I've been sitting on this for a couple of months...
Didn't really know what to make of it (besides knowing it was written for my girlfriend Mary... who by the way used to work for the Cleveland Museum of Natural History...hence some of the lyrical theme)...
Anyway, having played it for her... it seemed to have served it's purpose.
And I've sort of overlooked it since. 

I did briefly consider giving this to Broker Jonathan to sing and play guitar (doesn't this sound like him?) ...though I can't say for sure...it was probably inspired by his music after a listen to his work.

Anyway, Mary's been having a bad week dealing with some difficult family issues...

So, I was inspired to share this tonight.

...for Mary. xoxo


"The Holes In Who I Am"  
Music and Lyrics by: Chris Demkow Sept. 2012

I remember believing the world was flat
Making fire with cavemen grew from that

Now, all that I know can't fill up...
All the holes in who I am
...Without you

All the words of the ages...
All the songs and the art...
All the hope of the faithful... 
The moon and the stars...

You're alive... you're alive...

...What else do I need to learn?

Cause, all that I know can't fill up...
All the holes in who I am
...Without you 



The Holes In Who I Am

I'm a Brit in America.

I've released nine albums including Naive (2014), Above The Rain (2015), Heartlands (2016), The Freaks and the Brave (2017), Nashville When I Rise (2018), Retropolitan (2020), Oxygen (2021), Rock Paper Scissors (2023) and Hendon (2025).

https://music.apple.com/us/artist/stephen-randall/1279904922

I used to write songs for other artists and thought that getting covers was what it was all about. Whenever I heard the end results of what other artists, producers or A&R people would do with my songs, I mostly found it soul destroying, so I allowed myself to I get distracted developing technology - inventing the Stepp digital guitar and founding several startups in mobile and healthcare.  Then about twelve years ago I started writing again and this time I wrote for myself and rediscovered my passion. So here I am, a songwriter again. 

I record on a MacBook Pro using Logic Pro X, and play a Fender Jazzmaster (my current go-to), American Fender Tele, Taylor acoustic, Epiphone Sheraton II Pro, Fender Jazz Bass, Line 6 Variax JTV, Stepp DG1 (of course!), Nord Piano 5/MIDI keyboard, Gretsch Lap Steel and am learning pedal steel on a Sho-Bud Pro pedal steel guitar. 

The Soundcloud community has fostered my motivation for songwriting and music discovery. Thanks for listening - every comment, constructive or otherwise inspires me.

Cheers,

Stephen

Songwriter, producer. 

I sometimes write good music.

That Muzak Guy

Playing piano since I was four and studied in a musical school for ten years. Though, I always felt that playing by notes and singing in a choir is not enough to become a musician. I needed to be able to play anything I want by ear so, by starting improvising, I've found my own style of playing. When I teach children to play piano or sing, I offer them improvisation right from the beginning. I wish I was taught that way, since until my mid-30s I had hard times to relax and believe in my ability to create my own music. Twelve years ago my husband (@arty-sandler) finally convinced me to record some of my improvisations and we opened this account on SoundCloud - it happened in July, 2012.

You won't find a single particular genre on my cloud: my musical tastes are rather eclectic. Jazz and soft rock are my favorites but I also play blues, classical, folk, middle-eastern, New Age, ambient and others. Piano and vocal are my main instruments but together with my husband we also experiment a lot with different arrangements and orchestrations. 

When we started uploading our music to SoundCloud back in 2012, it was first shy attempts to record my improvisations straight from a keyboard. Many things have evolved since then. Over the years we've grown into a professional recording and composing studio, with a conservatory grand piano in an acoustically treated room and a bunch of microphones and other recording equipment. We scored a few documentaries, short films and animations. This year my orchestral and piano solo works were performed by Leipzig Gewandhaus Orchestra for Bryan Arias’s ballet show based on “The Little Prince” story. We've published three books with my original scores for solo piano and released twenty original full-length albums (solo piano, multi-instrumental and original songs in various genres) and numerous singles that have been streamed over 70 million times across multiple platforms.

I am glad you stepped by into my musical world and appreciate your comments and following me.

There's a lot more to learn about me and my music in the descriptions attached to each song...

I'm thrilled to be part of this extraordinary community.

Peace.

Chris

Who is Taste Nate?

Taste Nate is a rapper with an ear-grabbing, poetic style that draws on a wide range of musical influences and inspirations. A spiritually attuned man with a raw, urban sensibility, Taste Nate puts the highest value on truth telling. In his Art and in his Life, it’s clear he listens to the call of his spirit—something we must all do if we are to progress in this era of challenges.

Former member of NYC’s own Circus of Power (Columbia Records, RCA Records..)I am both excited and anxious to get back out there to promote last year's record, “Beer, Picks & Old Records". Gritty sounds & colorful stories of America, equal parts Country, Punk, Blues & Pop.  13 tunes about losers, lovers, thrill seekers & troublemakers. Working on a new record for 2021; many of those songs are included here with new ones added weekly.

Along with my years with Circus of Power I was with NY Loose , The Silos and the punk/pop band Screaming Sneakers. Having  worked with such diverse artists as Guns N’ Roses, Gravity Kills and New Zealand’s Steph Casey, you might say dues have been paid and then some.

Nice review for the record...
https://veglam.com/2019/08/27/gary-sunshine-beer-picks-old-records/

I've completed collaborations with Pall Of A Past World "Winnebago", Shoemansky "Homesick", Bergman "Ian Brown" & "Stoned Butterfly", Steph Casey "My Lovely Letterbox" & "A Love To Stay In For", "The Sandman's Orchestra "To Haunt You", and Sink\Sink "Hardbitten".

I had a great time doing these and I look forward to exploring more opportunities to collaborate as time allows.  

Thanks for stopping by. Means a lot. I appreciate your comments a great deal.

https://soundcloud.com/ian-melvin/audiobiography-ian-melvin

All the songs on this cloud are original compositions of mine.  Sometimes in collaboration with other SoundClouders.

Music is a kind of kaleidoscope, although it manifests itself on an incomparably higher level of ideality. Music produces beautiful forms and colours in ever more elaborate diversity, gently overflowing, sharply contrasted, always coherent and yet always new, self-contained and self-fulfilled. Eduard Hanslick 1854

I am a married father of two, grandfather of four, fine arts graduate and polymath.

I had been asked to commit my songs to recording for the benefit of my offspring, and also I guess before I go completely deaf (Yes. I am one of the 1 in 7 severely deaf people in the UK) so begins this project. 

However, as I have gotten into it I realize that I have a lot of new stuff bursting out all the time, much of it inspired by you good people on Sound Cloud. 

Collaborating has been a revelation and I want to do more and as much as I can, so if you hear anything of mine you like and/or have any ideas about production etc just drop me a line anytime.

My collaborative name is Eight Zeros and can be found here: http://soundcloud.com/eight-zeros and on Facebook here: https://www.facebook.com/eight8zeros

I would at some point like to work with someone to develop my own and hopefully your songs as an acoustic vocal duo so if you are geographically near and interested please get in touch.

Recordings were made first on a Boss Micro BR, then on an iMac running Garageband'11, inputting through a Behringer 1204 USB mixer and using a Rode NT2A for voice (Behringer C1 condenser mic for voice up to April 2013) and an AKG1000S for guitars. From January 2013 I have upgraded software to Logic pro 9. My weapon of choice is a Martin 00015M, with Martin SP Light's mostly recorded open though sometimes via Fishman Rare Earth Blend. 

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