I'll be performing this track at my album launch for Departures, at Rough Trade Liverpool on 14th September! Get tickets here: https://dice.fm/event/929y3o-nthn-album-launch-shimmer-fletcher-james-14th-sep-rough-trade-liverpool-liverpool-tickets

Track 3

Prod. Kado


I’ve been missing medication 
But it’s okay I hate the way I felt sedated 
Rather feel myself breaking
And trust me that’s a feeling with which I have been acquainted 
Fucking up my life again a loser in the making 
Feeling out of place like a train without a station 
Like a pig without a blanket 
Like a song without a playlist 
Al your favorite rappers in their feelings when they play this 
Listen up you better pay attention when I say this 
Life is not a joke, or a game that you can play 
If someone tells you how to “win” you better run the other way
Cause no one in this life knows what happens when we die
If there’s heaven or there’s hell when you cross the great divide
Maybe nothings real and humans are pretend and we’ll live forever when the simulation ends 
Maybe there’s a god and if there is I guess Im screwed 
Or maybe there’s nothing and Armageddon’s overdue



It’s goes 3 2 1 then you die and it’s done
It might come at 60 it might come at 21but
I ain’t gonna worry bout that no more
I ain’t gonna worry bout that
It’s goes 1 2 3 then you’re gone and you’re free 
They’ll forget about you, they’ll forget about me but 
I ain’t gonna worry bout that no more 
I ain’t gonna worry bout that no more



Yeah I’ve been missing my appointments 
When it comes to me it seems that everyone’s annoyed or disappointed 
Steady staying mad that I refuse to be exploited 
I guess I understand it’s best for you if I’m avoided 
The life that I have is not the one I want to live 
I’ve got daily dreams of dying I got too much left to give 
In the end I hope this shit is worth it 
You know I’ll stay down I hope you never feel deserted 
I’ll never be perfect but I’m sick of feeling worthless 
I’m learning how to love again to find a little purpose 
And I mean it you got something special in you I can see it 
Tell me something matters and just maybe I’ll believe it 
Say there’s more to life than the grave that I belong in 
That maybe one day I’ll meet someone to get along with 
I think I’m burning out I don’t know what else to call it 
But I’ll never quit trying that’s the only thing I’ll promise

Worry

Remix made by @novafled
Art by @nuumastar
Lyrics:

I don’t wanna worry bout the past baby girl
I been going thru this pressure I’m a diamond your a pearl
Imma treat you right and shawty you deserve the world
When I give it to her shawty scream, toes curled

And baby on my mind now
I been way to busy swear that I been on my grind now
Shawty wanna link she hit my phone she hit my line now
What we got is real but what’s that mean We redefine how, define how

Love is war
And I remain unsure
You leave me wanting more
When your gone drinks I pour
Love is war
My heart will not restore
If you leave me ignored
I’m laid out on the floor

I don’t wanna talk, wanna talk
Go the other way I walk, away I walk
When I staring at the clock time passing my mental block
When it’s deep you have to mock I close my door wait for the knock

I don’t wanna worry bout the past baby girl
I been going thru this pressure I’m a diamond your a pearl
Imma treat you right and shawty you deserve the world
When I give it to her shawty scream, toes curled

She told me love is war, that’s why my life remain a battle field
Every time she break my heart she make it up like that I’m healed
She break me down then build me up I don’t know where to place my shield
Or Maybe she’s a demon write my letters you can’t break what’s sealed

Love is war
And I remain unsure
You leave me wanting more
When your gone drinks I pour
Love is war
My heart will not restore
If you leave me ignored
I’m laid out on the floor

I don’t wanna talk, wanna talk
Go the other way I walk, away I walk
When I staring at the clock time passing my mental block
When it’s deep you have to mock I close my door wait for the knock

I don’t wanna worry bout the past baby girl
I been going thru this pressure I’m a diamond your a pearl
Imma treat you right and shawty you deserve the world
When I give it to her shawty scream, toes curled

I don’t wanna worry bout the past baby girl
I been going thru this pressure I’m a diamond your a pearl
Imma treat you right and shawty you deserve the world
When I give it to her shawty scream, toes curled

Love Is War (fleemix)

#dark #rap #phonk #texas #memphis  #three6

HITMAN (feat. HOAX)

Visons Of A Decayed Past (prod. LIL SWEDDEN)

Shoutout @lilswedden

VISIONS OF A DECAYED PAST (prod. Lil Swedden)

deleted album "KIFHY" by @unknxwn7 (detmer, garrett)

eeyorish. (prod. erlax)

Departures

Coasting (feat. Fletcher  James)

Coasting feat. Fletcher, James

Thank you for listening 

Lyrics

i never told you how i feel when nobody be looking down 
i know the scene is fake af they be happy to see you drown
never sleeping now im walking with the zombies like im rick
looking back at where i come from and this sht is making sick
got a story to tell
its been a hell of a ride 
all this pain i have to fight it put the worst on my mind 
i think at som point i just lost it and still i dont know when 
this the type of shit to make you wish to never feel a thing again 
black flags on my castle where you go?
i see the sun but my feelings lay in the snow
bitches call you crazy when you start to tell the truth
my only way to speak is in the booth
cold air   
i cant think straight 
i used to sip away my brain cells
life is a gift but i cant stand the way these people think
wheres the lifeline i dont wanna sink
saw my reflection in the rain
start to understand that sht will never be the same 
these people treat this life like its a game i hate to play 
gotta do my best because i dont wanna feel this way                       
dont wanna be so negative i wanna feel okay 
these rappers talk a lot i really live what i say 
had to kill the kid inside me it was time to be a man
and i just hope that i never have to feel this way again
now i go through all the drama but the trauma leaving scars all on my mind
im so fucked up from this bullsht how to leave it all behind?
xoxo these bitches looking now but i dont give a fck
the world is burning sending love to everybody in the mudd
woke up
in a place i used to hate
looking at the world and it leaving me so afraid
you say everybody has a chance  not a differnce
come into my world and you see that shit different
and i tried to talk to god i dont wanna be a sinner
feel like nothing making sence
in this world youre not a winner

Never the same (prod. Septfree)

scrambled scribbles

hands around my neck

TOXIC MASCULINITY

G & Crybaby:
Come and visit at the stone garden 3x
Where I'll lay my fucking head when I'm dead like the rest of them
(Aye, Yeah, Yeah)

G:
Every single morning I wake up
Wishing I was dead
Come and take my fucking breath
Take a look up in the mirror
Hate the man that I became
Hate the fucking life I live
The reaper live beneath my skin
Yung Viciou$ be creepin' straight outta the dungeon
Wit da noose round my neck
Girlfriend keep on tryna loosen it
The more that she keep fighting be the tighter that it gets on me
Why can't you just let me be
Slit my wrist and let me bleed
All this stress been killing me
All this stress is...
Fuck all these people who barking about me
They talkin' that talk
But not walkin' that walk
Yeah they walkin' away from me
Hope that you'll pray for me
Homies my brodies my wodies
The fuck is they at?
Not hittin' me back
So many people be turning they back
So many people put knives in my back
Then they wonder why my heart is black

[Hook]

[BlvckChvrch]

[Hook]

Stone Garden (Feat. Crybaby & BlvckChvrch)

IT'D BE SMART NOT TO FUCK W WHATS MINE
YOU CAN TRY BUT I MIGHT LOSE MY MIND

Prod. @santiagopurp
Cover art by @quenton_art

DISASTER feat GIZMO

CLOUDED NORTH ☁️
UK Cloud/Emo Rap Artist & Producer

Coasting feat. Fletcher, James

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