twikipedia - sidewalk

lyrics:
i spoke to a friend and told him that i need to find him
and it's been near a decade but i still think about you
i still remember the way to your home, and every room inside
what if i came knocking and asked for all my time back
i keep track of yours but do you keep track of my birthdays
is it true what they say, do you want to hurt me

when i find out what you really meant
will it make me bash myself
or will we ever meet again
and i know that your mom still remembers my face
maybe she looks back and tries to pinpoint when i changed
maybe if i brought my games
maybe then i'd get you to distract yourself from the shame
and there's nothing to be worried for you know that i'm still here
i know you'd still look for me if i disappeared

friend

first version, recorded on electric acoustic around September 2023 before I got my telecaster.

hurt (demo)

Lyrics:

I wanna chase, I wanna fall
For anything at all
Yeah i've been squirming back to you
I had it until you figured out
You're the one i talk about
I never thought that we would get this far
More than a thousand words I said
and none of them made sense
Now it'll never be the same
Unlovable but...
Take words out my mouth
Give me poison, take me out
You know I'm still watching you but from afar
You know how it goes
While i'm on my own
My mind wanders to the worst place there is
I held onto hope
Promises unfold
And no matter what i do
I always run back to you
Sick and tired of you figuring me out

I'm sick and tired of you figuring me out (x4)

I broke your glass
This time I knew
You wanted something else
Forget the past
You fucked up too
And i won't tell a soul

I wanna chase, I wanna fall
For anything at all!
Yeah i've been squirming back to you
I had it until you figured out
You're the one i talk about
I never thought that we would get this far

for the rest of your life

figure me out

Lyrics:

I see you get home drunk sometimes
I watched you fight and break a rib
You always yell when you're alone
I watched you lose all of your friends
You try to sit me and tell me what you do and don't regret
There's something you teach me every time
But something you never learn yourself
(I tried to be person, i tried to be somebody else)
(I put on a shirt that won't fit..)
And it hurts but it can't be figured out
(I'll try one more time)
(And leave knowing you'd die for me)
(He has some love) But when i fuck up he counts me out

I'm drawing out the plan
I'm gonna fix you with gasoline
I'm gonna burn what you really love

Open baskets
Fire on cans and dying maggots
I hear the fire crackle loudly
I burnt the house now I'm surrounded
If you're gonna kill me then do it loudly
I see myself in an open casket
I can't turn out like you wanted, sorry
A part of me wants to let you have it
I can't feel bad cause..

There's something you teach me every time
But something you never learn yourself
(I tried to be a person, i tried to be somebody else)
(I put on a shirt that won't fit..)
And it hurts but it can't be figured out
(I'll try one more time)
(And leave knowing you'd die for me)
(He has some love) But when i fuck up he counts me out

learn yourself

Lyrics:
don't ask me how i feel
you know that you're the only one (you're the only one.. aah)

and don't ask me how i feel
about your brand new boy
when you made me cry for mine

and you say i act like someone else
when you don't even know yourself
what, do you think that i'm like this on purpose?

fuck me over, say it's best for us
and take control when you're the only one

i tell you i wanna stay, cause it's what you wanna hear
so what i don't wanna change? what's wrong with staying the same?
you miss when i still ten, way too young to understand
i know you wish you could start over again
so paint the walls get your cardboard boxes
guess i'll just know every part of "someone's" house
door that won't budge ever again
just toss away all your dirty carpets
say i remind you of him another time
and then you won't move ever again

i move boxes around!
i cry in the bus drive!
i cover my face!

(epic synth)

so what i don't wanna change
i like the way that i am
i'll stitch myself a new face
and leave the old one for them
one day i'm gonna be gone
and i'm not saying a word
the cardboard box will be mine
i'm throwing out all those rugs

cardboard boxes

lyrics:

i’ve been so harsh these days
im chained to something that i had before

boy
im not taking a chance
cause i don’t wanna know
and just because i knew i had to take a choice
doesn’t mean that i can
you turned me into two
i can’t run back to you

i can’t flip the page i tried but it won’t budge
so stuck up about it i don’t think i’ll ever learn
i don’t wanna turn into what i hate the most
and im so sick of the change
we’ve been so harsh these days
and i can’t seem to tell you why 
i’ve been getting more distant
the paper yellows, time goes by
it makes me sick to think
you never even gave it thought
so tell me something that i know im not

boy
im not taking a chance
cause i don’t wanna know, know
and just because i had a choice
it doesn’t make it much more obvious
it’s not easy like you make it seem
not as simple as just you and me

why can’t you be my boy?
i did it all for you
and ive planned so many things
so much i meant to do
and i’ve been feeling so afraid
but you don’t even wanna know
boy you don’t even wanna know

if i ran back to your loaded gun
and i spent one day under your wing
doing whatever i wanna do
staying wherever i need to be

boy
throw away my one chance
i was looking at you
noise
i don’t even get words
you split me in two
it all went sideways
when i got everyone figured out
stepping all over us, in your garbage after throwing it out
it’s for the weak
so i guess that means you did it for me..?
so i guess that means you did it for me..?
so i guess that means you did it for her

Lyrics:

Say what you mean or don't talk at all
Lie to me again and you'll lose your face
Can I come over to your place?
I'll drive far if it's far away, and i know, i know, i know
I'll write your name when you look away
Show up at the worst time of day
Like you did, like you did, like you did, like you did

A lawnmower ran through my garden
And cut open my favorite flowers, wasted all of my hours
He cut open the door to my house
And cried on my shoulder for help
Said it's not the same around her

(Does she know your secret as well?)
(Does she know you love me still?)

So hide all you want
He called at me four told me one thousand words
Does she let you call her when you drink this much?

There's no need to hide
And I'll let all the plastic plants make up for all of the picture frames I didn't place

Aah aah

Didn't place!

(Steady and easy)
(Hang onto the threads cause you know that you need me)
(Fever dream i see you in the ceiling)
(And if loving you is this fucking hard)
(I'll never love someone again)
(Love again)

garden

Lyrics:

when did we get so
far apart
someone i can't reach at all
who knows all of me
and now the wind blows
far away
and i cover my mouth
just for you

i know I'm not ever fooling anyone
nothing's going back to how it was before
and waking up is so much harder than staying asleep
i wanna realign the missing parts
lie to my grave and say there's nothing wrong
don't you get tired of saving your face
it's not as easy as running away

i know sometimes i look wrong doing good
no matter what i do misunderstood
i try to be there knowing that it's true
and I'm still scared it won't change
i made a hundred songs about that day
until time passed and life took me away
i wonder what it feels like being you
being you

i wanna climb the tallest mountain top
run down a hill until my legs are begging me to stop
i know that if the world was ending you'd agree with me
but it's been looking like i have to wait for everything
if you told me to jump then i would ask how high
I'm just fed up being the one asking why
everything in vein so why compete
compete

doesn't it feel so good? doesn't it feel so right
you got me right where you wanted... now what?
now what?
you're gonna tell who i look like
you're gonna tell me what i know deep down
you're gonna tell me what i know deep down

so i don't want you coming closer
don't look at me that way
with heavy eyes god told me go home
you've seen enough today

when did we get so far apart?
someone i used to know
who knows all of me

(Stop fucking looking at me)

far apart

Lyrics:
i thought i was everything you are
i know there is only room for one
backing off, holding onto straws
so if you wanna take it
don't make me have to say it
i wish i was
see-through like you
the world is yours
i'm yet another screw

i knew that these new tricks weren't enough
i threw away my rut in a daze
in a chance it'd go my way
i can't keep slipping up in answers
push me out if you claim what's yours

so if you wanna take it
don't you wanna just yell about it?
stick to doing what you know how to do
cause it only happens once..
it only happens twice
watch me turn into sand dissolving
can i be the first one to call you wrong?
how did one look go so far
just look at where we are
just look at where we are... where we are
how did we get so far

room for one

twikipedia - figure me out (og intro)

Eb Standard

don't go
that fucking look on your face
yeah i'd know it from anywhere
it's like you don't wanna be there
at all
and when i wanted to sleep
i could pretend we're not meant to be
nothing that i did was half enough at all
and if i tried harder
maybe i'd be something more
and maybe things will figure themselves out
again, again

don't act like a zombie when i'm passing by
nothing makes you angrier than someone wasting time
yeah i know you hate the small talk
but small talks' all i have
when i try to be honest skip over what i said
still stuck on the same words
putting them together doesn't work
why be stuck on the same page?
you have both legs still and they still work

don't try to match the pieces
you don't know me at all
i wanna be someone who's there to hold your fall
i'll stay with you for no reason
but i won't be there long
so when i take my leave know it wasn't fault
it was never your fault
(don't you open up, or get close enough, you won't get anywhere at all)

i should leave and take home a thousand words
and i don't know how this part of my brain works
you said try then i tried to keep it down
i look my best just in case you come around
yeah i'm acting like a kid and i should stop
but this couple in the subway looked like us
and you're smart so i know you'll get home safe
but when you get there call me anyway

boy

twikipedia

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