Chris Scior - Emotional Therapy

Another songs during the time between when my wife was deported and when I was with her again in another country. A year is a long time, and so I would write music, just play piano, guitar and try to get my feelings out.

After about 9 months, I just got to the Netherlands from the US, and one night I actually I thought I heard her say my name from the other room, and even though I knew that was impossible, I still went to check, cause you know desperation, and cried of course when I was the only one there. Though it was 4 months after this song that we did finally be together again. That is when i wrote Lost you.

This song actually takes place after "Empty" and before "Lost you".

Immigration sucks.

Deportation 2 - One More Day

As mention in some of the other descriptions of songs, I always struggled with my own self identity, and who I am inside. Swings from arrogance to depression, and in some of my relationships this was confusing for some girls, rightfully so of course. Well this was during a phase I was going through and since I couldn't say what I needed to say, I put it into a song for her.

Fall

I wrote this song the night that I was reunited with my wife after being apart for just over a year. From the moment I watched the police take her into a detention center in South Florida, from calling her and video calling on a prison system phone, to Skyping after she was deported back to Russia to this night when I finally was with her again in Amsterdam.

It was almost weird to be with her, it was surreal, like a dream that I had several times already, neither of us could believe that a year had gone by. I literally woke up that first night and checked my bed, that she was actually there with me.

This song takes place after "Empty" and after "One more day".

This song is for anyone who was ripped from their loved ones and then finally after a long time is reunited. That fear of whether or not it is even real.

Deportation 3 - Lost you

When I was 18 I wrote this song, about the first time I met my first serious girlfriend. Was the day before the first classes in college, and there was like a campus party thing and I don't like large crowds, and found a piano in an empty auditorium room in one of the main buildings. I was playing it, and this girl had used the bathroom and sort of got lost on the way out and came past the room I was in, and heard me playing and when I finished my song, I suddenly heard her clapping and cheering, then she asked if she could play something and so she did cause she also was a musician.

That was the first time we met. After almost 3 years the relationship ended, but at the time, well you know how young love can feel.

Smile of an Angel

This was after a breakup with a girl that I blamed her at first, but realized later on, that I was also a huge part of the problem. I was young and emotionally unable to give her what she needed from me, and I was also struggling myself with things, and she had reached out randomly, which got me diving into memories.

Running

This song is the feeling of having someone you love ripped from you unexpectedly.

Due to immigration issues and how terrible ICE is, my wife was locked up in prison for several months waiting to be deported, and I would call her almost daily. During this time I worked a stressful job and had to figure out a plan to move to Europe, from the US. 

It killed me to see her in that prison, to hear how she was being treated, and that there was nothing I could do. That helpless feeling. Me being an emotionally co-dependent type of person didn't help either.

I tried to stay positive when I spoke with her, I would tell her about the plans I was making, how it would all be ok, how I would figure it all out, and that I wasn't giving up on her, and how I would do anything I had to to be with her again on the other side of the world.

Over and over again reinforce what will be, even though during this time, it was hard for both of us. Every time I would hang up I would cry.

This song takes place before "One more Day" and "Lost You".

Deportation 1 - Empty

All songs based off my own original recordings, either on piano or guitar,  from years of writing. 100% my own lyrics, writings, and musical concepts. They all represent moments and struggles in my life. AI tools were used to remix and re-imagine that music, here are some results.

Fall

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