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artists - soku x backyard beetle
producer - freek van workum
sample - ars romanovsky

losing my mind (feat. backyard beetle) [prod. freek van workum]

(powfu x ollie x alek olsen) prod. Sarcastic Sounds

Lyrics:
give us  
5 minutes
i just bought you this car
didnt think id say goodbye in it

brought you some pretty flowers
but stomped em down the drain
built this room to keep us safe
but aint no stopping a train

Of course id go crash 
if u actually asked me
nasal cavity bleeding
because i crushed it with candy

rampantly been doing blasphemy and acting a heathen
my garden got no fruit
losing a lot more than im seeing

Its all confusing
when i see you now and then
i feel like puking
When i picture us again
life will start blooming
when i start accepting its the end

i think of you all the time

viewing yourself or others. learning to master songs properly now, so this is the first one

Lyrics:

I gave my all but you couldn’t even love me
I gave my all but you didn’t give a care
I gave my all but you didn’t show affection
I gave my all now I’m broken let that sink in
Did you care, about the good times
We used to laugh, play mario a lot
Dreams we had, building a fun life
I gave my all, you still left me in the dust

I gave my all but you couldn’t even love me
I gave my all but you didn’t give a care
I gave my all but you didn’t show affection
I gave my all now I’m broken let that sink in
x2

We still had, so much to do left
Build a home, where me and you can rest
You were my best friend, I didn’t doubt that
Laying in the darkness now, Till the sunset
I was afraid, knew this would probably happen 
Became myself, no one around me loved that
I tried to change, to someone you would like more
My mind was made up fast I hate me so much more now

I gave my all but you couldn’t even love me 
I gave my all but you didn’t give a care
I gave my all but you didn’t show affection
I gave my all now I’m broken let that sink in
x2

Gave my all (prod. under the maple tree)

im still learning (prod. killedmyself)

produced by @teendepression 

art by https://twitter.com/TrapSirC

lyrics:

i used to be scared to just be myself
right until i fucking caved and just changed myself
twitching on the floor i dont need no help
i need to dump my thoughts on someone else

smoke up a zip all to myself
all this marijuana just kills my health 
i cough more than i can speak
if block that thought i dont feel so weak

if i block that thought i dont feel so weak
time moves fast and life looks bleak
before i pass i wanna live my dream

nights grow longer i lose sleep
mind grows stronger limbs grow weak
just put me out of my misery

i couldnt fuck with the vices soon
all of the shit has subsided blue
waters are filling my eyelids
i think im reaching the island

come out the water and feel renewed
all of the troubles have left from you
go do whatever you wanted to
when life doesnt matter its possible

oh god
how long have you been standing there
lights grow dim
i cant get air
i cant win and its not fair
and i cant move so get the fuck out of here

i couldnt win if i wanted
continue it when i say stop it
nothing else could ever hurt me
when im busy already hurting

i guess all my work was a waste shit
im getting sick of the way i say
my words cause im always eating them
and im getting sick of the taste

cold out
but no snow out
its august
but i wear a coat out

on the walk back
from your house
phones dead so i listen to the street sounds

i used to be scared to just be myself
right until i fucking caved and just changed myself
twitching on the floor i dont need no help
i need to dump my thoughts on someone else

smoke up a zip all to myself
all this marijuana just kills my health 
i cough more than i can speak
if block that thought i dont feel so weak

the island (prod. tinyforest)

produced by syndrome

lyrics:

want more then im gonna get it
appetite and ive gone and fed it
i shock more like im electric
i raise up and i take the leverage

i flaunt less then then i really could
unwind and i peel a woods
fun time is not in the books
game is hard but im silly good

bad bitch and she swallow nud
legs open up like my feelings should
red lights go flood the room
got fire skin when she getting nude

straight forward but never rude
unless you coming at the dudes
spillin blood like a fucking duece
i only win and i hate to lose

i only win and i hate to lose 
got half a pound in my fucking room
quarter ounce in my puffy goose
face a blunt and im feeling loose

lotta people got shit to say
but im never one for the fucking news
fuck streams i could look outside at the cn tower
if you talking views

your homies seem like a bunch of squares but you still managing to fuck around
got big dog on the phone line i say the word and hes out the pound
your main girl wear hella makeup but you the one whos a fucking clown
splinter cell with the lack of sound
no story book when i lay you down

4 deep when i ride in
all black on my apperel like im kylo ren
seen your baby give me signals like verizen
instant reply when i slide in

if they knew the real me then id have no friends
tony hawk im fucking grinding till i push a benz
long hair but im using all the rubber bands
jenga how im stacking bands

cum rag with the grime
snot rag with the slimes
toe tag how im killin it
im blowing up like a mine

take a hold of my mind
tinder swiping on dimes
i can tell that she really like me 
like sign language with the signs

baby you couldnt watch me
girlie come sit on my crotch
dradel when she gimme top
lacing all over her shirt and its cropped

salty honey
i break it off
and all the photos get cropped
still hit me with the lemme hear
when a new song bouta drop

they keep tryna show me where i gotta go 
i dont need you to promote i did this on my own
i might i be growing slowly at least i fucking grow
feeling like its ytv the way im in my zone

the way im in my zone
some you sound shadow clones of me
baratheon with the throne
aint nobody taking hold of me 
i did this on own
like solo queue
im good to go
i could best you stoned
pick a beat from off your phone

changing rythms morph the flow like power rangers
roll a blunt and light it up and wave it round like a light saber
i got homies chopping shit like ankles from a razor scooter
no days off no ferris beuler
icy flow i spit a cooler

4 deep when i ride in
all black on my apperel like im kylo ren
seen your baby give me signals like verizen
instant reply when i slide in

if they knew the real me then id have no friends
tony hawk im fucking grinding till i push a benz
long hair but im using all the rubber bands
jenga how im stacking bands

tip toe (prod. syndrome)

produced by 9TAILS

fragile mind
I'll find a way inside I know
let her ride
bring the heat until the drive is white snow
you can't cry
and spring that guilt on me I hope you know
I don't lie
I'm just speaking different truths on the low

lemme go
friends step in show girlie to the door
whole scene started moving slow-mo
I thought we got her out
but she just hit me for her phone
enough about phones
fuck a phone
my love meant nothing if I didn't give you passcodes
going through my bag when I'm stoned
who is it that you think I'm tryna bone
oh no I can barely text you back
let alone hoes
let alone bros
even my own family barely catch me before the tone
they think I got cold
think I got a stained soul
really I'm just tryna mix these vocals to the beat
it's about the only time I go airplane mode
never left my country far as airplanes go
I got people hitting me to book paid shows
no passport guess I'll reach the venue on a boat
lake Ontario could take me to Buffalo
the waters hella cold this time of year so I don't know
still I hit you with the news right away
but you just brush it off no "wow, thats great"
no "can't believe your passion is the way you're getting cake"
even if you did hype it it would feel fake
it would feel so played out
too custom made
acting like I made it there'd be nothing you could make
god damn

fragile mind
I'll find a way inside I know
let her ride
bring the heat until the drive is white snow
you can't cry
and spring that guilt on me I hope you know
I don't lie
I'm just speaking different truths on the low

thankyou for listening

fragile

guitar, production -https://soundcloud.com/poppytears

shout out to https://soundcloud.com/i_x_t_a_i_l_s for jumping on this one with me  

"Behind Screens" full album: https://open.spotify.com/album/25XjozBMStYBDrlGk3wqHw?si=xAQ3iCJaTb6kz4hOhSMS0g

featuring: https://soundcloud.com/familypet
https://soundcloud.com/4ever-falling https://soundcloud.com/lilhappylilsad
https://soundcloud.com/i_x_t_a_i_l_s

cover art: www.instagram.com/kenny_ravee/

Bandcamp link: https://lilsedative.bandcamp.com/track/healthy-relief-ft-9tails-remastered

love you all

LYRICS: 

9TAILS:
not much i can do
pretty girls always needed more acceptance from you
i told her I'd
love if we ran away
cheap grams and cheap faith arent much of a reason to stay
and we could come back anytime but my souls had enough for today
enough with these moodswings i love you i love you but please go away
she feeds me real great
i can only wait so long
i can only show you once
december weather got my fingers numb
we end with the day
were gone with the sun

Poppy Tears: 

You call yourself a rockstar 
and you can't even play the fucking guitar
I know it isn't in your heart 
couldn't give two fucks about the art

we all fade away like a picture losing colour inside it's frame 
are we all waiting for the day, the day we look back upon what we made

like was it worth it 
Am I deserving
I'm still learning 
with death I'm flirting 

I slow my heart rate 
I've made that mistake 
feel my bones shake 
and find my own lane

✧ spotify ✧

healthy relief w/ 9TAILS (prod. poppy tears)

single off my EP

@i_x_t_a_i_l_s
@taxpurposes

9TAILS:
When I'm winding down
On my own at night
I think of the things that I control in life
I really hope majority I handle right
I shit out what to do and cross my fingers tight
Can I reserve a halo
Based on how my day go
If we talking whole life
Then send me to the charcoal
Send me to the devil
Stripped of all my medals 
It don't matter my credentials 
I'm stuck inside my mental
Like woah
Lemme out lemme go
Got a five star meal out in west to
Ion even got no shoes no coat
Cherry coke and some dominos fuck a dinner I can see frosty roads
I'll freeze 
Camping out in the east
Shit was a crazy 2018

I'm a cozy soul
Living in my cozy room
Bumping cozyboy
It got me in a cozy mood
In a lonely mood
I got some friends that's lonely too
We got each other though
We love our little lonely crew
Somebody loving you
I know your scared Cause you don't understand what lovers do
I know your scared cause usually they stay away from you
But hey theyre picking you
I wouldn't be surprised if they  might know the feeling too

Lay down
I know you got family problems 
But they not around
Let it out girl
Pout 
Cry, breakdown
I'll be here to help out
I'm concerned for ur health girl
We should eat out
You been skipping meals
Trust me I been down that road I'll make you stop the wheels
Calories are hourly with me you know the deal
Talking bout depression girl i just got off the pills
Questions bout prescriptions I could answer em for real
The headaches and the therapy you know I know the feel
Sitting up at night I keep on praying that you heal
I know you'll win my baby got a skin thats made of steel
Wonderwomen type deal

Honey berry air smell
I just wanna go now 
You just wanna go now
Ay

Lemme turn the light down
Lemme turn the bass loud
I'm just gonna close these drapes

Fried until my face melt
Artist like I'm drake bell
Cooking like it's Swiss chalet

Green from the glass gave me
Visions like it's splintercell
This shit got me feeling so great

Honey berry air smell
I just wanna go now 
You just wanna go now
Ay

Lemme turn the light down
Lemme turn the bass loud
I'm just gonna close these drapes

Fried until my face melt
Artist like I'm drake bell
Cooking like it's Swiss chalet

Green from the glass gave me
Visions like it's splintercell
This shit got me feeling so great

download

zzz (ft. 9tails & taxpurposes)

a completely non-profit project

all youtube beats were free and used prior to being sold, if now sold.

mixed/mastered by 9TAILS & SCOTTYSPLASH

scottysplash: @scottysplash


production

idealism: @idealismus

25: https://www.youtube.com/channel/UCms7nTRhJWPcwFtd4AYWzXg/featured

hateful: @hatefulbeats

nayz: @nayztheone

ʎpoqou: @anobodyreally

franky m: www.youtube.com/channel/UCUOfYgWexGPJnjqglHwKK9w

sarcastic sounds: @the-sarcastic-ashole

killedmyself: @killedmyself

killrichy: @killrichy

hidden oasis: www.youtube.com/channel/UCZ7zq6C2EqpEk4WekOHb2hQ

brokebwoy: @brokeassniiigga

my time (prod. sarcastic sounds)

draft 001 (prod. idealism)

absolute music newbie
#soFanTastix
    
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Gave my all (prod. under the maple tree)

Chust