why am i so full of myself.. (reissue)

anesthesia is in our heart between the both of us..

life through a window [4:57 am]

dämmerung

blood hysteria

feeling so low

247327_164912

its the end of world and i sent it to you
with a messenger bird

don't cry, don't cry

this is my fault i shouldn't have been so concerned
at the end of hallway there's a matchbox that reads
everything that i loved was never taken from me
i just never had anything to begin with 
that's the reason why these stories always end on my wrists

i feel so viciously deathly that the lines are now blurred
between my personality and the people of the world
i keep on shaking and waking up six times in the night
praying to something that ill someday get a breathe of respite

i wanna try to relax deep breaths i'll calm down
id rather let the ones around me feel like they can be found
because my soul is a cage and i can never escape 
im fucking panicking and i cant get these thoughts out my brain

no matter what i do, no matter where i move
all i can think is that its time to give in, nothing were you
no matter who i choose, no matter what I prove
ill never feel like I have anything to lose

I just took an unsurvivable dose of desoxyn

Cortical Drift

It screams — I cannot sleep.

Next week I’ll be there,
where I don’t want to be.
I must go,
must speak,
must sell myself.


Loudout

zonedout - WEBCORE TRACK 580 (prod. phntmzn bR)

I just took an unsurvivable dose of desoxyn

crys