July First

DEAD YAMI's YouTube https://www.youtube.com/channel/UCYFn_EeoOs8ZgygQa7wcs9A

LYRICS

It's about a year now I admit
I haven't changed a bit

even if I did, you wouldn't get to see the differences

I was never the kid to tell you the truth
and I wish it felt that simple
acting shocked by some old news
and using conversational tiptoes
I spent a lot of wasted youth
waiting for you at the edge of my window

and your not coming back I wish I was surprised
by being one day off while you where so high
I hope you where happy and didn't feel it
devoid of fear with hopeful spirits
but when your heart stopped  so did mine

I hope you where happy and didn't feel it
devoid of fear with hopeful spirits
I spent a lot of wasted youth
waiting for you, at the edge of my window

Window [Prod. DEAD YAMI]

Dead Yami; https://www.youtube.com/channel/UCYFn_EeoOs8ZgygQa7wcs9A

This shit took forever and I still hate it.

LYRICS:
I've been running circles in my room
writing down the same ideas while pacing back and forth
I move a lot and I never make it anywhere

I was told take life one step at a time
but wanna curl up in a ball 
and fantasize about what its like to not feel anything at all

I don't know how to deal with what I've been thru
I see your face on the mirror in the hall way
I should have told you that i loved you when i meant to
if I could still hear your voice, I'd listen to it all day

then I wonder what it feels like
to not feel anything at all

your not here
but at least you tried to be
 that day confirmed all my worst fears 
but you didn't expect to leave
one more chance
that's all I want this week
grab your arm with my hands and tell  you what you meant to me


falling snow on the roof of your old house
cracked paint in the room that you slept in
I'm alone and I'm headed for a break down
I have a lot of memories I shouldn't mention

I don't know how to deal with what I've been thru
I see your face on the mirror in the hall way
I should have told you that i loved you when I meant to
if I could hear your voice, I'd listen to it all ...day

I just wonder what it'd feel like
just to see you again

your not here
but at least you tried to be
that day confirmed all my worst fears 
but you didn't expect to leave
one more chance
that's all I want this week
grab your arm with my hands and tell  you what you meant to me

Anything At All [Prod. Dead Yami]

LYRICS:

my thoughts get loud at night
and I see you behind my eyelids
I'm watchin reruns till I pass out
using anything just to fill the silence

I just miss you more today

this happens every time
I try to go to bed but honestly its fine
I've gotten so used to it
and at least I can keep you alive in my mind
 
i just miss you more today 


the feeling was so new to me and after that one night
my common sense went right out the window its time to go get high
I had every opportunity to call you one last time
instead I was so negligent and I tried to bed at 5

but in the morning you where gone

my thoughts get loud at night
and I see you behind my eyelids
I'm watchin reruns till I pass out
using anything just to fill the silence

I just miss you more today

I Dont Know Man, Im Trying (Prod. Nevrfall)

LYRICS:

what am I running from?
I guess ill never quite understand it
but I'm running from you
even though you're not here

running far away and as fast as I can
if I pretended to stay I could ignore the pain and just save my breath
running far away and as fast as I can
but at the end of the day your fuckin face will always stay in my head

this is something ill live with
for the rest of my days
I wish I understood the reason
you would poison your veins

it was never your intentions
but now its all that I see
you had demons watching you 
now they're looking at me

and I'm having trouble coping
everyone can tell
that ill never give up hoping
its not your ashes on my shelf

running far away and as fast as I can
if I pretended to stay I could ignore the pain and just save my breath
running far away and as fast as I can
but at the end of the day your fuckin face will always stay in my head

At Some Point Time Will Heal Me (Prod. IOF)

LYRICS:

everyone was there
to share a memory a memory of you
my eulogy prepared
for people staring in the room

I spent the weekend sober
and got reminded of my sins
but now my speech is over
and I'm driving home again

if I crashed right now
is there the slightest chance
I could spend the day with you
that was promised in advance

you'd always talk about it
say your scheduling a plan
for our one whole day together
in a year that kicked our ass

you came up for my birthday
but a bag was all you had
and that hurts me in the worst way
'cause it's the one that killed my dad

everyone was there
to share a memory of you
my eulogy prepared
for people staring in the room

I spent the weekend sober
and got reminded of my sins
but now my speech is over
and I'm driving home again

if I crash right now
they would never understand
because I don't believe in heaven
we don't get a second chance

you'd always talk about it
say your scheduling a plan
for our one whole day together
and in a way we got it back

I Dont Know Man, Im Trying (Prod. Nevrfall)

Cide Effect