I met a woman named Christel, everytime I see her, this song Crystal by New Order comes to my head. 
So I made my own version of it.

Crystal (New Order)

Hey you
I think you're leaving
But if you do
Can you tell me
When you're in heaven
That I am strong

Hey you
I see you're hiding
But don't give up
We keep on fighting
Until you're oke
Until you're strong again

Hey, Don't leave me
If you can
Hey, Don't leave me
If you can

Hey you
I hope I keep always
All our memories
That we've created
That we have made
Those I have saved

Hey, Don't leave me
If you can
Hey, Don't leave me
If you can

Hey you
I think you're leaving
But if you do
Can you tell me
When you're in heaven
That I am strong

Hey You (I think you're leaving) - Original song

Link to one of those slightly moving pictures and lyric video :) - https://youtu.be/DP89YSam_Xk
Lyrics
How can I move on from the past when I can’t remember half the things you want me to forget
And how can I prove I love you more than I’ve ever loved even if I’m living in regret
Tell me how am I supposed to feel now all my choices moved along to another’s chance to live that life instead
Please show me now what to think so I can choose the drink I drink and sleep in the middle of my empty bed

Sick and tired of your ups and downs my here and now’s fed sheep to cows least that’s the words I hear in my insane
Haunted by a choice I didn’t make stranded in true love feeling fake heartbreak lights blind a runaway train
I keep saving chances ‘til the next life holding out ‘til perfect feels right but every day just ends the same old same
Maybe if I get drunk I won’t feel as though I funked up without excuse ready for a blame 
Without the shame screaming out your name

Stuck in head space on my own
It’s a place I can’t get out of
Trapped in my mind and yet still
Too scared to feel the truth
Caught in between fate and fall
It’s a path I can’t choose from
Full of the facts that we bled
But I ain’t got no proof
You know I ain’t got no proof
No I ain’t got no proof
No I ain’t got no proof

You say I’ve had too much love hate relationship cashed too many get free certificates gotta find some inside love somehow
Ticked one more obligation over take me now I’m done getting older hope curtain’s calling waiting for my bow
Cos I don’t have the time I once had game’s half over mug is empty a square can’t fit into a hole that’s round
So I’m gonna make the best of here and now love you like you were the only one any love we have we’re lucky to have found
But with love like yours we’re always tied to the ground


Stuck in head space on my own
It’s a place I can’t get out of
Trapped in my mind and yet still
Too scared to feel the truth
Caught in between fate and fall
It’s a path I can’t choose from
Full of the facts that we bled
But I ain’t got no proof
You know I ain’t got no proof
No I ain’t got no proof
No I ain’t got no proof

Just cause I ain't got none don't mean there ain't none
Just cause I ain't got none you can't say I'm right or wrong
Because I ain't got none don't mean there ain't none
Because I ain't got none can't say I'm right or wrong
When loose lips get loose because I ain't got none
Can you still find your truth because I ain't got none
Should I just have faith because I ain't got none
Is it too little too late
always too little too late
too late 
But I ain't got no proof 
No I ain't got no proof

Proof

Retare

Cosmic Fracture :Dark electronica

breathe take 1 11724 40 bpm

crooked smile 1 40 bpm 2525 take 1

DARK AMBIENT SOUNDSCAPES FOR YOUR RELAXATION AND MEDITATION, ENJOY!

DARK AMBIENT - ENGINE OF OBLIVION

Dans Ma Rue

The love of my life. The best 10 years 14 days we shared together.( Caroline Jean Winchester ) she was 50 years old. I think about her every day . She was the strongest person I ever knew. I miss her laugh the most. It came so easy for her. A tribute to her  written by myself in 2017.
LYRICS
IF I SIT ON THE EDGE OF THE WORLD WILL I FALL INTO OUTER SPACE
OR WILL I HEAR YOUR SOOTHING VOICE TELLING ME I'LL LEAD YOU HERE
OR WILL I SPIN WAY OUT OF CONTROL DOWNWARD SPIRAL
TO A DEEP BLACK HOLE. AND IF I TRY TO REACH OUT TO YOU
WILL THIS DREAM TONIGHT COME TRUE

YOU'LL FOREVER LIVE DEEP INSIDE MY HEART
THROUGH UPS AND DOWNS AND BRAND NEW STARTS
THE WORLD TURNS  THE SEASONS WILL CHANGE
IT'S NOT THE SAME IT'S NOT THE SAME

YOU USE TO SAY YOU'D FIND YOUR WAY 
TO KEEP ON LIVING BEYOND THE GRAVE
AND HELP ME THROUGH ALL THE PAIN  THERE'S STILL PAIN
SO MUCH PAIN... ITS BEEN EIGHT LONG YEARS SEEMS LIKE YESTERDAY
TIME RAN OUT YOU COULDN'T BE SAVED 
THE DAY YOU DIED THE LIGHTS WENT DARK 
MY SPIRIT DIED AND MY SOUL CRIED OUT

YOU USE TO SAY YOU'D FIND YOUR WAY TO KEEP ON LIVING BEYOND THE GRAVE AND HELP ME THROUGH ALL THE PAIN BUT THERE'S STILL PAIN SO MUCH PAIN.,,,,,,

The Day You Died  ( ORIGINAL ) Carolines Song  With  Lyric Sheet

Recorded in 2019

Cassettes used featuring vocal parts:

"The Complete Authorized King James Version of the Bible", narrated by Alexander Scourby

"Achieve Freedom from Worry", narrated by David Canova, MBA, TH.H, A.II.H, Q, SQR

Symphony in G-String

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