Mood Music

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//ごめんなさい//

thank you guys so much for the endless amount of support. working with my favorite artists is something i never imagined would become a reality, but you've all made it achievable. i cherish what this music has brought me & i hope we can all grow together in unison through it. i love you guys so much.

this is the first single off my upcoming album, "lacuna" which'll be out october 28th

huge s/o to my mans @i_x_t_a_i_l_s
i can't thank you enough for hoppin' on this one with me

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guardin x 9TAILS - suffocate

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//私の心の断片//

lyrics
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i think i'd be better off alone 
without you 
i don't mind when i sleep all alone
without you 

i think i found the antidote
i think i found another road
i think i found some fucking hope
nope
i think i'm tryna find a way
to rid of all these darker days
but my minds trapped inside a maze 

so i'll run so far from these shadows
makeshift but my hearts still fragile
i'd drown but the waters too shallow
my heads still caught in the gallows
your kiss is my remedy
i fall to the ground so desperately
baby i know that you're mad at me
filling all the voids like cavities 

i think i'd be better off alone 
without you 
i don't mind when i sleep all alone
without you 
i think i'd be better off alone 
without you 
i don't mind when i sleep all alone
without you 

i guess this feeling lasts forever
i guess we'll never be together
you're colder than i can remember
but the ice is melting quickly 
i'm still wishing that you'd miss me

but you're gone and i never could replace you
mistraced new face but it ain't you
rebuilding the forts that i made you
no love but my hearts tryna break thru
my chest cause its caving in
i dwell in a cell in a realm of sin
six shots to the face of rum & gin
i'm dead in the head so i guess you win 

i think i'd be better off alone 
without you 
i don't mind when i sleep all alone
without you

solitary

this is a non-profit track

produced by KATSURO BEATS

beat: https://youtu.be/WYAzbhjot60

lyrics:

Tell me what's the move
Tell me what's the move
What u make me go thru
There's only so much I can do

flow mcfly I brought the fucking future back
Spitting out some scooby snacks 
I grab the mic as if he slapped my girlfriend ass
And let it ring
Like every fucking pizza place I call
Around 11 fried as fuck it's just a medium cheese and drink it's not that hard
A lil pump of creamy caesar sauce and make the cheese havarti 
My scriptures never holy
I pull this shit from pits and beat the shit from it until it tells me stories
About it's former glory
About a distant war with swords to spill the blood of royal figures kind of gory
Horror story
Michael Myers walking thru the fire in the second one when Loomis flicked the lighter lit the ether fucked the both  of em up I'll win even if it kills me

Flying past the past
In a gloss black g class 
Only in my dreams so I sleep fast
Right now it's a dream but I got plenty of those I spose I'll just go catch some z's until somebody gives the cheat codes to me
Till then it's Hanes up on my socks and thrift shop tops with mid in a zip-lock in a wrist watch box I'm on a budget 
So easy does it
Square boys burgers mc nuggets and a root beer or something 

Tell me what's the move
Tell me what's the move
What u make me go thru
There's only so much I can do

Tell me what's the move
Tell me what's the move
What u make me go thru
There's only so much I can do

move (prod.  katsuro)

a completely non-profit project

all youtube beats were free and used prior to being sold, if now sold.

mixed/mastered by 9TAILS & SCOTTYSPLASH

scottysplash: @scottysplash


production

idealism: @idealismus

25: https://www.youtube.com/channel/UCms7nTRhJWPcwFtd4AYWzXg/featured

hateful: @hatefulbeats

nayz: @nayztheone

ʎpoqou: @anobodyreally

franky m: www.youtube.com/channel/UCUOfYgWexGPJnjqglHwKK9w

sarcastic sounds: @the-sarcastic-ashole

killedmyself: @killedmyself

killrichy: @killrichy

hidden oasis: www.youtube.com/channel/UCZ7zq6C2EqpEk4WekOHb2hQ

brokebwoy: @brokeassniiigga

floating away (prod. killedmyself)

ready set go (prod. hateful)

my time (prod. sarcastic sounds)

better days (prod. hateful)

@sadboyprolific 
@pauli-niemi

just another sad song...

Lyrics:
V1
I’m sick of loving 
Every time it’s just a misconception
I find a girl 
and she lead me into a new dimension
Thinking bout the future
Counting out all of our blessings
And then I find out it’s all fake
And she leaves me guessing
I guess I learned my lesson
I guess we’re better ended
I wish I never gave my heart out
Dummy should’ve kept it
Just like a piece of paper
She ripped my heart in half
I guess this kind of thing is something I won’t ever have
But it’s fine
Soon I’ll just get used to it
To keep my mind off of love
I’ll just do stupid shit
I fell asleep
Questioning is anyone for me
Laying on my back using 
Music as a remedy
Listening and writing
All these sad songs
Happy for a bit
But doesn’t last long
I’m Trynna find the joy
In all this chaos
Keep on praying
for my future hope it pays off

Hook
Broke my heart I
U tore it in two
So why am I
Still thinking of u

V2
Lately it’s fuck emotions
Grab the dope and then I roll it
I’ve been tripping off the potent
Honestly I’m omnipotent 
Used to think about r memories
I cleared em like my history 
Wrote this in a grave 
To set the scene
Cuz love is dead to me
R love was one sided
I know u ain’t felt the same
I bet u relish the fact
That I fucking felt this pain
U gave me comfort
U were like my shelter from the rain
Gripping the razor blade I swear I’d never love again
I’ll keep that promise
Trust me I won’t break it
I’ll rip my heart out of my chest
And chain it in the basement
Knocking bottles til I’m wasted
Clear to see I’m changing
Rather stick to blazing
Then the dreams that I’ve been chasing

V3
I know hearts don’t physically break 
but my chest hurts
I can still smell her perfume
On my sweatshirt 
They say that time can heal
Soon I’ll feel better
But all that can heal this
Is if I never met her
Story never ends 
If the story never starts
Take these sad feelings
Trynna turn them into art
Paintbrush light stroke 
Out all of my feelings
Spitting shit typing quick
Keep writing lyrics
Take the wheel I can’t see
But keep steering
Moving on kicking out 
My past demons
And I’m not walking I’ll be running 
From this torture
I see the light
Do my best to move forwards

scars on my heart | Feat. SadBoyProlific (Prod. Slipfunc)

@ the one that got away...

Lyrics:
And every time I
Go outside I see things
In the back of my mind
And every single one
They remind me of you
And every time I
Think about you
It’s a mess I don’t
Know what to do
and all the while
You do damage to me
You do damage to me
 
My life is going under
Yet I wasn’t ready for the
End of it I wonder if it’s
Meant to be this way or something
Better in the summer
I’ll pretend I never see the
Pictures that you’re posting
On your Instagram
I guess you’re doing pretty well tho
If wanting happiness is
Wrong then you can lock me in a
Cell tho honestly I’m
Hurting pretty bad but you’re
Living better than the life we had
I feel it in my chest tho

Spotify

Damage (prod. khail)

new video for "highschool" out now! https://youtu.be/W00tTrHoaCo

highschool

YOUTUBE

im used to it

lyrics
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got some money in my pocket
but that doesn't make a difference at all
this isn't fame i'm fucking lame
i'm just boy whose tryna figure it out
well maybe this is fucking it
the audience has turned against
they wanna justify the creepin' and leak my mom's home address
the paranoia rises best when your words sit inside my chest
i'm fucking human don't forget that when you're making your requests

i've got my hands up
you've got your hands on your gun
calling for backup 
i'm not the only one
i've got a question
does torturing me sound fun
yeah you take out your stress
by punching holes out of everyone

got some whiskey in my cup
but i don't think that it's enough at all
this isn't me i tell myself
i constantly worry about my health
well maybe i should fucking try
cause death is creepin' right behind
i see him sitting in the corner lookin' oh so fucking sly
anxiety is on the rise when he's constantly on my mind
i fear the day is finally coming where i meet my own demise

i've got my hands up
you've got your hands on your gun
calling for backup 
i'm not the only one
i've got a question
does torturing me sound fun
yeah you take out your stress
by punching holes out of everyone

spotify

backup

lyrics
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go
leave me alone
she cried on the phone again
why does this never end
no
i didn't know
that you wanted just a friend
don't tell me you love me then
where do i go?
i do not know
i do not

hey
what something you dream bout?
babe
i've been tryna figure things out
blame
myself when i come down
hate
you more when the suns down 
fake
love is all i see around
lately
you've been tryna scheme around
make
me feel like imma be around
wasted
time is all i'm seeing now
and your freckles make me stare & cry
connect the dots inside your mind
thought we complete each other
why does this shit happen every time
i think you're seeing other guys
cause you don't talk about the lies
with me lately i'm going blind
to what's happened with you & i 

and we probably could've worked out
that's not how it turned out tho
heard you're back with him again
but you say he's just a friend uhm no
lost the love i thought i had back
but it always backtracks so
guess i'm alone in the end
with a bottle and this pencil

go
leave me alone
she cried on the phone again
why does this never end
no
i didn't know
that you wanted just a friend
don't tell me you love me then
where do i go?
i do not know
i do not

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again (prod. dj khaled's son)

Slip Away

prod. by @taylor x @taxpurposes

s/o @garden_avenue

lyrics
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i’m still lost & existin'
kush still make me feel different
i call your name you never came
cause the spring to summer weather brought a lot of fuckin' rain
and everybody told me bout chu
worried bout the probability of all my fears becoming truth
and inside me lies a monster built behind my point of view
can’t escape it when the hate is building up inside of you
hold up wait one minute cause there’s shit i gotta say
put my feelings to the side so i can just articulate
ain’t so pretty when you sittin’ in a city full of snakes
and you think too much about em every night & fucking day

but my girl an angel she tell me she ride or die
why my thoughts be heading south when i’m thinking about those eyes
does she lay em on another or is it just in my mind
can i live one fucking second without this fear in my life
why is everything irrational with me
i got scars inside my heart from where my ex got up to leave
if i set my brain on autopilot does it start to bleed
if the televisions on can i still fall right back to sleep

parked up in your driveway
come over to my place
kick it till it’s sunday
stay up all night monday

driveway 2 (prod. taylor morgan x taxpurposes)

prod. by @ayjd
cover art by jake clifford

lyrics
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we’ll drive into the sunset
my fingers and your thigh make contact
i could’ve swore you packed your contacts
in your backpack
right next to bottle of the cognac
this song is just a concept
of everything i’ve ever wanted
i wish the month right now was august
moving out west on a quest
for a life that offers all this

with you
and i
we laugh
and we cry
and we’ll dance
till we die
cause the rate that we’re moving’s alarming
compared to the shit that’s happening outside

truthfully the talk about the virus freak me out
yeah eleven thousand people died this shit is heading south
and if the world is gonna end by august please just hear me out
put some optimism in & take your fingers out your mouth

we’ll drive into the sunset
my fingers and your thigh make contact
i could’ve swore you packed your contacts
in your backpack
right next to bottle of the cognac
this song is just a concept
of everything i’ve ever wanted
i wish the month right now was august
moving out west on a quest
for a life that offers all this

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contact (prod. ay!jd)

2nd track on my ep "sidereal crumbs" w @tomcbumpz

(available on all platforms)

lyrics:
bones getting stiff
purple hands, in a lovely trance
purple hands, match the luminescent light
your grips wrapped around them just a bit too tight (x2)

a cool guy, musical scenery
and theres a jar of melting marshmellos
the Edison bulb, it leaves me wondering
crumbs of light stain my eyes

they leave me hypnotized

a quiet room with the smell of fresh lavender
soft sounds, they cease to exist and so do we
soft sounds repress the sound of my running
im humming

it goes ladadadada
ladadadada
ladadadada
ladadadada

peppermint on my teeth
my jaw sticks and stutters because of it
my soul reeks and it lingers, as frost spreads to the end of my fingers
and his

i think we might be going numb
i feel static at the end of my thumbs
i think we stare at the TV too long
but i rather be stuck then to get up and run

purple hands

just a lil edit for ivri's and tom's new song "collide" from "sidereal crumbs" ep.
listen to it!, it's out everywhere!!!

Follow ivri:
Instagram: https://www.instagram.com/ivri0.0/
Soundcloud: @ivrii
Youtube: https://www.youtube.com/channel/UCoknULsUx5faE8QN6lL2jpg

Follow tomcbumpz:
instagram: https://www.instagram.com/tomcbumpz/
Soundcloud: @tomcbumpz
Youtube: https://www.youtube.com/channel/UCNhUeEmmAGnQSpMT08Ew78w

Follow Sose Paez:
Instagram: https://www.instagram.com/sosepaez/
Twitter: https://twitter.com/sosepaez
Facebook: https://www.facebook.com/sosepaezofficial
Youtube: https://www.youtube.com/channel/UCcnjgZVtJkv9LjjgIraPjDA

sidereal crumbs

collide

ivri - collide ft. tomcbumpz (sose edit)

no way I just wanna go away
I cant stay, Im just full of mistakes
look at me, I keep falling far behind
tryna find a way man I just wanna feel
anything but its just no way
in my head you can seal my fate
in the mirror what I see dont satisfy
really it dont matter what you tell me
 
i just thought maybe i'll be fine
I be all alone in my head sometimes
got me feeling numb can you tell me why
I cant feel a thing yeah its just no way
i just thought maybe i'll be fine
I be all alone in my head sometimes
got me feeling numb can you tell me why
I cant feel a thing yeah its just no way
no way no way
no way no way
no way no way
no way no way
x2

i cant find run and hide
you spend time in my mind
turn my eyes no surprise
i just try to get by
i cant find run and hide
you spend time in my mind
turn my eyes no surprise
i just try to get by
x2

No Way (prod. noria)

Much love to the fam @rxseboy and @ivrii for creating this with me <33

Lyrics:

Ivri:
I want your eyes
on a silver plate
And your lungs
Don't hesitate to breathe
I will absorb you
Watch the bugs as they swarm you
I only adore you
I will absorb you

Despise me
Despise me
Despise me
Despise me
Just a tip from the dead sequioa tree
I'm sorry
I think so violently

Thomas Reid:
Our lips met and it felt like a snake bite
I wonder if you miss me late alone in the nighttime
The earth rotates and your love runs past me
You threw my heart away, I’ll pick it up if you ask me

Now I’m falling falling
But I’m never calling
Even though I want to
You were my home to run to
But this home is broken
God, wish I could focus
Memories we share now embers burned above us in the air

Rxseboy:
Turned to a mockery
What do you want from me?
Body on top of me
Can you get off of me
Hate your reflection like I hate myself
And I hate my reflection I was I was somebody else
You look at me like I'm something you need
I think that you're into making me bleed
I see bones, I see daggers all pointed at me
Fell the pain while you torturing
Gouge out my dreams

I don't get intimate
Vibe getting sinister
I run away like a cold-hearted criminal
All these subliminals go to my conscience
I'm falling deeper is this what you wanted?
(Yes)
Is this what you wanted?
Memories haunt me
That's why I'm cautious
I let my gaurd down
You took advantage
Evil inside you I don't understand it.

Despise Me

Thomas Reid x Rxseboy x Ivri - Despise Me

21

just a boy letting his heart out

open to collabs, just hmu

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