i keep coming back this song, i love this so so much

Maybe she was gone for a bit
And afraid to admit she was wrong
And maybe she let go just to quit
And moved out to where she belongs
She thinks she fell in love with a witch
The way he spells out that she's wrong
I feel like he's too evil for it
Cast aside with a magical wand

Chalked up driveway
It feels like an ocean
Caught me looking sideways
Provoking emotion
Ask what's the commotion
I’m stuck in place
Don't know where I'm going
You say it’s all for my sake
So I still stay here frozen
While this gap keeps on growing

This feeling I’m loving must fall
The holes and blood on the wall
Reminding why we once fell out of love
I’m tired of reads and blocked calls
Reminding me of all my flaws
Try to tell me again what to think of

Maybe she was gone for a bit
And afraid to admit she was wrong
And maybe she let go just to quit
And moved out to where she belongs
She thinks she fell in love with a witch
The way he spells out that she's wrong
I feel like he's too evil for it
Cast aside with a magical wand

charmer

with https://soundcloud.com/hanirl :)

then I sit down

put away my cellphone

do it for my health

then I'm gonna tell nobody 

the way I've felt

tell tales

tell everybody that I'm doing well

I'm not

okay, still sitting down

open up my laptop

can't talk now

is what I tell my friends 

because I'm writing about 

everything, every thought,

every scene, every now

and then

I write about how

my thoughts pull me down

why are they so loud?

Why are they so mean?

Fierce and hostile, I fear I've lost sight 

Cause years of my life

I'd feel the gaslights

Kept wasting my time,

my friends would ask why

my tears won't pass now

I block it all out

just shut myself down

It's so much more than what I wrote

what I wrote isn't all empirical at all

I'm gonna get out of my head

soak up the sunlight

and fall in love with life again

it's so much more than what I wrote

So you read what I wrote from

most of the week where I hoped for

nobody to pose if I'm honest about

what's on my mental

I won't pretend to

act like I don't dread 

the palpable potential

that I will only end up

like what I've tried to end but

if I tried and I failed

would you probably feel

like I've fallen to my own virtues

this isn't a goodbye, it's far from that

I don't want you to worry, time won't hurt you

it's so much more than what I wrote

what I wrote isn't all empirical at all

I'm gonna get out of my head

soak up the sunlight

and fall in love with life again

fall in love

and fall in love with life again

fall in love

it's so much more than what I wrote

playwright w/ han.irl<3

hi there :)

windflower

@viznode
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art by https://x.com/_exaflares

windflower

shameless. & viznode - windflower

it's been 7 months of semi-silence, i want to thank everyone who's stuck around :) yall are great

uni is going great, i loveeee studying music

hope everyone is doing amazing <3

-ebu

mirage

one life

Stream: https://share.amuse.io/1DupSs0BzbjG

I can hardly exist
But you can't help yourself
You just wanna follow
You just wanna follow me
You're so damn predictable
You can't see yourself
You just keep following
Following me

Don't Follow

Don't Follow

I hope I've improved.

‎Watch this on youtube (the audio sounds better there I swear): https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=PX_qZ9CbZog
‎
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CREDITS
patterns, shannon, riemann - original creators
suji - emotional support + keeping me sane
sapphi, suji, toavn, anthesis, linked winters, haru - feedback

you - for your support <3

Patterns - Breeze (ft. Shannon & Riemann) (Navinor Remix)

made in 24 hours for @artbyform 's All Nighter 8.

make sure to support the full compilation!
https://artbyform.bandcamp.com/album/all-nighter-vol-8-2\

watch the lyric video here!
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=HSRFpcMiO6A

~waiting's room~

ayu

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https://www.youtube.com/@ayucouldeat

kaguraa / CHALKEY
  
https://twitter.com/kaguraarden
https://www.youtube.com/@kaguraarden
https://twitter.com/chalkeynation
https://www.youtube.com/@chalkeynation

Vedra

https://twitter.com/its_vedra
https://www.youtube.com/@its_vedra

aquoferne
 
https://www.youtube.com/@aquoferne
https://twitter.com/aquoferne
https://aquoferne.bandcamp.com

Nanolith / Southside Pier
 
https://www.youtube.com/@notnanolith
https://twitter.com/southsidepier

Viznode
 
@viznode
https://www.twitter.com/viznode

keyseeker

@keyseeker
https://twitter.com/theafterstories
https://keyseeker.bandcamp.com

D'art
 
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https://dart-music.bandcamp.com/
https://twitter.com/dart_music_

(lyrics)

breathe in, breathe out 
light as a feather 
a wish i sought 
written right from the letter 

my door unlocked 
hanging wider than ever 
flowers aloft 
i resented your favors 

picking up all of the petals
that fell in the wake of it all 

if all is the same to you 
then i'll pretend 
i don't care at all 

a hollow, shaped hole 
a lingering soul 
i wandered alone 
to hear your song 

reprieve a red rose 
a garden above 
i tend to alone 
still part of your whole

pick it up
put it down 
i fold it over and frame it 

pick it up 
put it down 
cut it open and portray it 

am i laughing? 
am i laughing now?

nothing is funnier 
than anything else 
than my face 
and this lasting frown
coddle me 
tell me i've let me down

a hollow shaped hole 
a lingering soul 
i wandered alone 
to hear your song 

reprieve a red rose 
a garden above 
i tend to alone 
still part of your whole

waiting's room - Flowers of Purgatory

(Noah &) "The Whale"
28/10/23 - 05/03/24

The name comes from the band "Noah and the whale" which is a band me and my mother like

This song has taken the longest to figure out in terms of meaning, it's pretty weirdly structured, very chaotic, vague, but still wholely sincere
and then it hit me: this song is about my mother, alot of the characteristics of this song really come from her personality and I guess in a sense it's written about our relationship
I love my mother, she's one of the most chaotic, unapologetically "themself" people, and I owe a lot of things I like about myself to her, and I guess I underestimated how much influence she could have in my own art.
I struggled figuring out a name or identity for this track for so long, and I remember going to the shop with my mother and she made a random throwaway comment saying "I wonder if you sat here long enough if you would see everyone you'd have ever met?" and that just hit me really hard and I wrote it down as fast as I could.
In terms of lyrics it's less connected to parents and mothering, but a lot of that notion of sitting in one place and actually seeing everyone you've ever known, and that space inbetween reminiscing and when another person would come along, and how hard we try to avoid confronting ourselves and our own flaws, or even mortality in a sense? the latter half is more linked into parenthood and growing up in general, realising in the space between how your childhood has died, and that all the younger versions of you have died along with it, and you sort of "shed" yourself each and every day, leaving traces of past yous behind, but it doesn't get any lighter, and you still learn new things about yourself, like how much you love your parents, and realising that they were never "bad" parents, they were just trying their best; and there's nothing more you could ask of them than that.

LYRICS:

And they say "if you sit in one place long enough, you'll see everyone you've ever known"
Well I've seen everything and everyone I know

Are you scared of what's inbetween?
(Can I get what I want?)
And I'll move mountains from their place
(will you?)

And the sky is mourning
the death of your childhood
(reflection)

there's mould growing, on my walls again
there's mould growing on my walls again
am I supposed to be grateful?
am i supposed to be grateful

Little Faith

The Whale

speedrunning a remix be like

big thanks to everyone who helped me along the way i love you all

charmer

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