lyrics:

i'm losing my own mind 
somebody please come help me
i don't think im fine
you got so lost inside my eyes 
you keep on staring i don't have much time

found somebody who would love me
never angry 
got you're so ugly
you hated my own guts that's what you said 
when we we're all alone in bed

filled my heart with all of your lies
filled my brain up head in the skies

bottled up emotions
you have no idea where i've been
lost my trust to you then
got your name right in my head

seeing you dead brings me joy
i can't even hear your voice

i'm losing my own mind 
somebody please come help me
i don't think im fine
you got so lost inside my eyes 
you keep on staring i don't have much time

found somebody who would love me
never angry 
got you're so ugly
you hated my own guts that's what you said 
when we we're all alone in bed

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Produced by holdmetillicry and coldwntr
Vocals mixed by holdmetillicry
Lyrics:

@holdmetillicry
you make me wanna die
you make me wanna die
i think ill kms
cause my whole life is a lie
commiting suicide
and i dont even know why
cuz i just wanna feel something instead of rot

the way u drive me crazy
dont think ill live at 80
girl i just want ur love but u been acting shady

and girl im sorry that i forgot to take u out
but im a loser , sit online , what i write about
ill cut my wrists just watch me bleed i wont make a sound
i think ill kms tonight and im sorry 

@coldwntr
swear ur Love drives Me crazy
swear I want Ur Love so badly
Dont know what it'd take for you to like me back
I'd give you my life, I wont ever look back
You seem to not care latelyyyyyy 
i know u dont notice meeeeeee :///
Visions of what we Could Beeee<#33
just know that For You Id bleed

@holdmetillicry
and i can't work at all
baby i just wanna lay in bed zzz
i took 20 fucking pills to get you right outside my head
but it didn't even work, so i just think of you again
i think ill kms tonight and im sorry 

you make me wanna die
you make me wanna die
i think ill kms
cause my whole life is a lie
commiting suicide
and i dont even know why
cuz i just wanna feel something instead of rot

(ALL PLATS) for you, i bleed w/ coldwntr

blame it on you

never finishing prob just trying new stuf
prod me

waste my summer in no time
ill leave this whole world behind
my life means nothing to me
2 more months its getting boring

next summer (demo)

single while u guys wait for my ep
(got inspired to make this from a yt beat i produced this tho)
lyrics:
chorus:
Lately ive been feelin useless
Nothing seems to go my way
But i gotta suck it up
Cus nobody gaf
Even when i feel like i wanna quit

verse:
all my life just filled with lies i dont wanna do this anymore
always mad or always sad i keep on going but just what for?
always seem to wonder whats wrong with me
my friends dont stay they always leave
and i always seem to wonder why im so naive
this worlds not real its make believe

chorus repeats then solo

degenerate

https://open.spotify.com/album/0yUJgkExQ2wON5yiQzu1gc?si=DZtw7NSUQJO6Sgf3AbtatQ

prod. me
@naerobi

I’ll drive as far as 
i can go
while my heart says
i love you so
why cant life be 
much easier tho
i cant keep on going 

i wont lie
like you do
cuz time from time
i miss you
your touch you smile
i’ve been through 
so much worse

I’ll drive as far as 
i can go
while my heart says
i love you so
why cant life be 
much easier tho
i cant keep on going 

@coldwntr

Why am i stressed without you
Always sad dont know how ill get through
What comes next? Im not sure what ill do
Wasting time, cant stop thinking of you

I’ll drive as far as 
i can go
while my heart says
i love you so
why cant life be 
much easier tho
i cant keep on going

i can't keep on going w/ coldwntr

prod me 

@coldwntr
why am I afraid to talk to you?
your eyes so bright it strikes a mood
idk when 2 make my move
so ill just sit and think of you X2

@humanendeavour
im so obsessed, obsessed
SOS your the prettiest
im just a mess, a mess
why do you want someone hideous
im so stressed, stressed
i cant take anything serious
your just a guest, a guest
you dont have to be mysterious X2

so obsessed w/ humanendeavour

losing myself

prod me

why should i try if im never missed?
she treats me like i dont exist
im drained of my thoughts i just cant get through
cause i feel insecure when i think of you

What dont you see in me?
The thought of you just cuts so deep
i've tried so hard, im starting to think
my feelings dont mean anything

stop stop it hurts me
I want you so badly
there's so much things that i couldve said,
i regret it now, i was a little bit scared

What do you not see in me?
The thought of you just cuts so deep
i've tried so hard, im starting to think
my feelings dont mean anything x2

my feelings dont mean anything

your perfect girl

better dead

everything prod me
talk to me dc -> coldwntrr