My Heart Hurts

Madisonimissyou

31.DEC.2023

I still care-

Memories /ft. Icare (prod ross gossage)

isc2 (unmastered) prod malloy

Lyrics

Tired of crying for people who don't even care
For people that aint even there
Why does life work in the way does? I don't know
I only know it ain't fair
But maybe it is, cause thats how it is
Why do I feel like this? I'm just a kid
This shit getting old and I'm only a kid

Tired of this, tired of that
What does she see in me? My heart is black
Walk out of class and I go to a stall and I cry
When I have a panic attack

But nobody knows about that
Cause I don't feel close enough to open up
My day has already turned bad
17 minuets ago just woke up

I don't blame God for not coming from Heaven to save us
Cause we don't deserve a damn thing
How could we go to a place thats supposed to be perfect
We cant even learn how to change

Use your brain, we're all the same
Only together can we get through pain
Too many people give up on their dreams
Too many people give all for some fame

Mom can you stop asking what happend to all of my friends
I don't even know
This is my world, don't try to get in
I don't want anyone getting too close

Not even you, not even her
Not even me cause I'm not even sure
I kept it real, but you never were

Tired of crying for people who don't even care
For people that aint even there
Why does life work in the way does? I don't know
I only know it ain't fair
But maybe it is, cause thats how it is
Why do I feel like this? I'm just a kid
This shit getting old and I'm only a kid

Waking up, space I'm taking up
Late school work, I'm not making up
Might be fucking up but I don't care enough
Cause the love I need ain't there enough

Suck it up, stop giving up
You little stupid fuck, why don't you give a fuck?
Life is fucking tough, road's fucking rough
Stop tripping out and quit tearing up

Let me in it's been too long
I'm sick of this, I'm sick of songs
This is not where we belong
Leave him behind and take me along

I don't like that normal shit
I fucking hate that formal shit
I like my abnormalness
Cant we just come to an armistice

If I don't tell you how I feel don't assume that you know how I feel
If I tell you that I'm depressed don't you tell me that shit isnt real

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me, i'm pain. | Produced by unknxwn.

Lyrics

I can't love you, I'ma have to leave you in the past, I want love but you can't do that
From the start I knew it was bad but I looked right past, I lost time that I can't get back
I can't do that again, it hurt too much and I'm not strong enough to hold anything else back, if I get pushed again I really might snap

Make songs so I don't have to talk, pain's my drive but I want it to stop
I'm not sure if that's all true cause without it then what would I do?
Been in the rain so long, I don't like it inside
I wanna live just as much as I've died
Gave love a shot and I hate that I tried, I'm ignoring my heart, I'ma focus on pride

From selfless to selfish, success I am hellbent, found my soul last year, 2020 I'll sell it
Money is all that I want cause I lost what I need
I'm replacing my sadness with greed
I couldn't care if you agree cause when I was still there you didn't
"I'll be waiting right here" you told to me
said that you wouldn't leave then did it

I'm gonna shine so bright, I'ma make sure that I make you miss this
My mind will never be right, the code in my DNA spells out MISFIT
Fuck everybody, I'm dying alone
Don't tell me "I love you" if you really don't
My heart like my name it's location unknxwn., can't wait till the day that I pack up and go

I won't give what I'm not getting
This is real I'm not pretending
I give in, my soul's not healing
Skin so thick you'll never peel me

self care. | Produced by Raspo

lyrics

love you lemieux
love you lemieux
love you lemieux

(chorus)
nighttime yuh like these demons in my head yuh
like these monsters in my bed yuh
still remember what you fucking said
(what you fucking said)
everynight I wanna cry (cry)
why do I feel this way (way)
I really need to go away (way)
baby don't leave please stay yuh

(verse1)
it's time for a confession I don't love you
and sorry I confessed it's the ugly truth
I really left you for huh lemieux
I'm sorry she's way better yuh brand new
I'm sorry that I did this to you I never meant to pop all those pills
but now you wanna leave me in the mud
but bitch I left you in the dust

omg lemieux
omg lemieux
omg lemieux

(chorus)
nighttime yuh like these demons in my head yuh
like these monsters in my bed yuh
still remember what you fucking said
(what you fucking said)
everynight I wanna cry (cry)
why do I feel this way (way)
I really need to go away (way)
baby don't leave please stay yuh

(verse2)
I pull up on my ex then I do the dash
she knows that this shit ain't gonna crash
oh my god you're leaving all these love rashes
all my team pulling up we got the flashes
this ain't no selfie so don't look (so dont look)
you getting shot at you better book
that pistol eh got you shook
look at me nigga yeah you better look

love you lemieux

Yuie - Goodbye, hello (p. sighsare + ghoul)

Lyrics:

chorus

Lucy Lucy, I want you by my side
Right next to me
Lucy Lucy, I want to fly
With you under my wing

Lucy Lucy, I want you by my side
Right next to me
Lucy Lucy, I want to fly
With you under my wing

verse

Walking on the coast Florida
We can do what we want, it’s both us
Chilling with the palm trees and a cup a punch
Ima treat you real nice with a 5-star lunch aye

Zooming in a go-kart I’m having fun
It’s laser tag, it’s having brunch
You’re on my back, you’re what I want
I got a bag, you’re what I won yuh

We drinking wine, eating cheese
We dating fine, we having peace
No wasting time, I’m feeling free
My heart’s in love might skip a beat

Pull up in whip I do the swerve
Girls in my dms I hit the curve
I’m a loyal baby you will come in first
I love you baby can’t explain with words


chorus

Lucy Lucy I want you by my side
Right next to me
Lucy Lucy I want to fly
With you under my wing

Lucy Lucy I want you by my side
Right next to me
Lucy Lucy I want to fly
With you under my wing

Verse 2

You and I ain’t living basic
I’ll take you to some pretty places
I love you, don’t need you naked
Love is real, it’s in our faces

Yeah I tell my friends all about my baby
Got a flawless body like a new Mercedes
Lips red like Rari and they looking tasty
Ride with my shawty till we turning 80

Yeah we holding hands, we lockings eyes
Looking at the stars, looking at the sky
It’s a pretty world, you a cutie pie
You my favorite girl, lets run the night yuh

Lucy

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View From Here - Yak (feat. Ché)

Heart of an angel and the face of a goddess..

Heart Of An Angel

Visual: https://youtu.be/sH5eHx94_1Q

Lyrics

I looked everywhere for something that I should of found in myself
I've created my own life's hell
I'm the sinner, I'm the saint
I'm the thought you hate to think
I'm so lost, I'm in a maze
Be better off inside a grave

Alpha/Omega, fuck thinking that shit
It don't make it no better when I feel like shit
I just feel deader when I'm in the grips
Of a hand I reached out to when I need a lift

Cause if I need help, then I feel like I failed
I'm in debt to the things that I felt
Well oh well, I'm stuck here anyway
What's the point of complaining when I know I'm gonna fade?

I thought you would save me from myself
But now you're deaf to my crys for help
Baby where'd you go?
You left me so fucking alone

Hot inside my chest the night you left, I lost my breath girl
But I guess it's best, I'm still a mess, you were my damn world
Such a shame that you didn't tell the truth to me
I can't feel the same for you if you don't feel the same for me

Make a fool of me, I'ma make a fool of you
You can really rest in peace when I'm really done with you
What's got into me? I think that's got something to do
With how you just fucked with me when I never fucked with you

I should just calm down, I should just let go
But you still come 'round right when I get close
Then I just forget all the pain that you inflict
Then you say "It's a bad day" and ghost me again

Cycle repeats like clockwork
I just act like that I'm not hurt
Even right after I got hurt
Some of these girls are so nice
But none of them make me feel like her
Wish you were here on these cold nights
I swear all my songs are about her

She caught me when I fell
Without her I'm not that well
I'm not sure if I can tell
When I need to say farewell

Cause she don't make me fine
But without her I would of died
I'm not sure if I will find
Anything like that no time

Why'd you have to lie when I asked you bout that guy?
I thought you were not that type, what a waste of fucking time
Want you out my life, hold up, scratch that, never mind
Can't believe with what you've done my love for you is still alive

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nightlight. | Produced by tennis player

prod. born hero
🖤Sinna🖤
@sinnagacci
☠️https://www.instagram.com/ihatesinna/
🖤pyrrhic🖤
@dearpyrrhic
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justbringflowers (ysl lotus)