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Down The Rabbit Hole

Mess Of Me

Hey its me again, Oh yeah right you dont know me I'm depressed Izumi/Mia (Bella) Ive been around recently dont think im gonna leave so Hi!! I feel like dying again.. well actually ive always wanted to die since i was 7 or 8 but yeah ive been a little away but nope here i am again.   



Ok so yes I listen to some bad ASMR shit I know ok for me it is a place for me to forget everything and feel loved. Love is something you only get once, you have to keep it safe, because once its gone you realize how much you miss it, how much you abused it, once its gone it might never come back. Ok im sick and tired of people hurting my Best friend/sister Lila i swear if i hear one more thing about her crying i will have no choice but to hunt you down, im a boxer so you couldnt stand a chance. . Life sucks. i hate myself im always trying to be so happy for everyone else when i really want to kill myself.. im trying to be strong but i dont know how much longer i can hold on...
Name: Bella Mia (i preferer Mia or Izumi) 
gender: Femail
Nickname: Zuzu
Sexuality- bi and polt
States: Taken take that bitch's  
Likes: MHA, MHA fandom gay ships, sleep, eating
Dislikes: pink, Mineta (crusty pervert ass), Fake friends 
Bakugou, and Kirishima are my favorite, (My ASMR is my busyness if you like it ok if dont then dont judge or listen)
If you text me i will probably answer late in the day.
I like to make friends but i dont like people, im a bitch if someone hurts my friends though so watch out. 
If you couldn't tell from my music, I'm depressed as shit. 
Don't ask me if im ok ill just lie and say yes so theres no damn point.
❤Put this on your bio if you would take a bullet for someone you love❤
Bᴜʟʟʏɪɴɢ😠? Tʜɪɴᴋ ʏᴏᴜ'ʀᴇ sᴏ ᴄᴏᴏʟ😎? -Tʜᴇ ɢɪʀʟ ʏᴏᴜ ᴊᴜsᴛ ᴄᴀʟʟᴇᴅ ғᴀᴛ🙍?... Sʜᴇ ɪs ᴏɴ A Diet🚫🍪. -Tʜᴇ ɢɪRʟ ʏᴏᴜ ᴊᴜsᴛ ᴄᴀʟʟᴇᴅ ᴜɢʟʏ🙎?... Sʜᴇ sᴘᴇɴᴅs ʜᴏᴜʀs⏰ ᴘᴜᴛᴛɪɴɢ ᴍᴀᴋᴇᴜᴘ 💄ᴏɴ ʜᴏᴘɪɴɢ ᴛʜᴀᴛ ᴘᴇᴏᴘʟᴇ ᴡɪʟʟ ʟɪᴋᴇ ʜᴇʀ. -Tʜᴇ ʙᴏʏ ʏᴏᴜ ᴛRɪPpEd🙇?... Hᴇ ɪs ᴀʙᴜsᴇᴅ ᴇɴᴏᴜɢʜ ᴀᴛ ʜᴏᴍᴇ🏠. -Sᴇᴇ ᴛʜᴀᴛ ᴍᴀɴ ᴡɪᴛʜ ᴛʜᴇ ugly sᴄᴀʀs👱?... Hᴇ ғᴏᴜɢʜᴛ ғᴏʀ ʜɪs ᴄᴏᴜɴᴛʀʏ🚩. -Tʜᴀᴛ ɢᴜʏ ʏOᴜ ᴊᴜsᴛ ᴍᴀᴅᴇ ғᴜɴ ᴏғ ғᴏʀ ᴄʀʏɪɴɢ😭?... Hɪs ᴍᴏᴛʜᴇʀ ɪs ᴅʏɪɴɢ😷. -Tʜᴀᴛ ᴋɪᴅ ʏᴏᴜ ᴊᴜsᴛ ᴍᴀᴅᴇ ғᴜɴ ᴏғ ғᴏʀ ʙᴇɪɴɢ ʙᴀʟᴅ👱?...Hᴇ ʜᴀs ᴄᴀɴᴄᴇʀ👳. -Pᴜᴛ ᴛʜɪs ᴀs ʏᴏᴜʀ sᴛᴀᴛᴜs ɪғ ʏᴏᴜʀ ᴀɢᴀɪɴsᴛ ʙᴜʟʟʏɪɴɢ🚫. I ʙᴇᴛ ᴍᴏsᴛ ᴏғ ʏᴏᴜ ᴡᴏɴᴛ ʀᴇ-ᴘᴏsᴛ🌟 , ʙᴜᴛ I'ᴍ sᴜʀᴇ ᴛʜᴇ ᴘᴇᴏᴘʟᴇ ᴡɪᴛʜ ᴀ ʜᴇᴀʀt will!!!
More info to come

these songs helped me git through a lot plus NF music

hey so this is KiriBaku, my old account locked me out. my name is Jasper. im taken by the best girl/boyfriend, back off. 

Ok so yes I listen to some bad ASMR shit I know ok for me it is a place for me to forget everything and feel loved. Love is something you only get once, you have to keep it safe, because once its gone you realize how much you miss it, how much you abused it, once its gone it might never come back. 
Name: Jasper
gender: Male(Trans)
Nickname: jasp, or jas
Sexuality- pan, poly, and femboy (i can be a bottom or top)
States: fucking single
Likes: MHA, MHA fandom gay ships, sleep, eating
Dislikes: pink, Mineta (crusty pervert ass), Fake friends
Bakugou, and Kirishima are my favorite, (My ASMR is my busyness if you like it ok if dont then dont judge or listen)
If you text me i will probably answer late in the day.
I like to make friends but i dont like people, im a bitch if someone hurts my friends though so watch out.
If you couldn't tell from my music, I'm depressed as shit.
Don't ask me if im ok ill just lie and say yes so theres no damn point.
❤Put this on your bio if you would take a bullet for someone you love❤
Bᴜʟʟʏɪɴɢ😠? Tʜɪɴᴋ ʏᴏᴜ'ʀᴇ sᴏ ᴄᴏᴏʟ😎? -Tʜᴇ ɢɪʀʟ ʏᴏᴜ ᴊᴜsᴛ ᴄᴀʟʟᴇᴅ ғᴀᴛ🙍?... Sʜᴇ ɪs ᴏɴ A Diet🚫🍪. -Tʜᴇ ɢɪRʟ ʏᴏᴜ ᴊᴜsᴛ ᴄᴀʟʟᴇᴅ ᴜɢʟʏ🙎?... Sʜᴇ sᴘᴇɴᴅs ʜᴏᴜʀs⏰ ᴘᴜᴛᴛɪɴɢ ᴍᴀᴋᴇᴜᴘ 💄ᴏɴ ʜᴏᴘɪɴɢ ᴛʜᴀᴛ ᴘᴇᴏᴘʟᴇ ᴡɪʟʟ ʟɪᴋᴇ ʜᴇʀ. -Tʜᴇ ʙᴏʏ ʏᴏᴜ ᴛRɪPpEd🙇?... Hᴇ ɪs ᴀʙᴜsᴇᴅ ᴇɴᴏᴜɢʜ ᴀᴛ ʜᴏᴍᴇ🏠. -Sᴇᴇ ᴛʜᴀᴛ ᴍᴀɴ ᴡɪᴛʜ ᴛʜᴇ ugly sᴄᴀʀs👱?... Hᴇ ғᴏᴜɢʜᴛ ғᴏʀ ʜɪs ᴄᴏᴜɴᴛʀʏ🚩. -Tʜᴀᴛ ɢᴜʏ ʏOᴜ ᴊᴜsᴛ ᴍᴀᴅᴇ ғᴜɴ ᴏғ ғᴏʀ ᴄʀʏɪɴɢ😭?... Hɪs ᴍᴏᴛʜᴇʀ ɪs ᴅʏɪɴɢ😷. -Tʜᴀᴛ ᴋɪᴅ ʏᴏᴜ ᴊᴜsᴛ ᴍᴀᴅᴇ ғᴜɴ ᴏғ ғᴏʀ ʙᴇɪɴɢ ʙᴀʟᴅ👱?...Hᴇ ʜᴀs ᴄᴀɴᴄᴇʀ👳. -Pᴜᴛ ᴛʜɪs ᴀs ʏᴏᴜʀ sᴛᴀᴛᴜs ɪғ ʏᴏᴜʀ ᴀɢᴀɪɴsᴛ ʙᴜʟʟʏɪɴɢ🚫. I ʙᴇᴛ ᴍᴏsᴛ ᴏғ ʏᴏᴜ ᴡᴏɴᴛ ʀᴇ-ᴘᴏsᴛ🌟 , ʙᴜᴛ I'ᴍ sᴜʀᴇ ᴛʜᴇ ᴘᴇᴏᴘʟᴇ ᴡɪᴛʜ ᴀ ʜᴇᴀʀt will!!!
__❤__❤_____❤__❤__ Put This
_❤_____❤_❤_____❤__ Heart
_❤_______❤______❤__ On Your
__❤_____________❤__ Page If
_____❤________❤___ You
_______❤____❤_____ lost someone
__________❤ ______ (anyone, even pets)
More info to come

I been around the block a bit. Dabble in DJing for years. I am going to be uploading some music soon. I play primarily Drum and bass/Metalstep though I play all aspects of music and looking to be creative.

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hi yall, its AnonymouslyAya. I am a singer/ songwriter i post sometimes. both photos are of me just a different person/gender enjoy my music