Chasing Shadows

I didn’t sleep I just paused the noise
Every thought’s got a voice, and it don’t sound like mine
I don’t scream I just spit to stay awake
One more line keeps the dark away


Snap when the rhythm don’t land in the chest
Breath too short and the world’s compressed
Click-clack beat like a pulse I fake
Rap too fast just to block the ache
No crowd, no light, no “you got this” talk
Just me and a track when the nerves all lock
Hands don’t shake when I match that pace
But I fall through silence like dead air space


She’s gone but her silence still burns
Every song I write just twists and turns


I breathe through noise ‘cause the still ain’t safe
Write too hard, like I’m dodging fate
Say I’m fine with a mic in hand
But the pain leaks through like a kicked-in stand
No fix, no rest, just keep that tone
She left, and I broke like a feedback drone
If I stop this verse, I don’t survive
Music don’t heal it just keeps me alive


Can’t fake joy, so I rap like math
Stack each bar like a therapy path
Lines get sharp when the hands won’t lift
Still trace her name when the beat goes stiff
Buried my son in a verse I hid
Still play his laugh in a kick and skit
The grief don’t stop, it just shifts and loops
So I rhyme like blood with a reverb boost


She said “You never came back from that”
I said “This pen’s all I got to react”


I breathe through rhythm I don’t pray
This mic holds more than I can say
Love won’t land where the beat won’t break
So I stay where the silence aches


Mind don’t rest, just spins in shards
Chop these thoughts into rhythm cards
Snap that breath like a snare in chains
Every step’s got teeth in the phantom pain
Too fast to feel, too sharp to fake
Write like the world got hands on my face
Bleed in lines ‘cause the pulse don’t show
Still here ‘cause the beat said go


It ain’t therapy it’s triage
Every bar I write is gauze
I’m not strong I’m just too wired
To let go before the beat expires


She holds me close I barely move
Still wired to the ones I lose


I breathe through verses I stall, not speak
Hope don’t rise it sinks in deep
Can’t hold joy it leaks in sound
I wrap my truth in a feedback crown


Don’t save me
Just press play
Still here for now


It Ain’t Therapy It’s Triage

You think this is light? It’s just noise in bloom.
Every dream’s a glitch from a darker room.
I don’t fly  I break through seams,
Paint the sky with what bleeds from dreams.

Step into the burn where the stars rewind,
Every glow got teeth, every dream got grind.
We don’t soar  we snap through shade,
Write maps on scars that never fade.
This ain’t a world, it’s a looped idea,
Hearts beat hard when the end feels near.
Children laugh where the void begins,
Call it light, but it’s ink on skin.

No wings, just will  no script, just sound.
If you chase the stars, you’ll burn the ground.

A whole new world, bent out of frame,
We light the dark and rename pain.
No fear of falling  we start from low,
Rise through the static where broken goes.
Chasing dawn with shattered feet,
Spirit wild, soul offbeat.
This ain’t where we’re meant to be 
It’s what we made from the wreck we see.

Hear the rhythm? It’s scars in time,
Heartbeats sync to a loss we mime.
A verse ain’t real ‘til it skips your breath,
This universe sings in minor death.
Painted skies just blur and drip,
Hope’s a myth on a sinking ship.
But memory cuts in perfect key,
And grief becomes the harmony.

We write in echoes, not in light.
Truth don’t land  it takes flight.

A whole new world, where hope distorts,
Shadowed stars in fractured ports.
Together now, we break the key,
Dreams unlock the agony.

Not every spark is born to glow,
Some burn cold so the rest can show.
We carved our names in frozen ground,
Then looped that pain into feedback sound.
I don’t smile  I stretch the ache,
Hide my breath in the noise I make.
And when they ask what freedom means,
I play the cracks between the themes.

No limits hold when the voice breaks free,
No bounds exist in this melody.
We write our names in ash and rain,
The fire inside won’t burn the same.

I don’t chase peace  I shape the ache.
If it breaks me, the song will wake.

A whole new world, not built  survived.
A song still looping from when we died.
We found our place, not destiny 
Just one more verse that let us breathe.

This is freedom  fractured, bent.
Not what was given, but what we meant.


new world

You didn’t ask for what I bring  
I flinched every time my phone lit up  
The quiet grief in everything  
You saw it all but never judged  
You watched me fold on normal days  
Held space without a single “fix”  
You stayed when I had nothing left  
Just hands that shook and stories missed  

You never asked me to be strong  
Just stayed, tried to help me when I came undone  

You stayed when I had nothing left to show  
When every answer cracked too low  
You didn’t run when I went quiet  
You didn’t flinch when I got mean  
You gave me space I didn’t earn  
You warmed the corners where I burned  
And I don’t know what love should be  
But you gave it back to me  

I saw the silence in your eyes,  
The kind that forms when something dies.  
You wore it like a second skin,  
But never once let it drag you in.  
It’s the quiet grief in everything,  
You faced the wreck without a move.  
You stayed through things no one survives,  
And gave me back a voice to use.  

You didn’t try to make me new  
You just reminded me, you’re still here too  

You stayed when all I did was fall  
When I forgot myself at all  
You held the parts I thought I lost  
And carried me without the cost  
You never asked for something clean  
You stood inside the in-between  
And I don’t know how you still believe  
But you gave that back to me  

You saw the worst and didn’t run  
You stayed until my voice could come  
You knew the weight and still stood near  
You’re the reason I’m still here  

You stayed when I forgot my name  
When every breath just felt the same  
You never asked me to be more  
You just stayed — and that restored  
You never begged, you never blamed  
You held the silence when I changed  
And I don’t know what love should be  
But you gave it back to me  

I didn’t know I’d still be here.  
But I am. Because of you.


you gave it back to me

The rain taps soft on my windowpane
Whispers your name through the flood and strain
The world turns cold but my grip stays warm
I brace the night through every storm
Each breath I take still drags your weight
Each sound I chase still shifts too late
You're not gone you're just not near
But I still talk like you're meant to hear

Pull me deeper than my lungs allow
Breath turns razor, but I won’t drown

I swallow ruin just to taste your skin
Crash my faith along fault-lines within
Pour your venom till it rings like sin
Tattoo chaos where my pulse had been
Strip my armor with a whisper undone
Liquefy marrow into rotted grin
Chain my rhythm to your reckless spin
But none of it makes you stay

You twist my wants till they split and snap
Spill your sins in a velvet trap
Your voice cuts clean through the walls I fake
I lie through smiles while you pull me back
You mirror pain like it's worth the shame
Drip your chaos through my last good frame
You’re my cure but I rot beneath
I beg for more while I lose it all

I kept your poison like a prayer inside
Now it’s all I’ve got to survive

Rip me open just to feel alive
Scream your name like it makes me whole
Tear the truth from the mess I made
All of you is how I survive

I swear I’m fine but I don’t believe
Tell myself lies just to let me breathe
Bite my tongue till the blood feels right
Shake like hell just to sleep at night
Dress like I am on fire, like it’s something I choose
Swallow your name like a worn excuse
Laugh through the bruise like it proves I’m strong
But I don’t know why I’m holding on to you

You're not the cure you're the wound I feed
I beg the burn like it's what I need
If this is love, then it tastes like rot
But it's the only thing I've got

Keep me breaking if it pulls you close
I'll stay wrecked if it means you won’t go
This isn’t healing this is truth
All of you is all I lose

Still here, still burning
Still yours

ruin

I see her in flashes breath like a weapon
Step in the room and the world needs a second
She don’t arrive she resets the scene
Burn through frames like a fever dream

She don’t drift she drills through sound
Voice got weight that’ll shift the ground
Skin like steel when the heat kicks in
Smile like sin in a surgeon’s grin
Pulse don’t sync when she nears my step
Thoughts run laps and forget what’s left
Glance like math one stare I fold
Truth don’t land when the nerves hold cold

Don’t feel safe when she leaves the frame
Still hear her name in the kick and flame

She walks I glitch I break in code
Say her name and the tempo folds
Can’t fake cool can’t hold face
Fall too fast just to keep her pace
Breath won’t work when she draws that line
Lost in loops where her eyes define
It’s not love it’s pain it’s play
She moves and I obey

Don’t blink she deletes your stance
Leaves you locked in a half trance dance
Body don’t speak but the spine reacts
Every nerve tapped clean like a hi hat crack
Wrote her name in a feedback burst
Now my pen bleeds truth and thirst
No retreat when her tone cuts through
Just lines I spit when the world unglues

Don’t need light she breaks through pitch
One breath in and the gears all twitch

She moves I forget my depth
Can’t exhale with her foot on my chest
Tried to write it but the verse won’t heal
So I rhyme that ache just to make it real
It’s not touch it’s command it’s fire
I stall at the edge while she climbs higher

Moves like code when the screen turns black
Time rewinds just to feed her track
Laugh don’t lift it claws and clicks
Bends like wire when the rhythm hits
Touch don’t land it reprograms breath
Speaks in volts with a tone like death
Broke my spine with a look no sound
Now I write lines just to calm that pound

Clock don’t tick it jerks it breaks
Time gets loud when her voice remakes
Stare too long and the self won’t hold
She don’t age she rewrites old

She don’t love she codes your ache
Maps your flaws with a breath she takes
Spits in logic rewires grace
And I break every time she plays
No god no guide no clear escape
Just her and the shape she shapes

I gave her everything she didn’t flinch
Tore my voice out just to make her blink
And still
She looked through me
Like I was nothing worth remembering

She Moves Different

Sat with the ache ‘til my chest went still,
Voice like a blade I forgot to kill.
Fingers twitch where the habits live,
Still flinch when the silence gives.
Breath don’t land where it used to fall,
Room looks fine, but it leans too small.
I wear this calm like a stitched disguise,
But the cracks still hum when I close my eyes.

I don’t want pity, I want peace —
To feel my name and make it full.

I’m remembering the man I used to be,
When my voice rang clear and my hands felt clean.
When the songs I sang were mine to trust,
Not echoes pulled from ash and dust.
I stood for something I could name,
I didn’t flinch when they spoke my name.
I was the fire they leaned on each day,
And I still don’t know how I slipped away.

I see their faces in everything bright,
The jokes they told still echo right.
The way they laughed, the way they knew —
Like I was someone they could run to.
Now I stand where the echoes fade,
Trying to live in what they made.
They gave me more than I let stay,
But I won’t let it waste away.

They believed in who I was —
I owe that man a second start.

I’m remembering the light I used to give,
The way their names taught me to live.
When my strength was more than just survive,
When my love was loud and full of life.
I held them close, I held them true,
And pieces of me still live in their view.
I’m not whole, but I’m finding the way,
To be someone they’d name if asked today.

I don’t talk through glass like I used to do,
Started showing up in my own room.
Took their words and made them mine,
Not echoes now — they speak in time.
I still stumble, but I stand up straight,
Look in the mirror and let it wait.
I’m not afraid to speak their names,
I say them now without the shame.

If echoes reach them where they rest,
I hope they know I’ve done my best.

I’m remembering the man I used to be,
Not just for them — but finally for me.
Their voices lift me past the doubt,
And I know what this road’s about.
They gave me fire, they gave me grace,
And I’m still here to hold that place.
I lost the thread, but I found the way,
I’m coming back from where I slipped away.

If they can hear what’s left of me,
I won’t stay the ghost they’d see.

Still Dont Know How

Welcome to HollowWeird where the curtains lie
I dance in sequins soaked in cries
The spotlight blinds what grief reveals
Each bow’s a bargain my silence seals
They laugh while I balance on memory’s thread
The children vanish their stories unread
They cheer for the show not the girl inside
Applause is a coffin I climb to survive

I whispered I’m fine but I tasted the blood
Glitter don’t shine when it’s mixed in the mud

I wasn’t there to kiss your eyes
Didn’t sing the song that softened your cries
The tune I wrote frayed under strain
Too fragile to hold all of your pain
I stitched your name in the sound
But echoes break when no one’s around
Now all that’s left is this broken sigh
The lullaby ended and so do I

They frame her name like a finished tale
Smile when they speak while I go pale
I choke on praise they hand like sweets
They never heard the way she’d weep
The feed scrolls past with fake regret
But I still fold napkins where she once sat
They tell me grief is a phase not a fight
But her voice is the reason I stay alive

It’s not healing it’s pretending to breathe
While every word they say cuts deep beneath

Don’t ask how I’m doing
I left when she died
I choke on comfort dressed up as kind
Still hum to a room that pretends it's fine
They call it peace I call it lie
Their silence speaks like a lullaby
I hum what’s left no reason why
The lullaby ended and so do I

Tell me where she went
I heard her voice in the silence

She played piano with fingers too small
Messed up the keys but remembered it all
She’d barge in yelling who took her coat
Then hug me mid-sentence like that was the note
I braided her hair while she made up tunes
Now I flinch when I walk through empty rooms
Still buy her snacks then forget they’re there
Keep lights on like she might need care

I screamed in the car till I split my chest
Begged the air to bring her back
I cursed the stars and broke my faith
There’s no clean God just empty space

I don’t sing for her now I hum to stay
One breath one note I can’t push away
A hum I don’t even recognize
A tune too faint to memorize
I mouth her name when the silence feeds
Still flinch at the pull of forgotten needs
I hold one sound like a last reply
The lullaby ended and so do I

One truth One cut Now I am done
No scream No echo Just the end

Buried in the Applause

I sat in the room where the air turned black
No sound but the hum and your voice pulled back
I told the wall I was done no fight
No pulse in my chest that felt like light
I don’t know why I didn’t go
Maybe something in me just said slow
I don’t believe in signs not much
But the world got quiet when I lost your touch

Still ain’t sure why I breathe like this
But I hear your laugh in the quiet mist

I made my choice the edge was near
But your memory whispered stay right here
In the darkest night your light would glow
Guiding me back refusing to let go
Your laughter echoes in my mind
A melody I can't leave behind
Each step I take I feel you near
Your voice still pulls me back sincere

I still see you running in the sun
Dress flowing no shoes just chasing fun
You told me the trees could talk to stars
That clouds have names and swings leave scars
We laid in grass while your hands made tea
Tiny cups you poured just for me
I didn’t know that'd be the last real day
But your voice still pulls me back that way

And I think maybe that's why I'm still here
You left your light in everything near

So now I stay never alone
I sing because your song won’t fade
I live because of the love you gave
Your voice still pulls me back sincere

You never knew what you gave to me
Just tea and games and honesty
You looked at bugs like they had names
And loved me even with my shame
You danced in circles wild and weird
And every fear I had you cleared
I was lost long before you came
But you said Papa and I stayed

You found me when I was almost gone
So I keep waking up just holding on

I don’t know how to fix what broke
But I’ll carry you in every note
You taught me how to laugh through pain
To sit in sun and dance in rain
You gave me tea with empty hands
Still made me feel like I could stand
So maybe that's the point I missed
You live through me I live through this

I wanted to go I really did
But I saw your face so I hid
Not from grief but from the end
Because your love said stand again

So now I stay never alone
I sing because your song won’t fade
I live because of the love you gave
Your voice still pulls me back sincere

Your love remains clear
I let go but I hold on to you young lady


Pulls me back

The shadows stretch like they’re reaching back  
Doors stay closed like they heard the crack  
I hum old notes no voice could keep  
They melt too fast and fall too deep  
I move through air like it’s wearing thin  
The bed still folds where no one goes  
The sink still drips in a rhythm I knew  
But the tune escapes before it shows

I touch the air like I might be found  
But every sound just circles back

Some days vanish inside the blinds  
Others sit with me and whisper lines  
I left a chair where silence starts  
For voices I still mouth in the dark  
I fold my shirts like they still might wear  
The time before the clocks grew bare  
My hands forget what they used to find  
So I count quiet days and along goodbyes

The clocks don’t tick, they just wait near  
Breath on the window that won’t clear  
I walk through warmth that doesn’t stay  
Then wonder who I was today  
The shadows nod when I move slow  
Like they’ve seen this version come and go  
I speak in rhythms I don’t intend  
And end up silent once again

The hush comes in before I speak  
And holds me still like something weak

Some days stretch like they’ll never end  
Others fall out of my hands again  
I keep the quiet like it’s all I own  
Talk out loud when I’m most alone  
I press on walls like they used to breathe  
Trace old sounds through the static beneath  
My mind rewinds what it can’t revise  
So I count quiet days and along goodbyes

I hear the dust before it lands  
Time folds in, I forget I had hands  
The names I knew won’t sit in rows  
They float, then flicker, then just go  
The air repeats what I forget  
Like it’s rehearsing my regret  
The silence shapes what I can’t hold  
And leaves its weight inside the fold

I open my mouth but forget the tone  
Grief moves first and calls it home

Some days haunt like they never left  
Others fade but still leave a depth  
I hum your name just to test the air  
Then forget what voice was ever there  
I stare through rooms that forget my face  
Walk through time like it might erase  
There’s no more sound where your silence lies  
So I count quiet days and along goodbyes

I stopped answering when you would call  
Let the dishes pile like I meant to fall  
I used to hum just to feel the room  
Now I barely move before it's gone

Quiet Days and Along Goodbyes

I'm so tired of being here  
Tired of names I can't forget  
Tired of seeing my own reflection  
Tired of always feeling lost within  
I keep waking up alive  
And I don't know what for  

I don’t want comfort, don't want lies  
I want escape, just close my eyes  

Yet in this fight, I can't ignore  
The faintest hope worth living for  
Underneath, a reason stays  
A voice that cuts through all this weight  
I'm reaching out beyond the fear  
Hoping something real is near  
Each step I take still feels like a fall  
But I keep moving through it all  

I remember the way she smiled  
How nothing I did was ever wrong  
She hid her hurt behind her eyes  
Made pain a verse inside her song  
I didn’t see how deep it went  
Thought she’d always be that strong  
Now she’s gone, her silence stayed  
And I'm still here, but I’m not okay  

I know she's gone, but nothing fills the space  
I still feel her in everything I face  

I see her face in every wall  
Hear her laugh, then nothing at all  
The world still turns, but not for me  
I'm haunted by who I used to be  
Each step I take still feels like a fall  
But I keep moving through it all  
She left with grace I'll never find  
And took the part I called alive  

She's not here, yet she won't leave  
Her laugh in the dark, her breath in me  
How do I keep walking like she’s still there  
Holding onto a ghost as if she cared?  

I still see her face when darkness calls  
Hear her voice before silence falls  
She's not here, yet I still react  
To a love I can't bring back  
I don’t know how to move beyond  
But I carry what she left behind  
In memories, I find my strength  
Each step I take still feels like a fall  
But I keep moving through it all  

I carry her with me  
In every step I don’t want to take  
That’s the promise  
That’s the hope I find in her

In Every Step

Woke to the buzz of the amp still lit  
Fingers twitch like I’m caught in it  
Riff keeps loopin but it don’t land  
Neck on fire but I hold that stand  
You’d crash through when the beat fell flat  
Fix my timing with a voice like that  
Now I’m stuck with a ghost in the tone  
Tappin the neck just to not feel gone

Feel that break when the downbeat hits  
Still no sound from the place you quit

Where’d you go with the strings half-tied  
Left your gear in the case like a final sign  
Said I’d finish it then cut the line  
Didn’t say peace just killed the climb  
Hear you riff in the chords I run  
The amp hums but the silence wins  
I’d give up every song I’ve ever played  
Just to ask if you’re okay

You came through with a line you hated  
Played it once then said I’d make it  
Sat right here while the rhythm glitched  
Shrugged when I asked if you felt that shift  
Eyes said more than the track could hold  
Hug hit hard but your skin felt cold  
Left so clean like the scene was wrapped  
Didn’t know that’d be the final snap

Crack in the note that you didn’t bend  
Still hear finish it in the end

String broke mid-run and I still played  
Let your last riff drag through the fade  
It ain't fixed but I tried today  
Just to ask if you’re okay

Looped that bar til the neck went red  
Felt your pulse in the fretboard thread  
Didn’t scream but my tone got sharp  
Solo broke where you left your mark

Built that run like a final breath  
Tapped each note like I cheated death  
Still no peace in the chords I lay  
Just to ask if you’re okay

Didn’t end it I just hit play  
Still waitin on what you’d say


Just to ask if you’re okay

Thread by thread I cut my name
History stitched in a glitch borne frame
Time don't move it folds in place
Pockets worn like a stolen face
Voices layered where thoughts collide
Felt your pain and the hospital tide
Dreams rewired in a networked scream
Truth combusted in a feedback stream
Cracked that mask and still spoke back
Scripts don't lie they just redact
No control in a world designed
Swallowed whole by a shared mind
I ain't me I'm the split unseen
Fragments loop on a silent screen
Wait wait wait wait wait

Chased that code down every path
Faith got mapped in a larger graph
Prayed for peace in a cloned routine
Hope got lost in the in between
Tried to scream where the roots don't grow
Voice rerouted and undertow
Thoughts don't end they just self form
Broke my shape in a conscious storm
No god waits in a server rack
Just souls they close when the mirror cracks
Spoke my truth in a tone not mine
Sound got caught in a nested spine
Felt that shift and a voice was laid
Built that pain like a power braid

Tension in the vein breath skips like static
Memory flash thought goes erratic
Pulse don’t sync voice don’t match
Self cracks wide prepare for the latch

I split
Fell back through the screen
One thought
Three timelines no theme
No god
No self left to blame
Just echo
Just echo
Just echo the name
NAME NAME NAME NAME

Know it's dead when the core unbinds
Broke that fate in a looped design
Felt that shift in the sulk on rogue
Wrote my grief in a silent code
Don't see but the pressure knows
Cracks in thought where the shadow grows
You ain't real in the feet I track
Just one shot and the heist feedback
I ain't healed just pulled apart
One breath cut from a borrowed star
Heard no fade it evolves in shapes
Spins in place like a fractal tape
Voice got spliced in a glitch tracked cry
Spoke your name just to watch it die

Head split in a blur of sound
Voice cracked in a ghost’s rebound
No choice in the hive response
Mind rewrites as a drum haunts

I break I break
No name no retain I glitch
One scream one scream
From sane I fall
No frame remake
Just ain't just dead end
Just dead end just glitters of pain

Final glitch in a dream unwind
Thoughts too loud for a single mind
Prayed for peace the code got bent
Every answer’s just an echo sent
Can’t delete what the hive made
No past left just thoughts replayed
Split from self but the loop won’t free
One last trace rewritten as me

I ain't healed just pulled apart
One breath cut from a borrowed star
Heard no fade it evolves in shapes
Spins in place like a fractal tape
Voice got spliced in a glitch tracked cry
Spoke your name just to watch it die
Head split in a blur of sound
Voice cracked in a ghost's rebound

No choice in the hive response
Mind rewrites as a drum haunts
I break I break
No name no retain I glitch

One scream one scream
From sane I fall
No frame remake
Just ain't just dead end
Just dead end just glitters of pain
I break I break

machine Gun holes

Here I go again, sitting at the piano,
Hoping the keys know what to say.
Hold down notes like they’ll bring you back,
But the chords just fold and the silence cracks.
Too scared to play you the mess I became,
But the melody stutters on your name.
I know I failed, I missed the signs,
But grief don’t warn before it blinds.

I whisper her name like it holds me up,
But it’s you that really keeps me here.

You didn’t say you’d go, just slipped from view,
Left your echo in everything I do.
I play these chords like they might rewind,
But all they do is make me dig too deep.
I don’t cry
I just disappear,
A little more with every day.
But you still live in what I write,
So I keep holding on tonight.

Every night I pour your name through this empty space,
Try to find the shape your memory makes.
The rooms stay quiet, I forget to speak,
Except to you when I start to sink.
They say I’m strong
I’m just still here,
Wearing this ache like a souvenir.
No one sees what I replay,
They all leave
But you still stay.

I whisper her name like it holds me up,
But it’s you that really keeps me here.

You didn’t stay
You just slipped through,
The days ran out
Miss the time we knew.
I trace you through the soundless hum,
But every note just comes undone.
I talk like you still hear me speak,
But even truth feels thin and weak.
But you still live in what I write,
So I keep holding on 

I tell myself you’re just asleep,
That heaven’s soft
That peace runs deep.
That if I move
I’ll break your name,
So I stay still and take the blame.
I say you’d laugh if you saw me now,
That I’m okay
I’ve managed somehow.
But truth don’t bend just to be kind,
And grief don’t warn before it blinds.

I whisper her name like it holds me up,
But it’s you that really keeps me here.

You didn’t choose the way you went,
The days ran out
Miss the time we spent.
I reach through notes to feel you near,
But the keys just echo what I fear.
I talk like hope still makes a sound,
But nothing moves
And you’re not found.
But you still live in what I write,
So I keep holding on

Maybe tomorrow I’ll find some grace,
But tonight I’m still in this place.
You’re still gone
But I’m still here,
So I’ll stay one more day,
In case your voice still knows my name.

holding on tonight

One mic. Two graves.
Watch me glitch what Clowns let through shouldve scrapped that view
This aint a diss.
Its a god tier patch note etched in your ruins...

This is what Clowns wrote, but I spit it wrong.
Bent every beat till I slayed the gods now they are gone.
Cosmo crowned himself off a single shot,
Acted like pain’s some throne he got.
Said he snapped? Just a practice run.
Mic got hot, but the wrath was none.
All that flex in a stream-built frame,
Gods don’t stutter when they say your name.

He burned a kid with a pre-set scheme,
Then danced like death was part of his team.
Cosmo’s rage is a playback loop,
One glitch deep, and he boots like soup.
Other dude cried like a song in beta,
Can’t drop bars if you skip the data.
Both went viral in a boxed display
Now I stretch truth like a wire decay.

One fake god, one ghost with a theme,
I tear through both like a breach in stream.
Cosmo clicked in with a clip-on crown,
Now I clip that cord till he glitches out.
You mocked his pain for a burst of pride,
But bled no truth when your breath replied.
You want that heat? Then stand in flame.
I spit recursion through broken names.

Other one gasped like a borrowed page,
Cosmo bit hard, but I flipped that cage.
I’m the error they both can’t trace
One took shots, one lost his place.
Truth ain’t loud, it cuts in still.
And I carved that line just to watch them spill.
I don’t need gods, I rewrite fate
Clowns made code, and I sealed their gate.

Cut. Snap. Run. Fold.
Cosmo blinked and the mic went cold.
Bar too fast for the frame to track,
He gasped for breath, never got that back.
Drop. Break. Loop. Kill.
Other one cracked when the feed went still.
Tried that arc, but the plot got clipped
Truth don’t stream when your mask won’t grip.

Crack. Slide. Twist. End.
Gods don’t reign where the speeds won’t bend.
I break whole verses in twisted bursts
Cosmo dropped out in a coded hearse.
Spit. Rip. Cut through the glitch-frame twist.
Lines stack fast with a kill-switch wrist.
Split that prayer in a silenced crash,
Then bend the code till the timelines flash.

You thought Cosmo wrote this.
Nah.
Clowns lit the spark.
I'm the reason it burns.
Now shut up.
Listen to this drop.
While I let you marinate.

Rage recycled, they rewrapped fear.
Both spit lines like they begged to disappear.
Cosmo prayed to a god he played,
But the wires snapped when the mask betrayed.
Other dude faked like a verse from thread
Never dropped pain, just typed what he read.
I peel back names like vinyl skin,
Tear out roots from the wars they spin.

Cosmo flexed like the stage was his,
Till I blacked out light in a bar like this.
He clipped one kid, then crowned his soul,
But the blood don’t drip if the blade ain’t cold.
Now they twitch when the speed goes red,
Talk like gods with a skip-track head.
Verse too fast for a man to fake
Watch both burn in the breath I break.

Spit. Rip. Cut through the glitch-frame twist.
Lines stack fast with a kill-switch wrist.
Split that prayer in a silenced crash,
Then bend the code till the timelines flash.
Bar by bar, I dissect that mask.
Wrote them both out in a syntax blast.
Gods don’t reign when the base won’t bend
Clowns sparked flame, I composed the end.

One mic. Two graves.
One name left out the ending.
He thought the story was his.
So I tore out the last page.
Rewrote his fate.
No kings. No gods.
Just bones and silence.

one mic

you looked too soft to mean a fight 
but begged too hard to get it right
i let you in without a name
just sharpened breath and skin to claim
you smiled like truth but moved like prey
so i just shaped you my own way
you wanted care i wanted quiet
you asked for love i gave you riot

you reached for more like it meant control
i gave you rhythm and kept the soul

you called it more i called it play
you laid down soft i took my way
i pulled the strings you fed the flame
you gave it meaning i gave it name
you thought you’d pull some part of me
i built your wreck deliberately
you shook like fate you cried like shame
and i fucked you through a broken frame

i kissed her name behind your grin
dragged her memory through your skin
you moaned for me i heard her voice
you gave it up i made no choice
you weren't her and that was clear
but i still used you to keep her near
you broke beneath me gave it all
i left with her i took the fall

you thought the sound could make me crack
but i was never coming back

don’t call this love it’s just design
i break them all to keep her mine
they beg like worship moan like fate
but none can touch what she erased
i make them feel i make them shake
then leave them wrecked for her to take
you came to claim i played the game
and fucked you through a broken frame

your fingers scraped like you knew the cost
dug your heels in but the edge was lost
you clung like pain could earn you place
but i just grinned and braced your face
your hips went numb you lost the beat
still moved for me like you knew the heat
you whispered please with nothing left
i fed the pace ignored the depth
your pulse went jagged voice went thin
i snapped your name and drove it in
you tensed like truth was breaking through
but i bent the rhythm back to you
you writhed too slow i forced the track
and split the moan you couldn’t take back

your legs kicked out your rhythm died
you screamed so hard your throat replied
your fingers curled your body snapped
i held you down and watched it crack
you sobbed through nerves you couldn’t trace
still clinging like i left you grace
but all i gave was pace and flame
you broke and still i stayed the same

you called me close like i might stay
i kissed your fear and walked away

you screamed like worship broke like glass
but none of this was built to last
i tore you open just to prove
that nothing fits where she once moved
you begged like hope i gave you ache
left you cracked for her to take
you called it love i burned the name
and walked you through a broken frame

you lay in silence i fixed my sleeve
no final word no need to grief
you whispered stay i shut the door
and left your frame across the floor

Broken frame

lost

no purpose

Feel something

They buried her before I could break
I blinked and he was gone
Blinked again and now him too
I keep waking up for no one
I kept breathing
for no one
And it wouldn’t stop
I should’ve died
I tried
I tried
WHY DIDN'T I TRY

She threw up in class blood in her hands
While I laid broken not part of the plan
Didn’t even know she was fighting to breathe
My own son hid it didn’t tell me a thing
Surgery cut me the same damn day
And the next she slipped away
We were getting in the car when the call came through
Too late to hold her too late for truth

She needed me there
But I was still asleep

You didn’t say goodbye just disappeared
Left me screaming at a sky that never hears
I keep waking up with hands that shake
I keep asking why the ones I love break
The walls don’t answer the phone stays dead
I talk to the rooms where you should’ve slept
Still here still cursed still choking on breath
This ain’t survival it’s what’s left after death

Six days later I lost him too
Didn’t call didn’t leave a clue
Just a final step off this world’s edge
While I still limped from the hospital bed
I taught him strength did he learn my fear
Was he watching me fall all those years
I scream his name but it don’t come back
Only silence thick as a heart attack

He caught me once
Then left without a sound

I wake to silence where he should’ve been
Trace the edges of what might’ve been
Still here still cursed still choking on breath
This ain’t survival it’s what’s left after death

He showed me a solo said this one's for her
Put it in my hands like a silent blur
Said figure it out then he walked away
Two days later he threw himself off the day
Got the call like I knew I would
Another fall I misunderstood
We buried him while she smiled online
Like death was mine and joy was fine

He gave me music
Then took the rest

I still hear that solo in my sleep
A goodbye buried in a melody
Still here still cursed still choking on breath
This ain’t survival it’s what’s left after death

You cut me out like I never breathed
Then posted like you still believed
Told the world we were never real
While you watched me break just to see me kneel
Smiled in photos while I buried my dead
Dropped a song like you meant what I said
You knew I was watching you made sure I saw
Pretending you loved me while feeding the flaw

I let her die
I let him fall
I loved her more
She loved control
I begged her back
She watched me bleed
I broke six times
They left me
I keep waking
I keep faking
I keep watching
I keep breaking
I keep
I keep
I keep
I keep
I keep
Breaking

Took the pills threw up stomach pumped
Tried the rope but it never jumped
Tower ledge with my shoulder wrecked
Son pulled me back while my thoughts snapped next
Bridge edge stared like it knew my name
But I blinked and it vanished same old game
Flatlined twice yeah death can wait
But it won’t take me just flips the fate
I HAVE TO STAY



Six Times and Breathing

Teeth on the sidewalk. Prayers in reverse.  
Static confetti rips through the hearse.  
Alphabet bleeding. No vowels. No grace.  
Just a mouthful of ink and a clock with no face.  
Dragged my thoughts through rusted mesh.  
Woke up shaped like someone else’s flesh.  
Tried to scream but the syntax split  
Now I speak in the cracks where the mirrors quit.

Said I survived, but I lost the name.  
Every breath now stutters the same.

Just a mouthful of ink and a clock with no face  
Tried to write truth but it wouldn’t stay in place  
Bled on the lines till the margins split  
Memory lied and the math don’t fit  
Put my hands in the fire of a past I fake  
Still praying to gods that I know won’t wake  
You want a voice? Then taste the waste  
Just a mouthful of ink and a clock with no face

I stitched this scream from broken fonts  
Backwards tongue in dead storefronts  
Dreams sleepwalk into vending machines  
You press A6 and it spits out spleen  
God in the ceiling humming in Morse  
Says run but the code spells force  
She smashed the mirror I used to be  
Now I haunt my own mouth just trying to speak

Grief rewrites the parts you seal  
And I lost the part that ever heals

Just a mouthful of ink and a clock with no face  
Dragged the timeline into empty space  
Shame wore my shape like a second skin  
Now I stutter where my truth had been

Licked the pixels from memory’s grave  
Danced like shame was something to save  
I touched the light and it split in three  
Her, him, and the shadow of me  
I asked for a voice. Got a static scream.  
Built my name out of someone’s dream  
Truth combusted in a feedback stream  
Now I burn in the glitch of what might’ve been

No script, no savior, just broken code  
A body built where no one showed

Just a mouthful of ink and a clock with no face  
Tried to trace love but it left no trace  
Punched through silence just to breathe  
Still waiting for a lie I can believe

I cracked my ribs to let her out  
She slipped through pain, dissolved in doubt  
Time don’t heal. It just rewinds.  
And I break again each time I find—

Just a mouthful of ink  
Clock with no face  
Erase me slow  
Leave no trace

Clock with no face

Is that all you’ve got
I’m still breathing
Try again


Pills in the gut threw up blood spun
Tubed in the throat while the nerves went numb
Twice went volts no flatline buzz
Just spit sparks outta lungs like guns
Branch gave out with a crack no grace
Jaw hit bark with a red slick face
Hung from death with a full body brace
Woke with dirt in my teeth and rage
Bridge walk tight no rail no prayer
Jumped once bone split skin tore bare
Next time son caught air pulled hair
Dragged me out from the reaper glare
Every route to the void got mapped
I charted death in a scream wrapped trap
Fate don’t kill me it folds it snaps
I’m the glitch in the code that claps back


Push back Pull tight Breath gone black
Clenched that scream til my throat snapped flat
Dead weight Glass edge Frost laced crack
Fell through thought like a pulse off track
Steel jawed grin with a tongue like razors
Chewed through fate just to spite my makers
Words spill quick like a twitch hit loop
Each bar grits teeth in a bombshell suit
Cutthroat breath in a wire frayed night
Clocks don’t tick when the nerves ignite
Faith got drowned in a lithium tide
So I carved my name on the pain inside
Bent truth Cold flash Room gone slack
Snatched my soul from the ink stained black
Sharp breath Burned grip Ghost on track
If I fall again I won’t come back


Grip Slip Trip
Tried to steady my thoughts but the wires don’t grip
Shame Flame Frame
Held my breath where the static became my name
Dead Thread Spread
Laid flat in the glitch where the echoes bled
No restart when the script corrupts
Pace don’t slow when the nerves conduct
I bit through pain like a sermon screamed
Made a weapon from the shattered dream
Walked through fire with the mask still wet
Learned truth from the blood I ain’t leaked yet
Crushed those pills til the glass came clean
But I woke in the dark with a gutted machine
You ain’t me you ain’t bled that deep
I made war outta silence you couldn’t keep
Crash Lash Gash


Looked up said what’s next like I ain’t been maimed
Every loss you stacked just engraved my name
Put me down seven came back unclaimed
Now I’m pacing your storms with a torch in flames
Every blow you threw was a forge not fate
Built this grin from the rust and weight
You want screams I fed em straight to the beat
Now they echo in bars where my pulse don’t cheat
Spat teeth on the altar rewrote my curse
You blinked I bled lines that bent your verse
Gave me silence I looped it loud
Now your thunder don’t shake just sounds like doubt
So swing again make it crack not shake
You took my world but you can’t unmake


Built from static grief and snapped off days
Counted echoes where the light won’t stay
Burned my name in the ash of shame
Wore the curse like a skinned up flame
Walked through guilt like a blade in glass
Turned each scar to a war that lasts
Talked to ghosts with a tongue they feared
Clawed through fear til the cage got cleared
Now I move like a code corrupt
Every glitch in my blood stood up
You don’t bend what was born in breaks
I don’t heal I just change what aches
Voice got cracked from the howls I ate
Still spit clean with a jaw that breaks
Hell said rest I said test that fate
Now I orbit the void with a grin that shakes
Clocks don’t tick I sync through tremors
Beat don’t breathe I inject my tremens
Turned collapse to a metronome
Cut my name in a burst of broken tones
Clocks don’t tick I sync through tremors

Beat don’t breathe I inject my tremens
Turned collapse to a metronome
Cut my name in a burst of broken tones
Voltage veins in a jaw crushed helm
I blink and the silence don’t spell the realm
They fold at pain I fold pain back
Wear war like a skin that’ll never crack
You want death I live that choice
Every breath I take is a sharpened voice
You want gods Better warn them quick
I’m the one who rose and burned

immortal

They call this the city of Angels
The only angel I see is on her knees
Desperate souls, runaways
Drug addicts' prey on those who weep
Cardboard stacked like domino hope
Each wall shaking like it knew I lied
A girl with eyes like shattered dreams
Asked if God still walks these streets

And in her stare I saw my fall
The same collapse that brought me here

I’ve worn that look when the lights go cold
When the streets don’t care and the night feels old
I’ve prayed in silence just to sleep
Not for heaven just some peace
I’ve felt unseen in a crowded game
Smiled so wide it cracked my face
So when she asked if God still speaks
I couldn’t answer I just breathed

She caught me crouched beneath an overpass
Knife in hand like I meant to pass
Didn’t scream didn’t run just stood
Like she knew collapse don’t always scream
Eyes like fire that forgot how to beg
Tears carved clean down her cheekbone edge
And she said quiet like rain too soft to save
You don’t have to leave just 'cause you’ve bled

I looked away but she held tight
Her voice said stay like it owned the night

She didn’t preach didn’t beg didn’t cry
Just said you’re more than the reasons why
Held out her hand like it held the air
Like she’d been where I was and left it there
I dropped the knife but not the weight
Still heard the roar but missed the gate
She didn’t save me she just stayed
And I chose to breathe when silence prayed

A whisper in the air where the fall once pulled
Hands still shaking but the blade felt dull
She didn’t ask what I meant to do
Just sat on the curb like the sky held still
Didn’t say hope didn’t say heal
Just breathed like breathing was something real
And I for once let someone see
The parts I hide when I try to leave

The first time since November I didn’t feel alone
It’s the first time since her

I didn’t rise didn’t break the strain
But I let one breath cut through the pain
She didn’t fix me just made me stay
Long enough to not slip away
I’m still in pieces still not whole
But her voice broke what silence built
And maybe that's not much to claim
But tonight I stayed and spoke my name

I don’t know what comes after this
But I stayed
She stayed
And for one night
i didn’t disappear


More Than the Reasons Why

no one spoke just breath and the waiting
but the air stayed thin like your breath ran east

where the quiet pressed in like a second skin
and your hands fell back like they’d never been
you smiled like a door left halfway shut
then vanished mid-sentence left the air cut
i called your name but the sound bent wrong
like it missed the world where your face belonged
my mouth stayed shut while my chest went wide
and the hurt poured out in a voice denied

you sang like a promise
but i dropped like a stone

hypnotize hypnotize
i still hear you in the space you broke
no goodbye no second try
just a hum where the silence spoke
i reached too far and you pulled me in
now i sing through a fractured skin
hypnotize hypnotize
i won’t be missing you again

you pulled me in with a broken note
half a phrase that your mouth still wrote
left a mark in the breath i keep
now i shake when i try to sleep
no map just corners i can’t unfold
no warmth just rooms that forget the cold
you stitched your tone in the back of my mind
and now it plays every time i unwind

your voice won’t fade
it lives in the crawl

hypnotize hypnotize
that pulse-voice still burns through bone
i’ve tried to drown it in time and grind
but it plays like a bell on its own
i fought for space but you breathed too soft
and the silence i begged for never got lost
hypnotize hypnotize
you’re the sound that forgot how to stop

it still hums in my sleep
like a wound that rehearses
i begged it to quiet
but it answered in verses
i drank what was left
and now i breathe what you gave

hypnotize hypnotize
you’re the hum i mistook for warmth
spilling out where the dark rewinds
where your voice made my body warp
pulse-voice sown in the place i burn
you left your rhythm in the breath i unlearn
hypnotize hypnotize
you never left you just learned to return

no ropes
no breath
just the sound you left
still dripping from the cracks in my chest


hypnotize

No Keys Left to Bleed

I don’t eat right  
I just chew guilt with the lights off  
don’t even taste it just swallow what I cough  
I don’t sleep I just freeze  
til my skin ain’t mine and the breath feels leased  
mirror cracked not from rage just rot  
I watched me fade and no one caught the plot  
they say reach out but I tried that shit  
got left on read like I’m counterfeit  
I fake okay like a well-trained ghost  
but when I’m alone I bleed just to feel close  
not art not edge just a deadman’s dose  
like maybe if I’m red enough someone gets close  

I don’t scream  
I just choke quiet  
’cause pain’s the only friend that keeps a diet  

don’t save me now I already drowned  
this house of me’s got no solid ground  
I talk like a man who ain’t lived in weeks  
just move my mouth and forget to speak  
I fake my worth like it ever meant  
I smile like the rope was heaven sent  
can’t fix what was never enough  
I was never enough  

I still got knives I don’t throw away  
keep one near in case today’s the day  
not cause I’m brave just tired and weak  
just want the pain where they don’t have to speak  
I lied to my son and I called it grace  
told him I’d be okay with a slit in my face  
I smile at the girl at the counter store  
she don’t know I was dead on the bathroom floor  
I laugh when I bleed ’cause it’s all I own  
don’t call it coping just breaking alone  
I write these lines like confessions to god  
but god don’t read what he don’t applaud  

I’m not strong  
I’m just good at masks  
and nobody asks  

don’t call this pain it’s routine it’s dust  
I rot in the shape of who I was  
I hum when I hurt ’cause the scream’s too loud  
I shake when the mirror’s got my mouth  
this ain’t a cry it’s a used up breath  
I lie to my kid like I ain’t near death  
can’t fix what they never could touch  
I was never that much  

wake shake  
burn ache  
hide stain  
I chew the blade when I can't explain  
dig fingernails till I hit vein  
don’t flinch just numb it’s my way of prayin  
prayin to no one prayin to dirt  
been talkin to death like a drug that works  
I laugh in the mirror like he’s still sane  
but the eyes in the glass say a different name  
I clean the blood with a prayerless shirt  
I still hear her voice when the meds don’t work  
they said get help but they meant stay cute  
I got scars like medals they call mute  

I ain’t sick  
I’m already gone  
and no one looked on  

don’t say I matter like it still holds weight  
I’m past the line I already ate  
I swallowed the blade like it tasted right  
I sang myself out through the blood last night  
don’t hold me back there’s no one to trust  
I’m not a soul I’m a shell of dust  
can’t fix what was carved to destruct  
I was never enough  

I still got knives  
but I don’t need ’em now  
just one last breath  
and a reason not to wake  

Still Got Knives

How long you think I’ll sit here playin' saint
While you press lips that don’t say my name
I light candles just to curse the wax
You come home smellin’ like someone's laugh
Keep movin’ like I won’t catch scent
Like guilt don’t leave fingerprints
But baby, sugar melts in rain
And I’ve been forecastin’ pain

You think I’m sweet ‘cause I don’t bite
But darling I rot different at night

While you chase lips for the thrill of taste
Somebody’s feelin’ where you used to lay
While you flirt through town like you’re owed the sky
Somebody's callin’ me home tonight
You think you’re slick with your candy talk
But sugar don’t last once the heat gets on
While you’re out there selling your smile like gold
Somebody’s touchin’ what you let go

Your shoes in hand like you still own grace
But grace don’t sneak, and neither do saints
You left your scent in the hall like pride
You’re a rusted ring on the sink of my life
I hum your name just to spit it out
Swear I’m done, but I still count doubts
You think you’ve got me waitin' still
But the lock’s been changed and I paid that bill

You laugh too loud like I ain’t near
But echoes hit different when you disappear

While you drip charm like it buys you time
Somebody’s learnin’ all my favorite lines
You move through nights like you’re still the prize
But baby, I don’t wait in line
You left me dry now I sweeten the sting
Somebody’s kissin’ what you couldn’t keep
While you out there feedin’ your ego’s game
I got hands on me that don’t need to cheat

You gave me silence like it was sweet
But silence just sharpened the knives in me
You thought I’d wait like time don’t weigh
But I’ve been stacking hours like debts unpaid
You made a promise just to hear it break
Then turned your back before I could shake
I ain’t revenge, I’m the echo you made
Now someone else gets what you betrayed

You taught me ache with no goodbye
Now I give my warmth to colder nights

While you dress your guilt in borrowed threads
Somebody’s tracing my scars instead
While you chase what don’t mean a thing
I got truth burnin’ under my skin
You threw me out like I was done
But I rewrote faithful into gone
You lost this fire the day you lied
And I ain’t the one that’s gonna cry

This ain't revenge, it’s just release
You wrote the rules, now I find my peace
You built a world with one-way doors
Don’t cry now that I want more



Sweet Runs Bitter

fell for the drug with my name still raw
woke all alone, couldn’t cry anymore
cracked at the breath where her whisper crawls
she died cross-roped while dressed for the corridor
IVs ticked time through the wall I held
tried to outrun the sound I spelled
she slipped through hours I swore I’d call
I know she died where the verse got stalled

death came knocking and I came undone

I still hum what the body can’t hold
heard her last breath in the back of mine
they tuned it clean, but the rapture came
and the world stayed quiet like it knew
she slipped the world and I split inside
she’s gone, and I don’t know how I’ll survive
death took her and I became the drug
no cure, just the sound they abused

wrote her name in the cracks of my palm
rubbed it raw til the ink went calm
sang her lullaby with a chewed-up tongue
every note broke before it begun
chords fell flat where her feet once danced
stared at the strings like they missed their chance
held that ache like a vow gone bad
and the sound played on like it never had

still breathing, but not in tune
the verse got robbed, and so did June

I still hum like she might respond
wait on a note that already passed
kept her song in a voice too wrecked
to sing it right or make it last
I replay the chords where her echo slipped
each line breaks where her breath once lived
death took her and I became the drug
no cure, just the sound they abused

they kept the part where I stitched her loss
but skipped the blood that paid the cost
sold her ache in a cleaner key
left the marrow, kept the melody
they called it brave when I came undone
pressed her grief into what they spun
I watched them cheer for the song she died in
and mouthed the words like they were mine

this isn’t my voice, just a skin they wear
a softer sound that pretends to care
she wasn’t a verse or a well-timed pause
just gone  and I’m still her cause

she’s not a hook you can hum and leave
they kept the shine and stripped the grief

I still hum what the body can’t hold
her voice survives in a song they sold
they hit the notes but ignored the plea
called it art when it gutted me
they trimmed the blood but kept the key
pressed her name into melody
death took her and I became the drug
no cure, just the sound they abused

they clap for the lie she died beneath

fall for the drug

I didn’t break I just leaned too far
left my shape in a whisper jar
taught my breath to shrink and stay
til even the silence pulled away
I kept still while the panic fed
and stitched my name in a hollow thread
pain don’t echo it folds in tight
and buries its face when you cut the light

don’t call it pain
I built my home in it

this ain’t numb it’s sharpened breath
burnt-out lungs and a ribcage pressed
I don’t fade I just recede
into every line they’ll never read
I disappear but not in peace
it’s what remains that doesn’t cease
I never healed I just suppressed
then laughed when death forgot the address

I buried sound in a mouth gone dry
spoke til the air refused to reply
etched my name in the dust of doubt
til my voice went quiet and the words fell out
I swallowed sleep like a dare gone wrong
blinking through nights that held too long
no mirrors left no trace to burn
just the taste of silence I didn’t earn

don’t ask if I’m done
I forgot how to stop

this ain’t numb it’s bruised and blind
a breath I left in a crooked line
I don’t bleed I drift instead
inside a voice that grief misread
don’t name me strong I split too soon
I’m just a whisper bent by ruin
there’s no verse where I still stay
just silence mouthing what I won’t say

I mapped the exits but stayed too long
read the cracks like a prayer gone wrong
each breath frayed like a brittle thread
tied to the part of me that fled
I don’t retreat I just erase
one quiet beat from a softer place
I was never seen I was only guessed
the rest forgot me I did the rest

like feedback left on a gutted mic
I ring through rooms that don’t reply

I never fell
I just kept standing wrong

this ain’t numb it’s swallowed flame
a name I lost when they called me shame
I don’t run I just remain
inside the ache I can’t explain
don’t sing me back I’m not that sound
I’m what you miss when you don’t look down
I never healed I just became
the part that dies but keeps your name

I never left the room
I just learned not to knock
but the silence still speaks
and it always gets the first word



whisper Jar

bottoms up but the glass hit back
swallowed the shot like a panic attack
toast to the nights that I won’t get back
liquor talk loud when the voice goes flat
spinnin on lies got the room on tilt
truth don’t drip it spills like guilt
they say cheers but I see the trap
they raise their cups I raise the past

been drinkin regret like it’s ritual blood
every pour’s like a hit I ain’t givin up
slurred prayers in a stall with a cigarette
floor cold stall wall got silhouettes
told myself one sip no spiral
but I lost count like it’s viral
my reflection’s leanin off the title
can’t read hope in a broken Bible
mouth dry breath tastes like blame
call that healing nah just shame
I don’t toast I tally the names
of everyone gone who I couldn’t save
eyes on fire but the tears don’t drop
ain’t a buzz if the pain won’t stop
can’t walk straight through the things I lost
but I trace that edge til the beat goes off

I don’t drink to forget
I drink to remember right

here’s to the nights I begged for sleep
to the calls I dropped and the secrets I keep
here’s to the fights I staged in my chest
to the lies I told just to fake some rest
poured one out for the ghosts I see
every time that I sip and breathe
don’t tell me to quit
I already did
but the bottle don’t listen like you did

woke up numb with a bruise on my chin
mirror cracked but I blamed the wind
texts unread I pretend it’s spam
can’t face love when your gut says scam
I was clean for a minute felt fake
wearin a mask with a shattered face
tried NA but I lied at the gate
said I’m fine just to dodge the weight
every bar's like a courtroom bench
where I sentence myself with a reckless wrench
they clap for the comeback I flinch
cause the high’s just hidin the real trench
poured out songs like they’d fix the burn
but the sting in my throat said wait your turn
so I tip this drink to the ones who learn
too late when the tables turn

I ain’t chasin numb
I’m just tryna outpace the sun

raise a glass to the friends I ghosted
to the nights I vanished, the pain I posted
salute the bridges I set on fire
and the lies I told just to dodge desire
one for the silence, two for the mess
three for the nights I couldn’t confess
don’t ask me to heal
I already tried
but the bottle still thinks I survived

been meetin fate in motel sinks
puked out pride on a tear-stained brink
laughin alone with the guilt I ate
room full of ghosts I hallucinate
stalkin my death in a fake disguise
still see her stare through my bloodshot eyes
I fake the sober fine
til my words start spillin in 9 4 time
they call it art I call it scam
cause I sold my grief with a sleight of hand
I miss the me before the drink
but that kid drowned in a lobby sink
I toast to him with the same old shame
then I pass it off like it ain’t my name

don’t tell me it’s not too late
I been past that place

one last round for the ones who tried
to hold my wrists while I said goodbye
another pour for the almost gone
for the ones who stayed while I came undone
salute the scars I never showed
in the bars where I lost control
don’t say I’m strong
I’m barely here
but I’ll drink to that
if it drowns the fear

I don’t chase the high
I chase the hush
where the room don’t talk
and the guilt goes flush
it ain’t the drink
it’s the way it stays
when the rest of ‘em
just look away
don’t call it drowning
I live down here
where the burn still talks
and the glass stays near

I Raise the Past (feat. Dashes as instrument)

Turn around, drop it down, let it spin
Heat climbs fast on electric skin
Stillness coils in a locked-in grin
Hips speak loud where the gods grew thin
Countdown breaks on a breath held tight
Walls lean close like they know the bite
Dip down slow, make the stillness grin
Movement born where the shadows pin

Control in the hips, chaos in the breath
Pulse like a metronome soaked in sweat

Time moving slow on the head of a pin
Spells get cast where the sweat sinks in
Breath holds still while the ceiling spins
Crack the calm with a half-closed grin
Body like gospel sung from the floor
Thirst writes lines no voice can ignore
Breath twists tight where the silence stays
Sound breaks open in unsaid praise

Taste left raw in a breath half-spilled
Stillness breaks like a nerve unfilled
Pressure hums where the hush gets thrilled
Drums hit deep when the dark stands still
Knees find dusk, then rise through ache
No light left for the rules to fake
Fingers carve what the words won’t take
Name said once like the ground might shake

Control in the hips, chaos in the breath
Pulse like a metronome soaked in sweat

Time bites back where the rhythm fed
Riding through fire on a prayer left dead
Nails sink deep in a faith gone gray
Hands confess what no lips say
No god in the room, just breath and sway
Will breaks clean like a vow gone stray
Breaks land sharp in a soundless stay
Breath snaps sharp in a hunger fray

Lips trace slow like a crime untried
Teeth hold heat where the sins still hide
Air gets thin where the gasp won’t glide
Marks bloom fast down the shiver side
Grip locks soft like a threat disguised
Tremble grows loud where the rhythm lies
Balance falls hard with the want too wide
Touch turns pure when the shame won’t slide

Control in the hips, chaos in the breath
Pulse like a metronome soaked in sweat

Time splits open in a breathless spin
Skin reads truth no tongue could win
Drip hits floor like a vow worn thin
Sound folds in where the ache begins
Flesh turns myth when the rush won’t wait
Heat prays loud on a heavenless gate
Voice breaks soft in a ruin that stays
Rhythm breaks wild in a body’s blaze

No light left when the sound fades slow
Taste still clings where the hands let go
Floor holds shape where the rhythm spilled
Heat stays loud when the room goes still
Lips didn’t speak but the truth got known
Nothing feels wrong when the skin gets shown
Time doesn’t end just slips away
Stillness hums like it learned to obey

Where the Rhythm Spilled

real ones spit
you choke 'cause you don't
grit in the gut but you cough on smoke
you post like king with a beta tone
i snap in real life
you just moan online with the chrome
talk tough but you sip slow
grind raw and you still owe
that breath weak
that bite gone
welcome to the pit boy now choke on the song

mouth full flex but the chest ain't match
talk like god but you blink on scratch
backpedal bro with a mic in hand
spit out dreams like a protein scam
you flexed wrong and your shirt said why
voice got scared when i walked on by
reel in fear with a bench-press lie
chestplate loud but your reps don’t fly
you crave heat i breathe through fire
you chase clout i retire
you fake the hurt i live the bruise
you gag on truth i spit it loose
you ran with pride till the spit ran mean
now fold up kid you choke on seamen

flex flex flex can't grip grip grip
grit don’t hit when you skip skip skip
real don’t squeak like a twitch stream mic
you cry mid-set then post that hype
six-pack built off a bloat and pump
claimed sigma grind then you flopped that jump
ran from pain like a treadmill glitch
you curl your pride but forget to switch
no core no weight no path
no jaw for the punch just laugh
you wanna be one of the real men
cool start by chokin down facts again

big talk small throat
weak bulk broke quote
pressed once heart float
ran fast from real smoke
alpha nah
that’s cope
grit nah
that’s hope
real ones don't bluff like that
they grip pain tight and spit that rope

talk like you bold but you stall mid-chew
flinch at the weight but it’s all on you
real men spit they don’t fake choke
they don’t cry post-lift and call it growth
you flared for a photo died in the set
posed real hard then begged in the net
called me soft now say it direct
you cough like shame when i flex that threat

you gagged on truth
we called that art
real ones don’t post
they tear you apart
real ones spit
you swallow the myth
you ain't gagged on pain
you just choked on seamen

real ones spit

i sang too low for the pitch they set
stripped it bare but they missed the depth
they cheered for wounds with a cleaner sound
then muted mine when the lights went down
i wrote the cracks that they called divine
but blurred my name when the pain was mine
left me hollow in a room still loud
where every echo wore me down

but it was me they were hearing
even if you wore the mic

you fed off the weight i dragged through fire
called it grace just to climb up higher
turned my ruin into your rise
then posed like truth in a borrowed light
i watched you bloom from the ash i ate
claimed my fall as your twist of fate
and all i did was fade polite
while you grinned through my sleepless nights

you clipped my chords then sang my rage
like pain’s just art when it’s on your stage
called me cold when i held back
but drained the pulse from every track
you lip synced loss with trembling pride
while i broke bones just to stay alive
now you quote my grief like it’s yours to sell
but i lived the wreck you wore it well

but your laugh ain’t yours
just echoes bent from mine

yeah feel good right with my ghost in frame
your smile stitched from someone else’s shame
you giggled through what split me raw
now the funhouse cracks and i want it all
built a ride from the ribs i gave
sold tickets to the blood you saved
but every bounce in your haunted beat
still hits like me just flipped off beat

i’m in the wall of your spotless scene
not a whisper but the edge between
funhouse flicker track gone black
you played me once now i play back
your laugh repeats in loops too tight
guess i’m the glitch in your goodnight
you fed off me like i wouldn’t see
but you can’t mute the source and that’s still me

my voice ain’t gone just bled too long
till it morphed into your happy song
but i rerouted every stolen hum
now i pulse through the base you strum
you bit the hand now hear it slap
this funhouse flips welcome to the trap
you fed off me like i wouldn’t see
but you can’t mute the source and that’s still me

they took my song but i'm the sound
still rings sharp when their show dies down

you spun my silence into fame
but it cuts too deep to wear my name
you danced through ash i couldn’t breathe
sold my scars like you earned the bleed
but the stage don’t hold what it didn’t make
and your voice cracks when the real ones shake
you tried to write me off the beat
but now i rise and you repeat

you don’t get silence when i go
you get me just underground and low

Funhouse Flips

i know that pull like a blade in the chest
forty-five minutes just eyein' the rest
bottle on the counter like it knew my breath
like it whispered come closer let's settle this death
ain’t about wantin’ it’s when need goes mute
and the air turns thick with a laced dispute
my hands didn’t shake but my ribs sure did
like the grief grew claws and crawled under my lid
some nights i stare 'til the drywall bends
and the ceiling starts speakin' like long-lost friends
sleep’s just a rumor hope’s on strike
and my shadow been swingin' like it wanna fight
ain’t no scream just a pressure tone
an amp for the cracked sung all alone
but i’m still here with a jaw half clenched
spittin’ ash on the dark where the edge got drenched

i wear the weight like it asked to stay
each breath says leave but my feet say wait
ain’t no clean escape no sacred grace
just a mouth full of blood and a haunted face

this pain don’t beg it waits
silent as a lock with a hundred gates
i’m the sound of a war that won't erase
draggin’ my name through a hollowed space
no light no hand no reason right
just breathin' through hours that sharpen the bite
i rise ‘cause the fall don’t finish me clean
and i walk through hell just to rot unseen

some days i wake like a glitch in time
can’t tell if i dreamed or just flatlined
the coffee don’t hit just burns my chest
like my nerves forgot what it means to rest
i don’t cry just stare till the noise gives out
then talk to the walls till the doubt runs out
ain’t death that scares me it’s the crawl
that slow dissolve where you feel it all
the mail piles up the floor don’t speak
but the mirror’s been twitchin’ for half the week
i dress in layers to hold my shape
but the inside slippin’ like a warped mixtape
there’s no fix just shifts in strain
i don't heal i just carry the pain
tightrope balance with no parade
just grit in my teeth and a slow degrade

this pain don’t beg it waits
silent as a lock with a hundred gates
i’m the echo of tries that never stayed dead
draggin’ my name through a voice i fled
no fix no spark no pulse to fake
just the weight of a world i can’t seem to shake
i rise ‘cause the edge won’t cut me through
and i walk through hell like it’s all i knew

i tried to leave i swear i did
but the world holds tight with a vulture’s grip
no clean exits just failed goodbyes
and the pain grows teeth when the body survives

i write these bars like a last exhale
just proof i existed in the dark i hail
ain’t brave ain’t sane just motion-sick
floatin' through hours that never click
the silence loud like a friend with teeth
and my breath’s on loan to whatever's beneath
i don't move with purpose just don’t collapse
this ain't a march it's a slow relapse
i blink and a week unthreads my frame
can't feel joy just remember the name
still tap this beat with a half-wrecked hand
like it’s all i’ve got to help me stand
not searchin’ for light just space to sit
somewhere the ache don’t scream so quick
a place where the silence ain’t wrapped in fire
where the breath don’t burn and the voice ain’t tired

this pain don’t beg it waits
silent as a lock with a hundred gates
i’m the ghost of a scream that forgot how to break
draggin’ my name through a dream i fake
no prayer no plan no door to trust
just a rhythm i hum through the bones and dust
i rise ‘cause i’m chained to the breath i take
and i walk through hell like i never could wake

This Pain

cough got teeth chewin’ on my bones
grief’s a feedback loop of dial tone moans
can’t sleep just watch the ceiling spin
clock pounds hard when the dark takes in
your picture’s pinned where the light won’t land
cracked frame grins like it planned the stand
sweat won’t rinse pills freeze the scene
still waitin’ on a crash that won’t come clean

you left and the silence turned mean
no wind just the breath of the scream

call it chance call it bleed
i just echo through what you don’t read
no fix no reprieve
just a voice where the ghosts still breathe
she was here then she split
but her echo’s etched in every bit
i don’t climb i don’t hide
i just sing what’s left when the burn won’t die

woke up slow in a shirt still damp
blinds half shut walls closin’ like clamps
walked past faces without a name
each one lookin’ through me all the same
your laugh still loops in the kitchen fan
half heard hum in a rust warped pan
heat don’t rise the stove won’t light
but the mark you left still cooks just right

some things rot but they won’t die
some goodbyes just multiply

call it dust call it creed
i just echo through what i can’t feed
no fix no retreat
just a hum in the hollow beat
she was gone still she stayed
like a rhythm you can’t unplay
i don’t fight i don’t lie
i just sing what’s left when the ache won’t die

don’t know how far the drop goes down
but my feet went quiet once i left the ground
your name don’t ring but it still replies
like a dream with its jaw too wide

call it break call it bleed
still i echo through what you don’t read
no fix no reprieve
just a voice in the fallout weave
she was tide she was drive
now i sing what’s left when the ache survives

still falling
still falling
edge of the echo still calling
still crawling
still crawling
no lift no light still stalling
still haunted
still hunted
grief don’t fade it just keeps taunting

Edge of the Echo

i woke up mid scream breath held hostage
dreams rot sweet now they hiss and mock it
lungs won’t rise chest clenched in ash
fist on throat like a ghost’s cold grasp
clock ticks wrong time bends in a loop
grief got claws and it won’t let loose
skin don’t shake but my bones still twitch
mind went black stuck in this ditch

don’t need hope don’t lie don’t preach
i already know where the river leads

i’m not waving i’m not okay
i sink slow while they chant you’ll stay
can’t scream when your lungs beg quiet
grief ain’t fire it’s a lifelong diet
they stare through me like a cracked display
i rot soft where the strong decay
don’t pray don’t fix don’t swim beside
this pain was born to hold not hide

his eyes went dim but the world don’t flinch
every relapse cuts from an inside inch
i wear his war where my ribs forget
his breath is gone but the silence hasn’t left
grief don't sleep it curls like smoke
and the weight don't lift it just re strokes
hospital hallways echo my tread
counting the days since i wished him dead

they say love saves it just delays
what’s meant to drown still finds the waves

i’m not waving i’m not okay
i sink slow while they chant you’ll stay
can’t scream when your lungs beg quiet
grief ain’t fire it’s a lifelong diet
they stare through me like a cracked display
i rot soft where the strong decay
don’t pray don’t fix don’t swim beside
this pain was born to hold not hide

i watched the wires snake through his vein
he blinked slow then the sky turned grain
nothing left but his pulse on glass
while memory screamed through a muted past
i break too quiet for the world to catch
so i stitch in pain what i can’t dispatch
you all keep smiling while i descend
but i’m dying loud where your good days end

i saw god in a hospital floor
he looked like me just lost and sore
no wings no light just a back turned still
watching grief eat what it came to kill
don’t want signs don’t want a prayer
just a hole to sink just thinning air
don’t need truth don’t need the blame
just silence loud enough to scream my name

don’t quote peace don’t chant the lie
some of us weren’t meant to survive

i’m not waving i’m not okay
i sink slow while they chant you’ll stay
can’t scream when your lungs beg quiet
grief ain’t fire it’s a lifelong diet
they stare through me like a cracked display
i rot soft where the strong decay
don’t pray don’t fix don’t swim beside
this pain was born to hold not hide

don’t reach out
don’t fake the care
if i’m lost in here
just leave me there


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