Produced by me

Lyrics:
i like your face
and all your quippy jokes
they look at us
and everybody knows
i act indifferent
try to play it cool
I'll be paper-thin for you
it's not on the nose
And if it bends more i'm done
a bigger heart than mine
so when you look at me what do you see
will you be paper-thin for me

(why can't i be the one)

i wanna know (everything you like to do)
i know you know (you just don't want me to hurt)
why can't i be (the only girl you'll ever need)

paperthin (bonus)

Tomorrow when the farm boys find this
freak of nature, they will wrap his body
in newspaper and carry him to the museum.
But tonight he is alive and in the north
field with his mother. It is a perfect
summer evening: the moon rising over
the orchard, the wind in the grass. And
as he stares into the sky, there are
twice as many stars as usual.

Light spills from my broken window through the street brightening up trash bags and cigarettes
She made it so fucking hard to feel like me under my skin, I know how it feels
But you know he doesn't play, I tried and nothing works
And even though we're still at war, we still bleed the same
Roses by the porch when I leave the house
Toxins in the air, Factories nearby

He hurts again but I would never tell
Was I good enough for you? Or good enough for me
I'd say I raised you fine or good enough
The kid's turned out fine

Once a dreamer, not a worker
Skipping in line so I could make it up to you
Someone said I changed but it's not nothing new
Fuse up in my heart it's not comfortable
I've been trying to figure out how to act less cold
Trynna take myself a place that nobody knows
Every passing year man it just feels so old
But the present year's the youngest you'll ever be

I've been trynna tell me myself that I'm not that bad
To enjoy the time I have cause I'll lose it all
I say sorry to the ones that I hate right now
When I die can you please come to my funeral
Wanna look like I did something
I wanna look like I was someone

twikipedia - factory (demo)

twikipedia - unreleased 4 (demo)

made this yesterday, facgcd tuning, shitty diy acoustic

red faced, i didn't know that you'd break me like this
build me up, tear me back down this time around
light up fast, hear my name
i'm a match, i can't run from shame, or you stupid games, i still love
i can't turn you on

is it gross to want you to myself?
is it wrong to feel jealous and cheated out of something that we never talked about

i'm used to excuses
i'm not gonna tell you how i feel, i need you to guess
and i'm sorry if you saw me cry
it's a sight to see, it's embarassing
i promise there'll be no more tears coming out of my eyes anymore
can i sleep on your basement floor?

riding on promises, you'll never get what you want
i tried hard, i went sore, somehow you still wanted more

gross (demo)

prod me
no mix, demo
extra guitar work by me
cover art from "chirk" game
production inspired by freger

so summer's gone
it's fun to act like it's not over
i'm ugly like i was back then
i ran away into a mountain
where nothing passes by but wind
and everybody's looking at me
but no one looks at me like you, no one looks at me like you
it all went wrong
i tried to tell you you were different
you never even paid me mind
and getting you to say i love you
isn't the same as ily
and if i wasn't so obsessed
i admit that it's a waste of time, admit that it's a waste of time

would you care to add me to the roster
my bones are getting weak
i know i've been acting like a monster
but don't be afraid of me
this time i don't wanna go home
i'll be one of your freaks
your sorry eyes put me to bed, wake me up from my sleep
gnawing every single bone you shattered
you're everything i need
lately you've been coming off as creepy, like there's something that you've seen
why couldn't things be simple as i thought they would be
i clenched my jaw hard onto you, now i ran out of teeth

summer's gone

produced by me
deleting at the end of the week i dont like this one
lyrics:

tudo que eu fiz foi pra te ver feliz
nenhum resultado foi o que eu vi
disse que eu nao ia depender de ninguem
muito diferente foi o que eu fiz
eu sei que as horas passam mas eu aprendi
eu nao quero um final feliz
quase que eu desisto, foi por um triz
nem desapareci, eu so nao existi

eu nao quero mais saber
nem vou correr atras de voce
e nao corra atras de mim
por que eu nao vou responder
e eu nao quero mais te ver
um lugar pra me esconder
vou te deixar pra depois
ate voce entender

fala que acabou, fala que eu nao quero mais
fala que eu gastei meu tempo, fala nunca mais
falei pra me procurar, pra me encontrar
deus sabe eu te procurei em todo o lugar
toma a minha cabeça pra voce moldar
eu não vou deixar voce chantagear
nem vou deixar voce me atrapalhar
mas voce pode tentar (x2)

e a minha culpa (eu nunca quis)
fazer voce perder a luta (sabe o que diz)
me da algum tipo de ajuda
mas acabou dessa vez (eu sou mais um filha da puta)
voce nao me escuta (fala o que eu fiz)
nunca mais vou fingir que eu sou muda
tudo que faz mal gruda
quando eu desaparecer nao me busca

não me busca

Song in the album "for the rest of your life" by artist "twikipedia".

Lyrics:
onde voce foi e passou
pra ter mudado tanto
que canto pra eu ir?
ainda fui correndo atrás
pra ver se era minha culpa
desculpa qualquer coisa

eu ainda quero te encontrar
os tapas e beijos não vão mudar
mudar
eu so queria ser o que eu..
ser o que voce quer impossível
minha mascara, tudo que eu ja vi
assim..
muito longe de um final feliz

(solozinho legal)
1234!

ainda sim, eu quero ser algum tipo de herói
so pra te socorrer
e que eu ainda to correndo atrás
eu temo o olofote
e mais forte do que eu

e se a mare subir, voce ja sabe
que eu vou estar aqui, no mesmo lugar
se o medo não sumir, ou algo o trocar
eu não vou lembrar, não quero lembrar

eu ainda quero te encontrar
os tapas e beijos não vão mudar
mudar
eu so queria ser o que eu..
ser o que voce quer impossível
minha mascara, tudo que eu ja vi
assim..
muito longe de um
muito longe de um (dois!)
muito longe de um final feliz!

a vida e tão lenta, e eu so acelero
tudo que eu queria e fazer algo dar certo
não quero ser sua, eu não quero nada..
aceno pra alguém pra me tirar dessa estr- VAI!

os tapas e beijos não são
o suficiente pro meu coração
e eu so te tratava assim
pra ver se voce aprendia uma lição

for the rest of your life

final feliz

Lyrics:
ah ah ah ah (x4)

maybe if changing was easy
like the videos that i saw on tv
I'd be aware of what i have to do
to look like someone, somebody who looks nothing like you

and when i look up at the mirror (and i know)
try to cleanse myself (that sometimes it come off as acting cold)
how does a face look so familiar ( i held your and hand and begged you not to go)
letters i spelt
so when you look into my eyes it's me
it's the only thing i get to be 
I've heard it all
and you can't tell me I'm wrong, I'm wrong
those were your eyes i was reading
my wardrobe looks like yours and you can't tell
you're gone

this time
i'm gonna get all my things and go
somewhere where i can be on my own
and as far always as i can get
i tried running from change
sitting rotting as the years go by
i look at it from the outside in
fucking up on yet another try

i know
there's no place quite like home
thick blood, stop calling my name
i'll do everything i can to make sure we're not the same
i'm not scared to say
i'm not scared to say i changed

ah ah ah ah (x4)

you'll never get it, you'll never get, you never will
you'll never get it, you'll never get, you never will (you're never gonna get it)
you'll never get it, you'll never get, you never will
you'll never get it, you'll never get, you never will

anyone but you

Lyrics:
(blxty: we need a picture on the phone... me: oh ok)

we should be statues on the ground
i watch as you act, martyred for a day
and i felt all of those years pass
no they didn't fly, but still i rot away
please give me my clothes back, i hate your house
and i can't drive back there, cause i know that i'll wanna stay
when i look at the camera i forget my own name
i begged you to change and stop playing games
it's to the point where.. i fell apart
i swore i'd never let you get me to go that far
you looked at me
and chasing you has been the happiest i've ever been
and chasing you has been the happiest i've ever been 

do you ever think about it?
about how it feel makes me feel?
here i thought we were obsessed with eachother
i can't deal with standing still
fast, like always, you're so quick to take my time
so quick to leave me stuck behind
i was walking at a lower pace
letting you get in the way
hoping that you notice it this time

and the paper plane was crumbled
dismantle everything that we once stood for
and i'd even walk in quicksand
if you dragged my hand, if you told me, if you told me to

if i'm your dog, please put me down
i don't wanna have to follow you around anymore
you're out of sight but still engrained on
i'm your stupid lab rat drinking whatever you pour
and in the end, i still thought i made it somewhat obvious enough
i never wanted to fuck you
i got so used to your couch and i just wanted to stay
oh you can't lie to me, why did you look at me that way?
the bus ride home's so dim, the buildings made me feel so small
i rode our paper plane until the moment it hit the ground
the ground

na naa naa naa naa naaa
oh wey wawa na na naaa

paper planes

Lyrics:

so i got used to the feeling
but now you’re so far away 
i know i’m getting it someday
for now let it be known
you found me so unappealing
another bug to squish
another one to fool
another fool to love
and you’re drowsy
im roadkill
i stare as you get closer
i envy your poster esque life
and i’d love to be a deer in your headlights

running far from me
free and selfishly
never looking back

windchimes

Lyrics:

I wanna chase, I wanna fall
For anything at all
Yeah i've been squirming back to you
I had it until you figured out
You're the one i talk about
I never thought that we would get this far
More than a thousand words I said
and none of them made sense
Now it'll never be the same
Unlovable but...
Take words out my mouth
Give me poison, take me out
You know I'm still watching you but from afar
You know how it goes
While i'm on my own
My mind wanders to the worst place there is
I held onto hope
Promises unfold
And no matter what i do
I always run back to you
Sick and tired of you figuring me out

I'm sick and tired of you figuring me out (x4)

I broke your glass
This time I knew
You wanted something else
Forget the past
You fucked up too
And i won't tell a soul

I wanna chase, I wanna fall
For anything at all!
Yeah i've been squirming back to you
I had it until you figured out
You're the one i talk about
I never thought that we would get this far

figure me out

Lyrics:

I see you get home drunk sometimes
I watched you fight and break a rib
You always yell when you're alone
I watched you lose all of your friends
You try to sit me and tell me what you do and don't regret
There's something you teach me every time
But something you never learn yourself
(I tried to be person, i tried to be somebody else)
(I put on a shirt that won't fit..)
And it hurts but it can't be figured out
(I'll try one more time)
(And leave knowing you'd die for me)
(He has some love) But when i fuck up he counts me out

I'm drawing out the plan
I'm gonna fix you with gasoline
I'm gonna burn what you really love

Open baskets
Fire on cans and dying maggots
I hear the fire crackle loudly
I burnt the house now I'm surrounded
If you're gonna kill me then do it loudly
I see myself in an open casket
I can't turn out like you wanted, sorry
A part of me wants to let you have it
I can't feel bad cause..

There's something you teach me every time
But something you never learn yourself
(I tried to be a person, i tried to be somebody else)
(I put on a shirt that won't fit..)
And it hurts but it can't be figured out
(I'll try one more time)
(And leave knowing you'd die for me)
(He has some love) But when i fuck up he counts me out

learn yourself

Lyrics:
don't ask me how i feel
you know that you're the only one (you're the only one.. aah)

and don't ask me how i feel
about your brand new boy
when you made me cry for mine

and you say i act like someone else
when you don't even know yourself
what, do you think that i'm like this on purpose?

fuck me over, say it's best for us
and take control when you're the only one

i tell you i wanna stay, cause it's what you wanna hear
so what i don't wanna change? what's wrong with staying the same?
you miss when i still ten, way too young to understand
i know you wish you could start over again
so paint the walls get your cardboard boxes
guess i'll just know every part of "someone's" house
door that won't budge ever again
just toss away all your dirty carpets
say i remind you of him another time
and then you won't move ever again

i move boxes around!
i cry in the bus drive!
i cover my face!

(epic synth)

so what i don't wanna change
i like the way that i am
i'll stitch myself a new face
and leave the old one for them
one day i'm gonna be gone
and i'm not saying a word
the cardboard box will be mine
i'm throwing out all those rugs

cardboard boxes

lyrics:

i’ve been so harsh these days
im chained to something that i had before

boy
im not taking a chance
cause i don’t wanna know
and just because i knew i had to take a choice
doesn’t mean that i can
you turned me into two
i can’t run back to you

i can’t flip the page i tried but it won’t budge
so stuck up about it i don’t think i’ll ever learn
i don’t wanna turn into what i hate the most
and im so sick of the change
we’ve been so harsh these days
and i can’t seem to tell you why 
i’ve been getting more distant
the paper yellows, time goes by
it makes me sick to think
you never even gave it thought
so tell me something that i know im not

boy
im not taking a chance
cause i don’t wanna know, know
and just because i had a choice
it doesn’t make it much more obvious
it’s not easy like you make it seem
not as simple as just you and me

why can’t you be my boy?
i did it all for you
and ive planned so many things
so much i meant to do
and i’ve been feeling so afraid
but you don’t even wanna know
boy you don’t even wanna know

if i ran back to your loaded gun
and i spent one day under your wing
doing whatever i wanna do
staying wherever i need to be

boy
throw away my one chance
i was looking at you
noise
i don’t even get words
you split me in two
it all went sideways
when i got everyone figured out
stepping all over us, in your garbage after throwing it out
it’s for the weak
so i guess that means you did it for me..?
so i guess that means you did it for me..?
so i guess that means you did it for her

Lyrics:
(stop making that big face!)
maybe
if i was stronger
if i was faster
then i wouldn't hurt at all
maybe
we've grown apart
and you get to wish me harm
since they told you who i am

I'll always
I'll always be here to dry your eyes
so waste all my time and let me think I'm loveable
...I'm never running out of love

maybe when you're home you'll see it
maybe when i wish you harm you'll die
no one's gonna be around
and no one's gonna search for me

I'll always
I'll always be here to dry your eyes
so waste all my time and let me think I'm loveable

maybe when you're home you'll call me
cry at home and wipe your tears at yours
i hated the way you saw me
it's like it was always someone else

and i don't care if i get replaced
i wasn't meant to win
i didn't even mean to score this high
and i can't say I'm tired
of wiping your tears still,
if anything i'd even make you cry

I'll dry your eyes

dry your eyes

Lyrics:
He fixes me
Put that arm back where it fell from and watch me scream
The pain i felt is worse than when it fell..
I like it more when you hurt me, and less when I hurt myself
I acted like you fixed me so you'd calm down
But it never works out

I fall, through the cracks and seams
The gears spin in this old clock
But no matter what I'm not back
My eyes fell once, it's in the past
And I still fall, for whoever sees
I don't know who he is but i've seen him before
Am i wrong? If so then why bother?
I knew that he'd throw me out..
The moment he saw me, his eyes turned a different shade
Why didn't I listen to you when you called my name...
When you break the rules, God tries to sabotage you
I'm turned an example, so don't do what I do

My guts leak from my interior
This time nobody's gonna hear me run
You scream a name that isn't even mine
(And I'm the one that's gone insane)

The fabric keeps on falling
this time you can't come in
Keep banging on that wooden door
I won't let you stitch me closed...
Not this time..
Poke my eyes out..
Drive me insane, but please don't look at me again

(Last time I let you in you took everything i had)
(I know you didn't change you'd just use me once again)
(And if I could I'd do it over from the start)
(I'd still know who you are but you wouldn't know who I am)

When I was still sober and young
With love to spare
No matter what I did, they looked at me like I caused a scene.. a scene.. a scene.. a scene..

We were just boys
Nowadays I don't know, if I still am
Our love was dumb, it was doomed to fail... doomed to fail... doomed to fail... doomed to fail...

This one needs a patch bigger than anything I've ever seen
It pleads for an answer because nothing ever means a thing
When my window tempts me and i feel the wind calling my name
i wanna be stitched together but it won't be the same

seams

Lyrics:

Say what you mean or don't talk at all
Lie to me again and you'll lose your face
Can I come over to your place?
I'll drive far if it's far away, and i know, i know, i know
I'll write your name when you look away
Show up at the worst time of day
Like you did, like you did, like you did, like you did

A lawnmower ran through my garden
And cut open my favorite flowers, wasted all of my hours
He cut open the door to my house
And cried on my shoulder for help
Said it's not the same around her

(Does she know your secret as well?)
(Does she know you love me still?)

So hide all you want
He called at me four told me one thousand words
Does she let you call her when you drink this much?

There's no need to hide
And I'll let all the plastic plants make up for all of the picture frames I didn't place

Aah aah

Didn't place!

(Steady and easy)
(Hang onto the threads cause you know that you need me)
(Fever dream i see you in the ceiling)
(And if loving you is this fucking hard)
(I'll never love someone again)
(Love again)

garden

Lyrics:

when did we get so
far apart
someone i can't reach at all
who knows all of me
and now the wind blows
far away
and i cover my mouth
just for you

i know I'm not ever fooling anyone
nothing's going back to how it was before
and waking up is so much harder than staying asleep
i wanna realign the missing parts
lie to my grave and say there's nothing wrong
don't you get tired of saving your face
it's not as easy as running away

i know sometimes i look wrong doing good
no matter what i do misunderstood
i try to be there knowing that it's true
and I'm still scared it won't change
i made a hundred songs about that day
until time passed and life took me away
i wonder what it feels like being you
being you

i wanna climb the tallest mountain top
run down a hill until my legs are begging me to stop
i know that if the world was ending you'd agree with me
but it's been looking like i have to wait for everything
if you told me to jump then i would ask how high
I'm just fed up being the one asking why
everything in vein so why compete
compete

doesn't it feel so good? doesn't it feel so right
you got me right where you wanted... now what?
now what?
you're gonna tell who i look like
you're gonna tell me what i know deep down
you're gonna tell me what i know deep down

so i don't want you coming closer
don't look at me that way
with heavy eyes god told me go home
you've seen enough today

when did we get so far apart?
someone i used to know
who knows all of me

(Stop fucking looking at me)

far apart

Lyrics:
i thought i was everything you are
i know there is only room for one
backing off, holding onto straws
so if you wanna take it
don't make me have to say it
i wish i was
see-through like you
the world is yours
i'm yet another screw

i knew that these new tricks weren't enough
i threw away my rut in a daze
in a chance it'd go my way
i can't keep slipping up in answers
push me out if you claim what's yours

so if you wanna take it
don't you wanna just yell about it?
stick to doing what you know how to do
cause it only happens once..
it only happens twice
watch me turn into sand dissolving
can i be the first one to call you wrong?
how did one look go so far
just look at where we are
just look at where we are... where we are
how did we get so far

room for one

im high and a hypocrite

fuck you

here:

we're all running from something
we do it in different ways
some of my friends chose to smoke
to take opiods and coke
i tried
to be here for a long time
and you took one more pill to cut me off
and i don't wanna be one
to watch as you fade away
i tried to tell you to stop
to hide your fix away
but you said you've done this for a long time
even if you took a thousand pills i'd stay

and i know that i'll never know
even if i say a thousand words
i'll never get it
but know you can't die yet
if i leave and go back home
promise you won't hang up the phone
you know i love you
it's not your turn

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cadaverhumanoxd