Another year, another Holiday Tape! Hapi Holidays and meri Christmas from Hermano Chikardel!

1. Heatwave

how can i say that i'm my brother's keeper
too many times our eyes been misaligned
i've seen u rose to heights and dimmed your light, we just survived
i'll give my life to make it right, 'n every time i hit your line
i pray to God i hear your smile 
all the pride i got for you, and i fear that it's too little
ain't no meeting in the middle, i owe it to you to slide
all that science, all that alchemist inspiration lacked fullmetal
my alphonse, i went a year 'n i ain't call u once
your suit of armor weighed a ton
trudging through those cold fronts
use to chase them gold fronts 'n now we 'bout them funds
all for you
life's a journey made for two, that's why He sent you through
i always had a will to win and now a reason i can't lose 
i lost time with you, fighting over ego that i had to prove
that didn't matter
feelings and regret i had to drink away
my mind was scattered
further down that road i saw disaster
so i carve these words into the chapter after
where's my alabaster 
crashout by my side, ill go war bout u, anytime
'n bury all my hatchets in that baggage i don't use to fly
i missed your graduation, saw them pictures and i nearly cried
these meetings test my patience, so a billionaire can get a payment
everybody's changing
ain't like back in land o lakes
all that distance carried weight 'n now i can't go far away
see the writing's on the wall and how they coming for us all
but if they push up on you, every side gon' talk bout how i got 'em gone 
'n if i ever see the world off money from these songs
if they ever scream my name with every breath that's in they lungs
i'd find a way to trade it all
a grammy ain't gon' right my wrongs
i'm close to making profit but without you i don't want it 
'cause how can i say that i'm my brother's keeper
too many times our eyes been misaligned
i've seen u rose to heights and found your light
we gon' do more just survive
i'll give my life to make it real
'n every time i hit your line
i'm thanking God i got u here
it's mixed emotions that i feel
i know im moving different
these ain't the days of who gon' dvr their favorite show next
it's always been a part of me behind the mix
now i'm hoping one day u gon' understand my heart behind the mess

MY_BROTHERS_KEEPER_V4 (prodbyreazon)

all these thoughts are spinnin in my head…

Maybe....

written/recorded on 2/21, refined on 2/22. thank you for listening to “i am” (freestyle) 🤍

i am

APEIRON coming soon

prod. by Stoic (the goat) i think this falls under free use because i know damn well im not getting paid 

wtf is forever

HardLifeHeroics

I'm gonna be a problem for a while
shouts to my brother for lending me this beat
approaching APEIRON

what the hell (prod. Hermano Chikardel)

this track isn’t exactly in its “finished state”, but in honor of my father I am choosing to upload this version today. 12 years ago today, my father transitioned to be with our Heavenly Father. As I ride through the beach in search of “the calm”, I remember the feelings of 2013. I love and miss my father deeply, but I hope that my strides lead me to making him proud. With love,
- Donavan