She Hates Me

cant express what
I am thinking
words elude me
feel so damn foolish 

I feel so stupid
I feel so useless
I think so I'm so cringe
Im so retarded

Cant connect with
anybody
always anxious 
There's no one there for me

Retarded

i remeber when you said that you liked me
called me a perfectboy whats that supposed to mean
dreaming of me and you kissing next to a tree
but i woke up another day of being me
now i really thinl that u fucking lied
thought about ur words so many times
never seena  girl so fucking kind
the thoughts of you make me wanna cry

another day of being me

stealing tags ONCE again

breaking down onto the floor
i cant take this anymore
i get sad when ur not around
to hold me closely when i start to cry

and it seems like when im with you i feel fine
i hope that one day i can get a ring and make you mine
compared to all these other boys im way behind

well life is a bitch and you know that

screaming on the floor having a heart attack
 
i was getting better yeah i was getting better and now im back  

its coming again 
cant find a way out
i was hurt by every word that came out your mouth
drunk layed out on the couch
everythings coming down
start to regret it now

i start to regret it now

[Verse 1] I'm stuck in this web, can't get outta my head, Scrollin' down my timeline, seein' people who’re dead, Figured out life’s a puzzle, tryna piece it together, But the storm keeps comin’, and it’s changin’ the weather.
Family tells me "boy, you gotta find peace," But I’m feelin’ lost, tryna survive in the beast, Internet's a jungle, some good, mostly bad, So many different faces, man, this world’s feelin’ sad.
But I find my escape in these melodies, Music's the only place where I feel free, I don't care if I'm numb, I'm still hearin’ the beat, Even when the world’s cold, it’s a rhythm that speaks.
[Chorus] In this web trance, I’m dancin’ through the static, Family's tryin’ to help, but I’m still trapped in the attic, Numb to the pain, but I'm searchin' for the cure, The unknown’s scary, but the music keeps me sure.
I’m scared of what’s next, but I’ll keep goin’ on, Can’t let the doubt win, gotta stay headstrong, We’re all in this web, different faces, same mind, In this digital maze, together we find time.
[Verse 2] Scrollin' through these pages, tryna find a connection, But all I see is chaos, no real direction, A million different stories, but they all sound the same, We’re all tryna numb the hurt, hide from the pain.
I’m numb to the world, but the music’s alive, I see the future in the soundwaves, I thrive, My fam don’t get it, but they wanna help me fly, They say "keep your head up," but I don't know how to try.
Lost in this trance, I’m just tryna hold on, But the beats in my headphones keep me movin’ along, The world’s in a mess, but I’m hopin’ for peace, I know there’s more to this, a place I can release.
[Chorus] In this web trance, I’m dancin’ through the static, Family's tryin’ to help, but I’m still trapped in the attic, Numb to the pain, but I'm searchin' for the cure, The unknown’s scary, but the music keeps me sure.
I’m scared of what’s next, but I’ll keep goin’ on, Can’t let the doubt win, gotta stay headstrong, We’re all in this web, different faces, same mind, In this digital maze, together we find time.
[Bridge] I’m not alone, I’m not alone, We all face the unknown, But the music's the light, the music’s the throne, It’s the only place I feel like I’ve grown.
I’m numb, but I’m not broken, My voice is loud, I’m still hopin’, I’m scared of the future, but I’m still copin’, The web’s got me trapped, but I’ll keep floatin’.
[Outro] In this web trance, I’ll keep fightin’ for the day, Family’s beside me, I won’t fade away, Music’s the answer, the world’s in disarray, But through the unknown, I’ll find my way.

Web Trance

i know that i love to lie
but you come back everytime
i just love watching you cry
isnt that such a surprise
i love playing with your heart
because i really know it hurts
i know that i started everything 
but somehow youre the worst
please comeback to me
i know im wrong
ill do it again
done this for so long
i keep you attached 
my loves so strong
you belong to me
stab ur back and i cheat

can you come back i just really want talk to you
i just know you hate me baby im just so in love with you
instant contact i just want  be inside of you is it weird that i want to devour 
you
i just want to devour you
i just want to devour you girl and keep you girl 
i just want you in my heart

sinking her emotions down down down
love it when she's hopeless, when she frowns
i made this whole world just for u
i'll break it 20 times, watch u cry everytime
u can't call it crime if u stay on ur side
ur the victim, play ur role, stay blind to my lies
u can say i'm crazy and maybe fucking hate me
but in the end it's pointless when ur screaming pls just save me

lie and manipulate

(odihu) 
if i had a choice i would steal ur heart
i would break it to pieces and tear it apart
i want you to rot and cluster
my goal is to make you suffer
i know that im the bad guy
i shouldnt be on this side
but i just want you to die
cause you ruined my life

(hxnterbtw)
i fucked up again
and im really fucking sorry
i should just be dead
i only want your love please

i know i shouldnt be like this
im just a useless piece of shit
i always end up ruining it
and baby just give me one kiss

(odihu)
 i dont think that ill get better 
i gotta find something to do
my therapist says that i should leave my wrist alone
but cutting keeps my mind off of you

rot and cluster ft hxnterbtw

a friend told me to reup this so here ya go



even when u drank my blood
i loved ur every move and touch

cause its not hard to realize
that if im gonna live like this ill die
and im an angel girl living in this world
and ive been corrupted ive sinned in front of you

am i a bad girl?
even in the morning time
but

im not a slut im not a whore
at the year 19 or 24
i havent ate since 8 days ago
i fear that i cant fit my clothes

starving
starving by myself
starving and crying
im okay with it of course
it was never where
to the point when i was around
it was not going well
in fact i even felt it in the eye


im not a slut im not a whore
at the year 19 or 24
i havent ate since 8 days ago
i fear that i cant fit my clothes










angelgirl cover

walking through the forest im all alone
running away from what i call home
but im so scared of the dark
im crying so hard as i walk

i hear a loud voice scream but it sounded near
so i dropped my bags and checked everywhere
but theres nothing here im so scared 
im so scared
im so scared!!!

someone help please
im yelling loudly 
im being chased by a shadow
im going crazy
i tripped right over a rock and then he caught me
he carries me into the air i started shouting

please dont hurt me
ill do anything
it stares right into my soul and started laughing
he grabs my throat and squeezes me i started choking
smiling and grinning while im in the air dying

at my rescue 
is a girl
with a light so bright
that i just might turn blind

she picks me up off the ground
and hugs me tight
and for the very first time
i felt alright




















romantic nightmare

FLEXMOUNTAIN

rushing running down the stairs
hoping that my cat is there
shes the one thats by my side
even when i start to cry

she so white and fluffy too
her fur just makes me comfortable

i know shes just a cat
but she means the world to meeeeeee

shes my only company
she give me lots of peace

id die if she ever leaves

i love my cat and she loves me too
everyday the world makes me feel blue
but my fluffy little cat helps me get through
in her empty little head she has no clue

my best friend is a little fuzz ball
when i wanna cry i know who to call
meows when she wants to play
then im on my way

come on lets go
my only friend
playtime with you is my medicine

she knows when im sad
shes the best friend ive ever had

i love my cat!!!

17 year old artist trying music
Frick you ch4 2
Cypher Haven 4
I’m a fraud

Web Trance

Ch4mberz