i try

fuck a love i need a laugh feat. Kai

produced by COURIER | https://www.youtube.com/channel/UCajc5O6F7ubyIhbpIXKne4w

ABSNG MY TM (Prod. COURIER)

Produced by KADDY | https://www.beatstars.com/kaddybeats

*Lyrics*

[hook] x2
I hate all these drugs
But i can't get them out my system
(no no no)
I took a drag and got drug
I'm both the culprit and the victim 
(oh my god)
Dug myself into this rut
So many problems I can’t fix them
(i can't fix them)
But it’s all gone be okay 
I’m just a few hits from extinction x2
(it's all gone be okay yeah)

[verse]
In me theres a struggle 
between dark and light
(dark and light)
love and hate are coupled 
in this game of life
(game of life)
Everyday I’m sinning 
just to feel alive
(feel alive)
Brought a angel to my grave 
and had her spend the night
(brought an angel to my grave)

I'm in a fight with everybody
Including myself
(even myself)
Something tells me that my soul 
has already been to hell
(been to hell)
Noticed something’s a lil suspect
With the hand that I’ve been dealt
(i've been dealt)
Cause I’m starting to feel better
Than I’ve ever felt
(yeah i'm starting to feel better)

[hook] x2
I hate all these drugs
But i can't get them out my system
(no no no)
I took a drag and got drug
I'm both the culprit and the victim 
(oh my god)
Dug myself into this rut
So many problems I can’t fix them
(i can't fix them)
But it’s all gone be okay 
I’m just a few hits from extinction x2
(it's all gone be okay yeah)

[verse2]
I know that she want it
So imma give it to her
(ooo like that)
You still lonely island
Cuddling bags of manure
(i just had sex)
Had to get my mind right
But now that my mind’s right
I ain’t hesitating
Got that nine nine nine
(pew pew pew)

Might just use that shit on me 
Might just use that shit on you 
(pew pew pew)
I should prolly take a half 
Like I ain't already took two
Me and my demons are friends
They can’t hurt me I’m immune
(i got the boost)
But they don’t gotta do shit
I hurt myself like my muse
(whoops)

[hook] x2
I hate all these drugs
But i can't get them out my system
(no no no)
I took a drag and got drug
I'm both the culprit and the victim 
(oh my god)
Dug myself into this rut
So many problems I can’t fix them
(i can't fix them)
But it’s all gone be okay 
I’m just a few hits from extinction x2
(it's all gone be okay yeah)

I HATE DRUGS (Prod. KADDY)

WHT I WNT (Prod. blg)

Produced by S Smack | https://prodbysmack.beatstars.com/

Blame Him (Prod. S Smack)

Produced by HeavyKeyzz (https://www.heavykeyzz.com) x UpNorth (https://www.youtube.com/@UPNORTH1)

Lyrics

[Hook] X2
Yeah I lost it
(I lost it)
Yeah I lost
(Like I ever had a grip I never felt your love)
I ran up
I went off
And it cost me
(That’s cause you’re toxic)

Ooh yeah lost it
(I lost it)
Yeah I lost
(ooh ooh ahh ahh)
I got up
I swung
And you rocked me
(You fucked me)

[Verse 1]
Yeah you shocked me
How you mocked me and 
Expect I’ll follow lead
I got no time for that
No mind for that
No I’ll gladly leave
& it’s time for that
No lies just acts
I don’t like to retreat
But you brought me in
To thoughts that I 
do not want to repeat

& its crazy 
how you made me see 
all the demons in me
But its facing them
That made me see
The man I want to be

I told myself you wouldn’t get the best of me

Said all this shit 
bout being heartless 
but it means shit 
cause regardless 
yeah I still lost it

[Hook] X2
Yeah I lost it
(I lost it)
Yeah I lost
(Like I ever had a grip I never felt your love)
I ran up
I went off
And it cost me
(That’s cause you’re toxic)

Ooh yeah lost it
(I lost it)
Yeah I lost
(ooh ooh ahh ahh)
I got up
I swung
And you rocked me
(You fucked me)

[Verse 2]
Yeah I lost it
How did I let this happen

I tried and tried
And tried and tried
To keep composure but I
Can’t deny all of the times
That I went back on my word
Thought I had a grip of my
Reality but it’s mine
So the way that its defined
Is obviously from my 

Own perspective it hurts
To not see you 
Its a curse
How I need you
Just tell me what to believe 
& we’ll run with that
But how you gonna bleed thru
Me and wonder still how I lost
Wonder still how I lost
How I lost it

[Hook] x2
Yeah I lost it
(I lost it)
Yeah I lost
(Like I ever had a grip I never felt your love)
I ran up
I went off
And it cost me
(That’s cause you’re toxic)

Ooh yeah lost it
(I lost it)
Yeah I lost
(ooh ooh ahh ahh)
I got up
I swung
And you rocked me
(You fucked me)

Lost it (Prod. HeavyKeyzz x UpNorth)

Produced by Lino | https://prodlino.beatstars.com

Lyrics

Se me hace dificil mirarte
De la forma que te mire 
antes de aue me destrozastes chingandote aquel
Loca como la mi vida se repite

Pero esta no es mi primera vez
Tratando de salvar algo sin apollo
Ya tu a mi ni me quieres ver
Solo resintimiento se ve en tus ojos

Como si fui yo, que metio la pata y jodio
Lo que teniamos tu y yo

Pero se aue tu y dios saben bien lo que ocurrio 
yo trate con toa mi alma de arreglar la situacion

Y no ayudo
Porque tu me vez como enemigo
No hay solucion
Porque tu lo decidistes y cerrastes tu corazon
Dime que no

Y la peor parte
Es que no quiero olvidarte 
Yo no quiero estar aparte
Dime que otra opcion

Tengo porque no se de que 
otra manera explicarte
Que yo si quiero amarte
Pero no esta version

Esta version no me ama 
Ni me quiere ver ni llama
Y las llamas de nuestro amor apago

Esta tension me desarma
Y le hace daño a mi alma
Ya me jalta toa la falta de affeccion

Y yo voy a hechar pa lante
Pero no creas que me encante
No quiero sacrificarte 
Pero tengo una mision

Todo ya trate de darte
Y solo te alejastes
Lo has convertido en arte
Esta no era mi vision

Y yo se que tu opinion
Es que quiero controlarte
Y todo yo lo fabrico
Pa poder manipularte

Yo no quiero que tu cambies
Pero yo tengo el derecho 
De elegir mi amante

Y la peor parte
Es que no quiero olvidarte 
Yo no quiero estar aparte
Dime que otra opcion

Tengo porque no se de que 
otra manera explicarte
Que yo si quiero amarte
Pero no esta version
(Como explicar que yo si quiero amarte)

Yo no quiero olvidarteeee

Como explicar 

Que yo si quiero amarte

La Peor Parte (Prod. Lino)

No Estoy Bien (Prod. BK ThE DEFINITION)

Grave

Produced by Heavy Keyzz | beatstars.com/heavykeyzz

Lyrics

Hook x2

Running from my thoughts
Yeah im just tryna make it
Only got one life
& I don’t plan to waste it
But this damn blunt
Got me sitting in the basement
Roll another up
It’s about time that I face it

Verse 1

Its about time that I face it
Yeah I’ve struggled growing up
I spent the last decade
Refusing to sober up yeah

No wonder it’s hard to find 
Love
No wonder its hard to find

Myself when I been gone for so long 
That I no longer belong
I pour my heart in these songs
Like its a remedy

No wonder it’s hard to find 
Love
No wonder its hard to find

My heart and soul
Know that im meant for more
Than that totem pole at Napoli

But my mind’s my foe
My dopamine flow
Is so goddamn slow
Unaccompanied 

Hook x2

Running from my thoughts
Yeah im just tryna make it
Only got one life
& I don’t plan to waste it
But this damn blunt
Got me sitting in the basement
Roll another up
It’s about time that I face it

Verse 2

Roll another up 
its about time that I face it 
For too long I’ve been complacent
Going thru life like an aimless poltergeist
I been so clueless
Used up all of my excuses
And my body I abuse it
Like my problems will just erase overnight

I can’t deny
All of the times
That I let success
Pass me by
Cause I was busy getting high
And tryna be one of the guys

Now what am I 
Aside from Haus bound every night

All alone 
I get to me
All along
I’ve been scared to try
But the more that waits for me
Resides outside of my mind so I’m

Hook x2

Running from my thoughts
Yeah im just tryna make it
Only got one life
& I don’t plan to waste it
But this damn blunt
Got me sitting in the basement
Roll another up
It’s about time that I face it

Verse 3

Roll another and another and then roll another four
As many blunt truths as it takes to get my ass off the floor
& hit me inside my core
Unlike ever before
It’s about time that I get what I’ve wanted since I was born

Cause I let hope take the wheel and it steered me out of control
My doubts turned to fears and peers into my foes
I veered from all my goals its clear as day i’m not whole
Its about that I reach and feed instead of fast my soul

Persy (Prod. Heavy Keyzz)

Produced by HeavyKeyzz | https://bsta.rs/5632fcce2

No te quiero ver

[Intro]

Nau nau nau nau, hahah

Chris Ocasio

[Chorus]

No te quiero ver mas
No te quiero ver
No te quiero ver

No quiero doler mas
No quiero doler
No quiero doler

No te quiero ver mas
No te quiero ver
No te quiero ver

No quiero volver mas
No quiero volver
No quiero volver

[Verse 1]

No te quiero ver mas
Ya no quiero ser na
Ya te alejaste no vuelvas
Quédate con el busco otra mujer

No quiero doler mas
Ya aprendi que el fuego quema
Mis heridas ya son viejas
Ya he visto el poder 
Tengo cicatrices

No quiero volver mas
Deja de textearme en la
Noche que eso no va hacer na
No voy a responder
Ya no tienes poder

Sobre mi 
Y reconosco que tiene costo 
el amor pero no te veo desde agosto
Si no por snapchat ya se me olvida tu rostro
Por meses luche por ti pero ya yo me rendí 

[Chorus]

No te quiero ver mas
No te quiero ver
No te quiero ver

No quiero doler mas
No quiero doler
No quiero doler

No te quiero ver mas
No te quiero ver
No te quiero ver

No quiero volver mas
No quiero volver
No quiero volver

[Verse 2]

No quiero volver
A llamarte bebe
No quiero volver

No quiero volver
Y no hay quien me culpe

Yo trate y trate
Hice mi parte
Pero tu querias
Ser las mas maleante
Ahora que vez que le di pa lante
Quieres regresar pero es muy tarde 

[Chorus]

No te quiero ver mas
No te quiero ver
No te quiero ver

No quiero doler mas
No quiero doler
No quiero doler

No te quiero ver mas
No te quiero ver
No te quiero ver

No quiero volver mas
No quiero volver
No quiero volver

No Te Quiero Ver (Prod. Heavy Keyzz)

Bandolero (Prod. S SMACK)

Que vamo’ a hacer (Prod. Chemist)

Produced by HeavyKeyzz x RellyMade | https://bsta.rs/t/1787582/

Lyrics

[Hook] x2

Es que
How me levante con
Ganas de verte
Como ayer & ayer & ayer
Es que


[Verse]

No te puedo ver sin ahogarme
Y no es que no trate
Pero mis heridas todas arden
Cuando veo tu nombre
Que tengo que hacer pa olvidarte
Que tengo que hacer
Porque hasta me duele maltratarte 

Make it make sense
Make it make sense how my heartaches
Make it make sense
How am i still feeling for the heartless
Make it make sense

Tu me atrapastes y te cansastes de mi
Me abandonastes pero sin dejarme ir
Ahora quedo solo aqui
Mientras el te hace reir
Maldiciendo el dia en que te conoci

[Hook] x2

[Bridge] 

Ya no puedo ni pensarte
Imaginate mirarte
Devuelveme los huevos
Pa poder escaparte
De nueve este juego 
Me a dejado en partes
Que tengo que hacer para poder olvidarte

[Hook] x2

Ganas de Verte (Prod. HeavyKeyzz x RellyMade)

Produced by HeavyKeyzz | Heavykeyzz.beatstars.com

Letra

[Hook] x2

Otra vez me levante llorando 
Otra vez llorando me acosté 
Otra vez tubo que pasar algo
Otra vez yo soy el culpable

[verse]

Otra vez me levante llorando 
Otra vez me reuso a crecer 
Otra vez no se que esta pasando 
Otra vez no se que voy a hacer


Otra vez me levante llorando
Otra me reuso a crecer 
Otra vez no se que esta pasando
Otra vez no se que voy a hacer

Otra vez vez vez
Perdi la fe fe fe
Ayudame me me
A permanecer feliz

Que estoy en de pre pre
Y no es que que que
Yo no apre cie e
To los días que yo vivi

Pero esta vida es difícil
Entre mi propia biologia
Y las noticias estos dias
Cualquiera se quiere ir

Ayudame a sonreír 
Y yo te pago to los miles
Si la puedo sostener
Y sanar mis cicatrices

[Hook] x2

[Bridge]

Otra vez
Yo soy el culpable

Como sigo encontrando lio 
si me quedo siempre en lo mío 
Me estoy ahogando en este rio de stress

[Hook] x2

Otra Vez (Prod. HeavyKeyzz)

Produced by TnTXD | https://air.bi/bwIgz

Lyrics

[Hook] x2

I never ran from nothing
Never ran from heat
Never ran from you
I don’t back down
I’m on my feet

I swear I never ran from struggle
Never ran from beef
Never ran from trouble
Though I have shown sympathy

[Verse 1]

Never ran from nothing I ain’t no bitch
Im on my shit & my blunts
Never ran cause I won’t share a hit
That’s on my kids
See I’m a veteran of the wars waged within
And I can say to all with reverence that ill never give in

In between me and the better man I find a way win
So you gone all have to do better man if you want do me in
I can’t afford to be the better man it pay too well to sin
But when she say she want a better man its of me that she think

Regardless of the weather man my ship won’t ever sink
Fuck what you think its all irrelevant im still gonna do this
Im versatile like I’m a leatherman so my enemies Swiss
And I won’t lay down for no letterman when I’m better than him

Look at my past its evident that i’m the real thing
I been to hell and reeked the benefits of life in the abyss
I can be a gentleman or I can hit a switch 
& pull up on you in a sprinter van Ill always let you pick

[Hook] x2

Yeah I never ran from nothing
Never ran from heat
Never ran from you
I don’t back down
Im on my feet

I swear I never ran from struggle
Never ran from beef
Never ran from trouble
Though I have shown sympathy

[Verse 2]

 
Nunca corri
Nunca me escondi
Y no estoy sorry
Golpes coji
Pero nunca yo me movi
Mierda comi 
pero eso ahora te toca a ti
Y no me vengas con 
careta pa que tengo algo pa ti

Solo dime si quieres mas
Yo tengo mas pa ti
Y pa el que quiera averiguar 
sera de su vida el fin
Y no es que quiero lastimar 
yo quiero bendecir 
pero pregúntale a la lastima 
Persona que me lastimo a mi

seria una lastima si lastiman de ti
Pero eso es lo que viene si tratas 
de lastimarme a mi
No yo no juego pa yo quemo 
Y no temo estoy cangri 
Aunque estes lejos 
pega freno si tu me vez por ahi

Yo no soy pendejo vete a molestar alguien
Que te deje pegarle el bellon porque yo no voy a ser
No es que yo me creo el mas carbón o maleante
Pero si algo se pone feo no soy el que va a correr

[Hook] x2

Yeah I never ran from nothing
Never ran from heat
Never ran from you
I don’t back down
Im on my feet

I swear I never ran from struggle
Never ran from beef
Never ran from trouble
Though I have shown sympathy

Never Ran (Prod. TnTXD)

Produced by Lino | https://prodlino.beatstars.com/beat/stay-12578911

IWU2Stay ft. Beverly Valley (Prod. Lino)

Inseguridades (Prod. Lino)

Lyrics

baby
tu expression
causa tentaciones

sin explicacion
cualquiera a ti te propone

baby
tu expression
causa tentaciones

sin explicacion
cualquiera a ti te propone

por eso es que escojes 
a todos estos morones 
hay un carajo de ninos 
pero poco poco hombre 

so vente conmigo 
vamoa' hablar en el pasillo 
del tamano de tu anillo 
y donde ese cora esconde 

no es que yo te quiera atrapar
 
baby
solo quiero a tu lado volar 

porque 
yo e estado en lo mio 
tanto que me siento frio 
y note que tu presencia gira el sistema solar 

so dime que va a costar 
convencerte a acostarte 
conmigo en mi cama 
y de tu vida ser parte 

yo no quiero mas na que permiso para amarte 
solo dame un chance para poder ensenarte
 
yo te juro que yo no vine aqui a tirarte 
pero tu mirada lo hace imposible pararme 
me siento como si me hubieras dado pocion 
y no puedo ser el unico que tiene esta opinion

baby
tu expression
causa tentaciones

sin explicacion
cualquiera a ti te propone

baby
tu expression
causa tentaciones

sin explicacion
cualquiera a ti te propone

Tentaciones (Prod. Daniel Gior)

Tu Canción Feliz (Prod. Daniel Gior)

Produced by Prod. Lino | https://prodlino.beatstars.com/beat/wont-stop-14636908

Lyrics

Este mundo no es justo 
Es tan difícil conseguir lo que busco
Si me lusco solo busco 
Uno o dos problemas mas so yo me oculto
Este mundo no es justo 
Es tan difícil conseguir lo que busco
Si me lusco solo busco 
Uno o dos problemas mas so yo me oculto
Get it

This life go so fast you take a shit and the shit's passed
So now you spend the time you have trying hard to correct the past
But it's a never ending game of correcting the prophecy 
That you envisioned for yourself so what the fuck is destiny

Yeah tell me the truth 
Is anything true
Or can you just choose 
What you want to believe
Cause I get confused 
When I see the news
And I hear so many different reasons 
To hurt and to kill 
But since when does it matter the reason
To hurt and to kill means nothing when were all so damn seasoned

Pal' carajo los días grises
Ya tengo enough cicatrices
Ya a mi me dieron Pau Pau
Y no quiero mas eso mamau'
Que's lo que tu no entiendes no quiero ser entendido
Por gente que no me quiere y lo mismo no a sufrido

Porque e sido herido por to los amigos 
Que yo e tenido y no primero heri
Excepto por uno que llevo conmigo en mi corazón 
Man I miss you LeKeyth

God help my soul if I see you Cory
I ain’t gone choke and I won’t be sorry
This shit a joke if you dressed in a robe 
I got nothing but love for all my enemies 

…

Este mundo no es justo 
Es tan difícilmente conseguir lo que busco
Si me lusco solo busco 
Uno o dos problemas mas so yo me oculto
Este mundo no es justo 
Es tan difícilmente conseguir lo que busco
Si me lusco solo busco 
Uno o dos problemas mas so yo me oculto
Get it

…

Yeah tell me the truth 
Is anything true
Or can you just choose 
What you want to believe
Cause I get confused 
When I see the news
And I hear so many different reasons 
To hurt and to kill 
but since when does it matter the reason
To hurt and to kill means nothing when were all so damn seasoned...

Este Mundo (Prod. Lino)

Produced by KADDY | Beatstars.com/KADDY

Lyrics

Hook

I’m so
I’m so tired of
Talking bout love
yeah 
Talking bout love
Hey-ey

Talking bout love baby
Talking bout us baby
Talking bout “oh I think im done”
But im not done
No im not done
Hey-ey

Im so
Im so tired of
Talking bout love
But im not done
Hey-ey

Verse

No I’m not done
I know way better
Just because you sucked doesn’t mean there won’t be one better baby
No I’m not done
I’m not that dumb

No I’m not dumb
Imma go get her
As soon as I finish putting myself back together baby
No im not done
I still got tons more to give

To the right one
As soon as she find me
Imma give her every single thing I got inside me
Talk about love
Yeah im talking bout love
Hey-ey

I’m so 
I’m so tired of
Dealng w the bullshit 
Dealing w the pain 
Like I’m not about to do it all over again

Cause it would be a shame if I give up now 
Every single day I would chew myself out 
I’ll do it all again
Until its not in vain
Hey-ey

Hook

I’m so
I’m so tired of
Talking bout love
yeah 
Talking bout love
Hey-ey

Talking bout love baby
Talking bout us baby
Talking bout “oh I think im done”
But im not done
No im not done
Hey-ey

Im so
Im so tired of
Talking bout love
But im not done
Hey-ey

TALM BOUT LOVE (Prod. KADDY)

AHORA ES QUE ES (Prod. HA$HBOI BEATS)

PATHETIC (Prod. ZBeatZ)

I'M ALIVE (Prod. 808risky)

Produced by (SaintSoul x AtonOnMyMind)

Lyrics

I don't want to wait (wait)
I don’t wanna go (go)
I'm not really sure what I’m supposed to say to you but

Lately I feel vacant
I just don’t feel whole (whole)
Like I’m just a another fucking empty vessel
Yeah

I don’t wanna wait (wait)
I don’t wanna go (go)
Why does everything have to change either way it goes yeah

I don’t wanna stay but
If I were to go (go)
What are the odds I'd regret it all

I tried to run right in the fire 
& it hurt me but I got higher
Acquiring what you desire is seldom an easy feat 

I tried to hold on to my dire
Complacency and got tired
Of wasting away the hours & the potential in me

So tell me what you expect from me

Tell me what you expect from me

I tried to turn back all the dials
And wallow in my denial
I wish I could do my trials again

I tried to look ahead and smile
Work on myself for a while
And I somehow just ended up losing friends

So tell me what you expect from me
(what you expect from me)

tell me what you expect from me

Tell me what you expected
Cause I don’t see the exit
I been tryna find a way
That I can move without anguish

But it all seems to be hard either way
So if I gotta pick one
I’m diving into the flames

Tell me what you expect from me
(what you expect from me)
(what you expect from me)

Tell me what you expect from me
(what you expect from me)
Tell me what you expect from me

Tell me what you expect from me
(what you expect from me)
(what you expect from me)

Tell me what you expect from me
(what you expect from me)
Tell me what you expect from me

GO (Prod. SaintSoul x ATonOnMyMind)

CHEESE (Prod. Saint Soul x ATonOnMyMind)

Lyrics

(Intro)

One more time
Come and get me
One more time

(Verse 1)

I been reflecting on my past and the opportunities
I embarrassingly fumbled I been dumb and naive
I been frequently humbled I been wrong and I
Cherish every tumble it took to realize

My potential, what’s in my core
How thoughts affect you, 
How unimportant 
Most things are truly to my end goals
So come and get me just once more

I want to see how the story goes down
Now that I’ve gotten a bit more ground
I know I’ve crumbled, I dove and I drowned
Yet think I’m ready for another round

Come on

(Hook)

One more time
Come and get me
One more time

One more time
Come and get me
One more time

One more time
Come and get me
One more time

(Verse 2)

I done been thru it
The awful influence
From the state of music
Bout ruined my life

But I been improving
I slowly been proving
That when you get 
Conscious and prioritize

The universe starts to recognize
See you can leave all of the bullshit behind
If you really commit instead of just lying 
To all your people you got to realize

you word is so feeble 
If you get too eager 
its easy as fuck 
to be absent of mind

I know this first hand 
Just ask some of mine
I made some choices I’d like to rewind

But you got me fucked up
If you think I’d fuck up
& not make sure I don’t go doing it twice

See I used to refuse to put up a fight  
Now I can’t wait for the hook to arrive 

Come on 

(Hook) x2

COME GET ME (Prod. Low Balance)

DEMONS

My music describes my struggles with love and drugs, coping with losing people I care about, and the battle between dark & light we all have within.

My aim is to help this and future generations break out of the toxic lifestyle/mindset our current music industry promotes.

Check out “My Favorites” playlist to listen to the best of what I’ve made so far.

Or

Check out “The Evolution” playlist for a trip through my musical journey from start to present 

Influences include: Juice Wrld, MGK, Bad Bunny, Lil Wayne, Macklemore, Calenraps, The Beatles, Camila, Never Shout Never, Cultura Profetica, Rebelution, Noah Cyrus, Olivia Rodrigo, Ski Mask the Slump God, XXXtentacion, Mac Miller, Luke Combs, Kenny Chesney, Enanitos Verdes, Ed Sheeran, Three Days Grace, Chris Webby, Paramore, Joey Bada$$, Cordae, Post Malone, Iann Dior, Trippie Redd, Cosculluela, Wisin y Yandel, Aventura, Luis Fonsi, Don Omar, Los Doce Discipulos & acid.

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Chris Ocasio 🇵🇷

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