music video !!!
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=dEZDPNuAPWU

SORRY I ACCIDENTALLY DELETED MY OLD SOUNDCLOUD ACCOUNT LOL

backup vocals by pixley marquardt
vocaloid by @false-noise
art by  @jaunejon
https://www.instagram.com/jaunejon/

23&ME

Music Video: https://youtu.be/SZW7eoFDP6k

ITS TRUCK MONTH BABY !!!!

thanks to @jessephamel for the cover art and the MUSIC VIDEO!
thanks to @wishlane for backup vocals on the last chorus !
thanks to all of YOU for your love and support !

lyrics:
i'm scared to leave my room now
i'm scared to leave my house
my mom says it's unhealthy
that i never get out
i'm scared of the helicopters
scared of the cops
i'm scared of the chem-trails
keep my door locked

keep in the filtered air
recycle everything
everywhere now
see me through my webcam
you know they can
you know they can
you know you know

don't want my life to pass me by
god damnit maybe it's really my star sign
you said i'm prone to hiding
i said it's just anxiety
"why would you be afraid of what you don't know?
take the risk take the shot
and see wherever it goes"
i wish it was that simple
but i can't shake this syndrome

i'm tired of baggy eyes
of being an adult
white guys on youtube always tell me it's my fault
i need to try to meditate
get off of these meds
if there's no [redacted] left
then fuck it it's the end



keep in the filtered air
recycle everything
everywhere now
see me through my webcam
you know they can
you know they can
you know you know

don't want my life to pass me by
god damnit maybe it's really my star sign
you said i'm prone to hiding
i said it's just anxiety
"why would you be afraid of what you don't know?
take the risk take the shot
and see wherever it goes"
i wish it was that simple
but i can't shake this syndrome

PG-13

(i miss drugs)

how often do i go to sleep
feeling this longing
i haven't felt good since
the doctor gave me morphine
will i see you in my sleep
or will i see you in heaven
maddie says she sees you here
i can't help but think she's lying

every time i see you
i picture you dead
swinging in circles
hanging from your head

my first memories
are of anxiety
i spent years of my life
living on a movie screen
i ruin everything good
just like you said i would
i ruin everything good
just like you said i would
just like i said i would

morphine

wake up 
everything is different
these aren’t your people
but they look the same
these aren’t your people
but they look the same

driving someone else’s car
wasted in the hotel bar
these aren’t your things
it’s not the same
these aren’t your things
it’s not the same

meet the same 
person
just another version
today
looking out your window
but you can only see 
your face

if i die, u know why (demo)

thank god for girls !

music video created by jackie's fable
https://youtu.be/TeBMu0_g62g

guitar solo by lucas andrade

Lyrics:
thank god for girls who wear big sunglasses
thank god for guys who wear jean shorts
thank god for airports
and swimming lessons
i think i'll need a new sport to play
basketball was nice, you see
but i don't think that it's for me
tony's chevy with black leather
never enough seats
for me

i'll walk to the stadium
if it means you'll get a seat
mama said i'm a good ole boy
but that don't mean much to me
i try my best not to upset the delicate
balance that you keep
so i'll walk 100 miles backwards,
so you can take a seat
just take a seat

thanks mom for dinner 
thanks dad for tuition 
thanks jack for teaching me 
how to write lyrics 
thanks leonard cohen and william shatner 
thanks khloe kardashian 
and her sister who slapped her 
basketball was nice, you see but 
i dont think that its for me 
tony’s ready when you’re ready 
at least that is what he told me

i'll walk to the stadium
if it means you'll get a seat
mama said i'm a good ole boy
but that don't mean much to me
i try my best not to upset the delicate
balance that you keep
so i'll walk 100 miles backwards,
so you can take a seat
just take a seat

BOOOM

thank god for girls

truck month baby

lyrics:

red flag
take that
fled before i put the money in the bag
i said that
text back
you don’t know what i think
so just ask

it’s been a
long week i’ve been
thinking bout you all the time
send a text
stayed up late to see if you replied
up early
i could almost see the sunrise
barely slept
feel like shit i need some peace of mind
another text 
i don’t want you to fear me
fuck it 
i dont even think you know 
that you hear me
gave me the attention that i needed
now i’m reeling 
shit
i think i fucking scared you
now i’m crying
this is it
i need you
no i need
something new
maybe just some attention
from a boy like-
well
i know it’s not healthy
but i don’t really think
that means you should ghost me

i’ve been working on my
attitude
towards guys like you
it was getting better
before i met you
it’s getting late
i guess i should go
oh it’s so cold
oh it’s so cold

red flag
take that
fled before i put the money in the bag
i said that
text back
you don’t know what i think
so just ask

it’s been a
long week i been thinking bout you all the time
send a text da dadasa fuck it

it’s a red flag
that you’re a dirt bag
haven’t changed since you were sixteen
what does it mean that
you didn’t mean that?
i really thought we had some chemistry
take your words back
can’t take the hurt back
does it really take much energy?
you said you like girls
i didn’t like that
what’s with this cryptic messaging?

this is it
i need you
no i need
something new
maybe just some attention
from a boy like-
well
i know it’s not healthy
but i don’t really think
that means you should ghost me

i’ve been working on my
attitude
towards guys like you
it was getting better
before i met you
it’s getting late
i guess i should go
oh it’s so cold
oh it’s so cold

how can it start after it’s over?
i wish i never knew you when you’re sober
blowing smoke in my face i’m not a smoker
say you don’t want me
i need closure

i know that you’re not looking
for anyone else to call your own
i’m sure that had we spoken
we could’ve worked out something

why does it always feel like you’re looking right past me?

guys like you

its not hard to be alone
i watch your spine slope
jumping out the window
take care
you know i wont
morphine tastes like sunscreen
i got a mouthful
termites follow ballpoint pens 
hand the plate to the waiter and touch his hand
what doesn’t kill me makes me small
ive been so quiet since i turned 18

carpal tunnel

meet me at fernbank park
after dark 
you told me
frogs can hear
whatever we say
i told you dont care
whatever you say

ill take my clothes off first
but my shirt
has a cool print 
that i want you to see
your eyes looking back at my back and back to me

look how the sky opens up
up above the
old planetarium where we would meet
you told me about stars, the world, and the trees

i dont think this is a dream
if this was a dream 
we’d be younger
i’d be kicking rocks
you’d draw me from the floating dock

meet me at fernbank park
draw me after dark
draw me after 

a quiet house
all alone
at my home
i wonder
what antics can i get up to
a one-eyed me and meal for two

i’ve got no appetite
but that’s alright because
mom said that i gotta eat
if i get any thinner, she’ll call me a shrink

ive always felt more connected to movie characters
than the people around me
i know its a curse
ive always felt more connected to moving pictures
than the people around me
the places i dont care

fernbank park

probably from a project called "songs for sleeping"

lyrix:

i brought you the bird
you asked me for
you asked me for
you asked me for

i didnt know
you wanted it alive
i didnt know
you wanted it alive

its a chemi
its a chemi
its a chemical
its a chemi
its a chemi
its a chemical

i somehow know
ill never see you
ill never see you
ill never see you
i somehow know
ill never see you
ill never see you
ill never see you

i dont know why
i told myself
that its going to be ok
i know its not going to be okay
i dont know why
i told myself
that its going to be ok
i know its not going to be okay

dead bird demo

rest in peace 2003-2022 <3

i remember shaking on the couch
screaming till my lungs wore out
i had to be held down
everything quiet was so loud 

every so often i see someone 
who looks just how you used to
maybe a year or so older
like how you were supposed to 
 
you were once a kid
lost in the department store 
wonder what all this is for
im two years older than you were

probably from "songs for sleeping"

survived by

bitter breakfast by sheltyr

❤️ preston and aly forever

celebrating the anniversary of this beautiful song

bitter breakfast (08/03/2023)

from this time last year.

lyrics:

brush your teeth
make your bed
put on clothes take them off
stay in school
don’t do drugs
put on clothes to take them off
make your school
put it off
let it win
making out
stay in school to take them off

from "songs for sleeping"

charlie zacks

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