I FEEL LIKE

[Intro]
Yeah…
They don’t see the damage…
They only see the surface…
These fucks turned me into… this…

[Verse 1]
I trusted too fast, gave my all before they cared
Every word, every promise, they manipulated and snared
I was a man who wore my heart, now I’m questioning my mind
Every action, every thought — I replay it all in time

I used to smile, used to laugh, used to feel alive
Now I second-guess my every move just to survive
They gaslit me, guilt-tripped me, made me think I was insane
Every compliment had poison, every hug was just a chain

[Pre-Chorus]
I thought love was safe — I thought trust was real
But they twisted every bond, every feeling I could feel
I’m fighting shadows, fighting ghosts — they’re everywhere
These fucks — yeah, they left me gasping for air

[Chorus]
These fucks turned me into a psychologically abused male
I gave my soul, my heart — and they left me frail
I trusted too hard, now I’m living in the veil
These fucks — yeah, they turned me into a psychologically abused male
I scream, I cry, I bleed — still I prevail
I’m rising from the wreckage, telling my tale

[Verse 2]
They lied, they cheated, they tore down every part of me
Told me I was worthless, laughed at my insecurities
Every memory a trigger, every silence a knife
They turned my world upside down, tried to steal my life

But I’m here, I’m breathing, I’m standing through the pain
I ain’t broken, I ain’t silent, I won’t go insane
I take my scars as medals, my trauma as a flame
These fucks thought they’d bury me — but I changed the game

[Pre-Chorus]
I won’t be gaslit, I won’t be caged
I ain’t their puppet, I ain’t their stage
I’m fighting back, I’m claiming air
They made me hurt, but I’m aware

[Chorus]
These fucks turned me into a psychologically abused male
I gave my soul, my heart — and they left me frail
I trusted too hard, now I’m living in the veil
These fucks — yeah, they turned me into a psychologically abused male
I scream, I cry, I bleed — still I prevail
I’m rising from the wreckage, telling my tale

[Bridge]
I loved too much, I gave too much, I believed in them all
But every smile hid a dagger, every whisper a fall
Now I’m learning to rebuild, learning to trust me
Every bruise in my mind is a lesson — I set myself free

[Chorus]
These fucks turned me into a psychologically abused male
But I’m standing now, I’m rising — I will not fail
I’m stronger than the scars, sharper than the nails
These fucks — yeah, they tried, but they can’t derail
I scream, I cry, I bleed — yet I prevail
From the shadows of abuse, I write my tale

[Outro]
They made me doubt, they made me hurt, they made me break
But I took the pain, I took the lessons — and I remade
These fucks turned me into a psychologically abused male…
But now… I’m free.

Psychologically Abused

One In a Million

Dancing

glowr - moody stare (gloucestershire lingo)

glowr

Jan's Mix.  Amazing work, my friend.  This was a blast!
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Easy For You Instrumental Jam | Andrew Doyle & Jan Schonander

Lyrics written and performed by Codex Scrolls & Son of Lamech for C.rap productions 2020
Beat By Codex Scrolls For C.rap productions 2020
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The Diamond In The Rough by Codex Scrolls & Son of Lamech

New fire beat
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Real Deal - Instrumental

One of my favourite early John Cale tracks, simple but beautiful.

Big White Cloud (John Cale Cover)

A collaboration of @mystique_wind and @enigmacurry

This music was born out of the debate about whether music can heal. What do you think?

Brainwaves - Mystique Wind | EnigmaCurry

An experiment of using modulation, to humanize the sound of orchestral plug-ins.

I finally understand the importance of modulation of classical instruments. Now on to master it.

What If

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Space Station

please help the Scribes with any donations you can, we intend to push the music movement this year to our limits .
much love to the world.
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(Scribes of Avalon). We are now many
Always willing to collaborate and I have beats for sale if required as do other members of the group. message me for details.
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The Diamond In The Rough by Codex Scrolls & Son of Lamech

Codex Scrolls. (Scribes of Avalon)