produced by heylog

lyrics:
i'm a mess
i barely know me
and my head
is so unholy
but i'm good
somethin pulled me
i don't know
she kiss me slowly

i gotchu figured out
you did me wrong and u wonder why i'm distant now
i stepped away cus i got sick of the room being loud
staring at a screen for hours designing sounds
and bringing in a crowd
how did i make it work
and i never thought i'd be saying "i did it first"
projects so big to where i couldn't even finish dirt
got my speakers shaking like this shit could blow a surge
i think my neighbors heard

open my window
breathe in air
sun sets at 8
wrap my arms around her body
while she kiss my face

whatever they said, don't believe em
don't let your own friends deceive you
whatever she said, don't believe that
i'll always look out for your back
don't believe a single word that she said
everything you heard is far from the truth
don't believe a single thing that she says
she says
she

don't be nervous
take a deep breath in
who you know doing it like this
face first going straight in the pavement
might as well just embrace it
weekend night
everybody goin out
except for me
it's the gym or my house
saw you just got back from the bar
that's cool
i'm just locked in makin art
prolly knocked out
2am i'm working
making my sound
i'm my own person
couldn't really tell you where i'm at for genre
i do everything and i'll do what i wanna
put your phone down, i don't want a photo
put a song out and don't even promo
post it on the gram, lotta people on it
post it on my story and your sister saw it
gotcha 
knew you wouldn't like that
flip flop
watching this moron crash
can't blame no one except for yourself
that's gotta be a record for switching that fast
how you gonna call me ugly
but stick around still obsessive w me
like i ain't dumb enough to put you under my sleeve
knock out, ya shoulda thought before u said anything

spotify

obsessed

@rxseboy - secret garden (prod. chill sebs)

@rxseboy - UNDERGROUND (prod. sundwn)

Produced by @chillsebs
lyrics:
Yeah
Babe im doing it real  
babe im doing it real 

You need me for real 
You need me for real 
Say what’s up 
I can be somebody 
I can be nobody 
Idk 
I just wanna do what I like and feel her pain, wow 

Bleeding too much 
Bleeding too much 
Bleeding too much 
But im 
So tired of luv 
I cant go wrong 
I cant feel love 
And you 
You don’t believe what I say 
Never believe what I say 
I got way too much to say 
I got way too much to fake

fakefriends (prod. Chill Sebs)

produced by heylog

lyrics:
run
breathe through your lungs
hold onto me
hold onto me
fast
won't let you crash
just look at me
just look at me

we're separated
and no one has called back
i just wish you were here
so i could hear you laugh
and it stopped raining
he kept seeing your blonde hair
i just want some hope
that you're out there somewhere
you're somewhere
you're somewhere
you're somewhere
you're somewhere
you're somewhere
you're somewhere
you're somewhere

rip my heart heart out, slowly listen
hold my hand but you're too distant
sometimes i can't even breathe
when u are no where to be seen
i hate that i left that night
and cutting skin is a waste of time
you'll get no where with that blade
cus that's somethin you know i hate
i been searching everywhere
and i miss when i had blonde hair
you said you liked that bout me
and now it looks dead and dirty
don't you dare pick up that knife
cause cutting skin's such a waste of time
you'll get no where with that blade
cus that's somethin' you know i hate

i'd rip my heart out so you could live
and you can't stop me from doing it
now you're right there next to me
but only happens in my dreams
and i should never of left that night
i didn't know it'd be our last time
and i hate myself for that
it was the most we ever laughed
i keep searchin up and down
n hopes that i'd find you somehow
i'm not having any luck
and i refuse to give it up
and don't you dare pick up that knife
cause cutting skin is such a waste of time
and you'll get no where with that blade
cause that's something you know i hate

one two three

blade

produced by late night tones

-lyrics-
Tell me how's it feel to be the butt of your own joke
You call me irrational, you scream at me
"You're on your own"

Hold me close while you slip the knife in my back
And tell me lies I choose to trust just to make it last
You cut my heart into pieces, I don't want it back
I told myself that you would miss what you once had

You watched the life leave my eyes
You don't even care, you never try
Still I'd hate to lose you
I don't wanna lose you

Blue light, night sky
Lost my soul in your cold eyes
Gave you life and you took mine
Swept away by the high tide
(Hold on, wait)
Calm down
Why you gotta talk? It's so loud
The cares that I give, I'm sold out

Hold me close while you slip the knife in my back (in my back)
And tell me lies I choose to trust just to make it last (just to make it last)
You cut my heart into pieces, I don't want it back (want it back)
I told myself that you would miss what you once had (what you once had)
But I was wrong, I'll admit, I thought it'd work (thought it'd work)
There's no sound underground under the dirt (under the dirt)
Pass me by, walk away, but know it hurts (know it hurts)
To be the one that had tried to make it work
(There's no sound underground under the dirt)

DIRT

@Chillsebs - https://soundcloud.com/chillsebs/tempestad (JERK REMIX)
Produced by @matebusi.
@onelife_records

@Chillsebs - Tempestad (JERK REMIX)

Honesty

thank you for listening
thank you for being here

prodby @chillsebs

though at war, he's been indoors, the body sore, and torn, and dormant
if i don't wanna talk about it, least i'm being honest
thorns of those adored remain accomplice to the hardship
he's always fallen short of pulling swords from out the garden
the polishing of floors becomes reflective that he's tarnished
back it up before the words contort from what i wanted
evenings on a porch he's never bore of taking part in
endorsement of that orange supports the forging of despondence

time clots when you have the stopwatch break
i won't be disappointed if you show up late
the kettles had been settled in support of the weight
his temple thus embezzled of it's coriander brain

girl i was your home, guess you rent me
broken out of stone that is my bones, smithing weapons
monochrome that dome, devoid of glow yet ascending
closing of the mold would only hone in the essence

split at the waist, forced to guard, stood in place
and every morning that breaks subjects his soul to ablaze
he'd prefer being burnt to a pile of sage,
where the ache in the air is relieved of it's grave

missing targets that he really shouldn't
uncompressed when melodies are fluid
stake it like it's weak against the turmeric
beings want his blood for their consuming
puppet felt the tug and pull of nothing
ponders why and how he's always running
shit had changed with loss and gain of loving
mercy at the gravity of what is

i really think i'mma erode, the moment i've struck any gold, aye
just let me go, just let me go, you do not know me
hope is a torturous road, but gonna see where it goes, babe
she left me alone, now nobody knows
absent of warning

girl i was your home, guess you rent me
broken out of stone that is my bones, smithing weapons
monochrome that dome, devoid of glow yet ascending
closing of the mold would only hone in the essence

pendragon (chill sebs x poppy ozu)

wrote this about the struggles my best friend went through

rotting with the moon (neverforever)

Produced by matebusi
lyrics:
Shut down 
I feel uncomfortable 
Losing control now 
I cant stay at all 

Cause Im really tired of what I’ve become 
I don’t really know what’s the best For me & myself 
All the time I wonder why 
i wonder why they want me dead 
I did a couple things i bet they’ll never understand

they’ll never understand
stand
stand
stand
stand
Right now they want me dead
Dead
Dead
Dead
Dead

Now im feeling Like 

I shouldn’t be here for too long 
In the meantime lets dance, love 
Be quiet, move slow 
Cause I don’t really talk enough 

I know how you feeling 
I know how you feel about me 
Looking at the ceiling 
Don’t tell anybody 

That im just trying to fill the hole in my chest 
I know its basic, but its the flow in my head 
I know you like me, don’t have to be ashamed 
I know you like me, don’t have to tell your friends 

Cause Im really tired of what I’ve become 
I don’t really know what’s the best For me & myself 
All the time I wonder why 
i wonder why they want me dead 
I did a couple things i bet they’ll never understand

Cause Im really tired of what I’ve become 
I don’t really know what’s the best For me & myself 
All the time I wonder why 
i wonder why they want me dead 
I did a couple things i bet they’ll never understand

Speed up:
Cause Im really tired of what I’ve become 
I don’t really know what’s the best For me & myself 
All the time I wonder why 
i wonder why they want me dead 
I did a couple things i bet they’ll never understand

Cause Im really tired of what I’ve become 
I don’t really know what’s the best For me & myself 
All the time I wonder why 
i wonder why they want me dead 
I did a couple things i bet they’ll never understand
they’ll never understand

Honesty

Chill Sebs

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