mixed / mastered by lil narnia

wishing you well
even though you're with someone else
and nothing but the numbness helps
when theres nothing to do
stuck in my room with these thoughts of you
wishing you well
even though now you're someone else
couldn't tell you how it felt
how much it hurts seeing you
so different now its what distance will do
every second awake
every step that I take
is another one back
hoping one day you'll ask
if I'm okay
i'll tell you everything if you care to know
what its like in this hell
hoping your doing well
so numb I cannot feel
anything but this guilt inside of me
blame myself for things I can't change
all because of you
I love the way that you fucked me
hate every something that we could have been
again and again and again and again
why can't you just love me for who I am
why am I always so fucking upset
all of my pain and my love is the same
it comes from a place with no one else to blame
other than me its all self inflected
wounds that bleed inside and no one can see
self destruction is such a beautiful thing
how does it feel to watch me suffering
how does it feel to watch me suffering while i'm
wishing you well
even though you're with someone else
and nothing but the numbness helps
when there nothing to do
stuck in my room with these thoughts of you
wishing you well
even though now you're someone else
couldn't tell you how it felt
how much it hurts seeing you
so different now its what distance will do

baby i'm wishing you well
scratching the walls in my cell
the clarity rings like a bell
if only i could say farewell
to the winds that carry me
into the shadows that follow me
they will treat you well
don't forget to carry me
in your heart 
feed my body to my enemies

self destruction (feat. LOCAL ZERO) [prod. Charlie Shuffler]

rzrblade (prod. prince gravy)

music video: https://youtu.be/J8b7IyxE9c0
produced by: railrepeater (@railrepeater)

lyrics:
some days I don't ever sleep
some days I don't miss a beat
some days I don't wanna wake up
I dont wanna go out I don't really say much
fendi on my belt polo on my shoes
make her heart melt when we riding in the coupe
I don't need no help I did it by myself 
I multiply the wealth then I split it with the crew
you say u making moves but we know thats a lie
I could see the truth when I look u in the eye
something bout it feel so strange nowadays
I could never change for the fame either way
getting money but you know I'm still sad too
hit the road but you know ill be back soon
she gon' suck me ya she something like a vacuum
haters mad I don't blame 'em i'd be mad too yeah
tattoos on my chest now
smokin dope just to cope I'm so stressed out
Ima get it til I got it I'm the best out
check my age check my wage im up next now yeah

some days I don't ever sleep
some days I don't miss a beat
some days I don't wanna wake up
I dont wanna go out I don't really say much
X2

stressing all the time everything aint fine
tears on my bands shawty wanna read my mind
I got dolce and gabanna she wanna smell
demons in my dreams got me waking up in hell
oh well oh well I got used to how it feel
emotions I conceal off the drugs but they don't heal
I just need me something real I'm sick of all the fake
some days I just need my space yeah yeah

some days I don't ever sleep
some days I don't miss a beat
some days I don't wanna wake up
I dont wanna go out I don't really say much
X2

Music Video

Some Days (prod. railrepeater) [VIDEO IN DESCRIPTION]

see u around  - lil lotus x horse head (prod. reaper)

shattered:
got 2 lives
i already died
pieces of my heart breaking by your blue eyes
she already lied
she ain't even mine
drugs numb the pain when you getting real high

d1v:
she only come around when i got drugs
(when i got drugs on me)
i dont rly mind it cuz i just want her closer
yea she always lookin for sum fun
(she never sleep)
baby that alright with me if it makes u stay with me
if i should be honest i dont want to be attached to u
had another girl i loved so i did the dash for u
hate when u make me sad
baby dont feel bad
laying in my bed got my eyes at the ceiling
drain my pain with meds yea i guess i like feeling

shattered:
got 2 lives
i already died
pieces of my heart breaking by your blue eyes
she already lied
she ain't even mine
drugs numb the pain when you getting real high

i've been feeling down
she be taking drugs
i be getting love in the back of the club
shawty say what's up 
pour another cup
 your love is like a drug and i cannot get enough
i can't explain all the pain in my heart
you took the blade and you cut through my scars
when i go to sleep i just crash in my car
but it was all good till you left me in the dark

drugged up shawty w/ d1v (prod. born hero)

Every day without you seems
like such a waste and I’m afraid that I’m not ever gonna be the same
and everyday I’m so ashamed
to let them see what we’ve become and how it’s killing me
lately everybody asks where I’ve been
I’ve been doing my best to keep quiet
in my room missing you oh they’re lying
they don’t care they just can’t take the silence
lately everybody asks where I’ve been
I’ve been doing my best to keep quiet
In my room missing you and I’m trying 
so hard to restart but I’m finding that 

Everyday without you seems
like such a waste and I’m afraid that I’m not ever gonna be the same
everyday I’m so ashamed
to let them see what we’ve become and how it’s killing me

sick of spending every second every day
wishing that you’d come back or say something
everybody always wants something from me except for you and it’s so confusing 
sick of spending every moment every night remembering when you’d come over like it was just yesterday but who am I kidding 
did it to myself and there’s no forgetting

every day (prod. neek)

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LIL AARON
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ARTWORK
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FUCKED UP KID(BOYFRIENDZ)

ion got a squad i got double cups of wokhardt
rather be alone thats the curse of a rockstar

rockstar ft. steven moses (prod. mochila & falsecut)

cover: https://www.instagram.com/danny_konrad/

i cut off
all my fake friends
i gave it all up
now im drinkin vitamin water
while i roll up
smoke drugs 
why u make it sound
like a crime? 
i got money fallin down
sorry i aint got no time
its my life now
imma keep it up
untill my lights out
pipe down
u been slandering
for a while now
if i gotta burn another bridge
its the right house
and my bro in la got my back 
so i might fly out

lights out (prod. vaegud & kuroime)

Don't do drugs shits not good for ur health
Shoutout to coldy n kryptik
art by @mindofgrant
mixed by me

Loving myself Ft. Coldhart (prod. Kryptik)

Razor

formerly known as James Colt
@timelesstomorrow

Some Days (prod. railrepeater) [VIDEO IN DESCRIPTION]

Chloe Stankowski

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