I don’t want to be a victim of the girl I’m always missing 🖤🥀

Collabed on this beat with @gaia-zambon-778002978

Lyrics:
so i never wanna leave my bed, i stay lost up in my head
please do not disturb me you could wake me when im fuckin dead
guess im giving up thats why you always gettin left on read
dont talk to me dont hit me up im busy tryna get my bread

dont take my pulse cause i flatlined
i know youll leave just like last time
put on a show like its halftime
like im a poet but i cant rhyme

you never heard a flow so slow, guess ive given up completely but im vibin on the low, i dont got no energy for nothin keep your fuckin hoe, she be slidin in my DMs im depressed but she dont know

said she thought its just persona
said she thought it was an act
said she thought that id be happy cause im piling up these racks
said she plays all of my songs
said she listens to my tracks
said she wanna save me now before im never coming back

Shedontknow

shedontknow (prod. Gaia & HKFiftyOne)

Wild Oceans

prod. @notmorgn 

beat tag: @gucccifer

while im sleeping spiders crawl into my chest
now that im coming up people act like they're impressed 
and honestly no i don't wanna collab
i been goin so hard got my foot right on the gas
paypal on me convert it into cash
gosha pants staying cozy in the lab
im feeling happy ain't it sad
cus when im sad my shit be way passed 
any expectation that i ever fucking had
fuck expectancy got blades up in the bag
fuck friends i be with my fucking gang
black benz imma get one in the end

knew i'd see you in my dreams so i napped then
do or die release the tension lay back then
i swear these dreams feel real
like how am i awake yeah i really can't feel
been out of touch but no dont wanna say it
victim in your game but don't wanna fucking play it
serpents keep me safe my grave is locked away
the spiders that i see make reality strange

face down jaw biting on the pavement 
stomp that shit down now u get a free face lift
dont fuck it up i been feeling amazing 
water on my wrist and in my stomach im hydrated

knew i'd see you in my dreams so i napped then
do or die release the tension lay back then
i swear these dreams feel real
like how am i awake yeah i really can't feel
been out of touch but no dont wanna say it
victim in your game but i don't wanna fucking play it
serpents keep me safe my grave is locked away
the spiders that i see make reality strange

these dreams feel real

@notmorgn <333

lyrics:

I don't need no friends that fake expressions just for fun
how you say i started when i ain't even begun
every lie you stack up on me hurts unless you're done
every day i suffer in my room well just because

everyday i wake up in a nightmare its a curse
every night i try to change then wake up felling worse
thoughts and hollow memories but still no lessons learned
broken glass for feelings but nobody act concerned

i can't hold my happiness for not even a day
people poppin xannys and they wanna hide the pain
i don't think they understand that life isn't a game
look inside yourself and you might find someone to blame

medicate anxiety no remedy to pain
medicate society so they all go insane
medicate my brain, medicate my brain (x2)

i can hear your whispers as they echo through my mind
pitch black border painted all around your eyes
i don't feel a thing i swear i've never been this high
i don't need to try
i don't wanna stay here
wanna take my life

i don't think i'll every try to make it through the night
who wants to feel alive
am i right
wanna die in your eyes

medicate anxiety no remedy to pain
medicate society so they all go insane
medicate my brain, medicate my brain (x2)

dying in ur eyes (prod.notmorgn)

prod. @notmorgn

its been a minute
still no closure
she in my bed no clothes
but im colder
remember 2010
now im much older
remember feeling fine
those days are way over

20 degrees 
30 mph breeze
freezin up my chest
everytime im tryna breathe
why the east so cold like this?
im dead by the way 
don’t need condolences 

chipped black nails pale white skin
i just waste my time tryna learn how to live
chipped black nails pale white skin
i just waste my time tryna learn how to live

i want the push start
i want the bag gotta be goyard
everybody gonna notice 
that i go hard
she got a G string
i ain’t talkin mozart
top off
i ain’t talkin go karts
gotta up my prices
ain’t nobody like this
spent the whole day sleepin
and i dont work a night shift
fuck a 9 to 5 
i don’t fit in that box bitch
song take a couple hours 
but it come out timeless

chipped black nails pale white skin
i just waste my time tryna learn how to live

i was really struggling 
to save my own life
til’ i started typing words 
spent a check on a mic
i really could’ve 
stayed that night
but my perspective all changed 
since all we did was fight

(slowed)

chipped black nails pale white skin
i just waste my time tryna learn how to live

chipped black nails

i cant help it (feat. guccihighwaters)

taking naps i cant even afford

with some beautiful guitar work by my friend @the-gnarly-neighbors

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an album from @prodbybrody and thebreathingbackwards

music video: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=AmBDiyk9YO8
lyrics: https://genius.com/Thebreathingbackwards-morning-light-w-the-gnarly-neighbors-lyrics

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morning light (w/ the gnarly neighbors)

9TAILS - Dont Leave Me

@mewsyc
@producedbyaidan
@guccihighwaters

yeah im just ur boy toy
fillin up some free time
take me when u wanna
then leave me here to die
i'll keep it to myself now
got me feelin left out
u talk a lot shit like u dont got a lot to hide

numb to the core
yeah, i kill that pain
with a bottle of liqoure
feel it runnin thru my veins
when im not high
or preoccupied
i got thorns in my heart
and a storm roarin in my mind

whats inside my cup
blindsides my brain
so i hide my face
in an act of shame
and hope to dissapear
in a perminant way
u watch me fade to black
u'd love to watch my pain

and u know
who to call
ill b there
after all
and i know
when i fall
u wont care
afterall,

yeah im just ur boy toy
fillin up some free time
take me when u wanna
then leave me here to die
i'll keep it to myself now
got me feelin left out
u talk a lot shit like u dont got a lot to hide

numb to the core
yeah, i kill that pain
with a bottle of liqoure
feel it runnin thru my veins
when im not high
or preoccupied
i got thorns in my heart
and a storm roarin in my mind

yeah, im just a waste
i dont got that much to offer
im selfish and conceeded 
but always put my all
into everyone and everything
then watch it as it falls
let it crumble to my feet
just like everything ive ever loved

yeah, im just ur boy toy
fillin up some free time
take me when u wanna
then leave me here to die
i always knew the truth
u aint even gotta lie
ur the best thing
but im just another guy

im ur puppet and u play me like a game
text from my ex, yeah she never felt the same
use me on a rainy day
abuse me til i cant even think
that picuture that we took
i always kept it safe
id put it in my pocket just so i could see ur face
when i was out of town
u always kept me with u
never told u bout all the times when i would miss u

yeah, im just ur boy toy
fillin up some free time
take me when u wanna
then leave me here to die
i always knew the truth
u aint even gotta lie
ur the best thing
but im just another guy

Follow me <3

boy toy (ft. guccihighwaters) [prod. mewsyc & aidan]

fit for this life (w/ Lil Xtra) [prod. sorrow bringer]

lyrics
--------
why try if it ain't worth it
why lie if you can't do it
why cry with your back to it
i'm fine just a tad stupid
(x2)

record a bunch of nonsense when i'm feelin' nauseous 
gotta play it cautious if she tryna hang
mirror mirror on this wall inside my heart
does falling out of love make a human go insane
i've tried three times, back it up & rewind
look into your green eyes, tell me if i change
baby you a goddess, you so fuckin' flawless
imma fuck him up if he speaks your name in vain

why try if it ain't worth it
why lie if you can't do it
why cry with your back to it
i'm fine just a tad stupid
(x3)

redemption of a lost mess speedin' up the process
by the time that august comes you'll know my name
g-u-a-r guardin yeah i beg your pardon
right to all involvement writing through the day
got my castle in the yard it's kinda fuckin' hard
to stand like i'm on guard when the clouds are seeing rain
so my bedrooms more appealing, suffer through the feeling
cause i know you're leaving gotta act like i'm okay 
 
why try if it ain't worth it
why lie if you can't do it
why cry with your back to it
i'm fine just a tad stupid
(x2)

i cant help it (feat. guccihighwaters)

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