All of this pain that will never go away
Because I can see the future
And you would have wanted it this way
All that I’ve paid for and all that we’ve made
It will all just go away
But that will never set me free
Only in my dreams you won’t forget about me

I use to think that the future would be so bright
That is why I’ve kept my eyes closed 
all of this time

Every single day you put me in my place
Because I was in your way
And you needed more room to play
All that I’ve paid for and all that we’ve made
It will all just go away
But that will never set me free
Only in my dreams you won’t forget about me


Only In My Dreams

Love Love Love Love Love

BIRD CALL. It's a movement. 
special thanks Matt Chellini


SHAMASH- Traveler circa 2002- not forgotten

Some living like the last of days
Others living days to make em last   .. even ask to stay
Some giveth. Some take it away
Some abide by the rules some decide not even to play  
Gotta free it up wasted space on your hard drive
UNplug, Hug a tree, their actually alive
An archive full of useless info
The rhythm supplied just ride the tempo
Got the Memo…. I burnt in the back there
The perfectly crafted Fire gasps for air
Contingent on one sharpened instincts
A pigeon on the roof took a shit and it hit me
Unlucky right? Nah quite an epiphany
Changed my life’s direction, it was meant to be
A flaw correction?….. Check.. Introspection….. next
No more simulated…. tests..  connection… Yes!
to the projection hall,  all walls of mirrors
Not all are ready. the visions appearing
 it’s bringing all those fears up
The dogs got her ears up.. 
The cows got weak knees
Cheers put your beers up
What it is…. is the Earth feeling Queasy 
The gut is upset and it’s getting uneasy
The core of the Allure we want pure not sleazy
We want accord not awards, Don’t tease me
We want peace. Not WaR.. Its not easy
But clips are empty. NO attemptED treaty
See A, B-eing, C(see)ing D-eep  
EFGHIJK LMNOP
QRST,  Rest in peace 
While your still living, stop digging and JUST BE 
You see this structure of life we are bored with now
Which means eventually it all comes down


Keeper Of The Bees - 11:30:15, 12.25 PM

Random Thoughts

"I’m Not Okay"
(Written in late summer 2016. key of D )

What color of unhappy
will I wear today?
The one where you’re with me?
Or the one when you’re away?

I’m caught in this puzzle
Just a piece in the mix
Can’t seem to find the place
For my heart to fit.
	You used to be my medicine.
	You used to be my fix.
	When did our love get poisoned?
	Why does my heart feel split?
Well there ain’t nothin’ for it
Yeah I’m damned either way
So baby please help me forget
The pain.
	You’re all that I want.	
	Yet you push me away.
	Where has our love gone?
	And no, it’s not okay.
		Oh no I’m not okay
		No I’m not okay
		No I’m oka-ay
		With us this way.
		No I’m not okay.
	You used to be my medicine
	You used to be my fix
	When did our love get poisoned
	Why does my heart feel split?
And no I’m not okay
		No I’m not okay
		No I’m oka-ay
		With us this way.
		No I’m not okay.

DEMO to Eyes on The Horizon

Not Okay

Original: c eric sandstrom
Title: Green Dollar Bill

Only In My Dreams

Matt Chellini

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