hysteria x melancholia

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Moodswings In This Order

Nerves

No Silhouette

BLOO (블루) - Girl in New York

Moodswings In To Order

Winterfall

Ballroom Extravaganza

@owtiss, @domerrz <3
prod @bazington, @1wasterr

@owtiss
tell me if it's a lie
or if it's rlly love
i see it in ur eyes
i never was enough
whatever this was
it wasn't meant to be
i see u in my dreams
but i can't fall asleep ;/

i feel so helpless
(i cant fall asleep)
i wanna be selfish
(i cant fall asleep)
cuz i've never felt this
(i cant fall asleep)
i don't wanna feel this
(i cant fall asleep) 
^x2

i can't fall asleep

@domerrz
Is this all pretend
this life's not what it seems
and every night I close my eyes I see you in my dreams
hmph
you're always make believe 
I know we couldn't be
but its so hard to tell you what I want and what I mean
my hearts tearing at the seams

so tell me if its worth it 
lately I'm feeling worthless
I'll find the strength to pretend 
and act like I'm not the burden
so I call out to you 
and I know its not working
yea your words cut me deep 
I cant explain but I'm hurting

hurting again
guess its not working
am i not worth it

i can't fall asleep ;/ w/ dom (baz, wasterr)

@victxrw @ihateukidu <3

the silence is scaring me
its getting too loud
i lost a person thats close to me
i miss u around
i know ur miles away
this shit keeps me up awake
pls dont forget me
im begging
keep me in ur mind

cus im terrified, dont know where we'll be
cus im terrified please stick close to me
need a piece of mind, tell me that ur safe
so ill close my eyes and ill do what it takes

someone tell me that its all in my head
all these haunted memories cant forget
took a piece of me the day that we met
i dont wanna live this life with regrets

i keep falling for ur lies
this happens everytime
its that look thats in ur eyes
it keeps me so deprived
baby i live in my mind
it keeps me up at night
so ill stop chasing the high
and leave our love behind

@victxrw
woah, yea i'll leave it all behind me
if u dont then i know what ur hiding
the everfrost upon my fingers just wont let me let go
u tell me all the different wrongs i did i already know

i cant lie i cant help but think of u
tell me all the things i couldnt do
the catacombs of my mind are filled with u
u ruined me u never thought it through
can u blame me
cant save me
going crazy trynna not go crazy
can u blame me
cant save me

akura:
someone tell me that its all in my head
all these haunted memories cant forget
took a piece of me the day that we met
i dont wanna live this life with regrets

(cant save meeee)

what it takes +victxrw (kidu)

atmosphere by @navinor, ty!!
prod and vox by me

bit of a different style this time...

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u js wanna be right
don't know what it feels like
u js wanna be right
don't know why ur so dry
tell me its a goodbye
hope u had a good life
i dont wanna exist
tell me- am i alright?

yeah i dont wanna-
i dont wanna know u
yeah i dont wanna care anymore
ill never wish for more

im a psycho? look into the mirror
im gonna cry like how u dont see that
im a psycho? look into the mirror
im gonna cry like how u dont see that

be right (navinor, me)

@1akura @rewind214

its been long enough all the tears dried
I started moving on I stopped asking why 
cuz every time I try to trust you all you do is lie
you wont let me in your heart i should just take the sign
its been long enough all the tears dried
I started moving on I stopped asking why 
cuz every time I try to trust you all you do is lie
you wont let me in your heart i should just take the sign

Im way too wishful
I just keep on getting hurt it adds the insult
and it just keeps on getting worse Im so forgetful
I dont wanna think bout her I get remissful
I keep tripping myself over Im falling down and down
you kept giving me cold shoulder and now youre not around
and even though that we dont talk I just hope youre happy now
cuz what I want for both of us is to be just safe and sound

wishful (akura + rewind)

I’m still chained feeling hopeless 
Feels like you could leave any moment 
Nothing on your face your heart stays frozen 
Trust leaves the second you earn it 
Eyes on me when I try to go unnoticed 
Waste away still tryna Find a purpose

Treat me like I’m the one split me in to two 
I don’t keep receipts trust that what you say is true 
Crying in my sleep baby I’m still stuck on you 
Crying in my sleep cuz I’m in love with you 

All my dreams they haunt me 
I fear they wanna harm me 
My baby smokes like Marley 
sober like it’s Marley and me 
Drink sometimes but hardly 
Total 180 
No one knows now, this is not like me

Still Chained, Feeling Hopeless

lyrics

come and stay for the night
you walked and caught my eye
can't find you by my side
supposed to say goodbye
come and stay for the night
you walked and caught my eye
can't find you by my side
supposed to say goodbye

i said i changed for the better
haven't sent all my letters
chronic on me i'm not a savior
are you coming to show up later?
i said i changed for the better
haven't sent all my letters
chronic on me i'm not a savior
are you coming to show up later?

and you lead me on and on, on and on
you said you don't need no one, not no one
and you lead me on and on, on and on
you said you don't need no one, not no one

come and stay for the night
you walked and caught my eye
can't find you by my side
supposed to say goodbye
come and stay for the night
you walked and caught my eye
can't find you by my side (chan)
supposed to say goodbye

i said i changed for the better
haven't sent all my letters
chronic on me i'm not a savior
are you coming to show up later?
i said i changed for the better
haven't sent all my letters
chronic on me i'm not a savior
are you coming to show up later?

savior

channie