srsly cant thank u enough this song has gotten me through so much

now that Ive finally gotten off my ass and am making the art Ive been wanting to make my whole life, I finally understand what this song means

prod. @t0rr

Stars look down on the river it's like deep sea
It goes silent listening for color can you hear me
And the screens always somehow find just what's in my soul
But the static fear always haunting makes my breath go

Hush, hush, hush, hush
It's terrifying

Break right into my soul and start the closure
I'm an optimist when you don't know my emotions
Sucked right outta my heart, they're like it won't hurt
And the nightmares sing to the stars "are you still nervous?"
Break right into my soul and start the closure
I'm an optimist when you don't know my emotions
Sucked right outta my heart, they're like it won't hurt
And the nightmares sing to the stars "are you still-"

You never know why you cry
Reasons like a lullaby to you
And I'll stand there, is this all it for me?
It's never nightmares, why am I scared of dreams?
And the sun might set much closer, my attitude is tilted over
What I don't know about this whole earth it just haunts my every moment

And you can sleep


Sun might set much closer, my attitude is tilted over
What I don't know about this whole earth it just haunts my every moment
Sun might set much closer, my attitude is tilted over
(It's always static, a child manic)
What I don't know about this whole earth it just haunts my every moment
(It's always rancid, you wake me up and)

Nervous (Prod. torr)

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lyrics:
i know im just a means to an end
trying to live off my circumstance with this dream in my head
but its alright
just give me some more time
to get out of my own head
and ill be fine

sinking into all my faults and
i dont have time to rectify them all
so ill just fade into the sidelines
and maybe ill end up better for it
becoming numb and i cant ignore it anymore
i just cant afford to
waste all my time on the chase of a ghost
losing hope just to fold out

i know im just a means to an end
im just a victim of circumstance with a dream in my head
but its alright
just give me some more time
to get out of my own head
and ill be fine

its my job to put these demons to bed
i wont waste away any longer if i force it to an end
but ill be alright
just give me some more time
to get out of my own head
and ill be fine

but for what its worth
i wont run away from rebirth
i just need some more time to grow up
i dont live in the now enough
but im ready to face my hurt

i know im just a means to an end
but i can live with my circumstance and the dream in my head
and im alright
dont need any more time
to get out of my own head
cos im just fine

its my life
this is all that i am
and im finally free from worry
i can take my own chances and ill be fine
i finally feel alive
i finally see that its my time

means to an end

sydney 

a LUCA+THE CAT+QUARTERMOON story

circa december 2020

stream

sydney

produced, written, recorded, by me
mixed/mastered by @soupandreas

find me 🎈
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lyrics:
maybe ill appreciate that you left me a message
i couldn't form sentences with my words
i won't press you more on it
but i asked if we could be in each-other's lives again
and no-one really fucking knows it 

almost a year and i felt a way
u say that it's selfish to fade away
i don't even know what to say to that?
falling in love is like pirouettes
one foot, i'll fall again, 
pick me back up i'll say
yeah, the silence is killing me
…you say that you're guilty

baby i'm hurt so bad by you,
i also think about how nice it'd be
to fall in love again
i won't expect the same
but if you ask if i'm okay, 
would i lie to you?
would i lie?
sitting in the silence

i knew it wouldn't work out but especially when we start falling out 
was i just enough? (x2)

oh, how am i the one to blame? shame on me
i was supposed to let go when i finally spoke up
it took a lot to say, but i still feel like i'm to blame
i knew that shit was tough at home
but you still assume the same things of me 


almost a year and i felt a way
u say that it's selfish to fade away
i don't even know what to say to that?
falling in love is like pirouettes
one foot, i'll fall again, 
pick me back up i'll stay
sitting in the silence 
would i lie?

baby i'm hurt so bad by you,
i also think about how nice it'd be
to fall in love again
i won't expect the same
but have you asked if i'm okay?
yeah the silence is killing me
u say that you're guilty 
(please move on)

-i don't want to burden my friends with
talking bout how i'm losing will to live
things will work out, they tell me but don’t ask 
if i’m okay when reaching my hand out

it's when i don’t feel like talking
is when they think i'm not okay
and it would be nice if they checked in
i’m guessing they just feel the same-

get out! 
this house ain't fit for three
yes i forgive! but you're giving me nothing
no, i'm begging to my knees
(yeah the silence is killing me)
you say that you're guilty
(please move on) 

baby i'm hurt so bad from you,
i also think about how nice it'd be
to fall in love again
i won't expect the same
but if you ask if i'm okay, 
would i lie to you?
would i lie?

(okay one more time now!)

baby i'm hurt so bad by you,
i also think about how nice it'd be
to fall in love again
i won't expect the same
but if you ask if i'm okay, 
would i lie to you?
would i lie?

(1, 2, 3 lets go!)

baby i'm hurt so bad by you,
i also think about how nice it'd be
to fall in love again
i won't expect the same
but if you ask if i'm okay, 
yeah the silence is killing me
you say that you're guilty 
please move on

you say that you're guilty yeah

& why's it so hard moving on?

yeah the silence is killing me
you say that you're guilty

free dl <3

pirouettes & the ghost of harman street (i'm not scared of the dark anymore!)

thank you @kaihaunted for the cover art :3
& thank you for all the birthday wishes!! if i reply to all of them too quick soundcloud will think im a fkn bot but know i love each n every one of you :3
obvious influences are obvious, sue me!
lyrics:
turning twentytwo
i don't have a clue
what i'm gonna do
with my life
i guess that's okay
i can rot away
in the comfort
of my bedroom

been a legal alcoholic for a year now
guess it wasn't hard to get down
like a deer in the highlights
future's coming fast
arms open wide
will i fall
or will i fly
cause ain't shit changed in a year and a half
was hoping this one's better than the year before last
if i had stuck it out
i'd have graduated college by now,,
but then i'd move on
i'd have a degree
it'd be probably worse
you gotta agree
but there's nothing i'd rather do :3

turning twentytwo
i don't have a clue
what i'm gonna do
with my life
i guess that's okay
i can rot away
in the comfort
of my bedroom

turning twentytwo
i don't have a clue
what i'm gonna do
with my life
i guess that's okay
i can rot away
in the comfort
of my bedroom

STEMS

twentytwo

prod by me :)

lyrics:

i just woke up from a dream
where i got to hold your hand
hold my head up while we're out
i really doubt you'd understand

spin my wheels out
lost traction
don't know how to feel now
caught up in reaction
you told me forever
it's not lasting
i just feel like dead weight 
pretend i didn't happen

i'll have to hold myself
i don't got no friends if u couldn't tell
i could say my feelings but it wouldn't help
so i'll change my dreams just to make it sell

looking for a way out
nothing's gonna change now
take me to ur lakehouse 
remind me all i hate bout you
i know its fake now
but i dont wanna face that truth
been 7 days now 
is it too late to facetime you

i didnt like what i saw in the mirror 
so i made someone and i hope that i wont fear her
i wrote a song about it listen till my ears hurt
no matter what the message isnt getting clearer

never wanna talk if it's not your turn
never gonna stop just to hear me hurt
cause it's what i got its what i deserve
tryna take my heart boy you got some nerve

i'll have to hold myself
i don't got no friends if u couldn't tell
i could say my feelings but it wouldn't help
so i'll change my dreams just to make it sell

looking for a way out
nothing's gonna change now
take me to ur lakehouse 
remind me all i hate bout you
i know its fake now
but i dont wanna face that truth
been 7 days now 
is it too late to facetime you

(cause i've been)
looking for a way out
nothing's gonna change now
take me to ur lakehouse 
remind me all i hate bout you
i know its fake now
but i dont wanna face that truth
been 7 days now 
is it too late to facetime you

lakehouse

covered some of my favorite songs <3

co-prod. wishlane & soutjay

songs covered:
burbank house - tsubi club
endlessly - bixby
heck - underscores
morris island - soupandreas
rosier/punk2 - brakence
sydney - gabby start
santa monica - aries
peace sounds - james ivy

thank you for the inspiration

songs that keep me sane

@sxthsns

LYRICS:
i dont put nothing but my best in 
if you mean that shit best say it with yo chest then
im moving overtime forgot about my best friends
this shit been overdue but im so bad at scheduling
i put requests in to my plug i need my medicine
without it feel like ima die before the better days
i lost my mom aint get to see her shit embarassing
i still suppress all of my thoughts about it every day

23 years old should be in my prime by now i know 
sick of waiting on time time just go
feel like optimus prime when i switch clothes
-if you see me crying on my own
just know im trying to keep afloat
ima end up dying on my own 
the way i strive to be alone
the way i strive to be alone
flauge' packing heat he could send you home
you a opp? dont come in my zone
told ch6po man its been so damn long
i got bustdown fever everywhere i go 
no wonder why i stay indoors
im looking out of the window 
and all i see is time stolen

i took one shot at a ponyboy hope he stay golden
when i come around you feel the rumble but i aint flowdan
i just wanna get rapper rich one day get my wrist flooded
cash out an abundance i been hitting home runs
why these goofies bunting yea i treat the stu like boxing matches
you can see me punch in 
i done spent way too much of my life wondering where the drugs is
so down bad couldnt carve a smile out of my face i aint no pumpkin


im 23 years old should be in my prime by now i know 
sick of waiting on time time just go
feel like optimus prime when i switch clothes
-if you see me crying on my own
just know im trying to keep afloat
ima end up dying on my own 
the way i strive to be alone
the way i strive to be alone
flauge' packing heat he could send you home
you a opp? dont come in my zone
told ch6po man its been so damn long
i got bustdown fever everywhere i go 
no wonder why i stay indoors
im looking out of the window 
and all i see is time stolen

OH MY GOD!!
(2x)
i dont put nothing but my best in 
if you mean that shit best say it with yo chest then
im moving overtime forgot about my best friends
this shit been overdue but im so bad at scheduling
i put requests in to my plug i need my medicine
without it feel like ima die before the better days
i lost my mom aint get to see her shit embarassing
i still suppress all of my thoughts about it every day

bustdown fever pt 2 (sxth sns x swazy*)

https://open.spotify.com/album/0x2ZcWdttmtbwkSSfvuPcn

trusting yourself can be the hardest thing
thank you for 500 followers

produced by myself

trust yourself

video: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=90nWyCAHRHs

fuck me in the basement
where we'd make out on the couch
in our hometown sneakin' out
been a few years thinkin' bout it
didn't think you cared about me
enough to mention
our old contentions
and our relations
when what you're faced with is paramount
yeah

so maybe
you're why im out of breath
i felt myself compress
hearin' you spent your time well
and i'll savor
the time we have left babe
i'll take what i can get
knowin' all i have is time
yeah

don't know how to say these lines
wouldn't have to lie but you hate the silence
would anyone display their crimes
i wish it didn't hurt when you say you're proud of me

i'm too afraid to say i love you
i said
goodbye
too many times
and put a mask on my face when you say that you're sad to leave
and you were
my world
at the time
and i'm too afraid to say i love you

call her back
say the rest
what you left out, the non-events
apologize
no regrets
when we both know the story has
all that wasted time
agreed the weak decides
i'm here to speak with pride

I wish it didn't hurt when you say you're proud of me

i have my own vocals in this 
stay True 
original song - https://soundcloud.com/aries_ix/convos

trust yourself

clearlew

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