1. manic episode of random structure, transposed vocals and off-tone instrumental to simulate something is wrong

2. panic, anxiety attack simulation through heart beat sounds and sampled breathing. everything that makes me lay awake at night.

3. the aftermath of a panic attack and the thoughts of realization and sorrow post episode

4. a conversation between friends of their hardships and inner thoughts about the situation they've been thtough

hysteria

mental anguish

bye bye :)

prod. blank

lyrics: 
maybe this is the point
where all of it happens 
i look at the rest 
and leave my dreams in the past tense
i lost my affection for it 
and it don't want me back

all because i want it and you don't
you just say that i ain't bout it 
you're dead wrong 
but im letting go
im letting you take what i call home

taking everything i wanted
yeah
only one step away from 
stepping my ass away from 
every little thing 
that i've been laying on 
maybe it's too late for me
since i dropped epiphany oh 
its been a daze to me
an everlasting haze to me i 
thought i was right 
i'll get away for a while 
that's how im feeling right now
thought i was good as it gets 
so i just wasted my time 
now all those choices are locked in 
and i can't bear that i'm down
conscious thoughts of mine 
get in my way and 
i've been taught to lie
my brain caves in
i can't take it
so i just waste it 
pedal to the floor 
fuck the world
fuckin hate it

all because i want it and you don't
you just say that i ain't bout it 
you're dead wrong 
but im letting go
im letting you take what i call home

( goodbye )

home ( the end )

How you feeling now
Boy I feel like hundred bucks
I gave em the run around
I been asleep for months
Waving to the crowd
Hey, Hi! What’s Up?
Got me where you want me now
(fuck)

Baby tell me what you want
(Don’t ask me for luck)
I could give you what you want
Show you what you love
got me in a necklock
i'll tap out at enough
waiting for the next shock
maybe it’s the drugs

speaking bout the pill
been an hour
i don’t feel shit
swear they dress down til i show em all a real fit
taking tabs til i get sick
(okay)
cali xanax way too good
don’t know how to quit

How you feeling now
Boy I feel like hundred bucks
I gave em the run around
I been asleep for months
Waving to the crowd
Hey Hi What’s Up?
Got me where you want me now
(fuck)

How You Feeling Now

https://distrokid.com/hyperfollow/oldcollin/cope 

prod KBL
mastered by anem0s

lyrics:

Think you’re right (think you’re right)
People change, feelings fade given time
But I don’t mind
Change my name, take a break, give the wrong advice

Scrape my face on the pavement
Not playing it safe when
I feel so complacent
There just ain’t no way that
I got replaced and
My heart’s still vacant
What the fuck am I saying?

Pay no mind 
To the way that I cope when I’m falling behind
Fake my life
All the weight on my shoulders is gone when I die
Least I tried

Guess if this was your plan then you fucked it up
Was it not enough for you to hold that shit over my head?
Ain’t no place that I’d rather be than reality
No new mentality (still wish I were dead)
Pulled you out like a cavity and I felt the gravity
That I’m just a coward that’s all that I (wish I had said)
There’s no place for neutrality, A new felt duality
When I got nobody to blame but myself

Pay no mind 
To the way that I cope when I’m falling behind
Fake my life
All the weight on my shoulders is gone when I died
Least I tried
Pay no mind (ain't no place that I’d rather be)
To the way that I cope (than reality, no new mentality)
When I’m falling behind
Fake my life
All the weight on my shoulders is gone when I died
Least I tried

Heard you tried to say you’re sorry I
Tried to ignore you
Like something that’s not important
So maybe I’m holding onto a grudge
That I shouldn’t but I will
I couldn’t swallow your pill
There’s no assurance in hell
So if you tell me you’re down for the count let it all go
No missing out, running ‘round in a circle
Can’t hold me down, run your mouth, jump a hurdle
Get out of town, headed south, because it was
Always you

cope (kbl)

prod. alisynn + vaeo
mix and master by KBL + anem0s

I love you more than anybody on this goddamn earth 
Know you got so many options 
I don’t wanna be that toxic, but could you come home tonight
Why do I feel this shake in my lungs
I’m exhausted
Gimmie that 15 minutes
How did I fuck on ur bitch
I did it

Bitch im the one
Why you never wanna make time for me
Stuck to my guns
All i ever wanted was honesty
Bite all on my face, baby
Don’t do me that way
You know I love you
No offense
I liked fucking you more as a friend
Out my body
Don’t care where it ends
This shit killing me slow and I love it
I been a petty bitch since you met me, you know i’m not above it
Yeah I got six days till I-
Six days till I say fuck it and vanish
I can’t make no time for that
Say you love me, I’m sorry i dipped off
I just fucked on your friend cuz you pissed me off
only been 3 days, had to cut you off
I got a whole lot of drugs in this room if i take all this shit you won’t see me again 

I can’t move slow
She a bad bitch, I know

I love you more than anybody on this goddamn earth 
Know you got so many options 
I don’t wanna be that toxic, but could you come home tonight
Why do I feel this shake in my lungs
I’m exhausted
Gimmie that 15 minutes
How did I fuck on ur bitch
I did it

love actually ft vaeo

self prod 
mastered by @anem0s
instrument mixing help from @gasmaskatl
@a1isynn pulled me out the vocal mixing gutter

track 2/2
april 5 https://distrokid.com/hyperfollow/oldcollin/hr-3 

say something else why dontcha
said what's your problem?
cause if you got one, please dont try to say it to me
i can't say it doesnt bother me
but in all honesty i'm handing out apologies, i'm not even sorry
you say it's all my fault and that you wont back down
say something else why dontcha
but look who's talking like they know so much
as if it doesn't make a difference at all
but if we stayed in touch
we'd have run into a wall
so is that enough for you

to reconsider at all 
if it's just to tell you that I'm sorry I'm not
cause if I hadn't have lost then I
wouldn't find out how much I'm really worth
but I can't say I'm not tired of always feeling hurt
you could say a million words
but it still won't get to me
lacking the empathy you need to feel a little more important dontcha
but there's no need for me to panic cause
I feel it more clearly than you

(4cf)
so why I gotta find a way to get over just saying you're right
got you for closure growing older and freeing my mind
there's something heavy on your chest wanna put me in line
just cause i knew you watch your best i might give it the time
aw but it's alright baby you needed t hat
last shot when you was hurt you know it's a part of the fact
if i had just a little more time I might have something to speak for myself
and no I cant be no one else


https://twitter.com/oldcollin/status/1771246823102972362

reconsider (ft. 4cf)

conflicted out on all plats


featuring
@jaykim1 
produced by
@n7te

big things coming guys
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Conflicted w/ Jay Kim

prod me

i'm so passive aggressive 

i'm duckin every time she try to ask me a question 

it's halfway impressive 

it's a method to her madness 



x2

i swear she out of my league 

id give anything to see you try to try me

she won't let me catch my breath 

cuz she a dimepice 

and it's likely 

when the time comes

you know just where to find me 





baby so obsessed with cameras 

the way she look 

i'm forgetting all my manners 

matter of time 

til she tell me what she plan to do 

i'm like baby im the man for you



at it so long 

im losing track of time 

act out

you were singing all damn night 

baby you ain't jsut another one 

you the one 



baby you gotta understand that



it's on the tip of my tongue like a xanax 

playin like you dumb

acting innocent 

baby you gotta understand

baby you gotta understand that

man4u

prod. blank & scro

lyrics: too afraid to let inside
from a gaze you caught my eye
from the seams you know i'm trying to give in
t-too afraid afraid
to let 
to let through a g-gaze
t-too afraid afraid
to let 
to let through a g-gaze
lay my head down to rest
but i can't sleep 
cause the words that you said 
still haunt my dreams
and i've been holding onto something
time don't have the time for anymore
and my heads been to war 
watched him shape into yours
thought i found my cure
but you said and you swore that you wanted no more
than to be mine for good, just a lie that you wore
and it wears me down just to know i'm crazy
you were my comfort inside of the pain
and you were my cover when it was raining
never recovered and i
waste time in your eyes i gave in
and i realized got no time to reminisce
cause sometime i'll be fine just sit tight
leave me alone until i feel right
too afraid to let inside 
wanna save myself this time
through the seams you know i'm trying 
to let you in. 
(blank) 
too afraid to let inside
too afraid
and you know i'm trying
watch the seasons change
blood running cold and i start to feel deranged
thought i found the gold 
i just found another space 
that i can lay holed in and let my body age
no one else knows but 
i've been so fucked up
tryna find another reason to say that i'm done 
pick apart all my decisions to see i got none
never winning always telling myself that i'm gone.

covert

prod. blank & scro 

lyrics: love it when you say my name 
but i'm tired of all the same shit
so i'm with your friend right now
and she says my name so loud
i say i love her when i'm fuckin it
and she say she love me when 
im touchin' it 
and if im honest bae shes 
better than you
shawty too good
she been doing all of the things 
that you couldn't 
too bad so sad i'm with a new one
and she lovin' it 
she like when im rough with it
like when i pull her hair
and call her my fuckin bitch uh
i know she fuck with it
i'm the man
and she say it while she suckin it
oh man
addicted to her tan
take you back home and 
i'm meeting her again
and i know it's fucked up
but she got me fucked up
i'm just playing with your head
but she's so good leave me no regrets
love it when you say my name 
but i'm tired of all the same shit
so i'm with your friend right now
and she says my name so loud
i say i love her when i'm fuckin it
and she say she love me when 
im touchin' it 
and if im honest bae shes 
better than you
suffocating to temptation
i can't help but play this game
through my lies and blinded eyes
you see i go with no refrain
wasting time 
i know inside that it ain't right
but fuck it's nice 
i'll roll the dice and pay the price
to set my feelings aside. 


i fw ur friend lol (demo)

@oldcollin
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reconsider (ft. 4cf)

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