Something else I wanted to share after way too long of a time period

2022 shaped a lot and gave me a lot to reflect on

wishing everyone the best -


spend the day too long
I left it at the gateway home

draw the words too soon,
those people there are just like you 




spend the summer wrong
laying in bed and singing songs

I kept some faith intact

my lips are swollen,
Blue and black

from this

Gateway Home demo

rest in peace 2003-2022 <3

i remember shaking on the couch
screaming till my lungs wore out
i had to be held down
everything quiet was so loud 

every so often i see someone 
who looks just how you used to
maybe a year or so older
like how you were supposed to 
 
you were once a kid
lost in the department store 
wonder what all this is for
im two years older than you were

probably from "songs for sleeping"

survived by

8 of 9
~
the pasture's only down the block
it was so many miles away
used to be stuck at the fencepost
we couldn't get our hands away
I think that I saw something else
I couldn't get my eyes off it
but I think it's over for us now
cause soon I will be nothing more

it's only a walk from sudbury
as long as I can stay under the trees
as soon as you ran from somebody
you stopped running away from me
it's only a walk from sudbury
as long as I can stay under the trees
as soon as you ran from somebody
you stopped running away from me

I lost something, and I'm never finding it
am I supposed to move on? out of the woods that were beside me
and I don't think I could see you under the clouds that started moving
and the grass got all brown, I know that you'd just think it's stupid
and I don't think I could feel you, watching snow turn into water
all that I could do was watch, or maybe look for what I lost
but I know that was always useless, or maybe it was punishment
cause I never even heard you, until I fell into the lawn

I thought you were real for my entire life
but the things that I love are the ones I can't spite
cause they're gone before I know that I just can't live without them
is it too late to ask if I loved you at all?
ever since I was there I can't see anything
and you ask where I am, but all I hear is the scream
or the piece of my life that's stuck between my teeth
after 16 whole years, I finally can't breathe

sudbury (the pasture song)

i watch you wander the country with a fist full of stars
building your towers of honey and breaking them apart
and darling you won't regret it if you give me a piece of your heart
cause i know you won't admit it but you're painting me over your scars

sitting in the light as it dawns, you're blossoming all the flowers
lay and watch the night as it falls, i lost count of all the hours
oh the world is a tape player, write me a song
and i'll sing it to you

we watch the planes disappear and the planets embark
making a wish on a chemtrail, on saturn or mars
and darling they're crossed again, but i'm the man who made everything hard
our magnetic confluence is nothing more than a wish on a star

i could be a spark in your eyes, the space where i fly is endless
there i'm just an old satellite, searching for my repentance
oh i've been flying forever and ain't found no god
but he's speaking through you

don't look down

thank you for listening, as always

dedicated to sol, my great grandmother and martin

I’ve been thinking about the autochrome
Kids huddled on the stair by the second story window
Watching people float
Peering through the banister in my great grandmother’s

(Home)
(Home)
(Home)
(Home)

I’ve lost all self control
What compels someone to fuse their naive tongue with a metal pole
So I pray that I will moult
And this flawless flesh will free itself from skin and from

(Bone)
(Bone)
(Bone)
(Bone)

Autochrome

made in 8 hours on a sunday after a very bad week.
this project is in 7/4 (mb gang)

-lyrics-
**n33t and hidden contact talking**
**me recording myself in my room**

went far to see the sun rise
i saw her climb into the sky
if things go wrong its alright
i know it gets better with time

do you know what its like
to be cast aside (i know)
wanted to say so much more
im out to give the warmth

what can i do if its me
if things go wrong its alright
i know it gets better with time

what if its me

i wish i’d get a letter
but does it really work like that?
why do i want it so bad?

i wish i could sing better
but it doesn’t work out like that
why do i want it so bad?

i was dreaming i was spending
new years with you on the couch
watching tv and holding hands with
fireworks firing out

and if i’m with you, i’d be near too much
can’t believe i was confused for months
now i’m so easy to take over,
we would both agree

dress for winter boy
see you in red and olive green

i wish i’d get a letter
does it really work like that?
why do i want it so bad?

i wish i could sing better
but it doesn’t work out like that
why do i want it so bad?

just some form of confession
of any form

get a letter

[NOTE] Due to SoundCloud copyright issues the audio file has been pitched up 50 cents

https://evangeline.info

Produced, written and performed by Evangeline
lyrics: https://genius.com/Evangeline-au-end-of-life-lyrics

End-of-life

lyrics (mostly) written by @jacobtravels
put to song by me

i die, at night, in the dark
surrounded by my own self pity
i’ve died, a few times, before this
surrounded by the shields i’ve built

alone

comfort is commodity
i miss when you would lie to me
i’m not as hopeful as i ought to be
i know

collapsing as a sign
it’s a circle one of mine
i was built to spread some message
not one that I could live to

myself

all i want is something to give to you
all i want is something to give to you

jacob song

I’ve been imitating mildness
To preserve some sense of doubt

You are imitating kindness
Insincere but you’re devout

I’m tired of your platitudes
You do the same that’s done to you

I’m sorry for the altitude
You were never meant to get this high

Demand eternal quietude 
Restless is your field of view

Don’t think you’ll ever understand
I store dreams beneath my twitching eyes

Just forget it

R E M

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