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this song is about wanting normal things like normal people

Performed by
Evangeline, mt saint michael

Written by
E. Butcher

Produced by
Evangeline, mt saint michael, Callum Sheehan

https://evange-line.bandcamp.com/track/tailspin-ft-callum-sheehan-mt-saint-michael

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I got the best seat in the house
and you've been dying to try it on
So when weeks turn into months and the blood dries up
I'm watching TV and you're up and gone

I want a house with a picket fence
so I can yell at the neighbor's kids
So when months turn into years and the scars disappear
I'll box all my thoughts up and shut the lid

And I hope your car tailspins on its way home
I'm chasing the high of skipping your funeral
So when old cuts open up and the tears start to fall
I'll put a band-aid on it but still fall comatose

Tailspin (ft. mt saint michael & Callum Sheehan)

@oakscreen, prod in 24h for anv7
piano from @ninthparallel,  guitar from julie k + @jaronsteele

loving love, with oakscreen

co-prod by @charliemakesmusic
thank you for being here :)


baby i can't fall asleep i think too much about the end
and i think im running out of time ill fall into your skin
fall into your skin
wait for this to end

romanticizing life
you must have lost your mind
all i do is sit inside
i waste my time

but its all my fault
didn't get a job cause ur too comfortable
cutting off some friends its nothin personal
they're just going through some shit you never felt at all
party in the city i forgot my flaws

my visions blurry tonight but im still looking at you
we got too high (high) off our shit and we got slightly amused
i dont feel so sad
baby you don't mean that
i take a look where im at
feelings i gotta combat
and i fall back to you
i fall back to you

something has to change

this song is not finished

observer is comprised of taur and Little Faith and dylazy and Oncill and hidden contact and clovehitch and charlie zacks and aso and mossgarden and evangeline and fyoum and jacob travels and an_isopod and close-knit and friends


produced by evangeline, clovehitch, close-knit, charlie zacks, jacob travels, hidden contact, taur
mixed by close-knit, dylazy, and clovehitch

TRAVELS:
I don't mind your way
 
DYLAZY:
Feel the rush as I fall and I decay
Ego death I'll go and learn to stay
 
FYOUM:
Yeah, what you up to dude
I could have swear I saw you
But you don't want to talk
Nevertheless I'm cool with you
Not hanging around now that you are so far away
Nobody else nowhere to go and I'm way too close
And I don't know why all these people change and these people fake
And these people claim what was

Once mine and I'm not even joking
My free time ain't for free when you smoking
Goodbye don't forget that I don't care
About you cause your smile makes me broken
 
CHARLIE ZACKS:
I looked into your eyes
And I knew that you would wreck my night, wreck my night
I saw ten thousands reasons
To trust my gut to trust my fight or flight, fight or flight

But you told me that you liked my smile
So I fell in love with your last name
Every look you gave me
It meant so much more to me than you think
 
TRAVELS:
When I'm alone the self is a mirror
Water crystal but I need it clearer

When I get home we can figure it out
When I get home we can figure it out
When I get home we can figure it out
When I get home we can figure it out
 
GALA:
I don't mind your way now
You wouldn't fall and stay down
Felt the rush decay out
Spilled my guts and I left them out 
To clear your doubts and I'm shouting
 
GANG VOCALS:
I DON'T MIND YOUR WAY
I DON'T MIND YOUR WAY
I DON'T MIND YOUR WAY
I DON'T MIND YOUR WAY
I DON'T MIND YOUR WAY
I DON'T MIND YOUR WAY
I DON'T MIND YOUR WAY
I DON'T MIND YOUR WAY

TAUR: 
I don't mind your way now, 
trust me now, 
through the rise and fall you are yours not the all I've escapen all control

observer - IDMYW

instrumental off of https://soundcloud.com/jaronsteele/wires222?in=jaronsteele/sets/ihtsc&si=63dce77fa0ff479da3a06e57b59ee3e0&utm_source=clipboard&utm_medium=text&utm_campaign=social_sharing desc
og artists @jaronsteele @oakscreen
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wake up every day theres something killing me
emptiness up in my core im too lonely
its just you and me
i think i can handle this
you just make me bleed
living inside manic bliss

i said go go go go
jumping till i face the floor floor floor floor
hit my head straight off the door door door door
vyvanse hitting through my nose nose nose nose


(best section of the song)
i dont think you're bad at all
i was goin a bit crazy off the adderal
fueled mania
i think that i lost it all
lowest lows n all i needed was a call

there was no one there
no one who just cared
no one helping me
all i got was nasty glares
yall just stop and stare
could you just stop looking
i needed all the help
but i all i got was my hope taken

i said go go go go
jumping till i face the floor floor floor floor
hit my head straight off the door door door door
vyvanse hitting through my nose nose nose nose
i said go go go go
jumping till i face the floor floor floor floor
hit my head straight off the door door door door
vyvanse hitting through my nose nose nose nose
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i didnt know what to do for art so i just used the og cover art for wires

jaron - wires222 (puppygirlsoulja vers.)

thank you to the awesome @patchymate for the cover art and help with arrangement and mixing! 

she'd go and take it, don’t reciprocate
end up feeling less sweet, opened wide
I’m dead in conversations, going to places i shouldn’t stay
real or on the line

feeling out of touch,
I can’t sense a numb feeling
state the obvious when I lose track of meaning
you keep on reading my mind when I don’t want you to
when I write about, write about, you
shit, go and take it, don’t reciprocate
even if it’s for the worse, I think I’ll be just fine

(patchymate)
don’t!
stop breaking your back for me
it isn’t worth the pain and the sense of a tragedy
it wasn’t no

don’t!
stop taking the edge out of everything i like
don’t!
keep me from friends ain’t like nothing that you had
don’t take it out on me, i’m your beauty queen
and i want everything you have
i want everything you have

still wanna show the do-si-do
show off the branches when the grow
and i want everything you have
i want everything you have
i wanna build an enterprise
co-divide and start to multiply and multiply and multiply and multiply

take it out of me to see the rest
lied about who lies with me in bed
fornicating on with someone else
and all my friends are getting used to it
all my friends are the best
believe me, to be the name i wasn’t then
it could have killed me in an instant
it could have got to my soul

and i love being all orderly
but it ain’t for me
i march to my own form
don’t you see?
i told you babe, it was an omen
and my friends are gonna love it when i cry

and you won’t
but you don’t have to believe me again

me/you feat. patchymate

its not hard to be alone
i watch your spine slope
jumping out the window
take care
you know i wont
morphine tastes like sunscreen
i got a mouthful
termites follow ballpoint pens 
hand the plate to the waiter and touch his hand
what doesn’t kill me makes me small
ive been so quiet since i turned 18

carpal tunnel

https://ffm.to/bhredblueandgreenlights

A light show of colors, the screen is my window to her sight

32723

w/ @saoirsedream

co-prod by @charliemakesmusic

lyrics
Wonder what you want from me
I thought I made it clear, don't say that it's my fault cause
You know what you meant to me
We're running out of time now
Can you feel the sunset?
Can you feel the-

I might just run it up
Did I run out of luck?
Am I about to fall backwards back to the last time, yea
That you helped me
Baby you helped me
Baby you helped me
Baby you-

I wanna write a song for you
I got stuck on the attack
Every word I say to you
You just repeat it back
It's not like I believe in you less
I'm not keeping score and I don't need you to guess
What I'm thinking all the time
Imma just keep it to myself
Never confide don't need no help
Never confide don't need no help
Baby kiss me thru the phone
JK's that's a stupid joke
Hope I laugh so hard I choke
Hope I laugh so hard I-

Wonder what you want from me
I thought I made it clear, don't say that it's my fault cause
You know what you meant to me
We're running out of time now
Can you feel the sunset?
Can you feel the-

I might just run it up
Did I run out of luck?
Am I about to fall backwards back to the last time, yea
That you helped me
Baby you helped me
Baby you helped me
Baby you-

Baby you help me
Baby you help me
Baby you help me
Baby you help me

And so I put my mind away
I'll figure it out anyway (Baby you help me)
Do you even know who I am?
Do you even care? Do you even care?

red blue and green lights (w/ saoirse dream)

this song means a lot to me thank you for listening
ill get better at music i promise
꧁ ꧂

i couldn't find myself
and life is around the corner
i could probably melt
and now that i am older

i see all my friends hated me
lived a lie just for my fantasy
oblivious in all these situations
but i think i can fix them
i think i can fix them

clovers on my face
im flying so i can't even feel them
you’re my everything
but flowers only bloom every season
i cant feel my breathin
feels like my life does have some meaning
my heart feels empty
but i cant fight with my reason
fight with my reason
(x2)

is it all my fault
i just cant evolve
all these cracks in my vault and
i dont understand at all how

im breaking so easily
my mind is confused
my soul has died lethally
but that isnt news
my temples abused
the angels are teasing me
and they all accuse
that what im saying isnt true

clovers
clovers
its not over til i say its over
gotta pressure on
cant give it the shoulder
clovers
clovers
i gotta overcome this boulder
im not getting in the eye of the holder
this worlds getting colder
but im still wrapped in my clovers
wrapped in my clovers

i thought they were my friends
but they told me to my own face that they werent
i thought that I could trust her
but she threw it all away in the dirt
feeling all these emotions
the anguish
the pain
the atonement
all of my fear
and my hatred
are bolded
my body its coded
but i cant let it control me

false promises were made about me
and my hands were scarred from the thorns
placed around me from all my fears
i can see through my eyes
but my eyelids still act as a blockade around my sea of tears
is this the first act or the finale
for my new life to have past all these years
as my old reality is crushed
i try to look to the future as my mind begins to clear

clovers

Violence is about a weird feeling I get of being so bored and stuck in routine that you sort of, want something to happen?
like you're sitting there begging for something crazy to happen, negative or positive
most of the time the perspective is negative, maybe forcing arguments or confrontations just for the sake of it?
it's a strange "call of the void" feeling I get from time to time and I thought it would be nice to talk about!

LYRICS

Dispense your disbelief
Guess I'm begging for violence
Hold my breath inbetween

I watched the leaves change in your home town
It's so far from me now

I'm so sick of haunting myself
from the 2nd story window

Guess I'm begging for violence
hold my breath inbetween
guess i'm begging for violence

Did you sleep all day again?
I don't remember being seventeen

well I don't remember being seventeen

(The swindle is insane, the swindle is insane!
wait, oh no no no no do not accept that!
let's go!)

I Don't Know How To Explain To You That You Should Care About Other People

Violence

This track is inspired by an article of the same name:
https://www.huffpost.com/entry/i-dont-know-how-to-explain-to-you-that-you-should_b_59519811e4b0f078efd98440

This kinda captures my philosophy at the moment with my life and I just really liked the notion.
It's also a little about parasocial relationships and how people try to give advice for things like mental health. I try to think of it like this: I can't tell you how to see a reason to keep going, why you should exist, how to find meaning, etc, but I hope, in time, things may emerge or you may notice things that can make those dull moments feel worthwhile.

Today somebody I worked with passed away, and while her last few years alive were not the best, i'm glad I may have been able to ease her suffering even if only a little.

LYRICS

I can't tell you how to see it
Something for the morning
And I can't show you
something

There's lungs in the pavement
There's dust in my arms
and you don't see me

and you don't see me at all

carpal tunnel

charlie zacks

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