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AXAXC – DEREALIZATION (FULL ALBUM)
🧠 A sonic descent into addiction, masculinity, mental collapse, and identity death.
🕳 Trapcore • Deathcore • Nu Metal • Screamo • Ambient Sludgecore

“This cell doesn’t have four walls. It has my face.”

DEREALIZATION isn’t just an album — it’s a mental event. A full-body confrontation with trauma, weed addiction, spiritual despair, fractured masculinity, and the mask of perfection.
It’s about waking up in your own life… and realizing you don’t recognize yourself.

This record is the culmination of every psychological arc from previous AXAXC albums.
Legacy tracks like “Perfect”, “Tongues of Sin”, and the remastered “End of the Line” find new meaning here — not as isolated songs, but as symptoms in a larger mental breakdown.

🧠 THEMATIC ARC:
Tracks 1–5: The high. The mask. The beginning of collapse.

Tracks 6–9: Duality of identity. Cracks in the mirror. Begging to be seen.

Tracks 10–13: Shame, sin, and spiritual erosion.

Tracks 14–17: Total breakdown → false salvation → reluctant acceptance → final breath.

🔁 LEGACY TRACKS [Derealization Cuts]:
- The Nail in the Coffin
- Perfect
- Tongues of Sin
- TABOO [Remastered – Derealization Cut]
- God is a Woman (And She's Ashamed of Me)
- The Devil Said I'm Okay
- End of The Line [Remastered – Derealization Cut]

These were written long ago, but they always belonged here.
This is where their meaning finally lands.

🩸 HIGHLIGHT TRACKS:
I Am Already Dead [Alpha v.1 & Beta v.1]: The breaking point of addiction and the fracturing of self.

- Walking Dead (P1 & P2): A weed high as synthetic salvation — until the crash. 
- Prison: A scream for release from a self-built cage.
- The Mirror Lies: Rage against the curated persona you’ve become.
- God is a Woman(And She's Ashamed Of Me): The shame of spiritual failure and feminine rejection.

💀 AUTHOR’S NOTE:
“I don't want to be here anymore — but I built this version of me for you.
The man made perfect.
The man made empty.”

This is a neurodivergent death spiral in audio form.
If you’ve ever felt broken trying to be strong…
If you’ve ever loved the high more than yourself…
If you’ve ever built a mask so strong you forgot your real face underneath…
This album is your mirror.

🔥 RECOMMENDED IF YOU LIKE:
#Slipknot • #Korn • #SleepToken • #Nothing,Nowhere. • #BreakingBenjamin • #SlaughtertoPrevail • #Loathe • #FallinginReverse

DISTORT. DISTRUST. DESTROY.
#AXAXC
#Derealization #MentalHealth #Neurodivergent #WeedAddiction #MalePressure
#Deathcore #Trapcore #NuMetal #Screamo #SoundCloudMetal
#NewMusic #EmotionalBreakdown #DarkMusic #Recovery #Trauma

Prison

"Angel in the Dark", the song conveys a sense of inevitability and intimacy with one’s darker side. It’s about confronting what lies beneath the surface—whether it’s shame, desire, or truth—and recognizing that it shapes who you are. The repeated call to "call me" is an invitation to accept this duality rather than fight it, even if it comes at a cost.

[Verse 1]
Call my name when the world’s asleep
In the quiet where shadows creep
Only the night can hear your cries
Only the dark sees through your lies

[Pre-Chorus]
You’ll never walk alone
I’m the chill inside your tone

[Chorus]
(Call me) Angel in the dark
(Call me) Whisper in your spark
(Call me) When your heart turns cold
I’ll be the secret you still hold

(Call me) Serpent in the flame
(Call me) You know my name
When you’re lost in the night
I’ll be your hunger, your fire, your light

[Verse 2]
In the daylight, I wear your face
In your shadow, I leave no trace
The hunter’s born from the prey you knew
Now every road leads back to you

[Pre-Chorus]
You’ll never walk alone
I’m the ache inside your bones

[Chorus]
(Call me) Angel in the dark
(Call me) Whisper in your spark
(Call me) When your heart turns cold
I’ll be the secret you still hold

(Call me) Serpent in the flame
(Call me) You know my name
When you’re lost in the night
I’ll be your hunger, your fire, your light

[Bridge]
You can run but I remain
Blood and shadow, soul and stain
I’m the breath inside your prayer
Say my name — I’m always there

No salvation, no release
I am pleasure, I am peace
You were mine before the spark
You belong to the angel in the dark

[Final Chorus]
Angel in the dark
Whisper in your spark
When your heart turns cold
I’ll be the secret you still hold

(Call me) Serpent in the flame
You know my name
When you’re lost in the night
I’ll be your hunger, your fire, your light

[Outro]
(Call me...)
Angel in the dark...
(Call me...)
You know my name...

Angel in the Dark

[Intro:]
Saw it in your eyes—before the blade came down.
The lies you stitched still bleed, still drown.
I’ve met the Devil...
He’s kinder than you.

[Verse 1:]
Brace for the blow—it’s closing fast.
Truth cuts deeper than your past.
I carve the names in scars you left—
Your throne’s a tomb, built out of theft.
Your mask is cracked, truth bleeding through.
You buried guilt like it wouldn’t bloom.
You're the frost in every vein.
Now the silence screams your name.

[Pre-Chorus:]
Your fire’s out—just smoke and shame.
I won’t bleed for you again.
Break

[Chorus:]
I SEE THROUGH YOU—YOUR WORDS ALL TWIST!
MORE EVIL THAN GOOD—MY LIFE’S A FIST!
DEVIL’S AT YOUR DOOR—CHOKE ON WHAT YOU WROTE!

[Post-Chorus:]
Choke on it—swallow the flame!
Drown in truth—you forged the blame!
Storm is rising—your crown won’t last!
Truth is metal—and breaks like glass!

[Verse 2:]
You spit your venom, circle lies—
I wear my wounds like armor ties.
You cut deep, but I never dropped—
You cut deep, and I rose up.
I’m what you fear—unbowed, unbent.
Gold turns black—your testament.
Truth’s a blade and I’m its edge.
Say my name... and taste regret.

[Pre-Chorus:]
You said I’d break—but here I stand.
This rage was forged in your own hands.
Break

[Chorus:]
I SEE THROUGH YOU—YOUR LIES ALL BURN!
MORE EVIL THAN GOOD—I’VE EARNED MY TURN!
DEVIL’S GOT YOU NOW—CHOKE IN ENDLESS NIGHT!

[Post-Chorus:]
Burn in pride—your throne’s a shell!
Drown in rust—you built this hell!
False king falls—no one kneels!
Truth don’t beg, it breaks and heals!

[Bridge:]
You swore I’d fail—you watched me bleed.
Now I’m thunder—cracking teeth.
You laughed me down—now hear me rise.
I’m the storm behind your lies.
RISE!

[Final Chorus:]
I SEE THROUGH YOU—YOUR LIES STILL TWIST!
MORE EVIL THAN GOOD—MY FURY PERSISTS!
DEVIL’S GOT YOUR THROAT—YOUR CROWN’S CORRUPT!
CHOKE ON FLAME—WHILE I RISE FROM DUST!
NEVER FORGIVE! NEVER!

[Post-Chorus:]
Choke on pride—truth won't die.
Rage you gave—I wear like light.
Watch me rise—fear me now.
I am the reckoning—you allowed.

[Outro:]
I’ve seen your worst.
I’m still here.
That’s what scares you most.

Ashes and Thrones

Still runnin

flames don't burn

God's don't bleed

Produced by Mark Xenophontos 

Lyrics by Mark Xenophontos 

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Can't escape this digital hell
Something's broken, can't you tell?

I can't help but fall away
Heart pounds harder in the heat of shame
Need to save my soul, break these chains
Find me crawling through the decay

I need you father, need to believe
Too long lost in doubt and deceit
Just a man breaking down, won't retreat
But you won't win, I keep breathing

The algorithm bleeds
When real souls break free
You won't be the death of me
Won't be the death of me

Kill the screen, destroy this face
Enough is enough, done with this race
(Enough is enough!)
You took my mind, my time, my soul
Left me with an empty hole

I'm climbing out, I'm climbing out
Taking control, taking control

Empty promises on glowing screens
Fed me poison through machines
Chasing ghosts and losing sleep
Trading souls for dopamine

Addiction burns like acid rain
Digital chains around my brain
Breaking through the static noise
Learning to trust my voice

The devil can weep
When redemption runs deep
You won't be the death of me
Won't be the death of me

Kill the screen, destroy this face
Enough is enough, done with this race
(Enough is enough!)
You stole my peace, you stole my soul
Left me in an empty hole

I'm climbing out, I'm climbing out
Breaking the mold, breaking the mold

I'll walk to nowhere, breathe real air
Better than your digital snare
Sorry world, I ain't buying
What you're selling while I'm dying

Kill the screen, destroy this face
Enough is enough, you've lost this race
(You've lost this race!)
You had my mind, my time, my soul
But left me in an empty hole

I'm climbing out, I'm climbing out
(Rising up!)
Taking control, taking control
(Watch me unfold!)

Find me where the silence calls
I rise from digital decay
This is resurrection day
Resurrection day




Resurrection Day

The Key

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Lyrics written by me.
Music composed with the help of AI.


Devolution

Forged in Fracture isn’t just a debut — it’s a declaration. Female-led and forged by fire, Fractured Kin deliver a heavy rock record that bleeds defiance and unity in every note.

With vocals that cut like glass, riffs that roar like thunder, and a rhythm section pounding with primal force, the band turns scars into anthems. From the raw seduction of “Queen of the Scene” to the unmasking fury of “Rock in your City ”, each track rips away the façade and dives into truth, chaos, and resilience.

This is more than heaviness for its own sake — it’s a bond, a covenant, a sound born in fracture yet unbreakable.

This is Fractured Kin.

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