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1. manic episode of random structure, transposed vocals and off-tone instrumental to simulate something is wrong

2. panic, anxiety attack simulation through heart beat sounds and sampled breathing. everything that makes me lay awake at night.

3. the aftermath of a panic attack and the thoughts of realization and sorrow post episode

4. a conversation between friends of their hardships and inner thoughts about the situation they've been thtough

hysteria

7 reasons why you hate yourself

induratize

8102023340AM (idea)

self prod 
mastered by @anem0s
instrument mixing help from @gasmaskatl
@a1isynn pulled me out the vocal mixing gutter

track 2/2
april 5 https://distrokid.com/hyperfollow/oldcollin/hr-3 

say something else why dontcha
said what's your problem?
cause if you got one, please dont try to say it to me
i can't say it doesnt bother me
but in all honesty i'm handing out apologies, i'm not even sorry
you say it's all my fault and that you wont back down
say something else why dontcha
but look who's talking like they know so much
as if it doesn't make a difference at all
but if we stayed in touch
we'd have run into a wall
so is that enough for you

to reconsider at all 
if it's just to tell you that I'm sorry I'm not
cause if I hadn't have lost then I
wouldn't find out how much I'm really worth
but I can't say I'm not tired of always feeling hurt
you could say a million words
but it still won't get to me
lacking the empathy you need to feel a little more important dontcha
but there's no need for me to panic cause
I feel it more clearly than you

(4cf)
so why I gotta find a way to get over just saying you're right
got you for closure growing older and freeing my mind
there's something heavy on your chest wanna put me in line
just cause i knew you watch your best i might give it the time
aw but it's alright baby you needed t hat
last shot when you was hurt you know it's a part of the fact
if i had just a little more time I might have something to speak for myself
and no I cant be no one else


https://twitter.com/oldcollin/status/1771246823102972362

reconsider (ft. 4cf)

produced by nte

~  lyrics
and they're always watchin
i dont wanna sit here and listen to all your talkin
i dont want deciphering topics on how you process
all of your frustrations and
how im all that you wanted
baby your not honest
it makes me wanna vomit

baby crush me like a fly
baby love me from the inside
baby lock me in a compound
ive been in my head ever since
we were in lockdown
and thats just being honest
ill never fall in love and
ill never go to college
and i know its catastrophic
ill rot inside my bed 
while i make these fucking pop hits

well fuck that
you told me you promised you forgot that
tell me that you love me but dont trust that
never trust a soul put that on everything
i guess our love was too thin
and ive seen it all before
we crash and then we fall
we not gonna make it out alive
switchin up and lying till we

die, die, die
die, die, die
die, die, die
die, die, die, die
im not gonna wait until you turn around your grave
you want me to fuck up and ruin my fame
bitch that aint gon' happen im stuck to the game
remember my name

had to get a blue light
for concentration
and you always wanna argue
never giving explanations
and you wonder why im hesitant?
always wanna talk back
we both know thats its evident
i can never tell when you're genuine
never seen a care back
i see you at your deficit
all of your frustrations and
how im all that you wanted
baby your not honest
it makes me wanna vomit

baby crush me like a fly
baby love me from the inside
baby lock me in a compound
ive been in my head ever since
we were in lockdown
and thats just being honest
n-n-never fall in love and
ill never go to college
and i know its catastrophic
ill rot inside my bed 
while i make these fucking pop hits

and ive seen it all before
we crash and then we fall
we not gonna make it out alive
switchin up and lying till we
die, die, die
die, die, die
die, die, die
die, die, die, die

fly w/ zivve

prod me

i'm so passive aggressive 

i'm duckin every time she try to ask me a question 

it's halfway impressive 

it's a method to her madness 



x2

i swear she out of my league 

id give anything to see you try to try me

she won't let me catch my breath 

cuz she a dimepice 

and it's likely 

when the time comes

you know just where to find me 





baby so obsessed with cameras 

the way she look 

i'm forgetting all my manners 

matter of time 

til she tell me what she plan to do 

i'm like baby im the man for you



at it so long 

im losing track of time 

act out

you were singing all damn night 

baby you ain't jsut another one 

you the one 



baby you gotta understand that



it's on the tip of my tongue like a xanax 

playin like you dumb

acting innocent 

baby you gotta understand

baby you gotta understand that

man4u

you
you're not too mindful
i notice cus i'm the same
i love this lil game we play
where months pass and we don't talk at all
and it's been too much on my brain
where things change but we stay the same
where you call when he's out the frame
where you tell me you're still afraid of

what are you running from

bruin baby

restofmy

collect yourself and all your friends
it's safe to say it never ends
you treat your life like it all depends
i guess it depends

timber

guess what you said rings true;
i know you better than i know myself
remember you told me you loved me
and cared; i'm not someone to help
but tell me am i wrong for wanting way more
and it's obvious no
that this was just the end but
darling what stings the most is i don't know how you felt

but baby you're not your mistakes
was i the one who led you this far in the first place
first place
i let you go i know
things just won't change
but i understand
i'm not the same saint that i was
you could rest easy knowing i wont ever change
i wont

i fear i played my part way too well
if you stayed would it change, i can't tell
i've been chasing dotted lines i guess
all the precious time i spent
you're not a ghost
baby i want you around
to tell me i had some more time
to tell me how you felt
i wasted time and paid the price
i'm out of sight
i'm out of mind
i'm out of sight
i'm out of mind
i paid the price
and i won't let go

guess what you said rings true;
i know you better than i know myself
remember you told me you loved me
and cared; i'm not someone to help
but tell me am i wrong for wanting way more
and it's obvious no
that this was just the end but
darling what stings the most is i don't know how you felt

BLUE

for the first time

˖ ݁𖥔 ݁˖   ִֶָ☾.   ˖ ݁𖥔 ݁˖

lay down
wanna be on your ground
wanna have your name
would that make me insane 
mmm
lay dead 
you would give me your breath
you would give away
no all for me to stay
does that make you the same

no last night
laying in your light know how to do it right my
oh my body
oh my god

i could see you better
standing in your weather
we could take forever

watching the moon rise
you’re like the moonlight
told me through your eyes
do me a favor
come over later
hold me in your 
your arms

told this story
you know i want you to pull up on me
you know i want it the pressure on me
no no one would know the way
no no one would know

no one
no one no one
you know i want you
mm you know i want you

i could see you better
standing in your weather
we could take forever
na na na na
forever

na na na na 
na na na
laying in your heart under all your scars
na na na na
na na na 
laying in your arms

moonlight

ill go home to think about everything that i said, it wasnt worth it
i would try to talk about everything that we did, but youll ignore me
you dont wanna be with me just like our promise did, and i believed it
its so hard, to keep up with everything that you said, it wont get in me

honey come home, home, would you like to lay in bed with me
and fall asleep..
honey come home, home, we can build ourselves a time machine
and never leave yeah.

timber

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