set fire to my boundaries and let my eyes
rest in front of the blue light
say I chose this don't lie no don't lie

my head's light another time but I won't die
unless I let my red eyes
rest infront of the blue light
one more time, no

I'm in the sunlight
but my face is pale
no wonder
you still think I'm ill

hikikomori (2019)

who do i invoke?

ENGLISH TRANSLATION:
https://genius.com/Genius-english-translations-chris-rain-non-mi-fotterai-lyrics

LYRICS:
e intanto penso: "che mi importerà?"
delle voce che mi odiano, io sarò una star
e come il vento porto l'ombra ma non sparirò
ho il cervello come il mare in tempesta ma no, non mi fotterai
(porto l'ombra)
e intanto penso: "che mi importerà?"
delle voce che mi odiano, io sarò una star
e come il vento porto l'ombra ma non sparirò
ho il cervello come il mare in tempesta ma no, non mi fotterai

e sarò ricco e andò via da qua
la mia anima la lascerò in Italia
ora mi amano tutti questi infami ah
la droga li ha sciupati, lo ha fatto per me, lo ha fatto per me

e ci han solo la madre
amici di droghe tagliate
il paese dell'arte
ma io sto su strade bucate

e intanto penso: "che mi importerà?"
delle voce che mi odiano, io sarò una star
e come il vento porto l'ombra ma non sparirò
ho il cervello come il mare in tempesta ma no, non mi fotterai
(porto l'ombra)
e intanto penso: "che mi importerà?"
delle voce che mi odiano, io sarò una star
e come il vento porto l'ombra ma non sparirò
ho il cervello come il mare in tempesta ma no, non mi fotterai

lei mi guarda le storie
ma è la tua ragazza
odiami, odiami
tanto io resto bello
felice
sereno
e mi ama sempre di più
e mi segue se mi odi

e intanto penso: "che mi importerà?"
delle voce che mi odiano, io sarò una star
e come il vento porto l'ombra ma non sparirò
ho il cervello come il mare in tempesta ma no, non mi fotterai

e intanto penso: "che mi importerà?"
delle voce che mi odiano, io sarò una star
e come il vento porto l'ombra ma non sparirò
ho il cervello come il mare in tempesta ma no, non mi fotterai

(porto l'obra)
(no non mi fotterai, mai)
(no non mi fotterai)

CHRIS RAIN - NON MI FOTTERAI

lion

i can't take this any longer

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(Broadus)

I’m stuck inside this room with people they’ve all got it figured out 
I wonder when they’ll see the outsider for who I really am 
Can’t really catch on to the flow of conversation 
But for now I stay afloat 

When you’re boarding watch your step cos everybody’s prone to blow 
I’m here calling out again I’m not sick I'm too exposed 
I’m off fighting enemies I can’t see can’t be composed 
What a joke, Im a trope

Falling in and out of time
I can’t keep myself in check 
Show the line I gotta cross 
To make it real or make a mess 

I don’t understand a word 
black sheep inside of the herd 
Yell again this time it’s different 
Maybe I’ll listen and learn 

Listen to my opus the rope was tied where my throat is 
Notice Moments before I surrender motion 
And break down and lose my focus 

The motive for lethal doses was isolation to fit in 
Now everything’s here indifferent 
There’s no more visible light 

Wh-Where is the bullet to break, break
Bullet to break 
Wh-Where is my stomach for change, change
Stomach for change 
I-I-I could be held point blank, blank
Held point blank  
And still never take the blame, blame
‘Ver take the blame

Wh-Where is the bullet to break, break
Bullet to break 
Wh-Where is my stomach for change, change
Stomach for change 
I-I-I could be held point blank, blank
Held point blank  
And still never take the blame, blame 
‘Ver take the blame 

(Rivilin) 

Blocking my ears till I couldn't hear,
The infection's made it perfectly clear
That I don't wanna go outside, no,
Sensory overloaded till I'm withdrawn.

But maybe it's fate that I entered this way,
With the blade pressed to my throat, I'm just a mistake.
I'm the king of self-loathing,
I know I'm no good for anyone else.

It's like I'm missing in action, 404 gone,
If you think for a second I'm coming back, you're wrong.
So life's like the tower of God,
We're always trying to reach something but we don't notice our friends fade.

We're flawed, a mistake,
Stabbed in the back, let the head float down the lake.
Until we rise up back again,
Just to see their faces fill with shock and break.

A loose end, that's me,
Chuck me to the ground and bury me 6 feet deep.
Until the worms come invade my flesh,
Stop my heart again, just let me rest.

There's no sleep for the weak,
And that's life for you; if you stop, you get knocked off your feet.
Slip, head hits the ground, you see stars,
Pull it back, I didn't think this far.

Let the rain hit and burn my skin,
I didn't understand, I just can't win.
It's like everything's out to get me,
We push so hard but still return empty, damn.

With a shameful look on your face,
Every day it feels like I'll be replaced
By you, and your friends they choose
To hate me, yeah, to...

(Broadus)

Wh-Where is the bullet to break, break
Bullet to break 
Wh-Where is my stomach for change, change
Stomach for change 
I-I-I could be held point blank, blank
Held point blank  
And still never take the blame, blame 
‘Ver take the blame 

Wh-Where is the bullet to break, break
Bullet to break 
Wh-Where is my stomach for change, change
Stomach for change 
I-I-I could be held point blank, blank
Held point blank  
And still never take the blame, blame 
‘Ver take the blame

Florist Ft. Broadus

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(Rivilin)

I need a medic, trapped under rubble, feel like they don't get it
At the same time, I don't want to look pathetic
Reaching out for help, but they think it's poetic
Wishing for a bullet to the brain, yeah, fuck, I said it

Always try to explain that it's more than sleep I'm chasing
But life just wants to dangle me around like I'm a plaything
Set the house ablaze, I guess this fire I am embracing
Until my skin just turns to charcoal, I'm not worth saving

So what have I done?
Feel the needles enter my gums.

I just hate me, erase me,
Put a Glock to my temple, no, I don't want you to save me.
Break me and change me,
If I look into the mirror, will I know, yeah, who will face me?

(Broadus)

You don’t understand my motives
Told me I’m a waste of space 
Pulling out the vice grips 
but I’m out pacing my pain 

See I’m living for a mission 
Can’t build up without attrition 
Separate all the repression 
to force out the contradictions 

Never back down never what 
Give up 
Call my bluff I prove em wrong 
Ignite the character created with the flaws 

Success or death is all that’s left for me 
Stressin heavily 
Time to test my tensity 
A savior was never an option 

(Rivilin)

I just hate me, erase me,
Put a Glock to my temple, no, I don't want you to save me.
Break me and change me,
If I look into the mirror, will I know, yeah, who will face me?

i can't take this any longer

coldinthesun