Livestream 3

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=DzXEM2beb8g

You can ask me how I'm doing, I'll say fine.
Even though the pain is killing me inside.
You can Ask me how I'm feeling, I'm alright.
You want the truth then you can look me in the eyes.

You can ask me how I've been I'll say okay,
I never gave a fuck about my feelings anyways
You can ask me hows its been I'll say, it's great
I never wanted your sympathy in the first place.

And I know I really mean that in the worst way.
I'd share my side by I don't think you'd ever see it.
I turn my back on everybody even me.
I'd say I'm sorry but I don't know what It'd would mean.

Black Nails, Black Sheep
I was never meant to be
I'm in the dark, but I can see.
This world was never meant for me
 
Should I stay or should I go,
I've been walkin down this road.
As of lately I've been homesick 
but I'm still so sick of home.  

I'm feelin just like a ghost 
I'm nobody, I'm alone
Got no body, Just a soul
My backs been been on these ropes.

My hearts been getting cold.
My skins been getting numb
My minds been getting dull
I see what I've become.

Black Nails, Black Sheep, 
I was never meant to be
I'm in the dark, but I can see
This world was never meant for me

Music Video

Black Sheep (Prod. ʎpoqou & combination lock) [Music Video in Description]

ghost girl (prod. lederrick)

MUSIC VIDEO
https://youtu.be/Tu2TnagcIVc

APPLE MUSIC
https://itunes.apple.com/us/album/angeldust-feat-emo-fruits/1356302503?i=1356302512

SPOTIFY
https://open.spotify.com/track/4MCJAWLCv4kpZp1EpFdFHn?si=FzFrp2qyTB-eaYqURGs2uQ

emo fruits:
soundcloud: @damiyen
twitter: myemofruits
instagram: emofruits

pink cig
instagram: @pinkcig
twitter: @pinkcig

AngelDust - single
pink cig & emo fruits - Girls, Drugs, & Dying


LYRICS:
[pink cig]
          hook:
she heard the songs i wrote about her now she hate my guts 
i've seen people trippin less while they on angel dust 
either way you'd always say i'll never be enough 
don't forget that you're the reason i don't give a fuck
[emo fruits]
         verse 1:
Drugs I'm tastin 
Cars I'm racin
Cocaine laced in
Still gon face it 
They won't think I'll make it 
But bitch im bouta make it 
I don't think she love me 
But in my bed she naked 
Dyin cuz it hurt too much 
Cryin cuz she hate my guts
She don't care 
I'm in her guts 
Shawty catch my angel dust 
Drugs I'm tastin 
Cars I'm racin 
Cocaine laced in 
Still gon face it 
I don't really got friends 
I don't really got you 
Yeah you tell me that it hurts 
But drugs they be helping u 
Yeah u trippin off of shit 
Yeah i'm trippin off of u 
Yeah I'm all in ur head 
Yeah ur all in mine too

(hook)

[pink cig]
          verse 2:
codeine up inside me
bad bitch right beside me
praying that the devil never find me
shawty wanna fuck me like she like me
why u wanna know shit 
i be on my own shit 
demons in my circle don't get muthufuckin close bitch
wanna fly away
just another day 
thotty said she love me 
do not trust a word they say
          outro:
i dont think i know what love is
i think ive had enough of this
i dont think i know what love is
ill just stick to my activis

i dont think i know what love is
i think i had enough of this

AngelDust - single

pink cig & emo fruits - AngelDust *prod. Roman RSK*(MUSIC VIDEO IN DESC.)

im dead inside & ur my lil zombie baby.

a love song

heartbroken teenagers

Heartbroken Teenagers <3 *prod. Padilla*

pretty coke nose <//3
.
.
(emo fruits)

baby walk away 
u dont care where u go
pretty lil bitch with a pretty coke nose
i dont get no sleep
i dont get it anymore
i dont want u back
dont wanna miss it anymore 
baby walk away 
u dont care where u go
pretty lil bitch with a pretty coke nose
i dont get no sleep
i dont get it anymore
i dont want u back
dont wanna miss it anymore

(spaceman zack)

Watch you walk away idk where imma go 
Lil LoverBoy need a hunnid for a show
Pictures of your face and a pocket full of dope
Blood on my phone it been drippin from my nose
Baby love me, but you in love with the blow
Baby fuck me, 
I need something to cope
Can you touch me, 
baby I don’t know
Cause we all wanna die but we just dont show it
Hold be tight baby need to feel your grip
I don’t care where you goin I just need this kiss
I don’t really wanna lie on a night like this
Wanna show you that I love you In the back of the whip

pretty coke nose w/ spaceman zack (prod. Rodger)

prod. by killedmyself

Lyrics:

(Verse)
A harsh winter got me livin life in poverty,
Cuz jobs never pick it up and now the cars empty,
But watch summer come around I hope that all of my problems get solved now it came around and shit is all the same,
My thoughts written could begin to take it all away,
I march deep into the heart of nature callin me,
It's part of me,
And people on this rock we be,
I'm gettin tired of this anxiety thats haunting me

(Chorus)
Its just the way that it goes,
Sometimes I lose my control,
I'm puttin holes in the wall,
Don't wanna get yall involved,
It's best you leave me alone,
Don't like this feelin at all,
Who can I trust I don't know,
That's why I keep on my own,
It's just the way that it goes

(Verse 2)
Some days when I wake up,
I get a sense of bliss that escapes me when the things I run away from reappear,
Which just makes me wanna stay in bed wasting the day,
Its my life homie I could go and waste it away,
I'm afraid to admit that some days I get to thinkin that maybe I wasn't made for this place that I live,
Cuz I can't seem to fit,
And the days seem to end really quick,
I'm fuckin done I can't take this again

(Chorus)
Its just the way that it goes,
Sometimes I lose my control,
I'm puttin holes in the wall,
Don't wanna get yall involved,
It's best you leave me alone,
Don't like this feelin at all,
Who can I trust I don't know,
That's why I keep on my own,
It's just the way that it goes,
Sometimes I lose my control,
I'm puttin holes in the wall,
Don't wanna get yall involved,
It's best you leave me alone,
Don't like this feelin at all,
Who can I trust I don't know,
That's why I keep on my own,
It's just the way that it goes

the way it goes (prod. killedmyself)

standing at your doormat (ft. yung axstn) (prod. northeast lights X odece)

thanks to @frvrndalwys for this collab, love him so much <3

Lyrics: 
[chorus: gothurted]
I'm full of pain but I'm still feeling empty
All the hopes and faith have left me
I would like to stop to cry like this     
Do you even know how fucking feels?
Feeling far away from you
I don't even know what I can do
I don't think that I will able to do that
I swear that I'm trying to moving on

[verse: frvr&alwys]
Help me I'm dying
I said I'd be fine I was lying
'Cause I knew from the start you were leaving
But I can't move on from this feelings
Stung when you left
Numb now that you're gone
My heart hurts theres no point in moving on
I'm fucked up so I make another song
You weren't there when I was not strong

[chorus: gothurted]
I'm full of pain but I'm still feeling empty
All the hopes and faith have left me
I would like to stop to cry like this     
Do you even know how fucking feels?
Feeling far away from you
I don't even know what I can do
I don't think that I will able to do that
I swear that I'm trying to moving on

[verse: gothurted]
I'm trying to moving on
But you're always on my mind
I feel so fucking low
Even when I'm always fine 
I swear I've never meant to hurt you
Shawty I would never
I think I'll never leave you
Doesn't matter what you will say  

[chorus: gothurted]
I'm full of pain but I'm still feeling empty
All the hopes and faith have left me
I would like to stop to cry like this     
Do you even know how fucking feels?
Feeling far away from you
I don't even know what I can do
I don't think that I will able to do that
I swear that I'm trying to moving on
I'm trying to moving on

STREAM

moving on ft. frvr&alwys [prod. metlast]

remember to always keep your polo tucked and to give ur mom a hug ;p

KEEPMYPOLOTUCKED [NOW ON SPOTIFY/APPLE MUSIC]

BROKEGIRL ft MISHAAL PROD. RL BEATS ( NOW ON SPOTIFY/APPLE)

Produced by Paryo

Lyric video: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=O_joXtIT0is

LUV U BABY WHY YOU NEVER TELL THE TRUTH

Lyrics:

[Verse]
see i've been trynna find a way
but cant escape this fucking place
and you know that i'm fine
had to say it just in case
trynna stay in my own lane
dont give a fuck bout what u say
all i see is fucking rain
and trynna live with all this pain
all i do is fucking sleep
heres my heart that you can keep
yes i know that love is fake
but i fell in it way too deep
i cant go back theres no help
yeah i rather burn in hell
being stranded in the woods
just wanna die, i wish i could

[Chorus]
i survived, but no one tried
can you look me in my eyes
not much time for me to hide
help me find a brighter light
yeah im fine but theres a line
i have nobody by my side
it's been ages since i cried
thats why im stuck inside my mind
i dont know what to do
i was waiting here for you
come and save me, luv you baby
why you never tell the truth
fucked up feelings,
have no meanings, 
stayed up 2 nights
it got me bleeding
why you gotta do this
tell me why

[Bridge]
yeah tell me why
i stayed up 2 nights
tell me why

baby i tried
waiting for you 
but you didn't reply
why, why

[Verse]
see i've been trynna find a way
but cant escape this fucking place
and you know that i'm fine
had to say it just in case
trynna stay in my own lane
dont give a fuck bout what u say
all i see is fucking rain
and trynna live with all this pain
all i do is fucking sleep
heres my heart that you can keep
yes i know that love is fake
but i fell in it way too deep
i cant go back theres no help
yeah i rather burn in hell
being stranded in the woods
just wanna die, i wish i could

[Chorus]
i survived, but no one tried
can you look me in my eyes
not much time for me to hide
help me find a brighter light
yeah im fine but theres a line
i have nobody by my side
it's been ages since i cried
thats why im stuck inside my mind
i dont know what to do
i was waiting here for you
come and save me, luv you baby
why you never tell the truth
fucked up feelings,
have no meanings, 
stayed up 2 nights
it got me bleeding
why you gotta do this
tell me why

Biteki びてき

brighter light (prod. Paryo)

[verse]
What if I still miss you
Would you come back?
I will give you my everything
Will you give it back to me (to me)
All the night long
Spending it together
Go along with my life
Would you make it even better? (even better)

[chorus]
I'm feeling so hopeless
Inside my room
Losing my mind 
What should I do?
Live my life
Or end it right now 
I can't feel anything
I'm getting every fucking day worse
Nobody next to me but the illusion of a friend
Nobody texts me, Nobody really cares
Maybe I should kill myself
Maybe this world is not meant for me

[Verse]
Lonely nights 
Talking to myself
Every time
Lying on my bed
I think about you
I think about us
Held to each other
We don't give a fuck about
What people think
What's going on

[chorus]
I'm feeling so hopeless
Inside my room
Losing my mind
What should I do?
Live my life
Or end it right now
I can't feel anything
I'm getting every fucking day worse
Nobody next to me but the illusion of a friend
Nobody texts me, Nobody really cares
Maybe I should kill myself
Maybe this world is not meant for me

Hopeless [prod. micco]

Iced Coffee with pink cig (prod. omgsora)

[Prod. Diamoon]

🖤 🖤 🖤 🖤 🖤 🖤 🖤 🖤 🖤 🖤 🖤 🖤 
LOVE YOU ALL, THANK YOU FOR LISTENING
🖤 🖤 🖤 🖤 🖤 🖤 🖤 🖤 🖤 🖤 🖤 🖤

Lyrics:
Don't let go
Your the only one

Its been getting way harder just to keep going on

I know
that things are harder than they seem
Your trying everything
But nothings working out


I know what its like to drown
When you cant breathe, inside your skin
Holding onto broken pieces within
I dont wanna show up im a burden

Close the curtains
Feeling worthless
If you really loved me did i deserve this
You only know its love when the pain is worth it 
I gave up everything ended up deserted


Don't let go
Your the only one

Its been getting way harder just to keep going on

I know
that things are harder than they seem
Your trying everything
But nothings working out

Don't Let Go [Prod. Diamoon]

but what did i expect

prod: https://soundcloud.com/caspr
artwork by: https://soundcloud.com/caustyk



i don’t wanna fall in love 
and fall apart again 
idk if i’m ok enough so i keep taking medicine 
to give my head a rest 
but what did i expect 

i said i’d give him everything but everything meant nothing 
but i still stayed so i could feel i’m holding on to something 
n i feel like a burnout 
lie n say that i’m better on my own now 

ok 
alright 
i’m starting to feel nothing when i lay awake at night 
ok 
alright 
i’ll fool myself with every other lie 

i still think of every word you said to me 
trying to ease the memory by drowning it in nicotine 
i swear to fucking god that one day you’ll be dead to me
but right now just to hear your voice i swear that i’d do anything

medicine (prod. caspr)

I got these demons inside me
Taking his time with me
Making my heart bleed
Taking his time with me
Demons inside me
Taking his time with me
Making my heart bleed
Taking his time

I'm in this bad dream
Waiting for this new pain
I can't stand this old way
I can't stand this old way
And as it turns grey
Find it and I can't speak
Losing words it's in me
Losing words it's in me
It's in me
It's in me
Losing words it's in me
We can wait we can wait here
We can stay we can stay here

I got these demons inside me
Taking his time with me
Making my heart bleed
Taking his time with me
Demons inside me
Taking his time with me
Making my heart bleed
Taking his time

I got these demons inside
Devil at my bedside
I might be losing my mind

It's keeping me up at night
Don't mean to be the bad guy
I know I've hurt you a lot

I know we need things to change
I can't stand this old way
I can't stand this old way

So as we pack up and leave
One last time, we will bleed
These demons won't let me sleep

I got these demons inside me
Taking his time with me
Making my heart bleed
Taking his time with me
Demons inside me
Taking his time with me
Making my heart bleed
Taking his time

Inside (feat. Gemini Aaliyah)

vintage vibes so run it up <3
feat @nicoteenninyo
prod @treetimee
mixed by @trechorboy & @wgm2093
cover art https://www.instagram.com/n.gorbatova

lyrics:
[Hook: heroine diaries]
I don’t even want her but I want her in the moonlight
I ain’t been outside in a minute ain’t seen sunlight
You can come closer girl I swear that I don’t bite
You can take my hand then all of this is alright
I don’t even want her but I want her in the moonlight
I ain’t been outside in a minute ain’t seen sunlight
You can come closer girl I swear that I don’t bite
You can take my hand then all of this is alright

[Verse: nicoteen ninyo]
She don't even want me
But she want me when the mood right
She don't even love me but she wants me just to waste time
I'm a put my hand up on her throat and make her lose life
Biting when I stroke hoe gone hurt me but that shit tight 
Screaming out for more she transform on a dark night
Lookin into souls breaking bones with her cold eyes
Tell her that I love her so my passion turns her tongue tied
She don't even understand love so it's all lies
Back stabs me in the moonlight
It alright though cause she by my side
Not desperate cause every other bitch I slide
Cheap liquor she go dummy on ice
I don't know if I'm wrong or right
But tonight I'll hide my doubts inside
Hold her tight as the hour dies
To be close one last time in the moonlight

[Hook: heroine diaries]
I don’t even want her but I want her in the moonlight
I ain’t been outside in a minute ain’t seen sunlight
You can come closer girl I swear that I don’t bite
You can take my hand then all of this is alright
I don’t even want her but I want her in the moonlight
I ain’t been outside in a minute ain’t seen sunlight
You can come closer girl I swear that I don’t bite
You can take my hand then all of this is alright

[Outro: heroine diaries]
We can make it alright, alright
Still might die tonight, tonight
Come alive at midnight, midnight
I’ve been up two nights, nights
Cry with me and play my songs
If you don’t love me run along
I’m just here tryna right my wrongs
I’m just here tryna right my wrongs

blood on my halo (feat. nicoteen ninyo) (prod. treetime)

Lyrics: 

I'm so sick inside my head
I don't ever feel alright
I think i'll disappear on you tonight
Cause I know you'll save my life

I know I'm too fucked up to feel okay
And I know your love's a sin
But I'm still hanging on your every word
I can't keep my feelings in

And I'm not okaaaay (I'm not okay, I swear I'm not)
Okay (I'm not okay, I swear I'm not)
Okay (I'm not okay, I swear I'm not)
Okay (I'm not okay, I swear I'm)
Is anybody like me (Is anybody hurting)
Does everybody hate me (does everybody hate me)
I'm not too good at feelings    (i wish that i could feel them)
Is anybody crazy (cause I feel like I'm crazy)

Fingertips on your skin, you feel so cold
Speak to me with your eyes and kiss my soul
Make me feel alright, warm my lonely nights
Make me whole

Talk to me like you know that I'm the one
Tell me who you talk to when I'm gone
You tell me it's alright, dont worry baby tonight
We're alone

But I don't believe you
Cause I think your love is see-thru
It's shattered inside of my head girl
And I can't trust you in my world

Spotify

Body // Soul

just one of the infinite advantages of studying the art of the blade

Ain't It Funny How It Goes

lyrics ~

sui~

feel so so far away
from consciousness
in this bed
try to
list off wanted things
but the storys cut short
the end
the trouble of thinking
has proved to be too much
theres no more dreams to crush

head filled up
with a heart half empty
senses come undone
do you believe in yourself?
that thought was always so foreign
who knows?

sting of honesty from the whiplash
sat back watching from a distance
out of body this experience is
nothing as expected

grasping for a breath of fresh air
but the smog is getting stale
cause the less there was to know
the happier i was

taken back
looking at
everything there
is to offer
not much to stand on
like whats the point
when nothings pure at all
sitting here waiting
for you to come make me
something i say im not

demi ~

out of body & out of my mind
i wish somebody would say ill b fine
wouldnt care if its a lie
ye i know i made it so far
im still weak n ive tired so hard
to fight off all the feelings that ive
carried in my heart

overthinking bout
my past mistakes
i wanna fade away
into a void of nothingness
war of habit
i wont give control
i still break down
from time 2 time
but i got no more
tears 2 cry

both~

taken back
looking at
everything there
is to offer
not much to stand on
like whats the point
when nothings pure at all
sitting here waiting
for you to come make me
something i say im not

suisai & demxntia ~ sting of honesty

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