This is the end of an era long 
Where all familiar things lingered on 
And I held on to what had to go for long enough 
This is the end of an era long 

And with the end of an era gone 
And unfamiliar feelings beyond 
I know my goal is some way off but I'll carry on
Forgetting what held me back now I know
That none of it would get me far

Bring me to the light 
Unfreeze my soul 
Let me feel alive
Unseize control

Let a new horizon form
Let me leave behind what has been done 
Now's the time for me to face what I have ignored

All this time I've beat myself down
Reminiscing of a time before
People and the places I found 
That'll never come around for more

'Cause I won't progress 
If I don't learn the lesson I've been taught for long enough
All this time I've beat myself down
Reminiscing of a time before

It's how the end of an era goes 
When you can't tend to what never grows 
But I'll find hope somewhere far from all the things I lost
And see that what I've looked back at in sadness
Wasn't even worth the cost

'Cause In my long forgotten dreams
All the ones I love never leave 
We're all there in a clear lagoon 
Chugging drinks every afternoon

I woke up in sweat
And felt so much regret 
About the things we should've done
But I know it's just the end of an era long

Bring me to the light 
Unfreeze my soul 
Let me feel alive
Unseize control

Let a new horizon form
Let me leave behind what has been done 
Now's the time for me to face what I have ignored
This is the end of an era long

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I wrote this track about coming to the end of a long period of being unable to move forward due to holding onto things in the past. It is about finally accepting that certain stories in life have their endings and understanding there is no use in holding on to what was not meant to continue, such as old dreams, old friendships or places that used to be home.

End of an Era

This track was written by myself and my best friend, Ruth Anne Pollard who has a soundcloud channel of her own, https://soundcloud.com/ruth-anne-1. 

We wrote this song as a dedication to ourselves and to many others out there who have put much of our own feelings aside in order to be there for the ones around us who are less empathetic and less likely to reciprocate. These unrecognized feelings that we struggle to speak about can start to build up within us and come to the surface, causing those around us to question who we are because we have essentially been forced to wear a mask for so long.

Musically this song was inspired by Chariots of Fire by Vangelis, particularly in the verses 

Nobody knows the things we do
For the ones we love
Nobody knows

Nobody cares
But we keep on trying not to lose hope 
Nobody knows

When you're dying to release
What no one will let you speak
And you choose words carefully
Nobody knows

Nobody knows my defenses died, falling from me
Now all I need is you to want me to be fine
Nobody knows how I've lived this lie, buried beneath
Knowing the truth can be worse sometimes

Nobody hears, nobody listens
When you're trying to tell them who you are

They pay you no mind
When you try to be open 
And It's clear all the time
You never receive anything you provide

When you're dying to release
What no one will let you speak
And you choose words carefully
Nobody knows 

Nobody knows my defenses died, falling from me
Now all I need is you to want me to be fine
Nobody knows how I've lived this lie, buried beneath
Knowing the truth can be worse sometimes

Nobody knows my defenses died, falling from me
Now all I need is you to want me to be fine
Nobody knows how I've lived this lie, buried beneath
Knowing the truth can be worse sometimes

Nobody Knows

I started writing this song a few years ago when I was going through a period of isolation due to feeling a bit overwhelmed by society and how I became a little too comfortable in discomfort and how It felt difficult to motivate myself to escape from what became a repetitive cycle. I finally finished the track a week ago and It's definitely one of my personal favourites that I've written.

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The curtains have been drawn
I'm living in exile from civilization
And though It isn't far
I travel the no mans land in rotation
I sank into my shell
And I've never called anyone for help
But now within myself 
I feel I'm drowning, reaching out for air 
From the cold

With my bleeding hands
I'm ripping at the wall
And still it stands while I fall

Screaming, never believing I'll regain anything I've lost
Ignoring every warning I would end up on my own
Now I'm forced to face the result of my actions
I know this is my fault
So I'll swallow the pride
And no longer deny what I've done
Now It's me I have to confront

I roam around the halls 
Walking miles as I'm pacing back and forth
I tremble in the frost 
With weary lungs as my heart beats in my throat
And all that is warm is my breath
As I breathe in this smoke 
I fade out, I run circles in the fog

Then my racing thoughts start screaming out
For their rest to come
For an ending to this cycle 

Screaming, never believing I'll regain anything I've lost
Ignoring every warning I would end up on my own
Now I'm forced to face the result of my actions
I know this is my fault
So I'll swallow the pride
And no longer deny what I've done
Now It's me I have to confront

Screaming, never believing I'll regain anything I've lost
Ignoring every warning I would end up on my own
Now I'm forced to face the result of my actions
I know this is my fault
So I'll swallow the pride
And no longer deny what I've done
Now It's me I have to confront

Exile

A rare happier song of mine. I started writing this a few years back after I gained the strength to leave someone who had picked apart my personality, belittled me and saw themselves as above me and worthy of being chased. I spent lots of time during this relationship studying the way they were and why they did what they did and when I gained enough knowledge and left, all I had was pity for an insecure person. This song was a big time healer for me.

If anyone could help me clarify the genre of this song I'd really appreciate it :) 

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A fine line breaks whenever you try to play your mind games
Spinning around without direction, I can't take a tour in your small brains
So I close my eyes and phase out every hilarious typical phrase
Leave every human claiming they're wise surprised

You had your way, you picked me apart and kept me in chains
Begging to let me outside of my headaches
If you can't agree with me once
Interrupting all I want to say
Well, I'm better off someone who got away

I will lay cards and you can break the table
It's funny how you act now I've got the odds in my favour
I can break the chains off and you can be the chaser
It's funny how you act now I've got the odds in my favour

I dance by the window 
Away from my telephone 
All your fussing put to one side
Buzzing under my pillow 
Now I'm over my mistake
I do what I want, I say what I like
Whatever keeps your kind of people from mine

I will lay cards and you can break the table
It's funny how you act now I've got the odds in my favour
I can break the chains off and you can be the chaser
It's funny how you act now I've got the odds in my favour

And time did tell you didn't mean well
You can't accept when you're wrong 
And you can't handle that I'm tired of your love bombs
You narcissistic, self-addicted king of the pride
I bet your prey feel wonderful before the bite 

You poor, sweet, pitiable beast 
Feasting on the wrong side of somebody
But I no longer have the patience
Gather your flock and pick your supply 
But you'll satisfy no appetite on someone like me

I will lay cards and you can break the table
It's funny how you act now I've got the odds in my favour
I can break the chains off and you can be the chaser
Don't try to play with me, you're just not as good a gamer

Break The Table

After a month of vocal practise and studying music production, I definitely feel like I've improved since End of an Era but still have a long way to go. I'm still getting the hang of mixing but mastering is still something I need to study. Regardless I felt satisfied enough to release the song so I can move on to other projects.

I wrote this song late last year. It's a bit of a difficult one to fully explain. The lyrics are a bit messy but kind of make sense in my head. It's based on the emotions that come from the anticipation of someone who's going to leave you who you don't have the strength to leave yourself.

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Gone in a flash
Like somehow I'd imagined a ghost
I saw through your act
And denied all the facts when you showed

I saw through the cracks 
In your invisibility cloak
So you can pretend all you like
Oh but darling, you know

That it's true 
All I can do is stay beside you
Playing along till you're long gone
I'll wait beside you

Don't say goodbye when you go
Leave me here with the lies that you told 
'Cause I've seen all the signs 
And I said my goodbye long ago
'Cause I've known all this time
And I said my goodbye long ago

War with your mask
I'm outnumbered ten thousand to one
I can't counteract your relentless attacks anymore

Caught in a web
Inescapable threads that you wrought
So you can pretend I'm a fly 
For you darling, you know

That it's true 
All I can do is stay beside you
Playing along till you're long gone
I'll wait beside you

Don't say goodbye when you go
Leave me here with the lies that you told 
'Cause I've seen all the signs 
And I said my goodbye long ago 

Don't tell me I'm not enough 
I know I can't provide what you want
Only here on the side for you
Don't say goodbye when you go 
Don't say goodbye when you go

Don't say goodbye when you go
Leave me here with the lies that you told 
'Cause I've seen all the signs 
And I said my goodbye long ago 

Don't tell me I'm not enough 
I know I can't provide what you want
Only here on the side for you
Don't say goodbye when you go 
Don't say goodbye when you go


When You Go

This is my first collaboration with another artist on Soundcloud and It's been a pleasure working on this track. The production and music was fully made by the very talented Andy Pelkey, the vocals are myself and the lyrics are mostly myself with Andy creating the title and helping edit a few words. 

Links to Andy's pages: 

Soundcloud: https://soundcloud.com/pumpkin1-691987432
Youtube: https://www.youtube.com/channel/UCT2pKRsna4RGUCFvqCZLTHg
Spotify: https://open.spotify.com/artist/2YHJFekPrvTaBKk9llA7vO


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Out of the dark and into the light
I've spent a long time
Dwelling on the home behind 

Like a stray dog, I will find my way alone 
Ever roaming outside
You erase me
Erase me

Out of the comfort, Into retreat
It's been a long time 
Since you would return to me

Knowing stray dogs have to find their ways alone
And through this fight
I'll be wandering every road
Ever roaming outside 
You erase me
Erase me 

I claw at the trees in pale moonlight 
And howl in the breeze, nothing replies 
Your memory fades away
And I have gone astray, Into the wild

So where in the world can I reside
When I had a place within your eyes
Becoming estranged as we divide
I'll face the light 

You erase me
Erase me 
Erase me 
Erase me 

Erase Me

My birth name is Chryselios Chryseliou, born and based in Liverpool. I'm a singer-songwriter and beginner producer using ableton. My main instrument is the piano which is my musical home but I like to experiment with other sounds. I'm open to connect with other musicians.

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