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AXAXC – DEREALIZATION (FULL ALBUM)
🧠 A sonic descent into addiction, masculinity, mental collapse, and identity death.
🕳 Trapcore • Deathcore • Nu Metal • Screamo • Ambient Sludgecore

“This cell doesn’t have four walls. It has my face.”

DEREALIZATION isn’t just an album — it’s a mental event. A full-body confrontation with trauma, weed addiction, spiritual despair, fractured masculinity, and the mask of perfection.
It’s about waking up in your own life… and realizing you don’t recognize yourself.

This record is the culmination of every psychological arc from previous AXAXC albums.
Legacy tracks like “Perfect”, “Tongues of Sin”, and the remastered “End of the Line” find new meaning here — not as isolated songs, but as symptoms in a larger mental breakdown.

🧠 THEMATIC ARC:
Tracks 1–5: The high. The mask. The beginning of collapse.

Tracks 6–9: Duality of identity. Cracks in the mirror. Begging to be seen.

Tracks 10–13: Shame, sin, and spiritual erosion.

Tracks 14–17: Total breakdown → false salvation → reluctant acceptance → final breath.

🔁 LEGACY TRACKS [Derealization Cuts]:
- The Nail in the Coffin
- Perfect
- Tongues of Sin
- TABOO [Remastered – Derealization Cut]
- God is a Woman (And She's Ashamed of Me)
- The Devil Said I'm Okay
- End of The Line [Remastered – Derealization Cut]

These were written long ago, but they always belonged here.
This is where their meaning finally lands.

🩸 HIGHLIGHT TRACKS:
I Am Already Dead [Alpha v.1 & Beta v.1]: The breaking point of addiction and the fracturing of self.

- Walking Dead (P1 & P2): A weed high as synthetic salvation — until the crash. 
- Prison: A scream for release from a self-built cage.
- The Mirror Lies: Rage against the curated persona you’ve become.
- God is a Woman(And She's Ashamed Of Me): The shame of spiritual failure and feminine rejection.

💀 AUTHOR’S NOTE:
“I don't want to be here anymore — but I built this version of me for you.
The man made perfect.
The man made empty.”

This is a neurodivergent death spiral in audio form.
If you’ve ever felt broken trying to be strong…
If you’ve ever loved the high more than yourself…
If you’ve ever built a mask so strong you forgot your real face underneath…
This album is your mirror.

🔥 RECOMMENDED IF YOU LIKE:
#Slipknot • #Korn • #SleepToken • #Nothing,Nowhere. • #BreakingBenjamin • #SlaughtertoPrevail • #Loathe • #FallinginReverse

DISTORT. DISTRUST. DESTROY.
#AXAXC
#Derealization #MentalHealth #Neurodivergent #WeedAddiction #MalePressure
#Deathcore #Trapcore #NuMetal #Screamo #SoundCloudMetal
#NewMusic #EmotionalBreakdown #DarkMusic #Recovery #Trauma

Prison

[Intro:]
Saw it in your eyes—before the blade came down.
The lies you stitched still bleed, still drown.
I’ve met the Devil...
He’s kinder than you.

[Verse 1:]
Brace for the blow—it’s closing fast.
Truth cuts deeper than your past.
I carve the names in scars you left—
Your throne’s a tomb, built out of theft.
Your mask is cracked, truth bleeding through.
You buried guilt like it wouldn’t bloom.
You're the frost in every vein.
Now the silence screams your name.

[Pre-Chorus:]
Your fire’s out—just smoke and shame.
I won’t bleed for you again.
Break

[Chorus:]
I SEE THROUGH YOU—YOUR WORDS ALL TWIST!
MORE EVIL THAN GOOD—MY LIFE’S A FIST!
DEVIL’S AT YOUR DOOR—CHOKE ON WHAT YOU WROTE!

[Post-Chorus:]
Choke on it—swallow the flame!
Drown in truth—you forged the blame!
Storm is rising—your crown won’t last!
Truth is metal—and breaks like glass!

[Verse 2:]
You spit your venom, circle lies—
I wear my wounds like armor ties.
You cut deep, but I never dropped—
You cut deep, and I rose up.
I’m what you fear—unbowed, unbent.
Gold turns black—your testament.
Truth’s a blade and I’m its edge.
Say my name... and taste regret.

[Pre-Chorus:]
You said I’d break—but here I stand.
This rage was forged in your own hands.
Break

[Chorus:]
I SEE THROUGH YOU—YOUR LIES ALL BURN!
MORE EVIL THAN GOOD—I’VE EARNED MY TURN!
DEVIL’S GOT YOU NOW—CHOKE IN ENDLESS NIGHT!

[Post-Chorus:]
Burn in pride—your throne’s a shell!
Drown in rust—you built this hell!
False king falls—no one kneels!
Truth don’t beg, it breaks and heals!

[Bridge:]
You swore I’d fail—you watched me bleed.
Now I’m thunder—cracking teeth.
You laughed me down—now hear me rise.
I’m the storm behind your lies.
RISE!

[Final Chorus:]
I SEE THROUGH YOU—YOUR LIES STILL TWIST!
MORE EVIL THAN GOOD—MY FURY PERSISTS!
DEVIL’S GOT YOUR THROAT—YOUR CROWN’S CORRUPT!
CHOKE ON FLAME—WHILE I RISE FROM DUST!
NEVER FORGIVE! NEVER!

[Post-Chorus:]
Choke on pride—truth won't die.
Rage you gave—I wear like light.
Watch me rise—fear me now.
I am the reckoning—you allowed.

[Outro:]
I’ve seen your worst.
I’m still here.
That’s what scares you most.

Ashes and Thrones

Echos

Blind

Ashes and Armour

Eternal light

A descent into shadow, Death of the Voice is an unflinching blend of crushing riffs, haunting melodies, and cinematic atmosphere. Every track is a chapter in a story of defiance, decay, and the search for meaning in a world that silences the truth.

The Dark Silhouette

Psycho

🔥 Heaven’s on Fire – Rap-metal chaos meets cinematic darkness. Guttural screams, rap verses and soaring choruses. Trauma, addiction, and rebellion collide in a world where the heavens burn.

Heavens on Fire

Take The Jump

ANNOUNCEMENT: 14/08/2025
AxAxC HITS HALF A MILLION STREAMS!!!

Having amassed over 28,000 engaged monthly listeners in just 9 months on SoundCloud, AxAxC has built a brand that blends emotional torment with calculated artistry. Emerging from the shores of the North with roots deep in the African mountains, AxAxC dishes out righteous, emotional musical damage across the West.

AxAxC Take Inspiration From & are For fans of:
#LornaShore • #SleepToken • #BringMetheHorizon • #Spiritbox • #SlaughtertoPrevail • #WithinTemptation

If your soul burns for something real…
If your pain needs an anthem…
If you crave distortion, distrust, and destruction…
You belong here.

Welcome to AxAxC
Proudly merging Computing precision with human ingenuity, AxAxC’s evolution is visible in every release, sharper sound, richer visuals, and bolder storytelling. A team, Skills self-taught through a year of trial and error in prompt engineering, transcending into the heart of the band’s DNA.

AxAxC collaborates with any and all, united in the mission to create music for the misfits, the rebels, the broken, and the dreamers. For those who’ve screamed into the void and still chose to rise.

AxAxC Sound:
Melodic Deathcore brutality. Nu-metal grooves. Ambient metal textures. Screamo chaos. Drill, Trapcore. Cinematic storytelling. From guttural breakdowns to whispered ethereal vocals, orchestral warzones to jazz, country, and spoken word.

AxAxC is omnigenre. With lyrics from the hearts of both the band and the fans! To us everything is music, anything can become a song and we aim to please!

Latest Releases:
Cope Said The Troll: The Omnigenre Campaign – Teaser
Tropical Gargantua [SUMMER 2025 HITS] – Album
Grateful – EP

Commissions Open
AxAxC offers custom tracks, theme music, remixes, and album artwork—omnigenre, high-impact, and battle-tested. Our Page is our Portfolio! Whether you’re a creator, brand, or artist, or...one of our great listeners, get the AxAxC treatment and join the Collective from the inside.

Enquiries & Commissions:
Instagram DMs: @axaxcband
SoundCloud: @axaxcofficial
Email: axaxcstudios@proton.me

We are AxAxC.
Distort. Distrust. Destroy.

#AXAXC #TheCollectiveAscends #Deathcore #Metalcore #NuMetal #CinematicMetal #Screamo #SleepToken #SlaughterToPrevail #AmbientMetal #DistortDistrustDestroy #HauntingMelodies #AxAxCforever #Multigenre #Omnigenre #CustomMusic #CommissionsOpen

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