - just the two of us (prod. Con)

I Could Stay For Days (feat. Lxst Boy) [prod. Mist3r]

#SCFirst 

featuring sody. produced by sarcastic sounds.

fools (can't help falling in love)

I dont condone suicide these were just the thoughts on my mind at a point in time...
prod by:@mental
MIxed by:@lofeetunes
art by:@oddyssi

spotify!

Dead And Cold

I hate this feeling of sadness and loneliness....
Mixed by: @skitallraps
Art: https://www.pinterest.com/pin/787567053558067159/

Alone ft. ivri(prod. ocean)

instagram: @cavasoul
artwork instagram: @organict3a

lyrics:

i don’t wanna go to sleep and waste my time to be awake/ only time i feel of use is when i’m with you in the day/ cherish every single moment before you ever go away/ i know you gotta go but i just wish that you could stay/ yeah you’re all i ever think about even when you’re with me/ you have made my dreams come true like the place called disney/ we could get away i don’t think anyone would miss me/ live in isolation on an island tell me you’ll come with me/ from blue moods to blue skies you change up the weather/ i’ve never ever heard someone tell me to do better/ you just look so good when you’re drowning in my sweater/ all the fun we have is lighthearted like a feather/ every single day i look back on it smiling/ you could call us hoarders all these memories we piling/ watch romantic comedies both of us are bawling/ it’s like i can’t stay on my feet cause i just keep on falling/



last night i had a nightmare/ where i woke up and you weren’t there/ feel like i’m going crazy/ i just need to see you baby/



yeah last night i had a nightmare/ you said you had to go/ you left me in the dust/ except i’m laying on my floor/ i asked myself what i did to make you wanna leave/ i got a text from you saying that you didn’t love me/ anymore/ heartbroken and i don’t know what to do/ all the time and effort that i put into you/ is all wasted and the skies are no longer blue/ i feel anxious i can’t be here i think i need to move/ so i pack up all my things and i put them in the trunk/ trying to forget that i recently got dumped/ now i’m speeding on the highway and the rain is pouring down/ i was feeling scared cause i had to leave my town/ it just felt so real and i just hoped it wouldn’t last/ i’m bracing for impact and the car was coming fast/ life flashed before my eyes you were the last thing i’d see/ but then i woke up and you were there right beside me/

last night i had a nightmare (prod. slowet)

i'm so sorry </3

ft. @powfu @mishaal

produced by con

Listen on Spotify!

@rxseboy x @powfu x @mishaal - when we were 16 (prod. con)

please support author of this song!!!
author:
https://vk.com/owlneverdie
https://soundcloud.com/owlneverdie
https://www.instagram.com/owlneverdie_/
https://www.youtube.com/channel/UCYeaqW8GwqCBp45Nr9gpvYQ

Owlneverdie - Театр

listen close to my words

produced by Ocean Beats
https://www.youtube.com/channel/UCpipAjo9fIhDMXOoo0Mm86Q

@rxseboy - i'm a ghost but it hurts (prod. ocean)

Rxseboy - Memory (ft. SadBoyProlific)

there she goes again (prod. 4lexf)

my main ig has been hacked. new ig @imstillawakeidiot

there she goes again (prod. 4lexf)

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