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Perfect Fantasy V11 - Slightly Lowered Kick (~ - 0.3db)

PERFECT FANTASY

Lyrics:

I got this feeling deep inside
I feel it scratching away
My sanity wearing thin
I don’t know what to do
I’m trying so hard to breathe
But the pain inside keeps growing 
Can I make it right
(No)
Can I make it through here
Trapped inside this hole
No where to go now
Cannot Break these chains
Alone now

I just needed you here
I just needed you here
needed you here
I just needed you here
I just needed you here

I lay my head down on the concrete
Thinking bout my broken dreams
No matter what I try
I fall to my knees and ask why

Why am I here just to suffer
Cannot sleep, no way to fight
Why do I cry through the night
This life is torture to me
I lay down here with the voices
No way to get out
The screaming never ends
Please get me out of here

I have broken dreams
I have broken dreams
I have broken dreams
When I lay my head down
All I see is you fading away
I have broken dreams
Bite my tongue
I’d rather drown in my own blood
I have broken dreams
Tears will fall 
But I don’t wanna be here anymore

I lay my head down on the concrete
Thinking bout my broken dreams
No matter what I try
I fall to my knees and ask why
I just needed you here
needed you here
I just needed you here
I just needed you here

Broken Dreams [Prxd. Baphomet]

OFFICIAL LYRICS VIDEO:
https://youtu.be/VC-_-oyLXZw

ABOUT:
I wrote this track after hitting 1M streams on Drowning, about my journey to reaching this point in music and how, despite the challenges, rejection and criticism that come with it, there's a reason I'm still here. HERE TO STAY.

Making music has helped me so much in so many personal ways and over the last year, I've been so lucky to hear from listeners that it's helped them too, when they've been in a rough place. That's all I've ever dreamt of and the biggest goal I've ever had with making music - to be able to reach like-minded people and make even the slightest of difference, like how music helped me in my lowest moments.

So, to all those who have connected with my music and who have found comfort in it - this track is for you. 🤍

HERE TO STAY

LYRICS:

Put a collar on my neck for me to explode
You don't trust a single thing I say so I hold
Hands over ears just to block out the noise
My world is fucking painted red, triple vision watch the time go

Feel my fucking bones start to stretch out my skin
A fucking loner he can't communicate from within
So he's awkward and shy, doesn't have any friends
Until they fucking see him suffer feel so sorry for him and pretend

That  everything is alright, no you will be just fine
Fucking sick of hearing words of delusion it's like you’re in my mind
The world that I love floating straight up above
I'm watching hells jaw under as you give me a shove

And I fall, it didn't take long just to hit the bottom
Of the bottle on the side a cigarette to chase the lie
So nicotine a day keeps the hunger at bay
So I'll just starve myself alone in the anguish I'll fade

It's just head pain we feel 
that keeps us alive
yeah we ache to serve a god that doesn't give a flying fuck
watch the anguish of a lover it's like he wants us just to suffer so

So why do we care
about who we are
If I could find a way to finally just say that I'm coping
Watch the ones who say they're hoping but your hopes just left me choking

Yeah, Yeah

Watch the world around me swallow me whole
The sky cracks open blood tears flood the empty hall
Screams of a lover as she’s sucked in the void
Panic attacks take over when I'm stuck with a choice

Do I stay here or swim
I guess I'll never know 
Life’s a fucking joke when wake up and you just suffer
Getting jealous of another whose normal, so wounds we cover 

So the world doesn't see confusion comes from a lover
Who knows your not fine you're breaking, you struggle to get up
And you just smother out any tiny bit of her doubt
She hasn't got the strength to help so you just wait all this out

Until you make friends with the person down in your chest
They try to make you feel so better but they know you cave to stress
So a little bit of hate comes again with the waves
You starve your own body out just to block out the pain

It's just head pain we feel 
that keeps us alive
yeah we ache to serve a god that doesn't give a flying fuck
watch the anguish of a lover it's like he wants us just to suffer so

So why do we care
about who we are
If I could find a way to finally just say that I'm coping
Watch the ones who say they're hoping but your hopes just left me choking

It's Inside

STUPID - V13 - Slightly Compressed, Buffed, And Aligned Vocal Interlude

STUPID

https://soundcloud.com/xorochii
prod soprettyanxiety

Knock Knock

[Music Video ↓]

$LOTHBOI x Xorochi - Knock Knock

https://soundcloud.com/nicolassales

lyrics

Changed this world
With a laptop
Evolving till the life stop
Creating till the sun don’t shine

Soul bound
Save you from a come down
Pull you by the rope now
Ascend up to the warm bright lights

Changed this world
With a laptop
Evolving till the life stop
Creating till the sun don’t shine

Soul bound
Save you from a come down
Pull you by the rope now
Ascend up to the warm bright lights

Kindness
In me
Thriving
Dizzy
Gasoline
In my lungs hitting

Evolving
With me
Homies
Lifting
Ascending high
We’re flying really

I don’t care
Where I fit right
But I can’t care
To decide
I feel I ain’t designed
To live a life that defined

I don't care
Let them glare
I live my life like a dare

Empty stares
Everywhere
They sold control of their life

Who am I
Who am I
Without someone by my side
Who am I
Who am I
Am I not what I decide
What happened
To that person
That I used to be
Did he die
Who am I becoming
Who am I asking this to

Oohhh
Is it a disguise
Is it all a lie

Am I really here
There’s no way to know
Thrown in this world
With nowhere to go
This bird has flown
You’re all alone
Only yourself to call a home

I clear my head
I clear my thoughts
Remove myself from it all
Somehow i am and I am not
Somehow I am and I am not

I see
I taste
I breathe
I hear
I walk
I run
I laugh, I
I search
I find
I wonder why
I wonder why
I wonder why

I Wonder Why

⸸ MUSIC VIDEO ⸸

$LOTHBOI x Nicolas Sales - I Wonder Why

GETAWAY

Produced By. MoreCalcium
Artwork By. Sick Again
Engineered By. Baby Gos

Like to feel bad cause at least that’s something
I been doing good baby I ain’t been cutting
How the fuck you been?
We ain’t talked in months and
I just been missing you loving and laughing

Tell me how you’re feeling, I think you’re feeling the same way
told her i’m the villain but i’m finna make that all change
lately i feel withered ion wanna go the same pace
so how are you feeling cuz i gotta feel the same way

Pick apart my brain
let me know if i’m insane
I can’t read between the lines
If I die, then I die
Kill me, make me fly
Oh my god I wonder why
I can’t read between the lines
If I die, then I die

Feel afixiated i can’t see straight
lost in medication feeling irate
take so many pills just to feel faith
thinking of my death, man it feels great

I lost sleep last night cause I can’t face the nightmares in my brain
As i lose my sanity I hope that you can find peace in my pain

Pick apart my brain
let me know if i’m insane
I can’t read between the lines
If I die, then I die
Kill me, make me fly
Oh my god I wonder why
I can’t read between the lines
If I die, then I die

Music Video

WITHERED

stream - https://open.spotify.com/track/6O1BTZIt0jg665iqGOujRH?si=Bn-YCsfMR3uVKDM0Kev0dg&context=spotify%3Aalbum%3A3iHs67T6T0WOjTzYDaf4TG

prod. @xvnndro

art. @xcyting59

LYRICS:

watch who you are bout to fall flat
living like a king, take aim, no feed back
life is but a game made to win, so defend
taking kneecaps stuck in a trance yeah
i feel myself descend
i met a man the other day 
said to repent my sins
and with the click of my extendo 
said i’ll let him in
with no gods, no religion 
never settling 
for a future that is unforgiving 

stand and we’ll conquer
silent opposition feel the inner riptide
go broke or falter
cannot hide, run or die
for your life, recognise 
who is your ruler
that spite in your mind
keep your fucking limbs tied
become the slayer 
push and reply, feeling the high 
regicide, crucify, oh 

no more cover 
rise up and fight
resist another
day til we die

eugh
no more cover 
rise up and fight
resist another
day til we die

stand and we’ll conquer
silent opposition feel the inner riptide
go broke or falter
cannot hide, run or die
for your life, recognise 
who is your ruler
that spite in your mind
keep your fucking limbs tied
become the slayer 
push and reply, feeling the high 
regicide, crucify, oh

HERE TO STAY

NTHN

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