like in my best homo-emo feelings listening to this before a date. 💓✨️🤘🥷🏾

>>>\\\LYRICS BELOW

goodbye, Trophy! (45-53)

the final trophy song

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made in 24 hours for @artbyform 's All Nighter Vol. 7

In this song, clearlew's vocal performance embodies my two-year debate of being transgender. It's Canal Pride in Amsterdam as we're making this, and I'm sitting home writing a song with my best friend about being beautiful in my own way. However, given as to how clearlew sings my story and he doesn't represent the lyrics personally, we decided to write a song that can also be interpreted as a love song, about a girl named >>>"lola" - the name I would have given myself, if I would have decided to become a woman.

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Lyrics

I've gotta think twice
Because lola she's so beautiful
And I
I know it's gotta come from inside (yeah)
Girl this is ineffable
Girl I'm so irrational

I've gotta think twice,
Because lola she's so beautiful
And I
I know it's gotta come from inside (yeah)
Girl this is ineffable
Girl I'm so irrational

White heels, white skirt
I know I've never met her
But I can tell you that I know her more than anyone (oh yeah)
I'm such a perfectionist
But I dont know what perfection is
I'll tell you who I am
But girl I don't know who I am

Do you know how to do it like her?
Materialism, I think I'm falling for it all over again

I can't open my eyes
to see your face because I 
Just can't take another lie
(Give it time)

You always hide behind your actions like you know what's right
I'll keep hiding behind my eyes, 'till the time is right
You always hide behind your actions like you know what's right
I'll keep hiding behind my eyes, 'till the time is right

White heels, white skirt
I know I've never met her
but I can tell you that I know her more than anyone (oh yeah)
I'm such a perfectionist
But I dont know what perfection is
I'll tell you who I am
But girl I don't know who I am

Do you know how to do it like her?
Materialism, I think I'm falling for it all over again

I can't open my eyes
To see your face because I
Just can't take another lie
(Give it time)

You always hide behind your actions like you know what's right
I'll keep hiding behind my eyes 'till the time is right

I've gotta think twice
I've gotta think twice
(Yeah!)

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goodbye, Trophy! (45-53)

clearlew + TROPHYTROPHY - lola (51)

@oakscreen, prod in 24h for anv7
piano from @ninthparallel,  guitar from julie k + @jaronsteele

loving love, with oakscreen

buy on bandcamp: https://otrapic.bandcamp.com/track/222-confide

stream on spotify: https://open.spotify.com/track/7AkiwfHiSxAxU7AtAsloII?si=C2m3F-DpR7-8wOTUVFeFXA&context=spotify%3Aalbum%3A0taEiwYEg4gWjOcNNzj02L

listen on apple music: https://music.apple.com/us/album/222-confide/1665450831?i=1665450832

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to confide in this feeling
her sapling: overgrown
to sing into the bleeding heavens

im waiting
or am i sinking?

got some mud in my blood, let it rot
got some crud in my brain, let it clot up
and will i miss this sound when it’s not around?
will i miss the sound?

222_confide

@sohmong

New to the genre in itself, sohmong's style of ambient is both reminiscent and filled with wonder

https://linktr.ee/verrymae

on spotify

sohmong - salvia

this song is not finished

observer is comprised of taur and Little Faith and dylazy and Oncill and hidden contact and clovehitch and charlie zacks and aso and mossgarden and evangeline and fyoum and jacob travels and an_isopod and close-knit and friends


produced by evangeline, clovehitch, close-knit, charlie zacks, jacob travels, hidden contact, taur
mixed by close-knit, dylazy, and clovehitch

TRAVELS:
I don't mind your way
 
DYLAZY:
Feel the rush as I fall and I decay
Ego death I'll go and learn to stay
 
FYOUM:
Yeah, what you up to dude
I could have swear I saw you
But you don't want to talk
Nevertheless I'm cool with you
Not hanging around now that you are so far away
Nobody else nowhere to go and I'm way too close
And I don't know why all these people change and these people fake
And these people claim what was

Once mine and I'm not even joking
My free time ain't for free when you smoking
Goodbye don't forget that I don't care
About you cause your smile makes me broken
 
CHARLIE ZACKS:
I looked into your eyes
And I knew that you would wreck my night, wreck my night
I saw ten thousands reasons
To trust my gut to trust my fight or flight, fight or flight

But you told me that you liked my smile
So I fell in love with your last name
Every look you gave me
It meant so much more to me than you think
 
TRAVELS:
When I'm alone the self is a mirror
Water crystal but I need it clearer

When I get home we can figure it out
When I get home we can figure it out
When I get home we can figure it out
When I get home we can figure it out
 
GALA:
I don't mind your way now
You wouldn't fall and stay down
Felt the rush decay out
Spilled my guts and I left them out 
To clear your doubts and I'm shouting
 
GANG VOCALS:
I DON'T MIND YOUR WAY
I DON'T MIND YOUR WAY
I DON'T MIND YOUR WAY
I DON'T MIND YOUR WAY
I DON'T MIND YOUR WAY
I DON'T MIND YOUR WAY
I DON'T MIND YOUR WAY
I DON'T MIND YOUR WAY

TAUR: 
I don't mind your way now, 
trust me now, 
through the rise and fall you are yours not the all I've escapen all control

observer - IDMYW

Objects in mirror are closer than they appear

Godrays 11-03-23

truck month baby

lyrics:

red flag
take that
fled before i put the money in the bag
i said that
text back
you don’t know what i think
so just ask

it’s been a
long week i’ve been
thinking bout you all the time
send a text
stayed up late to see if you replied
up early
i could almost see the sunrise
barely slept
feel like shit i need some peace of mind
another text 
i don’t want you to fear me
fuck it 
i dont even think you know 
that you hear me
gave me the attention that i needed
now i’m reeling 
shit
i think i fucking scared you
now i’m crying
this is it
i need you
no i need
something new
maybe just some attention
from a boy like-
well
i know it’s not healthy
but i don’t really think
that means you should ghost me

i’ve been working on my
attitude
towards guys like you
it was getting better
before i met you
it’s getting late
i guess i should go
oh it’s so cold
oh it’s so cold

red flag
take that
fled before i put the money in the bag
i said that
text back
you don’t know what i think
so just ask

it’s been a
long week i been thinking bout you all the time
send a text da dadasa fuck it

it’s a red flag
that you’re a dirt bag
haven’t changed since you were sixteen
what does it mean that
you didn’t mean that?
i really thought we had some chemistry
take your words back
can’t take the hurt back
does it really take much energy?
you said you like girls
i didn’t like that
what’s with this cryptic messaging?

this is it
i need you
no i need
something new
maybe just some attention
from a boy like-
well
i know it’s not healthy
but i don’t really think
that means you should ghost me

i’ve been working on my
attitude
towards guys like you
it was getting better
before i met you
it’s getting late
i guess i should go
oh it’s so cold
oh it’s so cold

how can it start after it’s over?
i wish i never knew you when you’re sober
blowing smoke in my face i’m not a smoker
say you don’t want me
i need closure

i know that you’re not looking
for anyone else to call your own
i’m sure that had we spoken
we could’ve worked out something

why does it always feel like you’re looking right past me?

guys like you

this song means a lot to me thank you for listening
ill get better at music i promise
꧁ ꧂

i couldn't find myself
and life is around the corner
i could probably melt
and now that i am older

i see all my friends hated me
lived a lie just for my fantasy
oblivious in all these situations
but i think i can fix them
i think i can fix them

clovers on my face
im flying so i can't even feel them
you’re my everything
but flowers only bloom every season
i cant feel my breathin
feels like my life does have some meaning
my heart feels empty
but i cant fight with my reason
fight with my reason
(x2)

is it all my fault
i just cant evolve
all these cracks in my vault and
i dont understand at all how

im breaking so easily
my mind is confused
my soul has died lethally
but that isnt news
my temples abused
the angels are teasing me
and they all accuse
that what im saying isnt true

clovers
clovers
its not over til i say its over
gotta pressure on
cant give it the shoulder
clovers
clovers
i gotta overcome this boulder
im not getting in the eye of the holder
this worlds getting colder
but im still wrapped in my clovers
wrapped in my clovers

i thought they were my friends
but they told me to my own face that they werent
i thought that I could trust her
but she threw it all away in the dirt
feeling all these emotions
the anguish
the pain
the atonement
all of my fear
and my hatred
are bolded
my body its coded
but i cant let it control me

false promises were made about me
and my hands were scarred from the thorns
placed around me from all my fears
i can see through my eyes
but my eyelids still act as a blockade around my sea of tears
is this the first act or the finale
for my new life to have past all these years
as my old reality is crushed
i try to look to the future as my mind begins to clear

clovers

Watch the music video at youtu.be/2REABpIQ0wI
https://evangeline.info
🔄

Performed by Evangeline and Self Discovery
Produced by Evangeline and Self Discovery
Written by Evangeline, Self Discovery and vai

contains sample from soundcloud.com/vai22/theaters

2/█

Cinemas (ft. Self Discovery)

Tracking Back

@underscores

part of @artbyform's "All Nighter, Volume One", with album proceeds funding the important work of https://www.mermaidsuk.org.uk/ to support trans youth and their families in the uk.



what do i wanna look like when i go outside?
when will i finally wanna go outside?
why does it feel so wrong when i’m outside?
then what do i gotta do to go outside?

must be these walls

save your words
till i figure this out
save your breath
i’m still so lost

must be these walls

who do i wanna be when i go outside?
who am i gonna be when i go outside?

and maybe someday you’ll feel like you can go outside c:
master by @jupelife

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