Lyrics:
The morning light feels new and warm
I thought I’d weathered every storm
My house is built on solid stone
A quiet peace I've come to own
I learned to breathe the air again
And wash away the "what" and "when"
The mirror shows a stronger face
Finally found my own safe space

But there's a whisper on the breeze
A sudden chill among the trees
A flicker of a former dread
A tangled thought inside my head

Hello, sadness, my old friend
I thought our chapter had an end
You creep in like a winter rain
A familiar and a bitter pain
Just when I think I'm free and whole
You come to claim a piece of my soul
An uninvited, faithful guest
Putting my new strength to the test

I remember days of endless grey
When shadows wouldn't go away
The weight I carried, heavy chains
The echo of forgotten pains
I fought the battles, won the war
And closed and bolted every door
To keep the ghosts of then outside
With nothing left for me to hide

But locks get rusty, wood can bend
A story doesn't truly end
A scent, a sound, a falling leaf
Is all it takes to wake the grief

Hello, sadness, my old friend
I thought our chapter had an end
You creep in like a winter rain
A familiar and a bitter pain
Just when I think I'm free and whole
You come to claim a piece of my soul
An uninvited, faithful guest
Putting my new strength to the test

But this time, I won't run and hide
Or let you swallow me inside
Maybe you're not here to fight
Just a reminder of the night
A part of me I have to know
To see how far I've had to grow
So I'll sit with you a little while
And offer up a fragile smile

Oh, sadness, my old friend
I know this visit has an end
You pour down like a winter rain
But I know the sun will shine again
You can't have all of me, my soul
Because I’m finally in control
You're just an uninvited guest
And soon you'll have to leave, like all the rest

Yes, soon you'll have to leave
I can feel the air begin to breathe
A passing cloud, the shadow flows
But I am stronger than the ghost...
I am stronger... than the ghost.

Still me, but different

Hello sadness

Project cancelled. No further new content.

I’m dirmardor.
My songs arise from artistic zombiosis – fragments, data-light, and dark rhythms. This is the musical side: tracks from my eight ongoing projects, ranging from AI-driven synth layers to electronic gloom and real song ideas. I, dirmardor, and my world, Mahvarion, are united. You can find out more in the link tree.
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Hello sadness

In memory of Clementine