vexatious

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vexatious w/ thatcherblackwood

prod and written by me

using stems from @bigtechpharma

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link in description, i
live in a fairy tale,
find an archetype, i will do it right
to the world i left behind
i'll be jester right, i'll be just alright

live in a fairy tale,
still i snap back just to pay respect back
to the world i left behind
i'll be just alright, i want your surrender

this could be the last you hear from me,
till i fail, till i fail, till I fail
i'll be okay
can you count on that?
as i'm trying to breathe in the cold
i'll be okay
can you count that?

i was falling back on the match
i was falling back undetached

wallow in your room, seeking someone
i know you so
so well, well

live in a fairy tale,
find an archetype, i will do it right
to the world i left behind
i'll be jester right, i'll be just alright

live in a fairy tale,
still i step back just to pay respect back
to the world i left behind
i'll be just alright, i want your surrender

jesterr

this song means a lot to me thank you for listening
ill get better at music i promise
꧁ ꧂

i couldn't find myself
and life is around the corner
i could probably melt
and now that i am older

i see all my friends hated me
lived a lie just for my fantasy
oblivious in all these situations
but i think i can fix them
i think i can fix them

clovers on my face
im flying so i can't even feel them
you’re my everything
but flowers only bloom every season
i cant feel my breathin
feels like my life does have some meaning
my heart feels empty
but i cant fight with my reason
fight with my reason
(x2)

is it all my fault
i just cant evolve
all these cracks in my vault and
i dont understand at all how

im breaking so easily
my mind is confused
my soul has died lethally
but that isnt news
my temples abused
the angels are teasing me
and they all accuse
that what im saying isnt true

clovers
clovers
its not over til i say its over
gotta pressure on
cant give it the shoulder
clovers
clovers
i gotta overcome this boulder
im not getting in the eye of the holder
this worlds getting colder
but im still wrapped in my clovers
wrapped in my clovers

i thought they were my friends
but they told me to my own face that they werent
i thought that I could trust her
but she threw it all away in the dirt
feeling all these emotions
the anguish
the pain
the atonement
all of my fear
and my hatred
are bolded
my body its coded
but i cant let it control me

false promises were made about me
and my hands were scarred from the thorns
placed around me from all my fears
i can see through my eyes
but my eyelids still act as a blockade around my sea of tears
is this the first act or the finale
for my new life to have past all these years
as my old reality is crushed
i try to look to the future as my mind begins to clear

clovers

https://ffm.to/bleith 

cover art by noah greene https://temberl.in/

i'll be the first

pronounced "bləith, or blayeth"
_________________________________
guess it's been a long time
i don't even know
nothing left but splintered bones
and broken hope
walking down the road
we grew up on
choking on the roses 
but they're grown and gone

inhaling erosion i'm sinking i'm floating that
solemn corrosion i'll swallow the hope and i'll 
hold onto something and someone will hear the 
implosion aeolian sediments blowing away

maybe i won't miss those white halls and those silos
and your wide eyes

(do you remember me?)

all the pain went when you kissed me
but it was back when i woke up
winters always warmer when you're with me
caught a cross to call my own
in the inverted lattice beneath
i was just trying to calm you down
'cause this summer i'll be sixteen 
and i still wonder how
covered in clovers and i’m six feet
under now five leaves aren't enough
this september i’ll be leaving
throw the photos on the ground i should have known
i should have known

slipping through the cracks i'm calling it back on you
shadows shifting elisions i'm still in your arms
cosmic collisions it's crumbling falling through
scaffold splitting derisions i'm sealing the hearth

inhaling erosion i'm sinking i'm floating that
solemn corrosion i'll swallow the hope and i'll 
hold onto something and someone will hear the 
implosion aeolian sediments blowing away

one to many times i let myself slide
resin in the hide and it's hopeless
summit through the sides i thought of better ties
brethren tiled the pine on a pulpit
covered in the sines i coveted the lies
nolled up on a lyre a forfeit
lauded once or twice a strath that lead the line
straffed it to your silage and sold it

if you'd just lie awake 
i won't shear no shame

save me 
break me
save me
chain me

all the pain went when you kissed me
but it was back when i woke up
winters always warmer when you're with me
caught a cross to call my own
in the inverted lattice beneath
i was just trying to calm you down
'cause this summer i'll be sixteen 
throw the photos on the ground i should have known
i should have known

guess it's been a long time
i don't even know
nothing left but splintered bones
and broken hope
walking down the road
we grew up on
choking on the roses 
but they're grown and gone

bleith

Watch the music video at youtu.be/2REABpIQ0wI
https://evangeline.info
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Performed by Evangeline and Self Discovery
Produced by Evangeline and Self Discovery
Written by Evangeline, Self Discovery and vai

contains sample from soundcloud.com/vai22/theaters

2/█

Cinemas (ft. Self Discovery)

you'll watch the fever sting

and sap me of my vigor

I'll knot a scarlet string

to wrap around your finger 

but what if my prayers

are all misshapen and

mispelled

Prayers

rest in peace 2003-2022 <3

i remember shaking on the couch
screaming till my lungs wore out
i had to be held down
everything quiet was so loud 

every so often i see someone 
who looks just how you used to
maybe a year or so older
like how you were supposed to 
 
you were once a kid
lost in the department store 
wonder what all this is for
im two years older than you were

probably from "songs for sleeping"

survived by

Census Designated but it's just my voice

https://www.pcrf.net/

https://bdsmovement.net/

Stagnant on morbid curiosity

To crystallize the feeling

Aglow, we flash to grey

And watch the soul deviate
 
Lately you’ve been staring at the corpse

Like there’s nothing left to see

Transfixed by the writing on the wall

Apathy is the disease

If you leave it alone, then somebody gets hurt

If you topple a tree, well the crash will get heard

The system's kinetic, the signal dispersed

I tried to hold the whole weight of the world

survived by

charlie zacks

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