life through a window [4:57 am]

missing out on

why as soon as we became so close, its so hard to say goodbye?

This track is about someone very important to me personally. I've known her for a year and she's already done a lot for me. She was my support in difficult times and I helped her when it was hard for her. I truly love her with all my heart and only next to her I feel alive. Sometimes she upsets me, I care and worry about her, but despite this we stay together, even though at a distance. I don't know how I will be without her, she is my everything, only with her I feel alive, only with her I can feel really happy, she gives me all the emotions that I can experience from deep sadness and pain to the strongest happiness. This track is an outlet, none of the samples were recorded specifically for this track, they are all taken from her voice messages that are so dear to me, I tried to put as much of her voice into the track as possible, throughout the intro her voice plays, sines modulated by her phrases, cherished words mixed with white noise, all to convey what goes through my head every time I hear her. I can't be without her, she's like sunshine to my flowers, she's my everything, she's my only.

She's my everything, She's my only

She (was) my everything, my only

clinging to memories that hurt

every night i wish i wouldn't wake up

https://cryys.bandcamp.com/album/repulsive

repulsive

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